Finn was in the library again, as he was often lately. He was stuck in a book and I was staring at him, my eyes tracing the outline of his arm muscles which I could see clearly through his shirt.

At first, he didn’t notice because he was so wrapped up in his research. So I kept looking, taking in his physique, allowing myself to fantasize about his body…

It was a mistake because he did eventually notice. And when he looked up, he looked suspicious of me.

“What?” I asked.

“Were you just… checking me out?” he asked.

My eyes went wide and my heart was pounding in my chest. I should’ve known this was coming… all those times he’d caught me glancing at him, he never seemed suspicious that I was into him. But it was only natural that at a certain point he’d figure it out. He wasn’t going to be oblivious forever.

“No, no, of course not—” I began to stutter.

“Don’t lie to me,” he insisted. “I can tell, you were checking me out. I know what it looks like when someone is attracted to me.” He pushed back his soft red hair and my breath quickened.

“Finn, seriously, it wasn’t like that, I was just distracted and—”

“Distracted by me, because you’re attracted to me,” he insisted.

I couldn’t believe he was being so bold in questioning me. It was so unlike Finn. Had I really pissed him off by staring? Was that why he was interrogating me in this way?

“I really didn’t mean to—”

He cut me off again. “It’s fine. You know why?”

This sudden shift in the conversation caught me off guard. “No… why?”

“Because I’m incredibly attracted to you too,” he said, staring me seriously in the eyes.

I felt butterflies in my stomach. “Wait… you are?” I asked.

He nodded. “I really, really am.”

“But… you’ve never said anything and… you’ve always hooked up with women.” This didn’t seem possible.

“So?” he asked. “Have you not always hooked up with women?”

I supposed that was true, I’d never been interested in men before either. This was just as weird for me as it was for him.

“You’re really into me, seriously?” I asked.

“I really am.”

We stared at each other for a moment, our eyes not shifting anywhere, and our hands seemed to move closer to each other all on their own. I wasn’t willing myself closer but I was thinking about how good his lips looked right now and it was like my body was just inching forward on its own.

When our lips touched, it was like those butterflies in my stomach exploded. His lips parted mine and his tongue found his way into my mouth. I loved the way it slid over mine, he tasted divine… just like I always imagined he would…

You’d think we’d spend a lot of time kissing, considering we never had before and this was a huge first step in our relationship. But I couldn’t really focus on continuing to kiss when I felt my cock tingling in my pants. I was already horny just thinking about how far we could take this, about how I’d wanted him so long.

And it truly had been so long…

My hand drifted to the hem of his shirt. I grabbed the bottom of it, beginning to pull upwards. Even though he had openly kissed me, I was still scared for some reason to see his reaction. I wasn’t sure if this was going to be the action that took things too far.

So I was really pleased when he didn’t seem to mind. In fact, he instinctively lifted his arms up and I pulled my mouth away from his for only a moment to take the shirt off entirely.

It took me a minute to draw my lips back to his after this because I caught of glimpse of his body and… wow. I mean, it wasn’t exactly new to me. I’d seen it before. We’d changed in front of each other before.

But I’d never gotten to take it all in back then. I went to great lengths to not make eye contact with him, to not stare too long, so he wouldn’t suspect anything. I didn’t want my attraction to be obvious.

So this was the first time I could truly take him in unabashedly. I memorized every little mountain on his abs. I ran my fingers over the small hills as my hand began to get lower and lower, until I had reached his pants.

He knew I was going to strip him down and responded by putting his hands to the buttons on my pants as well.

I pulled his down quickly, taking his boxers down too, and was in awe when I finally saw his erect cock.

If I hadn’t been sure that I was attracted to him before, I was damn sure now. I could feel my own cock tingling with anticipation as I simply looked at him. There was no denying it anymore… I was so into him.

Apparently, he was into me too because I saw him staring at my cock too. His mouth was hanging open and I had to smile as I realized he was attracted to me as I was to him.

I put my hand on his cheek and began to kiss him again. He kissed back but pushed me toward the desk. I sat on it as he rubbed his hands up and down the front of my body, stopping when they got to my cock, which he took in both hands.

I sighed into his mouth, overtaken by feeling of his hands on me. But just as he was about to rub up and down on my hard dick, we heard an alarm and both pulled away.

“What was that? What’s going on?” he asked nervously.

“I don’t know,” I admitted.

My mind immediately went to that weird fog we’d found. Was there some emergency now happening because of it?

But, no… That didn’t sound like any kind of emergency alarm. I knew the sound, but I couldn’t quite place it at first. And then I realized…

It sounded exactly like the alarm I used to wake up everyday before work.

