Chapter 19

Alex

Telling Lily everything I felt for her lifted a heavy weight from my shoulders. I’d mistook it for the pressure from my parents and passing Cost Accounting, but it was Lily who I was nervous about. Putting my feelings out there wasn’t like me, and for some reason, it felt great.

When she kissed me, I knew she felt the same. I wasn’t sure why the both of us denied it for so long. I knew our feelings were more the moment I stepped into her grandmother’s house. Why had I waited so long to confirm our feelings? It would have made the past few weeks easier, but it also gave us both insight into the best and worst of us. And I wouldn’t have traded that for the world.

I grabbed onto her waist and slung her over onto my lap. Scooting closer to the wall, I balanced her over me. I drew her down, hoping to convey my feelings for her with my feverish kisses. Every night before I went to bed, I thought of Lily naked on my sheets. Now, I wasn’t about to let her go for anything.

I ripped off my shirt and lifted hers over her head. Her hair fell over her face, and I brushed it aside before kissing her again.

Her hips ground into mine making me mad with lust. I pulled down the straps of her bra and cupped them in my hands. They were the perfect fit.

The first time we had sex, I got a little carried away too quickly. I was unable to contain myself around her with that cute outfit, and my feelings had taken over my body. Now, I wanted to take it slow and make this moment something memorable for the both of us. I wasn’t screwing around anymore. That was a part of my past. Lily was my future, whether she knew it or not, I’d make her feel it.

I slowly undressed her, taking my time, kissing every inch of her skin. She reacted to my touch, and I memorized every little sound she made when I touched her. I wanted to please her as much as she pleased me. Her eagerness was a definite turn on, and I knew even though she was inexperienced, she wasn’t at all afraid to express how she felt when I touched her.

When I couldn’t bear it any longer, I stood up and took off my clothes. I grabbed the condom from my pocket and pulled it over myself before laying back down with her. It wasn’t something I always had with me, but since our first encounter, I never met up with Lily without one. I supposed it was forward to expect her and me to come together again, but I made it my mission to get with her mentally and physically. I wanted to protect her too, so that involved a little foil protection as well.

I scooped her up in my arms. Her arms draped over my shoulders, balancing herself on my lap. I buried myself inside of her, and she dropped her head back. I captured the nape of her neck under my kisses and held her against me.

She rocked her hips, slowly at first but soon enough she built up speed. I knew the position would give her an amazing orgasm and I wanted to show her how great sex could be. She had a lot to learn, and I wanted to be her tutor for a change. Her reactions made me build to the climax quicker than I anticipated. And since she was so eager, we both came together this time, the waves of pleasure crashing over us, rippling through our bodies.

“I never knew it could feel like that,” she said, pressing her forehead against my shoulder.

I held her close to me, not wanting to let her go just yet. We’d never been so close before, and I needed to gather some strength from her to ask the question that weighed on my mind for some time.

When we finally broke apart, we snuggled face to face on her bed our limbs tangled together. I didn’t bother with blankets since a crazy amount of heat radiated off our bodies.

I took her hands in mine and drew them up to my lips, kissing each one of them.

Her eyes crinkled in the corners as she smiled.

I couldn’t foresee her reaction, but I didn’t want to delay it much further. My nerves got the best of me around her, solidifying my feelings. She made me want to be someone better, someone that could deserve her.

She twisted around and pressed her body against mine. She rubbed her ass against my crotch, and I started to become aroused once more.

I inhaled the scent of her hair, feeling more content than I ever did in my entire life. I stroked her hair and pressed my lips against her head. This is where I wanted to be. My decision was made, and I didn’t know why I hadn’t made it sooner.

“Lily?”

“Hm?”

“I want to ask you something.”

She twisted her neck, so she faced me again.

I traced the line of her jaw with my finger. “Will you be my girlfriend?”

A slow smile spread across her lips. She turned around completely and kissed me. “Yes.”

I let out a breath, wanting to be completely honest and open with her from here on out. “I’m going to quit the fraternity and concentrate on graduating with high marks.”

“Sounds like a plan.” She sounded more relieved than I felt. It wouldn’t have been fair to her for me to continue. Bret would be the stereotypical president that the fraternity wanted. There was no reason for me to party all the time and seek out girls when I had the one I wanted at arm's length.

“I want you in my life more than as a tutor,” I said, wanting to be clear on my intention. “I want us to build a life together.”

“Alex,” she said. “That’s exactly what I want as well.”

I pulled her close and kissed her, feeling the weight of my decision lift away from the perfect union we created together.