Chapter Ten

 

* JULIA *

 

I shivered, but not because I was cold. I shivered because Logan’s lips on mine, and his hands on my body, were the most wonderful thing I’d ever felt. I couldn’t contain the rush of happy emotions that surged through me. It seemed strange that I’d hated Logan only an hour earlier.

But I hadn’t known who he truly was. I’d never given him a chance, and I felt somewhat ashamed of that. I had always tried to be an open minded person, but I realized now that I’d judged him from the moment he first walked into my café. He’d been trying from the beginning to tell me that he was so much more than his last name. I was finally listening.

I was vaguely aware that the storm outside still raged, but I didn’t care anymore. Decaf was safe, thanks to Logan, and I was safe as well, if a bit drenched. But I hardly noticed my wet clothes. There were too many other amazing things to notice.

Like Logan’s tongue, pushing past my lips and into my mouth, hungrily reaching for my tongue. The hint of stubble on his cheeks tickled at my face, and the palms of his hands cradled my cheeks. I was on fire in a way I never had been before. I wondered if this was the night I would finally know what it felt like to have a man inside of me.

I felt nervous. What would he say if he knew I’d never done this before? Would he think I was a child, unworthy of his attention? Would he pull back and move on to the next girl? I was pretty sure that a man like him could have pretty much any woman he wanted.

I was going to have to decide quickly how I was going to handle this. His hands were sliding down from my face now, and reaching to tug the hem of my tank top up and off my body.

“Wait!” I yelped. Great. I probably sounded like a frightened chipmunk. A half-drowned frightened chipmunk. I must look like such a mess right now, with my wet hair in complete disarray and my makeup completely washed off my face.

“What’s wrong?” he asked, his voice deep with concern. “If you’re not ready for this…I don’t want to make you uncomfortable. But I’ve never wanted anyone as much as I want you right now. And I have to say, an erection inside a drenched pair of jeans is horribly uncomfortable.”

He chuckled and nodded down toward his crotch. I followed his gaze without thinking about what I was doing, and then I gasped. His jeans were tented up by a huge erection. I didn’t have much experience with this sort of thing, but I was pretty sure that most men were not that big. The sight of him, so excited for me and my body, made me both more nervous and more excited at the same time. I could feel the hot juices of my own desire oozing out from between my legs. My panties were soaked, and it wasn’t just from the rainwater. Still, despite how turned on I was, I felt afraid. I had been waiting for a chance like this for forever, and now that the chance was here I was panicking.

“Julia? Talk to me? I’m not going to force you to do something you don’t want to do. But I know you want me, too. I can see desire written all over your face.”

“I do want you. It’s just that…oh god. This is so embarrassing.”

“What is it? You can tell me anything.”

I took a deep breath and looked up at him, my cheeks flaming hot with a mixture of passion and nerves. “I’ve never done this before.”

For a moment, he looked confused. “You’ve never…”

“I’ve never had sex,” I said flatly. “I’m a virgin.” I couldn’t bear to meet his eyes. What was he going to think? That no man had ever wanted to touch me before?

He let out a long, deep breath, then reached to pull my chin up so that I was forced to look him in the eye. “How is it possible that a woman as gorgeous as you has been prancing around this island in a tiny bikini all her life, and somehow has never been with a man? I know damn well it wasn’t for lack of offers. The local guys here aren’t all blind. They must have been falling all over themselves for the chance to sleep with you.”

I shrugged. “They were. But I wanted my first time to be special.”

His eyes were on fire. I had never seen anyone looking at me so intensely. He stroked the side of my face with his thumb, and I could feel his heat rushing from his body into mine. “I’m not sure the backseat of a car in the middle of the storm of the century is special. But damn, I want you so badly. I want the privilege of showing you how amazing sex can be. I want to make you mine.”

