Chapter 10

 

Meredith

I had had second thoughts about the whole fucking against the tree scenario, largely due to the high possibility of us being caught. I realized I preferred fantasy role play to actually taking chances. Pretending was just as hot when I was with Garrett.

I realized I had a stupid goofy smile on my face. Oh shit, I was really falling for the guy.

My heart warred with my head.

He was nineteen. I should let him be young and youthful and end things, let him sow his wild oats with those cute college girls, he was partying with right then. I wondered how many were hitting on him, whether he flirted back, whether he felt he was making a mistake with me.

What the hell was I doing?

Then his text had arrived and sent me into a panic. Was he coming over to end things? Had he realized from being around his peers that this was crazy? He said everything was okay, but I had not believed him.

Not until he had arrived and told me exactly what I had wanted to hear that he found his peers juvenile and he wanted to be with me. My heart had soared.

And then we had slowly made love. It was intense, and I reached heights I had never reached before. He seemed to know exactly how to read my body and tune it to a mutual frequency.

I had looked at him after I had reached my climax and thought about how beautiful this man was. After which he had told me he loved me.

Thoughts swirled around my brain in a vortex.

He loves me?

We just fucked.

Is that why he said it? Was he on a sex high?

He’s nineteen.

I’m twenty-five.

He loves me?

I think I love him back.

Fuck.

I love him back.

Oh, he’s staring at me. Now he’s moving away.

“I’m sorry, Mer. You’re not ready. I shouldn’t have blurted that out like that. It’s too early.”

“No. No.” I shook my head at him and clutched his bicep. “It’s not. You just took me by surprise is all.”

I grabbed his chin with my fingers and turned his face to look at me.

“Garrett, I love you, too.” I laughed. “This is crazy. I have known you like two minutes.”

“I feel the same.” He smiled. “Maybe what we feel is lust, not love, but I don’t think so. It feels like love to me.”

“Tell me again.” I commanded.

“I love you.” He said without hesitation.

“I love you too.” I told him. My adrenaline was pumping, and I was ready for action all over again. I reached over and wrapped my hand around his dick.

“And I love your cock.”

“I love you holding my cock.”

I put him in my mouth and he pushed his hips towards me. “And I love you mouthing my cock.” He added with a groan as I sucked hard.

When Garrett returned to the Lodge, the next morning he called to tell me Julian didn’t even seem to remember that he had told him to move out.

“He’s just said, ‘hey man, did you get some pussy’.” He told me.

“And I hope you told him the truth,” I laughed.

“I did. I said I scored some real, hot, pussy with an older chick.”

“And what did he say to that?”

“He high-fived me.”

I sighed, “So I guess tonight you need to stay at the Lodge?”

“Yeah, I’ve offered to help tidy up. The place looks like the house was ransacked.”

“Okay, well I’ll miss you, but I’ll get some work prepped and see you tomorrow.”

“I could pop by your classroom after school.”

“You could…”

I spent my lunch with Tana who once again spoke about morning sickness and all the foodstuffs she couldn’t eat, all through the break. She made me feel guilty for tucking into my pastrami on rye but I’d been working up quite an appetite these last few days and needed the calories.

“So how are things with you?” She finally asked. “Anything happening in your love life?”

“Nope.” I told her, wiping my mouth with a napkin.

“Your face has pinked up. I know when you’re lying, I lived with you long enough. Your face used to turn the same color when I would ask if you knew why my Jo Malone Orange Blossom bath oil had gone down. How did your date go with that PT? Anything I should know?”

“There’s nothing to tell.” I took another bite of my sandwich.

“You mean you won’t tell me. I thought we were bff's and told each other everything?”

It had been a long time since I had considered us best friends. Her husband had come along and I was barely given a thought. I didn’t say that to her face though. We had an amicable friendship, and I wanted to keep it that way. If she ever asked me to babysit though I’d be telling her to ‘bite me’.

“Is he married? Is that why you are being all secretive?”

“No.” I decided to offer her something to shut her up. “He’s a couple of years younger than me that’s all. I feel a little embarrassed about it.”

