5
EVERYONE STANDING AROUND LUKA WAS OBLIVIOUS, but tension emanated from him and traveled upward in waves at me. I froze on the steps, caught in the act and not sure what to do. Did he want me to come down to him? Should I retreat?
He took the stairs two at a time and reached me swiftly, but managed not to spill the half-full cups of beer he carried. One was thrust at me and I took it, unable to meet Luka’s searing gaze. His overpowering presence caused me to back up until I was against the wall and the banister dug into my side.
“Did you get bored?” His tone was flat and his lips right by my ear. I sensed he knew why I fled the room. Somehow he was completely aware of my deception.
“No, I . . .” I finally dragged my gaze up to match his, and found his eyes furious. “I think maybe I should head home.”
“Yeah?” He moved in so there was no space left between us. “Having regrets about what we did?”
“You mean what you did?” I corrected, and tightened my hold on the railing. Logic told me to shut up and not push him, but I was stupid drunk.
Something dark flared in his expression and he shifted on the stairs, turning his back on the crowd below. It was so he could run his hand under my skirt, up between my thighs, and massage me through my underwear. Right out in the open, where anyone could see, although his broad back blocked most of it from view. I gasped and clutched my cup, making my beer slosh over my hand.
“Are you sore here?” His expression was predatory. “Answer me now.”
I nodded, stunned beyond words.
“Good,” he said. “Every time you feel that ache between your legs, you think of me.”
“Holy shit, Luka,” I whispered. As I pushed his hand away, I glanced around nervously, desperately checking to make sure no one was watching us. They weren’t, but we were far too exposed.
“Go back upstairs. Now.”
His forceful tone was too much. Rather than fall under his spell, it strengthened me. It cleared my head of the drunken fog, and I looked at him critically for the first time. Go back upstairs so he could have his way again? “No. I’m going home.”
Luka’s shoulders lifted as he drew in a deep breath and appeared to consider my statement. Was he deciding whether he’d let me go or not? “Okay,” he said. “Finish your beer and let’s go.”
“What?”
Oh, he did not like having to repeat himself. His nostrils flared and his eyebrow lifted in annoyance. So I took a long chug of the lukewarm beer to keep him placated. I hated the taste of beer. As a new twenty-one-year-old, I hadn’t yet acquired the taste for it.
Before I’d finished my gulp, Luka was moving down the stairs, and I felt compelled to follow. I tried to buck against it, but how was it he had this power over me? Was it the fake police officer uniform that gave him false authority?
When I reached the bottom of the stairs, his hand grabbed mine and he laced our fingers together. My heartbeat kicked in response. Not that this was romantic. It was pure dominance. Luka not just staking his claim, but asserting his physical control.
“Find your roommate,” he ordered.
“You don’t have to walk me home,” I said. His hand was a vise on mine.
“I don’t plan to. I’ll text my driver.”
His driver? Well . . . at least that was safe. It’d be warm in the car, and better with an extra person around.
He’d asked me to find Avery, and it turned out to be no small task. During the time Luka and I had been upstairs, it had grown much more crowded. Luka’s grip on my hand kept us connected even as he dragged me through the thick pack of people and thumbed out a text on his phone.
We found Catwoman Avery on the back porch, shivering in the cold while Batman smoked. I pointed her out to Luka and he tugged me along, thrusting me out with him into the cold October air.
“I’m taking Addison home,” Luka announced before we’d reached them.
“You’re what?” Avery giggled incredulously. “Is she throwing up already?” She grinned at Luka, then blinked, surprised. She shot me a look that said she was impressed with the man connected at my side.
“Be quiet,” her boyfriend snapped. “That’s Vasilije’s brother.”
The color slowly drained from her face and left her pale as she stared up at Luka. I’d never seen Avery serious, and her reaction sent ice crawling along my spine. Nothing fazed her. So why had the mere mention of Luka’s family sent her into a tailspin? Her gaze locked onto mine and spoke volumes. Oh, shit. She didn’t usually care about anyone but herself, and yet she was worried about me. My knees went weak. What had I gotten myself into?