“I think that no matter where we are, giving myself to you would be special.” I trembled as I spoke the words, but if he noticed he didn’t say anything. Instead, his eyes filled with such a tender look that I thought I might cry. I’d been waiting my whole life for someone to look at me like that—like I was the only other person who existed in the world. Like I wasn’t just a prize to be won, but a treasure to be cherished.

“Come on.” His voice sounded impossibly husky. Impossibly hungry. He climbed over the center console of the car and into the backseat with surprising dexterity, then turned to pull me along with him. The backseat of the car was surprisingly roomy. At least, it looked that way compared to the tiny backseat of my coupe. I didn’t have much experience with luxury cars, and I had no idea what kind of car this actually was, but I could tell it was expensive. The soft leather of the backseat felt more comfortable than my bed back in my tiny little beach cottage.

“We’re going to ruin your car’s seats!” I said, feeling suddenly self-conscious about how much water I was getting everywhere, and about what other bodily fluids might be smeared across the seats in the process of my losing my virginity to a billionaire in the back of a car that no doubt cost more than my house.

But Logan didn’t seem at all concerned. He was already reaching once again to pull my tank top off of me, and this time he was determined to finish the job.

“Don’t worry about the car. It’s not even mine, it’s a rental. Trust me: the rental car company will be happy to charge me an overpriced cleaning fee that’s twice what it costs to actually take care of any damage we do. And I’m happy to pay that fee, if it means I get to be with you now. Because I’m sure now that I’m never going to be happy with any other woman. You’re too intoxicating. You’ve ruined me for anyone else.”

“You haven’t even been with me yet. How can you say that?” I could feel my cheeks heating up, and I knew I was blushing.

“I’ve seen your smile. I’ve heard your laugh. I’ve tasted your lips. That’s enough for me to know that there’s no one else like you.”

His hands were moving to remove my bikini top now. He gently reached behind my back and undid the strings, then pulled it off, leaving my breasts bare in front of him. He gazed at them for a moment, shaking his head in wonder.

“My god. You’re perfect.”

He moved his hands so that one was covering each breast. His palms felt so warm and strong, and I could feel my breathing growing even more rapid. I found myself overcome with an urge to rip his clothes off. I had never been the bold, brazen type, who took what she wanted from a man. But I had also never wanted someone as badly as I wanted Logan. I felt different. Like I was more of a woman than I’d ever been before. I reached for his t-shirt and started to pull it off, which wasn’t easy since it was soaking wet and sticking to his skin. He chuckled as I struggled with it, then reached to help me.

When his chest was bare before me, I sucked in my breath at the sight. How was it possible for anyone to be so perfect? His broad ribcage tapered down to a perfect six-pack and just a hint of a v-shape in his muscles that teased me as it pointed toward what waited below his jeans. Everything felt surreal right now. Was I really about to let this male specimen of perfection make love to me? I had never been so glad that I’d held out and waited for the right moment for my first time. No one I’d ever met—local or tourist—had ever compared to the man before me.

“So, where were we?” He reached his hands back to my breasts, using his thumb and pointer finger to squeeze the hard nubs of my nipples. I trembled at his touch, closing my eyes to drink in the hot electricity that ran through my body. I could feel a delicious pressure building in my core, and I couldn’t help but moan. I had always worried that I would be so nervous the first time I slept with a man, but right now I was too blown away by what I was feeling to waste time being nervous.

Logan took his time, slowly moving his hands away from my nipples to make room for his mouth. When he took hold of my hard nubs with his teeth, I thought I was going to cum right then and there. His electric heat spread through my body, radiating out from every part of me that he was touching.

“My god. You’re perfection. I need more.” He let his hands slide down the sides of me, then reached for the button of my jean shorts. “Come now. Let’s get these soaking clothes off of you. We wouldn’t want you to catch a cold.”

He winked at me, and I moaned again. His deft fingers undid the button and zipper of my shorts, then he hooked his thumbs over both the shorts and my underwear and shimmied them down and off together.

“Not fair,” I gasped. “You should be naked too.”

