Chapter 19
Kyrian followed Nate, his brother, and the princess into the house. Her new name and new affiliation felt weird, but… good.
The idea of giving up her clan made her feel a little guilty, but really, she wasn’t the first to make such a change for love. Ultrima had left Rian clan and formed his own clan. She was just reversing that situation.
She suspected, or at least hoped, that he would support her in her choice.
Rian clan seemed like they would. The princess had accepted her back into her clan, had even suggested it herself… She would never have expected that.
Would anyone in Trima clan believe her if she’d told them?
“You can wash up and I will find you some clothes,” Princess Lyrian offered. “Once we are dressed, we will go find my clan.”
Her voice shook with suppressed excitement.
Kyrian stared down at the still bleeding wounds, and bit back an objection. Now that the adrenaline was leaving her system, the wounds hurt like hell. She was pretty sure at least one of the shotgun pellets was still lodged in there somewhere.
But she had sustained worse. She would survive. What was important right now was convincing the princess she spoke the truth.
Once the whole Rian clan had accepted her and her relationship with Nate was assured, then she could really relax. There would be time for healing then.
Maybe Nate would even help her. That thought warmed her blood.
Brad though, looked at her with concern. “I think we should wait until tomorrow.”
Lyrian turned to stare at him in shock. “I’ve been searching for my clan for a year, and you think I should wait?” she demanded.
Brad waved to Kyrian. “She’s injured. She needs to heal.” His voice sounded uncomfortable, and it took Kyrian a few moments to realise that was because he felt guilty.
Which was not a reason to wait.
“I will be fine,” Kyrian said firmly. “Dragons heal quickly.”
Princess Lyrian stared at her, and Kyrian almost wished she could disappear.
The princess’s expression was concerned too now. She gave an almost inaudible sigh. “You’re right,” she agreed. Then she looked over at Nate. “Will you help her?”
That made Kyrian blush.
Nate too.
He nodded quickly though. “Of course.”
Kyrian’s heart gave a leap.
The thought of performing the Mesmer ritual with Nate sent a tingle of anticipation through her. That wasn’t what she was most excited and nervous about though.
Performing the ritual together would give them a chance to be alone. A chance to talk about what had happened.
A chance to figure out where they wanted to go next.
The princess had spoken of her and Nate mating, as though it were a foregone conclusion. Kyrian wasn’t quite sure it was. She had to ask Nate first.
Brad waved his hand towards an open door, his eyes averted. “Spare bedroom’s that way.”
Kyrian and Nate didn’t need to be told twice.
Once they were alone though, Nate was all business. “I know what to do this time,” he said. “So let’s get started.”
“Not yet,” Kyrian said, patting the bed next to her. “First we need to talk.”
Nate frowned. He did sit down next to her, but he took one of her hands and stared at the injuries.
That must look pretty bad to a human. There were large rips in her skin, and both of her arms were covered in blood. Most of it was dried now, and the wounds only seeped slightly.
“We can talk later,” Nate said firmly. “You need healing first.”
How could she explain? How could she tell him that she wanted this sorted first, so she could enjoy their coupling?
It was on the tip of her tongue to tell him that dragons needed to have any issues sorted before entering the Mesmer sleep, or it would impede the ritual, but she stopped herself. It simply wasn’t true.
And she was done with lying.
Time to tell the truth, even if it was scary.
She took a deep breath. “I want to be sure you want to do this first. I need to know what this all means. Do you…” her voice wavered. “Do you care about me?”
It wasn’t the question she wanted to ask. She wanted to ask if he loved her. But she was too scared to hear him say no.
Nate gave her a smile. “That one’s easy. I love you.”
He said the words so openly, with such conviction.
Kyrian felt tears prick at the back of her eyes. “Really?”
Nate gave her a lopsided grin. “I would have thought that one was obvious by now.” He leaned in and gave her a tender kiss that melted her heart. “Kyrian, I…” he stared into her eyes, and Kyrian’s heart pounded in her chest. “I think I want to mate with you.”
His voice sounded awed, and a little uncertain, maybe even a little surprised.
Kyrian understood. She felt exactly the same way. “I want that too.”
Nate gave her a big smile. “Let’s do this then.” Then he paused. “It won’t… we won’t be mated immediately, will we?”
Kyrian shook her head. “No. This is only our second time sleeping together. It will take one more time.” She hesitated, then added, “And perhaps it is best to wait, and have a ceremony with Rian clan. If they accept me.”
Nate kissed the tip of her nose. “Sounds perfect. Although I’m already sure they will accept you. They’re lucky to have you.”
Kyrian found it hard to believe he meant it. How could he?
“But… I lied to you. I used you to try to get to the princess. Can you really forgive all that?”
Nate’s expression grew serious then. “I was pretty angry that you lied to me,” he admitted. “That hurt more than you wanting to get the princess.” He shrugged. “I get that your clans are at war, and if my brother weren’t involved, if I wasn’t, then she’d still be your enemy. I just wish you could’ve trusted me, that’s all. Maybe we could have figured this out sooner if you had.”
He picked up her hands and examined her wrists. “Maybe you wouldn’t have had to get hurt to prove that you’d changed.”
He wasn’t saying anything Kyrian hadn’t already thought. “I know,” she said quietly. “I don’t even know why I did it. I could have told you the truth, and it would have made no difference. I just… it seemed easier.” She took a deep breath. “But it won’t happen again, I promise.”