I jerked awake.

It took me a minute to understand that what just happened hadn’t been real. In my haze of sleepiness, the memories were vivid in my mind. He had been right there… we were touching…

But we weren’t. And when I realized it was merely a dream, my heart sank as disappointment overtook me.

I finally thought it was going to happen, that things I dreamed about with Finn were becoming a reality. I was horrified to find out that wasn’t true at all.

There was only one feeling that was stronger than my disappointment, however… my horniness.

That dream had me all riled up and I had the most massive boner. I could see it pitching a tent under my comforter.

I absolutely had to take care of that.

I let my hand slide down underneath my covers and feel my raging hard cock under my boxers.

My mind immediately drifted to the dream. Thus far, I’d really avoided masturbating to Finn quite well. I didn’t want to do it because I didn’t want to cross a line, even if it was privately. It felt weird to masturbate to thoughts of my best friend.

Except I didn’t care about how weird it was now. I was too caught up in my dream as my hand began to slowly rub up and down my cock.

As I slid it out of my boxers I thought about how Finn had ripped my pants off. My mind drifted to thoughts of the way his lips felt on mine…

Before long, all I could do was dream of kissing him. I mean, that was exactly what I’d done, of course, but since it was so vivid I felt like I actually had. Like I knew what it felt like to have his lips against mine. And it felt incredible, the most electric kiss I’d ever endured.

I began to grip my cock tightly, though not too tightly. I wanted the skin to glide effortlessly up and down my shaft. Which it did, and I let myself continue to be consumed with thoughts of Finn.

I didn’t care if I’d feel guilty about it later. I was too obsessed with the thought of his naked body to care. He looked so good I could’ve licked him from head to toe.

I imagined doing just that. I could get on my knees and take that massive cock of his into my mouth, licking it from balls to tip. I imagined the way he might throw his head back in pleasure. Possibly grip my hair in the process, unable to balance himself as I slurped away on his erection.

Though that did make me think about him slurping me back. Maybe I could throw him back on the desk and climb up sixty-nine style. I’d put my head at his cock and mine would be at his head. We could suck at each other, both trying to focus through the pleasure. I wondered how it would feel to have him moaning on my cock as I sucked on his.

It normally took me longer than a few minutes to orgasm when I was touching myself but right now, I was about to explode and I felt like I barely got started. Which was a disappointment considering I wanted to lay here and think about the ways I could get dirty with Finn all day.

I began to quicken my pace on my cock as I felt my balls begin to tense up and pulse. I knew what that meant. I was going to blow my load at any second.

And as I did, I thought about blowing it into Finn’s mouth. Hell, maybe he could blow his load into my mouth too. I groaned out as I thought about our imaginary simultaneous orgasm and the way his cum would feel sliding down my throat as I swallowed every last bit.

That was the filthy thought that pushed me over the edge and I shot my load right onto my comforter. It was a pretty big mess but in the moment, I didn’t much care. I was overwhelmed with the intense feeling of satisfaction. I hadn’t cum like that in a long, long time.

But it didn’t take long for that feeling of pleasure to fade away as guilt set in.

Shit, what exactly had I done?

I couldn’t keep doing this. I couldn’t keep fantasizing about a life with Finn. It was getting worse. I had never had a sex dream about him before, never allowed myself to masturbate to thoughts of him. He was my friend, that was all he wanted to be, and I was just making this crush worse.

Though crush felt like a light word for it.

Still, despite me berating myself for thinking about Finn in the first place, I couldn’t control myself. My mind drifted to thoughts of Finn as my omega…

Finn wasn’t an omega, I knew that. He didn’t identify that way, that much had been made very clear to me.

Still, I couldn’t help but thinking that he acted like an omega. More importantly, that he acted like he could be my omega. He was perpetually there for me, always checking in and doing what he could to comfort me in hard times.

Though that could just be him being a good friend, right? That was all it was. I was reading far too into this.

I didn’t have time to think about it further because I got a text on my phone from my commanding officer, Camden. It was a group text telling us that he was holding an emergency meeting and we all had to be on site within the hour.

I sighed as I got out of bed, taking my blanket to my washing machine and getting it started before I got ready to go to work.

I arrived about twenty minutes later. Though he said within the hour, I knew that everyone would arrive within thirty minutes. Being on call and ready to go was what we were trained to do. And sure enough, at the thirty minute mark, everyone had piled into the conference room.

Including Finn, though he was last to show up. I wondered why, he was usually pretty punctual. He had a flustered look about him and for a moment I wondered if he knew I had dreamed about him last night.