It’d been a night of bad decisions, so I made yet another. I slammed the rest of the beer in my cup, hoping it’d make me forget what I’d done.
“Addison, you okay?” she asked, her voice laced with concern.
“I’m fine.” It came out less than convincing. I chucked the empty cup in the trash and shivered in the cold air. “He’s not driving.”
“Okay,” Brent said quickly. “You guys have fun. Avery’s hanging out over here tonight, if you guys want to be . . .”
Good lord, was that his way of telling Luka he didn’t need to put a sock on my door?
“Thanks,” Luka said. “Your name is?”
Brent looked nervous, like he wasn’t sure he should hand the information out. “Brent Sherman.”
Luka repeated it as if committing it to memory. Then his attention swung back to me. “Now we have to find Vasilije.”
He headed back inside and pulled on my hand much like it was a leash. We squeezed our way through the people in the main room and went to the kitchen.
We were further away from the music, but the roar of conversation was much louder. Luka took a sip of his beer, and then tossed the cup into an overfull trashcan. The laminate floor was sticky with spilled beer, and the room was stiflingly hot.
His gaze scoured the area, and he scowled. Obviously Vasilije wasn’t here. Luka pulled me to the giant guy who was still manning the keg. “Have you seen my brother?”
The guy shook his head. “You check the game room?”
It was our next stop, but again, Luka searched the sea of faces and scowled. “Where the fuck is he?”
I tried to extract my hand from his grip, but it only made him squeeze tighter. My head was buzzing again from the fresh wave of alcohol, and this one hit me fast. Luka was determined to find his brother, and I could use that to my advantage. “Why don’t we split up and look for him?”
His jaw set and his expression turned icy. It made me feel like I was the dumbest person in the world, aided by his patronizing tone. “So you know what my brother looks like?”
Crap. No, I didn’t have a clue.
“Or maybe you’re just trying to leave without me again.” He yanked me up against his chest, so I collided with his hard frame. “I’m taking you home, and that is not up for discussion. Got it?”
I pressed my free hand on his chest and pushed off of him, trying to put space between us. Why was I fighting him on this, anyway? The car would be faster, warmer, and safer than walking home drunk by myself. Nothing could happen once we got to the dorm. Luka could demand I invite him upstairs all he wanted, but male visitors after hours had to be signed in at the front desk. I’d simply refuse to do it, and he’d have no choice but to leave or face security.
Luka angrily tapped out another text message, but it must have gone unanswered, because he dragged me all over the house searching. After a while, his grip on mine became less about control and more about support. I stumbled on my heels, and he kept me from crashing to the ground.
Had I forgotten how to walk? It suddenly seemed so . . . challenging. Not the act of it, but the physical exertion. I was so, so sleepy.
Luka pulled abruptly to a stop, and I slammed into him. As I ricocheted backward, he dropped his grip on my hand and his arm looped around my waist, holding me upright. He glared at the man in front of us. “Where the fuck have you been?”
This was Luka’s brother? They looked nothing alike, not until Vasilije’s eyebrow lifted in a perfect upside-down V, shooting the same look of disdain Luka was capable of.
“Dan got his drone out. We were at the soccer fields flying it around and shit.”
Vasilije’s costume was a fire-engine red suit and a black shirt, and a pair of horns rose out of his brown hair. He was the devil, and one look made me believe the costume was fitting. Luka’s younger brother was the quintessential frat guy. Attractive. Probably my age or a year older. He looked big and toned beneath his suit, and gave off a cocky, entitled attitude.
“I texted you a bunch of times.” Luka’s face twisted with annoyance.
Vasilije shrugged. “My battery’s dead.”
“Whatever. I’m taking her home,” Luka said, squeezing me tight against him.
