Hope
As we ride back toward Sapphire Lake, I can’t tell if it’s Killian’s hard body against mine, or the rumble of the bike which is making my pussy ache bad: bad like it’s begging to be touched. As we skim over the road I can’t help but think about the way he stood up to Lucca, the way he just swaggered over there and jumped over the bar. No man has ever stood up to him like that. Never. I couldn’t even imagine it. Dawn, sure, and me in my own way. But not like that. Killian properly put him in his place. And what’s more, he did it like it was no big deal.
I squeeze into him, feeling his muscles, moving my hands over them.
My pussy roars out for him. My pussy begs for him. My pussy gets so wet that all I want to do is grab his hand and push it down between my legs and feel the strength of him. The same hand he grabbed Lucca with, I think, panting. He’ll use the same hand he grabbed that pervert with. That same strong hand. He’ll make me come with it. He’ll drive me crazy with it. He’ll make me his with it. My tongue is lolling from my mouth, I realize. I force it shut as the bike comes to a stop outside of the lake house.
I wish for Dawn and Patrick to be asleep so we can just do it. This is the horniest I ever remember being. My whole body stings with lust. It’s like they’re itches all over me that just need to be scratched. But I have to remember Dawn. I have to remember her recovery.
Killian and I walk up the stairs and go to Dawn’s room. The door is open. Dawn is sitting up in bed, her white pajamas clinging to her body with sweat, her hair stuck to her forehead, the sheets thrown away. She grips her knees and rocks back and forth. Patrick sits on a stool beside the bed, a damp towel in his hand. As we enter, he’s reaching across to Dawn with it.
He starts and turns as we enter. “Damn, brother,” he says. “You scared me.”
“How’s she doing?” I ask.
“Better,” Patrick says. “I know she seems worse, but she’s better. The drugs are leaving her system. It’s hard, but she’s a fighter.”
“After this,” Dawn pants, “I’m never touching drugs again. Let me tell you.”
I stay quiet. I want to tell her that I believe her, that I know she’ll never touch drugs again, but it’s difficult to believe. Patrick brings the damp towel to Dawn’s forehead and holds it there, smiling sadly at her. For a moment he’s not a tough-as-hell biker, but a bedside nurse.
“Keep thinking like that,” he says.
As we watch, Dawn brings her hand up and touches Patrick’s hand, pressing the towel harder against her forehead. It could be just that she wants to feel the towel with more force, or it could be that she wants to feel Patrick’s hand against hers. I don’t know. But either way, if it helps her get through this, then I’m happy with it.
“Do you want us to take over?” Killian says.
Even now, when all I should be thinking about is Dawn, Dawn’s recovery, making my sister better, my mind strays to the way Killian dominated Lucca, the way he completely and easily put him in his place, the way he defended me. I feel like I need to cross my legs to stop the fidgeting, like when you’re on a long trip and need to pee badly. My clit feels bigger, hotter, a point of pleasure which can’t be ignored. With a considerable effort, I bring myself back to the present.
“It’s your shift,” Patrick says. “We’ve got Gunny and Declan here tomorrow, haven’t we?”
Killian nods, walking into the room. “Go and rest, brother,” he says. “Hope and I will stay here for a while.”
When Patrick takes his hand away, Dawn flinches. “Will you come back?” she whispers.
Patrick nods seriously. “Tonight, after I’ve showered and rested, I’ll be back. I promise.”
She nods quickly.
“Thank you,” I call after Patrick.
I take the damp cloth and sit beside Dawn, holding it as Patrick held it.
“He’s a good man,” Dawn says.
“When he wants to be,” Killian mutters.
For the next three or four hours we sit with Dawn, rubbing down her skin with damp towels, feeding her sugary food, making her take pain medication and anti-allergy medication, helping her ride the warped rollercoaster off addiction and into sobriety.
Then, when the room is dark and lit only by lamplight, Dawn falls asleep, her body a tight ball, her knees drawn to her chest. Patrick appears at the door, freshly shaved and showered. “I’ll sit with her,” he says. “You two can go.”
As quietly as we can, Killian and I rise to our feet and creep to the door. I give Patrick a quick hug. “Thank you so much,” I whisper.
He shrugs, uncomfortable, and then walks toward the bed. “It’s not a chore,” he says. “Feels good to do something good, you know?”
