Chapter Fourteen
Rebecca
The drive home was silent. I fidgeted in the comfortable seat. Something flowed between us since that kiss. I felt it all night long and felt distracted by Austin as I glanced over at him.
He was gorgeous. I smiled and looked down, feeling nervous being alone with him. It brought me back to the first date when he pulled up in front of my parents. I wondered if he was going to kiss me goodnight.
Tonight, we were adults on our own. He was taking me to the same house, but everything else was different. Dark buildings flashed by me. I got more worked up inside with every mile. I knew what I was feeling inside; what I wanted. I just couldn’t tell him all of that. I just wanted to feel a little of Austin tonight to get me through the nights when he was gone.
He parked in my driveway and opened the door for me. I loved when he took my hand to take me to the front porch. He leaned back against the door to stare into my eyes. I never wanted a man more as I gazed back at him.
“Thanks for taking me over there,” I whispered.
He held my hand tight, lifting it to his mouth to kiss my skin gently. “I’m glad she asked you to come. They loved having you over again.”
Austin smiled and moved his hand around my back to pull me against him for a long, sweet kiss. I wrapped my arms around his neck and pulled his face closer to mine. We both moved to deepen the kiss as the cool wind picked up around us, lost to the sensation of our tongues dancing together under the light of the porch.
I clung to him, and he kissed me again, moaning softly against my mouth.
“Come inside,” I urged him before he claimed my mouth again in a hungry kiss.
“Keys,” Austin murmured.
I fumbled in my small purse for the key ring. I handed it to him, wrapping my arms around his waist as he unlocked the door and pushed it open. He walked us both inside before closing the door and turning the lock.
Austin pressed me against the door and kissed me roughly, pinning me with his hands around my hips. I felt the difference in his lips now and sensed the need that we shared. I pressed my body against his, tasting him as my hands ripped through his hair, soft and thick between my fingers.
I knew that I loved him as the kiss continued, but I couldn’t tell Austin that. This was just tonight, or for this visit at best, before he’d leave me again. My heart might break into even smaller pieces, but I couldn’t find the strength to push him away from me.
Austin pulled away from me. I found my breath and stared at him. “Do you have regrets in life?” I asked him softly.
His eyes burned with desire and something else as he breathed in a few times. “Of course. I think that regret is sometimes what pushes a person forward. It’s a lesson to be learned.”
I smiled weakly, knowing what I wanted to ask him next. “What is your biggest regret in life?” I whispered.
He gazed tenderly at me for a second. “It will always be losing you,” Austin told me with a tremor in his voice. He kissed me again.
I moaned into his mouth. He slipped his hands down easily to cup my ass. His tongue plunged into my mouth, and I arched against him.
We parted long enough to get our jackets off and on the floor before I lifted his sweater. My thighs ached as he effortlessly slid it over his head, revealing a fitted t-shirt underneath.
I jumped at him again. “I want you, Austin.” My hands went to his pants, and he kissed me harder, lifting me and taking me down the hallway.
“Are you still in your room?” he asked against my lips, his breath labored.
“I took over the master,” I replied with a laugh. It felt like we were going to have sex in my parents’ room. Austin silenced me with his lips as he stepped through the door to the room, dropping me on the bed.
He stared down at me. “I can’t wait to taste you again,” Austin said.
He dropped to his knees on the hardwood floor in front of me. I felt his hands on my calves before he pushed the skirt up, making me gasp. This was a different start than any time before, but we were different people now. This was what we both wanted. He reached for the lace underwear I wore, pausing for a long moment to inhale me.
I shivered. “Austin,” I said in a garbled voice as he pressed his face against me. “I need you… I need to come.”
“You will. I am going to make you scream my name as many times as I can. It’s been too long.” Austin finally stripped me of the barrier before he took a long look at me. “So fucking beautiful.” His finger stroked me apart. “You’re so wet for me.”
“Always,” I murmured. He found my clit and circled it idly. My body started to burn. “Oh, God.”
Austin spent a long time getting to know me again with his mouth. He was skilled now with the use of his hands and mouth. He brought me so close to the edge a few times before I begged him to give me a fucking release.
Austin chuckled and slid two fingers inside of me. Then he sucked my clit between his teeth. I rocked forward, crying out with the force of the orgasm as he plunged deep inside, stroking every surface. Austin kept the orgasm going with every movement. By the time I was done, I was shaking and weak.
“What was that?” I asked in a whisper.
He kissed my inner thighs gently. “Magic. It’s always felt like that with you.” He stood slowly, removing his clothes, and dropping beside me. I knew we weren’t done, and a surge of adrenaline filled me as I looked over at him.
