8

THE BOOK OF HOURS

IT WAS A TINY stone building with a thatch; Minnie thought it must once have been a lambing shed or something of the kind. The thought made her inhale, nostrils flaring—and she blinked in surprise. There was certainly a smell, but it wasn’t the warm agricultural fug of animals; it was the faint tang of incense.

Mrs. Simpson glanced up at the sun, halfway down the sky.

“You won’t have long,” she said, grunting a little as she lifted the heavy bar from the door. “It’s almost time for None—what she thinks is None. When she hears the bells, she won’t do anything until the prayer is done, and often she’s silent afterward.”

“None?”

“The hours,” Mrs. Simpson said, pushing the door open. “Hurry, if you want her to speak with you.”

Minnie was bewildered, but she did certainly want her mother to speak with her. She nodded briefly and ducked under the lintel into a sort of glowing gloom.

The glow came from a single large candle set in a tall iron stand and from a brazier on the floor next to it. Fragrant smoke rose from both, drifting near the sooty beams of the low ceiling. A dim light suffused the room, seeming to gather around the figure of a woman dressed in white robes, kneeling at a crude prie-dieu.

The woman turned, startled at the sound of Minnie’s entry, and froze at sight of her.

Minnie felt much the same but forced herself to walk forward, slowly. Instinctively, she held out a hand, like one does to a strange dog, presenting her knuckles to be sniffed.

The woman rose with a slow rustling of coarse cloth. She wasn’t veiled, which surprised Minnie—her hair had been roughly cropped but had grown out somewhat; it curved just under her ears, cupping the angles of her jaw. Thick, smooth, the color of wheat in a summer field.

Mine, Minnie thought, with a thump of the heart, and stared into the woman’s eyes. Mrs. Simpson had been right. Mine, too…

“Sister?” she said tentatively, in French. “Soeur Emmanuelle?”

The woman said nothing, but her eyes had gone quite round. They traveled down Minnie’s body and returned to her face, intent. She turned her head and addressed a crucifix that hung on the plastered wall behind her.

“Est-ce une vision, Seigneur?” she said, in the rusty voice of one who seldom speaks aloud. “Is this a vision, Lord?” She sounded uncertain, perhaps frightened. Minnie didn’t hear a reply from Christ on the cross, but Sister Emmanuelle apparently did. She turned back to face Minnie, drawing herself upright, and crossed herself.

“Erm…Comment ca va?” Minnie asked, for lack of anything better. Sister Emmanuelle blinked but didn’t reply. Perhaps that wasn’t the right sort of thing for a vision to say.

“I hope I see you well,” Minnie added politely.

Mother, she thought suddenly, with a pang as she saw the grubby hem of the rough habit, the streaks of food on breast and skirt. Oh, Mother…

There was a book on the prie-dieu. Swallowing the lump in her throat, she walked past her mother to look at it but glanced up and saw the crucifix—it was a rich one, she saw, polished ebony with mother-of-pearl edging. The corpus had been made by another, truer hand, though—the body of Christ glowed in the candlelight, contorted in the grip of a knotted chunk of some dark wood, rubbed smooth. His face was turned away, invisible, but the thorns were carved sharp and vivid, sharp enough to prick your finger if you touched them. The outflung arms were only half freed from the wood, but the sense of entrapment, of unendurable agony, struck Minnie like a blow to the chest.

“Mon Dieu,” she said aloud. She said it in shock, rather than by way of prayer, but vaguely heard the woman behind her let go a held breath. She heard the rustle of cloth and straw—she hadn’t noticed when she came in, but the floor was covered in clean straw—and forced herself to stand quite still, heart beating in her ears, though she longed to turn and embrace Sister Emmanuelle, seize and carry her, drag her, bring her out into the world. After a long moment during which she could hear the woman’s breathing, she felt a touch on her shoulder. She turned round slowly.

Her mother was close now, close enough that Minnie could smell her. Surprisingly, she smelled sweet—a tang of sweat, the smell of clothes worn too long without washing, but incense perfumed her hair, the cloth of her robe, and the hand that touched Minnie’s cheek. Her flesh smelled warm and…pure.

“Are you an angel?” Emmanuelle asked suddenly. Doubt and fear had come into her face again, and she edged back a step. “Or a demon?”

So close, Minnie could see the lines in her face—crow’s-feet, the gentle crease from nose to mouth—but the face itself was a blurred mirror of the one she saw in her looking glass. She took a breath and stepped closer.

“I’m an angel,” she said firmly. She’d spoken in English, without thinking, and Emmanuelle’s eyes flew wide in shock. She took an awkward step backward and sank to her knees.