Killian stops at the door and looks back at his older brother. I think he’s going to say something, but then he paces from the room. After a moment, I follow him.
I sit on the couch, wrapped in a blanket, and Killian sits next to me.
“Thank you,” I say into the silence.
“For what?” He turns his head.
I smile at him, shaking my head. “Where do I start, Killian? Thank you for buying my paintings. Thank you for giving me more money than I have a clue what to do with. Thank you for helping my sister. Thank you for standing up to Lucca. Thank you for all of it.”
Killian shrugs. “It’s not a big deal,” he says. “I’m just trying to do what’s right.”
“Not all men would do that. You know, people think the Satan’s Martyrs are animals. But you’re not an animal, are you?”
“I guess that depends what you mean by an animal,” he says, voice low, staring at a mounted bear’s head but not seeing it at all.
“What do you mean?” I ask.
Even seeing him serious like this, pensive, makes me horny. He just makes me horny. His muscular body, his wounded eyes, his vulnerable-yet-strong demeanor which shouts out for somebody to take care of him.
“I had a girlfriend, once,” he says. “Nothing serious. Not like us. We weren’t close like we are, I mean. There wasn’t this . . .” Connection—it hangs in the air, but he doesn’t say it. “Anyway,” he goes on, “she was on the back of my bike. I was taking her home. She lived about eighty miles out of the Cove, and I didn’t want to spend the night with her. Maybe that makes me an asshole, but it wasn’t like us . . . I’m repeating myself, damn.”
He takes a deep breath. When he lets it out, it’s shaky, drawn.
“It’s okay,” I tell him. “You can tell me anything, Killian. You don’t have to be nervous around me.”
He nods, as though my words give him strength. “Okay, so I’m riding her out of town. Goddamn, some asshole left a rock in the road. It was dark. I wasn’t paying close enough attention. When I say rock, I mean a big-ass rock. A boulder. It was twice the size of a bike helmet. I smash straight into this rock and the bike tips over. I thought I was flying for a moment. I couldn’t believe that I’d crashed. Me, crash? It seemed ridiculous. No, I was flying. Then I landed on my shoulder, cracking it, and slid about one hundred feet down the road. I was wearing my jacket, so apart from a few breaks and fractures, I was alright.
“But she . . . Her arms were grazed to hell, grazed so bad the flesh underneath showed through. They gave her morphine in the hospital, and she got a taste for it. Morphine is basically heroin. That’s what one of the doctors told me. It’s a medical type of heroin. Opium. She was never the same after that. Even after her wounds healed, she couldn’t kick the stuff. It destroyed her. It made her into a different person. Drugs, I just can’t . . .” He shivers. “Drugs,” he repeats. “Goddamn drugs. I despise them, really fucking despise them.”
I shrug off the blanket and move up on the couch, and then wrap my arms around him and lean up so that my mouth is close to his ear. “It’s not your fault,” I say. “Don’t blame yourself. Trust me, I know enough about blaming yourself to know where it leads you. Nowhere, that’s the truth. It leads you nowhere and gives you a whole lot of pain.”
He lets his head fall back on the couch. “Yeah, I know,” he says. “You’re right. It’s just always haunted me. Like that,” and he clicks his fingers, “a person goes from a decent person to a bag of shaking bones, begging for their next hit.”
“I know, I know, it’s messed up.” I reach down for his leg, wondering if this is the time—and then killing the thought. All evening I haven’t stopped being horny. And for some reason now he’s opened up to me, I’m hornier. I grab his thigh, high up, near his cock. He takes a deep breath, and his cock gets hard; I can see it clearly through his pants.
That’s it. I’m gone. My pussy cries out to me, begs me not to wait any longer.
“Come with me,” I whisper. “I’ll make you feel better, Killian. I’ll make you feel so much better.”
Our bedroom contains a dresser, a bedside table, a watercolor of a bear stalking through a forest, and a large king size bed with pristine clean sheets. My only interest right now is the bed. I place my hands on Killian’s chest and push him backwards into the room, kicking the door closed with my foot. I’m wild with lust, panting with it. I want him to know how badly I want him, how much I appreciate everything he’s done, everything he’s given. Not just money, but himself. He’s let me look inside of him, and for what he says that’s a rare thing for him.