“Will you stay with me?” I asked him.
He smiled slowly. “I was planning on it.”
I smiled and sat up slowly to work the dress off, feeling him watch every movement. I blushed. I didn’t look exactly like the girl he’d left behind, but I took decent care of myself. Austin, on the other hand, was sculpted and fit. He clearly took care of himself.
I knelt before him in my black bra. I took a deep breath, looking him over. I wanted to memorize all of this so I’d have something when he left. God, I didn’t even want to think about that.
“You’re perfect,” I told him.
He reached out to stroke my cheek. “So are you. Nobody can hold a candle to you, Rebecca.” His hand moved down, unclasping the front of my bra in a practiced move that made me gasp.
“You’ve been with such beautiful women,” I said.
He shook his head. “I don’t give a shit what anybody looks like on the outside. You have the most beautiful heart that it makes you stand out above anyone else who I’ve seen. Don’t you know how beautiful you are?” Tears stung my eyes. He moved to sit before me, leaning in for a sweet kiss as he slipped the bra down my shoulders. “I have always thought so, Rebecca. I don’t know why it took so damn long to be together in the first place.”
“Kinsey,” I said, making him laugh. Austin was into a cheerleader before we started dating, and I never let that go.
“I was a fool,” he said. He pulled me into his lap, moving against the pillows. Our lips met in hungry kisses.
I moved as close to him as I could, eating away at his lips. My taste was still there, and I was fascinated with how sweet it was. This idea never appealed to me before, but now I wanted to do everything with Austin. I wanted to feel him everywhere.
His cock was hard as I pressed against him, sliding my clit along the ridge. I deepened our kisses, still wanting so much more. He slipped his hands down easily to cup my ass and stop my movement. “I am going to come this way if you don’t fucking stop. Your wet pussy feels too good.”
Dirty talk used to make me feel shy and uncertain, but now we both felt the rush of heat that my body responded with. I imagined something in my head and pulled away, reaching down to stroke him with my hand. Austin looked like he was in pain. He let out a ragged breath. He was still big, something I remembered well, and I scooted back on the mattress as he stared at me. “Rebecca, what are you doing?”
“I’m not a kid anymore,” I told him as I moved down to swirl my tongue around his tip slowly, making him slip one hand into my hair. I’d done this when we were together before, but hesitantly. Maybe I knew that he wasn’t going to be around forever and didn’t feel safe giving myself fully to him. I wasn’t even sure that I wouldn’t regret this, but I wanted Austin. I slid down him, taking his thick length in my throat slowly. He was large, and I sucked around him. He groaned. I tasted myself and Austin with every movement. He was close to release, and I moved up and down his body. I lifted my ass into the air for a better angle.
“Fuck me, Rebecca. You feel so good.” Austin tangled both hands into my hair, releasing the clasp as he gripped me hard. He rose with me, meeting my mouth with slow thrusts. “I want to come inside of you. Are you on anything?”
“Still on the pill, so life is a little easier.” I wasn’t referring to sex since I’d only slept with one guy since Austin left. He wasn’t here anymore, having been one of the people who were forced to move. Liam always felt like a mistake to begin with. I knew that Austin understood I was referring to bad periods. He was the one who suggested the idea, though he was pleased with the idea of dropping the use of condoms as well. I wasn’t so sure about that now with all the women I’d seen him with. “Are you clean?”
“Yes. The media makes me look worse than I am, Rebecca. I haven’t slept with all those women you’ve seen. There’s been some, but I’m always careful. Always.” I finally lifted my head and looked into his eyes, seeing the sincerity of his words. “With them, I never felt the way you make me feel.” Austin pulled my head close to his for a long, deep kiss. I felt the emotions in it, knowing that my own were a tangled mess inside. When he pushed me back and hovered over me, I looked down between us. I never thought that I’d see this again. He paused at my entrance.
“Make love to me,” I whispered.
He slid home. I wrapped my legs around him and felt his mouth on mine. He filled me, pausing to let me adjust to him. I felt so complete, and part of me wanted to cry as I slipped my arms around his neck.
“So tight. So perfect.” Austin eased back and plunged forward.
He filled me again, and I moaned. We moved together after a few thrusts, our bodies rocking together. I felt him stroke me right where I needed him.
“Austin,” I croaked. Something washed over me, sending me over the edge as he held me. He started to move again, hard and fast for a few more thrusts. I cried out. He filled me with a low groan.
I knew that I was complete at this moment, and it scared the shit out of me.