Vasilije’s gaze swept over me, like he hadn’t noticed my existence until Luka prompted him to. Why did I feel the urge to stand up straight? Vasilije evaluated me as if I were cattle at an auction.
“Isn’t she a little young for you?” He grinned, flashing a huge smile complete with dimples. Did Luka have dimples? He never smiled, so the world would never know.
“Don’t get into any shit,” Luka snapped, “and we’ll both agree I was here for another two hours.”
“Sounds good to me.” Vasilije waved us off. “You kids have fun, now. Make good choices.”
I couldn’t stop the giggle, and Luka’s gaze snapped to me. His curious expression demanded I explain what was so funny. “Make good choices,” I said. “I think it’s a little late for that.”
What on earth? A strange hint of emotion passed through Luka’s eyes. Was that . . . hurt? It was fleeting and gone in a blink, but existed long enough for me to feel bad, which made no sense. He didn’t care about my feelings; why should I care about his? But I couldn’t stand the disapproval. I was a people pleaser down to the marrow of my bones.
“I meant I drank too much,” I said, compelled to explain.
His expression had gone flat and it remained indifferent. “Come on,” he said. “The car’s waiting.”
He threaded his fingers through mine and led me through the party, cutting a path to the front door. It was an enormous task, and halfway there, Luka’s arm was once again around my waist, keeping me from collapsing. I had to fight to keep my eyelids open and stay on my feet.
“Why am I so tired?” I said, but Luka had no response.
The cold night air was only slightly sobering. Pulled up in the circle drive, a man in jeans and a button-up shirt waited beside a black town car. I was guided down the front porch and into the driveway, and when I blinked, I was sitting on leather covering the back seat.
“I’m in Deacon Hall,” I murmured as Luka buckled me in. I couldn’t be bothered to do it myself, and somehow he knew. I leaned my head back and closed my eyes, needing to take a minute. I didn’t fight him when his hand rested possessively on my thigh, his fingers skimming right at my hemline. We’d be at my dorm soon, and Luka’s spell over me would come to an end.
π
I blinked my blurry eyes and disorientation hit me, only to be crushed instantly by a wave of nausea and a horrifying pounding in my head. The pillow beneath me wasn’t my own. There was green striped wallpaper on the walls, not bland cream paint and obnoxious white lights Avery insisted on hanging. Where was I?
“Are you going to be sick again?” a deep, male voice asked, and I jolted upright, only to moan in agony. My hand flew to the throbbing in my temple, trying in vain to massage it away. I had to process each piece of information slowly, one at a time.
I was in a strange bed, curled up under the sheets. All my clothes, except for my shoes, were still on, although one of my knee-high socks was bunched at an ankle. Daylight streamed from the large bay window. Holy crap, what time was it? And the voice . . .
Across the room, Luka sat on the edge of a gold colored love seat, wearing jeans and a T-shirt. He was leaning forward, his elbows resting on his knees. He appeared showered and shaved, not the least bit hungover. My pulse kicked, and I hated it. The sight of him still gave me a rush.
However, it was impossible to tell what he was thinking with his fixed expression. He pocketed his cellphone and gave me his full, intense attention.
“Where am I?” My throat was scratchy and my voice hoarse.
“One of the guest rooms.” He stood and retrieved a red sports drink off of the floor, holding it out to me. I hadn’t realized how parched I was until he unscrewed the top and handed it to me.
“Thank you,” I whispered. I drank half the bottle before coming up for air. I tried to keep the nerves in check. I glanced around the room. “How did I . . .”
“Get here? You don’t remember?”
I shook my head and drank the rest of the bottle. On top of the nausea, I felt shaky and weak.
Luka studied me intently. “You got sick in the car. I decided to bring you back here so I could keep an eye on you.”
My ears burned with embarrassment. “Oh, God, I’m sorry.”
“It happens,” he said casually. “How are you feeling?”
I pressed my lips together. I felt like garbage. Things were still moving too fast and I was sluggish. Yet I had to answer, because he stood beside the bed, waiting on me. “Not great,” I mustered. “I’m so sorry, I didn’t think . . . I had that much to drink.”