I push him until the back of his knees hit the mattress. He falls back. And then I snap my hands up and unbutton his jeans, quickly, hungry.
“Damn, Hope,” he says. “You really are—”
His cock springs free, his huge, thick cock. His intimidating cock. A cock bigger than any I’ve seen, or any I’m likely to see. A real man’s cock. It springs up, rock-hard.
I grab the base of it in my hand. My hand looks tiny when I grab it, it’s so big. He cuts off his words and groans with pleasure. This pushes me on. His satisfied groans make my pussy go tight, ache, tingle. My pussy responds to his moans of pleasure, urges me forward. I rub his cock up and down, from base to tip, and then I lean forward and take the tip in my mouth.
It’s huge and I have to open my mouth very, very wide. So wide that my jaws ache. But I don’t let that stop me. I force my mouth open and take the tip of him inside of me, licking it, all while rubbing the base. He reaches down and touches the back of my head.
“Oh, fuck,” he moans, as I go up and down, up and down, like I’m bobbing for apples.
I push my mouth down as far as it will go and feel his cock hit the back of my throat. The sound of my choking fills the room, but so does the sound of Killian’s moaning, so I don’t care. I push down farther, until his cock slides into my throat, and then I pull away, spit and pre-come spilling from my lips.
“Fuck. Fuck. Fuck,” Killian pants. “You’re a sexy whore, Hope. You’re a dirty whore.”
“I am,” I moan, and then take his cock in my mouth again.
I move my mouth up and down, up and down, and rub his base so fast that he must have friction burns. But he moans louder, longer, and in his moans he seems to forget his depression and regret.
“I’m going to come in your fucking mouth,” he growls.
“Mm-mm,” I moan, nodding my head as I suck him. “Mm-mmmm.”
I go quicker, push my mouth down so far that his cock fills me completely, sliding into my throat and choking me. As I pull away, I move my hand furiously up and down, wanking him and feeling the impressive hardness of his cock. And then—
“Oh, damn,” he grunts, holding the back of my head on his cock. “Swallow it,” he says.
His cock pulses, seems to lurch, and then come shoots out of him and into my mouth, warm, salty come. I have never been a fan of the taste—who has?—but with Killian I don’t mind it. Because it’s him I’m doing this for. His cock begins to wilt in my mouth. I swallow his come, every drop, as he moans, as his fingers grow weaker on the back of my head.
Then I stand up and wipe my mouth with the back of my hand.
He smiles sleepily up at me.
“No way,” I grin back.
I throw myself on the bed. “It’s my turn now, Mr. Biker.”
His sleepy smile turns into a wolfish grin. “A pretty lady who knows what she wants,” he says.
Then he slides to the floor and reaches up, grabs the waistband of my jeans, and yanks them away. My underwear comes away at the same time, revealing my pussy. “You have a perfect fucking cunt,” he breathes, staring at it.
Then he pushes his face in between my legs, grabbing my thighs with his strong hands. I close my legs around his head. He licks my clit quickly, a snake’s tongue flickering back and forth, as his hands dig deep into my flesh.
His tongue is an expert’s tongue. No fumbling, no searching. He goes straight to my point of pleasure and uses it, makes it hot and sore, but sore in a sweet way. He licks faster, harder, with more pressure. All I can do is squeeze his face into me and ride the wave of pleasure. Moans pour out of me, high-pitched, helpless moans. I throw myself into the euphoria, this bad boy biker between my legs, making me scream.
And then I let my head fall back, close my eyes, and see red. Just red. Red sheets of pleasure. “Ah, ah, fuck, yes, fuck, Killian, yes.”
He licks me faster. My clit sparks, and the spark becomes an explosion, and soon my clit is blazing with his tongue. Blazing and seeing red, his shadow of a beard tickling my lips, his biker’s hands, callused, gripping my thigh.
“Fuck, fuck, fuck!”
I close my legs tighter, and then it comes. Like a tidal wave, it comes. Spilling out of me.
My body contorts like a woman possessed, I dig my fingernails into the bed sheets, I throw my head back and let out a scream as the orgasm pulses through me, as I come and come and come.
Then it passes, and I’m exhausted.
Killian climbs into bed with me, wraps his arms around me, and in a matter of minutes we’re both asleep, buried deep into each other.