“You’re going to tell me he’s all buff aren’t you? I get it, you’re going to marry him and have babies who grow up to enter the Olympics.”

“You are so crazy, lady. We’re just having fun is all. Lots and lots of…” I emphasized the word, “fun.”

“I’m so jealous,” Tana replied. “I’m too sick to move around having passionate, frantic sex.”

“Yeah, well that’s what got you in this trouble in the first place. I don’t know about lately but you and Don certainly had your moments. I used to have to turn my music way up high.”

Tana sighed. “Those were the days.”

“You sound like you miss them?”

“I kind of do. Don’t get me wrong, I love Don and we are so excited for the baby, but the crazy newness you get with brand new relationships is dulled down. It’s different, and it’s a good different, but I wonder when we’ll get time to stay in bed for three days just sending for pizza in between fucking again.”

I decided that the weekend coming that’s exactly what me and Garrett would do. Friday night until Sunday afternoon, bed and takeout.

“So, how long have you two been together?”

“A month. It’s very new.”

“But you like him a lot?” Tana queried. “I can see it in your expression.”

“I really do,” I told her.

Lunch drew to a close, and I promised Tana I would keep her updated. I would need to get her onto a new baby obsession, like names or what color the nursery was going to be, anything to distract her from my love life. The afternoon was spent teaching class while I looked forward to the end of the day.

I had stayed in the classroom marking while I waited for nearby colleagues and other students to go home. When the coast was clear, I sent Garrett a text to let him know.

The classroom door opened, and he walked inside. I couldn’t help myself, a massive beam of a smile lit up my face and I saw it mirrored in his own expression. He swaggered towards me, his super hot body closing in on mine and those muscled arms wrapped around my body folding me within. He may have been younger, but when we were together, I felt like the young one, in the protection of an alpha male.

“God, I miss you when we’re not together.” He told me. “Days seem to go on forever.”

“Plus, hot sex with your cougar is much more fun than cleaning up empty bottles and vomit.” I winked, looking up at him.

“Ugh, don’t remind me. That’s the joy I shall be returning to, so in this brief interlude, I think you should distract me.”

Pulling him towards a chair, I lowered his pants and boxer briefs, I took his cock in my hand, pumping it until he was hard and ready. I got him to sit on the chair and then I knelt at his feet, taking that huge cock into my mouth. Hell, I couldn’t get enough of him: in my mouth, in my pussy, in my ass. I craved him so damn much. Sucking him until he came down my throat was such a turn on. I could watch his face, his eyes closing as I tongued his dick, could feel his climax approaching. He thrust into my mouth while groans emitted from his own.

“Mer? Are you still here, only I’m feeling faint. Can you-”

We sprang back from each other, the chair scraped against the floor. I wiped across my mouth while Garrett hurriedly put his cock back in his trousers. Then I turned to see the disbelieving face of Tana.

She grabbed the trashcan and threw up in it.

“Garrett, go home.” I told him.

His bulky form towered over me. “No. I’m not ashamed, I’m staying here.”

I touched his arm. “She’s my friend, Garrett, please, and the pregnancy is really taking its toll. I don’t want to put any extra stress on her. I will call you. Please, Garrett…” I looked at him with a pained stare.

“Okay.” His cheek pulsed in anger. “I will expect a call from you, very soon, telling me she’s okay and there’s no problem here.” He stalked away out of the classroom, his posture stiff and muscles rigid. The door banged behind him.

I passed Tana my bottle of water from the desk so she could swill out her mouth.

“You okay?” I asked her.

She swilled out her mouth, spitting it into the can and I took the can from her hands and carried it to the door, leaving it just outside. The smell was like nothing I had ever smelled in my life.

“I saw your light was still on and I felt sick. I was just gonna rest here a minute.” She shook her head. “Fuck, Meredith, a student? You said you met him at the gym.”

“I did, and I had no idea he was a student until it was too late.”

“It’s wrong, Mer. You are years older than him. Not only is it against the college rules but it’s like you are taking advantage of a young student.”

“It’s not like that.” I bristled. “We are in love.”