I quickly realized how stupid that was and internally scoffed at the thought. Finn was smart but he wasn’t psychic, what the hell was I thinking? Whatever he was looking worried about had nothing to do with me.

It was hard to peel my eyes away from him but when our commanding officer began to speak, I forced myself to pay attention to him instead. I still occasionally glanced at Finn across the way from me.

“Gentleman, I’m holding this emergency meeting today to discuss the anomaly we recently discovered. I and our team of scientists are highly alarmed after discovering this morning that the anomaly is growing wider.”

There were whispers around the room, the nervous whispers of men who didn’t quite understand this and had no idea what to do.

One man, Joseph, raised his hand to ask something.

“Yes?” Camden asked him.

“Since it’s getting wider, is it no longer a perfect circle?” he asked.

Camden shook his head. “Actually, it continues to be a perfect circle. That is part of what’s so alarming to us.”

A man seated next to Camden who I didn’t immediately recognize rose up and introduced himself.

“I’m the leading geologist on the case and I can tell you that we have no precedent for this kind of event. It’s nothing like anything we’ve ever seen before.”

Camden continued. “We are going to have double the men on this anomaly around the clock. Until we figure out what this is, we’re classifying it as highly dangerous. Nobody is to get to close to it. We have experts taking samples of the area in an attempt to determine what is going on.”

Without warning, Finn suddenly stood up and all eyes were on him.

“Yes?” Camden asked impatiently.

“I… I think I might have some idea of what this is,” he began to stutter out.

Both Camden and the geologist stared at each other blankly, confused.

Finn continued as he pulled out a large, leather book.

“I’ve been doing a lot of research… non stop research, actually, and while I was in the library yesterday, I read this fascinating piece of information—”

Camden interrupted him. “The Complete History of Magical Events?” he scoffed. “Is that what’s written on the front of that book?”

Finn looked down at the title. “Well, yes, but—”

“Oh, no, we don’t have time for this,” the geologist butted in. “I think it’s pretty clear that this is not magic. We need to focus on the real possible risks. Whether this is a naturally occurring event or some kind of chemical warfare—”

“But I’ve found a real possibility!” Finn argued emphatically. “If you’d just let me—”

“Enough,” Camden stopped him, “as he said, we don’t have time for this. This isn’t magic, and I’m disappointed one of my guard would even bring that up as a possibility. I thought I’d trained you all up better than that, to think more critically than that.”

Finn looked immediately hurt. My heart broke.

“Now, wait a minute,” I began to speak up for him, “we already know that this event has never occurred naturally in history or your scientists would have some kind of reference to it. I’ve never heard of chemical warfare like this so isn’t there a possibility it’s something we’ve never considered before?”

Camden looked absolutely furious with me. “You can leave.”

“What?!” I asked, shocked.

“You are excused, the both of you.” He waved us off. “I do not have time for this, none of us do. If you insist on wasting time in this meeting with crackpot ideas, you can leave right now. Goodbye.”

I wanted to argue further but part of our guard training was learning to take an order when it was given to you. Both Finn and I exited quietly and undramatically.

Though as soon as we reached the hallway, Finn let his emotions show. He looked exasperated as he collapsed onto a nearby bench.

“Look, I’m sorry about that,” I told him.

He looked up at me. “Are you really? Because I’m not so sure you believe me either.”

I had to admit that this magic thing felt like kind of a reach to me. But then again, calling this a natural event or chemical warfare felt like a reach too.

“I’m not sure what it is but I think magic is as good a possibility as any,” I told him, “and I certainly disagree with Camden. I don’t think that you suggesting it could be magical is any reflection on your ability to think critically.”

He let his head fall into his hands as he sighed and I sat next to him, instinctively putting a comforting hand on his back.

“It’s just… I did more research and I’ve found even more evidence. I swear, this is magic. I feel it in my bones, I know it when I critically analyze, the research corroborates my intuition. But I don’t see how I’m going to get anyone to believe me.”

“I believe you,” I said without thinking.

He glanced my way, his head still in his hands. “Do you really?”

I nodded slowly. “I trust you. I know how intelligent you are. If you’re this sure that it’s magical then… it is.” I gently rubbed his back.

This was a lot closer physically than we usually got. We hung out all the time but rarely did we touch each other. I didn’t usually have a reason to touch him. It wasn’t like he often needed comforting.

But I was surprised by how right this physical closeness felt. Even though I was supposed to be the one comforting him I found myself calmed by the touch.

I never wanted to take my hand off of his back.

Even though I didn’t often comfort Finn, I had in the past, and it had been nothing like this. This felt somehow… special. There were actual feelings attached to touching him right now.

And not platonic ones.