“Oh, no! Don’t do that!” Minnie cried, distressed. “I didn’t mean it—I mean, Je ne veux pas…” She stooped to raise her mother to her feet, but Emmanuelle had clapped her hands to her eyes and wouldn’t be moved, only swaying to and fro, making small whimpering noises.

Then Minnie realized that they weren’t just noises. Her mother was whispering, “RaphaelRaphaelRaphael,” over and over. Panicked, she seized her mother’s wrists and pulled her hands away from her face.

“Stop! Arrêtez! Please stop!”

Her mother stopped, gasping for breath, looking up at her. “Est-ce qu’il vous a envoyé? Raphael L’Archange? Êtes-vous l’un des siens?” “Did he send you? Raphael the archangel? Are you his?” Her voice quivered, but she had calmed a little; she wasn’t struggling, and Minnie cautiously let go.

“No, no one sent me,” she said, as soothingly as possible. “I came on my own, to visit you.” Groping for something else to say, she blurted, “Je m’appelle Minerve.”

Emmanuelle’s face went quite blank.

What is it? Does she know that name? Mrs. Simpson hadn’t said whether her mother might know her name.

And then she realized that the bells of the distant church were ringing. Perhaps her mother hadn’t even heard her speak.

Helpless, she watched as Emmanuelle got laboriously to her feet, stepping on the hem of her robe and staggering. Minnie made to take the woman’s arm, but Emmanuelle regained her balance and went to the prie-dieu, quickly but with no sense of panic. Her face was composed, all her attention focused on the book lying on the prie-dieu.

Seeing it now, Minnie realized at last what her aunt had meant by “None” and “hours.” The book was a small, elegant volume with an aged green cover, set with tiny rounded cabochon jewels. And as Emmanuelle opened it, Minnie saw inside the glow of beautiful paintings, pictures of angels speaking to the Virgin, to a man with a crown, to a crowd of people, to Christ on the cross…

It was a Book of Hours, a devotional volume meant for rich lay people, made during the last age, with the psalms and prayers intended to be said during the monastic hours of worship: Matins, Lauds, Prime, Terce, Sext, None, Vespers, and Compline. None was the ninth hour—the prayer said at three o’clock in the afternoon.

Emmanuelle’s head was bent over the open book, and she was praying aloud, her voice soft but audible. Minnie hesitated, not sure whether she should leave…but no. She wasn’t ready to say goodbye to her mother—the more so as the woman probably wouldn’t notice her trying to take her leave. Instead, she came quietly to the prie-dieu and knelt down beside Emmanuelle, in the straw.

She knelt close enough that the pink linen of her gown nearly brushed the white habit. It wasn’t cold in the shed, not with the brazier going, but nonetheless she could feel her mother’s warmth and, for just a moment, surrendered to the vain hope she had brought here—of being seen, accepted, wrapped in her mother’s love.

She closed her eyes against the starting tears and listened to Emmanuelle’s voice, soft and husky but sure. Minnie swallowed and opened her eyes, making an effort to follow the Latin.

“Deus, in adjutorium meum intende; Domine, ad adjuvandum me festina…” “O God, come to my assistance; O Lord, make haste to help me…”

As the recitation of the Office of None went on, Minnie joined timidly in the prayers she could read adequately. Her mother took no notice, but Emmanuelle’s voice got stronger, her back straighter, as though she felt the support of her imagined community around her.

Minnie could see that the book was very old—at least a hundred years, maybe more—and then realized with a small shock that she had seen it before. Her father had sold it—or one very like it—to Mother Hildegarde, the abbess of le Couvent des Anges, a hospital order of nuns. Minnie had delivered it to the good mother herself a year or so before. How had it come here?

In spite of the rawness of her own emotions, she found a small sense of peace in the words, even when she didn’t understand them all. Emmanuelle seemed to grow both quieter and stronger as she spoke, and when she had finished, she stayed motionless, gazing up at the crucifix, an expression of the greatest tenderness on her face.

Minnie was afraid to rise, not wanting to disturb the sense of peace in the room, but her knees couldn’t stand much more kneeling on the stones of the floor, straw covering or no. She took a deep breath and eased herself up. The nun seemed not to have noticed, still deep in communion with Jesus.

Minnie tiptoed toward the door, which, she saw, was now open a crack. She could see a movement of something blue through the gap—undoubtedly Mrs. Simpson, come to remove her. She turned suddenly, on impulse, and went back quickly to the prie-dieu.

“Soeur Emmanuelle?” she said very softly, and gently, slowly, laid her hands on her mother’s shoulders, fragile under the white cloth. She swallowed hard, so her voice wouldn’t shake. “You are forgiven.”

Then she lifted her hands and went quickly away, the glow of the straw a blur of light around her.