He took the empty bottle from my hands. “You’ll feel better if you have something to eat. Can you stand up?”
Something was . . . off. It took me a second to recognize he’d just asked me a question, rather than give me a command. And that brought the whole of the previous night flooding back to me in a hurry.
I wasn’t a virgin anymore. I’d slept with Luka Markovic. This was literally the morning after, and he was offering me breakfast. No, wait. He’d coaxed and persuaded me last night, maybe even manipulated. Things had spiraled out of control and gone too far, and then he’d forced himself on me.
I swallowed hard. I needed to get out of here before I let it happen again.
My legs were shaky but worked well enough as I tugged my socks up, climbed out of the bed, and smoothed my hands over my rumpled costume. I had to look like a hot mess. There was a doorway off to the side and I could see the darkened bathroom beyond.
The bedroom I’d awoken in was timeless and elegant. The greens and golds reeked of sophistication, not the style of a mid-twenty-year-old man. He’d said this was one of the guest rooms, indicating there were multiple ones. I assumed it was his family home. Luka still lived with his parents?
“Can I?” I motioned to the bathroom.
“Sure. I put a shirt in there, in case you want to change.” His gaze drifted downward to the dried stain on my waist.
My face heated again with shame. I’d thrown up and gotten it on myself. It looked like it had been cleaned, but still. “Thank you,” I choked out and darted into the bathroom.
The dark eyeliner and shadow I’d layered on last night was smeared beneath my eyes. I looked awful. I pulled quickly at the ponytails, freeing my hair, and raked a hand through my unkempt strands, forcing them to lay flat. There was a men’s white dress shirt folded neatly on the marble counter top, and after I’d finished scrubbing my eyes, I contemplated what to do.
It was Luka’s shirt.
I’d expected an old t-shirt, not something so nice and formal. The fabric looked expensive. Was this a test? He’d figured me out last night when he said I wanted to look my best, so this had to be deliberate. I shed the white blouse and put on the dress shirt that was too big on me. The shirttails hung as long as my short skirt did.
Oh.
It was a test. I was fairly certain he was waiting to see if I’d come out wearing just his shirt and nothing else. Seductive. I couldn’t, not in a million years. Instead I made do by rolling up the sleeves and leaving the top few buttons undone.
He casually noted my skirt still in place but said nothing. It looked stupid, but I needed to send the message. I wasn’t happy about the way last night had gone, and had to put distance between us, even though I was wearing his beautiful shirt that smelled like him.
“Come on, I’ve got breakfast ready. You want coffee?”
I wanted to leave, but I also didn’t want to be rude. I was grateful he hadn’t dumped me off at the dorms, and he’d been different this morning. A cup of coffee wouldn’t change what had happened, but it wouldn’t kill me either. It’d make it easier to politely ask for a ride home, so I nodded.
I followed behind him out into the hallway where the décor was sophisticated. Dark wood, crown molding, and beautiful paintings decorated the long hall of closed doors and stairs to the right. My footfalls were quiet on the plush carpet as we wound down the curved staircase.
The entryway to the house was impressive. Daylight from oversized windows glanced off of the tiered crystal chandelier, positioned over a gorgeous wooden inlay in the hardwood floor. Obviously the car dealership business was going well for the Markovic family.
Luka either ignored my gawking, or didn’t notice. We traipsed past the dining room that had enough seating for twelve, and turned into a gourmet kitchen which was state-of-the-art. There was a table tucked to one side, which held two place settings and a full breakfast waiting to be served. Fresh fruit, pastries, bacon, and eggs. How had he prepared all this?
I stood dumbfounded as he slipped into one of the chairs and set about pouring his coffee. He added cream and sugar, and when he realized I hadn’t moved, his gaze turned up to mine. “You going to join me?”