Nate stared into her eyes, then brushed her hair out of her face. “I believe you.”
Kyrian felt her heart beating in time with his, and her breath sync almost without thought.
The connection between them was so strong, so automatic, that the Mesmer came easily.
Without even needing words, they lay down, side by side on the bed, and she felt herself slipping into the Mesmer sleep, her hands holding Nate’s.
*****
They were still holding hands when she woke, some time later.
Kyrian felt the urge to mate surge through her, and she rolled closer to him, enjoying the feel of his body pressed up against hers. She had a smile on her face even before she opened her eyes.
She found herself looking straight into Nate’s.
His eyes were deep and serious, and even though Kyrian could feel his body responding readily, his hands didn’t move from where they held hers. “Are you sure you want to do this, Kyrian? It’s a big ask. You’re giving up your clan, your family, hell, even your name, all for me. Is it really worth it?”
Kyrian’s heart plummeted into her chest, dampening the urge from the Mesmer bond just slightly. Was he having second thoughts? He’d seemed so certain earlier. So sure that he loved her.
If he could have second thoughts now, while they were in the grip of the Mesmer bond, the need to mate thick in their veins, then could he really care for her? Was he not feeling the same surge of need that she was?
How could he think about talking, when all she wanted to do was mate?
But there was something else in his eyes, calling to her through the beat of his heart. Not doubt about his feelings for her, or even her feelings for him. But about sacrifice.
He was worried about her, about what he thought she was giving up.
What he didn’t realise was that she was gaining far more than she lost.
“I love my clan,” she said softly. “It has always been the one place I belonged, where I knew people would accept me, no matter what. I mean, it’s not like it ever occurred to me I could belong with a human. But the way I feel about my clan is no match for what I feel for you. With you, I not only feel like I belong, but like I’m complete for the first time in my life. It’s as if up until now a piece of me was missing. A piece I didn’t even know to search for. Now I have found it, nothing else matters.”
Nate smiled then. His arms went around her, and he pulled her close against him, his body strong and firm.
And Kyrian found herself smiling back.
Nate gave her a long, lingering kiss that sent desire arcing through every part of her body, until it was on fire. Good. The talking was done. Now he would be ready to mate. She rubbed her body against his, and he gave a groan.
But still he held himself back. He stared deep into her eyes. “I know exactly what you mean,” he said quietly. “I thought I was more than happy with my life as it was. I had my family, Brad, and then Lily. I thought all I craved was more adventure. And I searched for it everywhere. But no mountain I climbed, no ocean I sailed, no desert I photographed, ever seemed to fill that need. I searched for more, and more…”
One arm released her waist, and he lifted up her hand, taking a second to turn it over and examine the fact that the wounds were completely gone. The way he rubbed the ball of his thumb over her wrist, right where her pulse was still beating in time with his, sent a shiver of anticipation through her.
Kyrian wanted to hear everything he had to say. But couldn’t it wait until after they’d mated?
But Nate kept talking. “Until I found you. When I’m with you, it makes the rest of my life feel dull and empty. You light up my life with excitement and adventure, even when we’re lying here alone in a room together.”
For some reason, his words of adventure caused a hitch in her heartbeat. The last few days had certainly been full of adventure. But the future in her new clan might not be. If that was what he loved about her…
“This chase has certainly been exciting, but it’s over now,” she pointed out. “I suspect life could be pretty quiet after this.”
Nate gave a low laugh that sent delicious tendrils of excitement swirling through her belly. He ran his hand down her side, coming to rest on her hip, then he ground his body up against hers.
“You’re a dragon. How could a dragon ever be boring?” He lifted his hand up to cup her face, kissing her hungrily before saying, “I’m hoping you’ll let me photograph you some time. I can’t imagine a more beautiful subject.”
Kyrian blushed. “Okay.” She stared at him a minute, her heart overflowing with love so strong it almost overwhelmed her.
Too much talking. Too much sentiment.
Time for some sex.
Her body hummed in anticipation.
She leaned forwards and kissed him, intending it to be light and teasing. Intending to pull back and leave him wanting more. But Nate grabbed around her waist and pulled her hard up against him.
Kyrian didn’t object.
She kissed him with an eagerness that was only seasoned by the Mesmer bond. In fact, she was pretty sure the desire created by the bond was minor in comparison to what she felt for Nate on a normal day.
She was looking forward to having this every day.
For the rest of her life.
She hooked her leg over Nate, pulling him closer, breathing in his scent, imprinting him on her heart.
She was still naked from her transformation. Later she would need to borrow some clothes. But right now, it was just as she wanted to be.
Of course, it would be even better if Nate were as naked as she was.
She pulled back a little to pull his shirt up, running her hands over his chest. Nate helped her by wriggling out of it. That was better.
Kyrian pressed her body up against his, feeling her skin heat where it contacted his.
Better, but not good enough. Nate helped her divest him of the rest of his clothes.
They lay and kissed, their bodies pressed up against each other. Kyrian could have sworn their hearts were still beating in time. She’d never felt this kind of connection to anyone before. Never even imagined that it existed.
She threw her leg over him, hooking it around him, and pulling him close. Opening herself up to him.
Nate groaned, and buried himself in her, rocking back and forth. He kissed her neck, his hands running over her body with a fierce need.
The intensity peaked, sending surges of energy arcing through Kyrian.
She was on top of the world. She could face anything with Nate by her side.