He grinned. “I suppose you’re right. I wouldn’t want to catch a cold, either. I need my strength to pleasure you.”

I reached for the button of his jeans, but I felt like I was all thumbs. I wasn’t sure how I was supposed to be anything even close to coordinated when my whole body was filled with so much ecstasy. Logan laughed and reached down to undo the button himself.

“Let me help you with that.” He stripped out of his jeans and underwear with surprising dexterity for someone who was squashed in the backseat of a car. Yes, it was a large backseat, but still. He took his clothes off with more speed than I had anticipated, and soon I found myself staring at his huge erection with nothing blocking my view.

“You’re huge!” I exclaimed before I could stop myself. I felt an immediate wave of embarrassment. I must sound so naïve and inexperienced. Still, I had never seen anything like the giant, stiff rod in front of me right now. I didn’t have a lot of experience with men’s anatomy, true. But I’d caught glimpses here and there of the local boys when they decided to go on one of their skinny dipping rampages. Logan was definitely a step above anything I’d ever glimpsed. A huge step above.

“It’s all for you, baby,” he whispered. He’d somehow positioned himself kneeling on the floor of the car beside me, and he gently pushed me down so I was lying flat on my back against the luxurious leather.

“Just relax,” he said. He reached one hand up to brush loose, damp strands of hair away from my face, and with the other hand he reached down and cupped my sex.

The nerves I’d been dreading started to appear. What if he didn’t like what he felt? What if I should have gotten a full Brazilian wax instead of just having the salon clean up my bikini line? What if I was too wet? Was he going to think I was too easy to please, like some desperate little girl?

“Hey,” he said in a low, soothing voice. “I thought I told you to relax. Don’t worry. We’ll take things slow.”

I took a deep breath and nodded. The last thing I wanted to do was ruin this moment by getting too much into my own head. I closed my eyes and drank in every glorious sensation that was filling me. In the next instant, he slipped one of his fingers between my folds and deep inside of me. Even his finger felt huge inside of me, and I could tell that it wasn’t going to take long for him to push me over the edge into a full blown orgasm.

“Logan,” I whispered, loving the way his name sounded on my lips. In response, he pushed his finger deeper, searching until he found my g-spot. The moment he touched me there, I sucked in my breath and felt my whole core beginning to tense up. A pressure was building within me unlike anything I’d ever known.

“You like that?” he whispered. “Good, because, there’s more where that came from.”

He leaned forward, placing his lips on mine and letting his tongue once more slip past my lips. His chest pressed down against my breasts, and I felt his heat all over me. The wonderful tingling pressure became too much too bear. I felt connected to him at every angle—his body on my body, his tongue on my tongue, his finger inside the most secret part of me. With a sudden rush of fire, my release overtook me. My inner walls clenched around his finger, and I couldn’t help but arch my back as I tried to contain the waves of pleasure that were washing over me.

“That’s it, baby. Cum for me.” Logan had pulled back from our kiss to look down at me, and to give me a chance to catch my breath. I opened my eyes and met his steel blue gaze as the spasms deep within me continued. He smiled at me until the spasms had subsided, and I let out one last shudder of pleasure. Then he pulled his finger out of me and looked down at it. It was covered in the juices of my desire. With a sly grin, he raised the finger to his mouth and gave it a long, slow lick, as though it was a lollipop.

“Mmm. You taste good.”

I opened my mouth to try to speak, but it was useless. I was too overcome with the heat and ecstasy of the moment to hope to be able to form any words. Outside, the thunder and lightning had abated, but the rain still came down steadily. I closed my eyes and listened to the rhythm of it beating against the glass. I wanted to memorize every part of this moment. Logan had been perfection.

And yet, I wanted more. He had taken me further than any man ever had before, but I knew there was still further to go. And I wanted to know what it felt like to have him inside of me—really inside of me. I wanted his huge erection inside of me, not just his finger.

“More,” I whispered. “Please, more.”