She turned to me, her face all screwed up. “You are in love with a kid? What is his mother going to say about that do you think when she finds out? You will lose your job, your pride and your self-esteem. It will be lust. God, I bet he is a rampant ride. But when you take away the sex, Mer, what is left? He will want to sow his wild oats and you will want to have kids soon. It is what you always said to me. Kids no later than twenty-seven, you hoped, so you could have two by age thirty.”

I pulled up a chair at the side of her.

“It is not like that. I think he is my one.”

She snorted with laughter at that. “You have been together a month, and no doubt been fucking like rabbits. You are in lust, Meredith, not love.” She shook her head. “I cannot condone this, Mer. It is against the rules for a reason. You are in a position of authority over this student.”

“I don’t teach him. If anything he is teaching me!” I almost yelled. “I am finding out who I really am, what I want from a relationship.”

“It is coercion. Now I am going to be a mom I see things from a different side.”

I lost my temper at that remark. “Oh my God, you act like you are the first person ever to have a baby. You used to fuck anywhere you could for kicks but now you are going to be a mother you have gone all holier than thou.”

She stood up, hands on her hips. “I don’t recognize you right now, Meredith.”

I stared up at her, “Yeah, well I don’t know where Tana White went. She sure hasn’t been around for a while.”

“Tana White went when she got married and became Tana Geller and then got pregnant. I’m a grown up. You are the one acting like a spoiled brat of a child.” She stormed towards the door. “Anyway, you end it, or I report you. It’s as simple as that.”

“And if I don’t?” I challenged.

“Think about your boyfriend’s future if you tarnish his reputation and he is ejected from his course. How will that go down with his parents? Think they are going to welcome you with open arms then?”

She stormed out of the room. The minute she had gone I collapsed to the floor, tears falling and turning into wrenching great sobs.

What the hell was I going to do?

I text Garrett and lied.

Mer: Tana gone. She was shocked but is fine now.

Garrett: You need me to come back to the classroom?

Mer: No. I’m on my way home now. It has been a shock but I am fine.

Garrett: You sure? I will ditch the guys and come over?

Mer: No. Take your part in clean-up. I just want an early night after what happened.

Garrett: She upset you?

Mer: We shocked/upset each other but all good now, we have been friends for a long time.

Garrett: Will she keep our secret?

Mer: Yes, it is all okay.

Garrett: Great. I will see you tomorrow and we will pick back up where we left off.

Mer: Can’t wait.

But it was all lies. I was still upset. Tana and I weren’t okay. She wasn’t going to keep my secret and we couldn’t pick back up where we left off. The more I thought about what Tana had said, the more I saw it from her point of view. What must have entered her mind when she walked in and found me on my knees with a student’s cock in my mouth? I’d gone too far. I’d been taking risks at being caught participating in inappropriate behavior since my times with Marcus and it was time to face up to what I’d been doing.

My decision was made.

It was for the best that I left. Went somewhere else and started afresh. I had no ties to New York. Just old friendships which would never be the same after the harsh words that had been spilled. Both Tana’s and my own lives had moved in different directions. We were no longer friends. It was time to move on.

I couldn’t stand in the way of Garrett’s career. He was all set for a position in the family business. His grades had been dropping because of all the time we were spending together. Plus, he needed a relationship with someone his own age. Tana was right - no matter how much I hated that she was - I was ready for someone to settle down and have babies with. Garrett was at the beginning of intimate relationships. He needed time to see what he wanted in life. To get his career started and see where life took him. I really would be a weight dragging him down.

Dragging a case out from underneath my bed and a large backpack, I began to pack my belongings into them. I didn’t have much, it was mainly clothing I needed to take. Toiletries could be repurchased, so other than some travel sized items and a toothbrush, I emptied everything else into refuse sacks. I loaded up my car with everything that needed to come with me and then I took out a map, decided on a new location and drove. Garrett would be furious I knew, he would text me and demand to find me, but I had to stay strong. He was better off without me. I would start afresh some place else and date men my own age, looking for the guy I could settle down with. I ignored the voice in my head that kept trying to tell me that I had already found him.