There was an edge to his words, as if trying to walk a fine line between polite and commanding. I couldn’t help but feel like he was restraining his true self, the version I’d seen last night. I took the chair across from him and watched him pour my cup. It was all so . . . adult-like.
“If you want something else, let me know. My chef keeps the kitchen stocked, so she can make almost anything.”
My chef. Sweet Jesus. I stared down at my steaming cup, not wanting to say anything because I worried I’d sound like the poor, naïve girl I was. I added sugar and cream, stirring until the coffee turned a milk chocolate color.
“Tell me about your family,” Luka said as I was mid-sip.
I swallowed and it seared down my throat. “My family?”
“Yes. I want to know everything about you. We’ll start with your family.” This he said in the tone I was more familiar with. An order, not a request.
I paused, my hand lingering on the handle to my mug as I considered his demand. He wanted to know everything about me? Why? A weird tickle crept up the back of my neck. “There’s not much to say. They’re pretty normal.”
“Are your parents still together? Siblings?”
“Yeah,” I said. “And yes. I’ve got a younger brother.”
“Are you close?”
“In age, or relationship?”
“Both.” Luka took a sip of his coffee, but his gaze was fixed on mine.
“No, not really. Jonathan is four years younger.” My tone was clipped. We were night and day different.
Luka’s focus sharpened. “Tell me about him.”
My forehead wrinkled with skepticism. “You want to know about my brother?”
“You’re an easy read, Addison. What’s the deal with your brother?”
I scowled, not enjoying how good Luka was at cutting straight through my subtext. I was too hungover and off balance to muster much of a fight. “Jonathan’s senior class elected him homecoming king last week.”
“And?”
How was I going to explain it? My gaze wandered away to glance out the window. Beyond the large, pristinely maintained back yard, the house backed up to a golf course. Of course it did. I squinted against the sunlight, which made my headache throb.
“Tell me why that bothers you,” Luka said. This time his tone was more forceful.
I sighed and swung my focus back to the man who kept me on edge. “Because things come easy for him. He doesn’t struggle to make friends. He always knows the right thing to say and the right thing to do.” I sounded jealous, because I was. “Everyone loves Jonathan.”
“You struggle to make friends?” He asked it lightly, and I had said it, but it stung, regardless. I didn’t want anyone pointing out what I didn’t excel at.
So I didn’t answer. Instead I grabbed a bagel from the tray of pastries and busied myself slathering it in cream cheese. No one was as driven or focused as I was, or had priorities as warped as mine. Therefore, I struggled terribly to make friends.
“Vasilije is the same as your brother. And that’s . . .” His voice was surprisingly low and hesitant, but then his expression firmed up. “Friends are overrated.”
I considered his statement critically. It sounded like a defensive response a person without friends would say. And although I told myself I didn’t need friends, I also didn’t believe it.
Luka hadn’t touched the large spread of food. He crossed his arms over his chest. “Do you usually go home on the weekends?”
Randhurst wasn’t a suitcase school, where the students went home on Fridays. It was private, and expensive, and had offered me the largest scholarship out of all my choices. It pulled from all over the country, was large and nice, and there was plenty to do with the campus being only an hour outside of Chicago. It was enough of a draw that students typically didn’t want to leave.
Plus . . . “No. I don’t have a car.”
“Where are you from?”
I chewed a bite of my bagel and swallowed slowly. What was with the twenty questions? “Mokena. It’s a suburb on the south side of the city.”
“I know where it is.” He took another sip of his coffee and set the mug down with a soft thud. “Why pre-med?”
“Why does it feel like you’re interrogating me?”
He blinked slowly, and his eyes were so damn calculating, it made my heart race. “Maybe that’s what this is now. You’re the one who’s defensive while I’m just trying to make conversation.”
I didn’t believe it for one second. There was an angle he was playing at, I was sure of it.
“Or maybe,” he continued, “I’m working up to ask you a question I’m pretty sure will make you stop talking, so I’m trying to get what I can out of you before that happens.”