I opened my eyes and looked at him. He traced a line down the side of my face. “I want to give you more, if you’re sure you’re ready.”

“I’m ready. I’ve been waiting for this for so long.” I appreciated that he was trying to be a gentleman, but I was so hungry for him that I was going to push him down and pounce on top of him if he didn’t hurry up.

Luckily, it didn’t look like that was going to be necessary. As soon as I gave him the go ahead, something changed in his eyes. It was as though he let some sort of deep, primal instinct take over. He had a deep, animal sort of hunger in his eyes, and he even let out a low growl as he slid his body to hover over mine.

“Good. I’m glad you’re ready, because I’m going to have you. I’ve known since the first time I saw you that I was going to have you. It was just a matter of time. You’re mine, Julia. You hear me? Mine?”

I could only nod. I was trembling violently now, but I didn’t have the energy to be embarrassed. If he wanted me so badly, and he was going to claim me for himself, then surely he must be happy to see how much he affected me.

I felt the tip of him then, pressing against my slick entrance. I was instantly on fire again, and I could feel my heart beating with the anticipation of what was to come. He pushed a little further, and I could feel myself stretching for him. He was so big. Even though I was soaking wet with desire, he had to move slowly and carefully as he made his way deeper.

He kept going at a steady pace, until he had moved so deep into me that I felt a bit of pain. I sucked in my breath at the sharp sensation, and he paused.

“Are you alright?”

“Yeah. I’m fine. You’re just so big.”

“Don’t worry,” he whispered. “Your body will adjust. We’ll take things slow.”

He waited another second, and then slowly pushed deeper. He was right. My body did adjust. The pain lasted for only a few more moments, and then it was drowned out by the sheer heat and pleasure of having him inside of me. He filled me so completely, going so deep into me that I almost couldn’t tell where he ended and I began. The tingling pressure I had felt when his finger was inside of me began to build once again, only this time the sensation was stronger and more intense.

Once he was fully inside of me, he paused for a moment.

“All good?” he asked. I didn’t even open my eyes. I didn’t dare look at him, for fear that looking into his eyes would instantly send me over the edge into my release again. I wanted to draw this moment out. To relish it. I couldn’t believe how good Logan felt, nestled deep within me. I just nodded.

“Yes. Very good.”

With that reassurance, he began to move. He slid himself back and forth inside of me, rocking his hips slowly at first, and gradually building speed. I knew he was holding back for my sake, but I didn’t want him to hold back any longer. I didn’t even care if it was painful. I just wanted to feel the full force of his passion.

“Harder, Logan, harder. Give me all of you.”

He happily obliged. With a loud growl, he began to thrust back and forth with blinding speed. To my surprise, I felt no pain anymore. Only heat. The hunger in his movements filled me with a blinding heat, and I found myself gasping for breath as the tension within my core built to an impossible level. Only a few seconds passed before I was tumbling over the edge again. I screamed out his name as my body gave itself fully to him. This time, the spasms I felt were even more intense than before. My whole body was on fire, and all I could do was enjoy the warmth of the inferno. Over and over again my inner walls clenched around him. I couldn’t believe anything so wonderful could last this long, but I never wanted it to stop.

“I’m going to cum,” Logan panted, with desperation in his voice. “Should I pull out?”

In response, I wrapped my legs and arms tighter around him. The last thing in the world I wanted right now was for him to pull that glorious dick out of me. I honestly didn’t care what the consequences might be. In that moment, all I cared about was the feeling of being one with him.

Logan thrust hard into me one last time. He steadied himself by pushing one of his hands up against the car window, then let out a giant roar. Deep inside of me, I felt him stiffen and then pulse into me, spilling his seed with each pulse. I held on tightly as my body pulsed right along with his.

A flash of lightning shot across the sky outside, followed almost immediately by a loud thunderclap. It was as though the heavens themselves were celebrating the deep passion that Logan and I were sharing. I smiled and gave myself over fully to the moment. This had definitely been a first time worth waiting for.