Seventeen
Cameo
Sager punches the wall next to my head and I yelp.
I know he would never hit me, but the sound of his fist connecting with the wooden boards cracks through the silent night.
“Cameo, I need you to end things with him. Don’t go with him. Stay with me.” He all but begs me.
I want to say yes, that I will stay with him but I can’t. I don’t even know how I’m going to tell him the rest of what is scaring me.
The thought of never seeing Sager again is killing me. I should have told him first thing this morning when I slipped into his bed, but I was terrified. Then we were fighting, and I knew that it wasn’t the right time either.
He keeps asking me to leave Alec, but one thing keeps me right where I am, drifting between the two of them.
“I can’t,” I whisper, part of me breaking inside because deep down I know now that Sager is the man I belong with.
A tear falls down my cheek, and he wipes it away with his thumb. “Just tell me why you won’t leave him.”
“I can’t tell you here. Can we go back to your place?” He nods his head and kisses my forehead before he grabs my hand, pulling me into the bar with him.
“Hey, I’m taking off. I’ll see you assholes later.” The guys all say their goodbyes, and we leave the bar, hand in hand.
When we get outside, I look around for his car, but don’t see it. “You didn’t drive, did you?”
“Do you think I’m an idiot?”
I kiss his cheek and pull him toward my car.
Once we are inside, the silence envelops me, and I try like heck not to let it get to me. Instead, I just drive to his place, ignoring the fact that he is staring at me the whole way there.
When I shut off the engine in his driveway. I turn to him, finally getting a really good look at him tonight. His eyes are glossed over and I know he’s still drunk. I don’t want to tell him everything while he’s in this state of mind, so I lean forward and press a kiss to his lips instead.
“Come on, I’m tired and want to go to bed.” He frowns but doesn’t disagree. The trudge to his front door is quick, but I have him leaning most of his weight on me.
When we finally fall into bed, I’m so mentally and physically exhausted that I fall asleep the moment my head hits the pillow.
---
I wake to Sager’s hand squeezing my breast. His other hand is between my thighs, and although I’m horny as all get out, I need to talk to him first. When his lips trail down my neck, I have to stop him.
“We need to talk.”
He groans and rolls over to his back. “Every time a woman has ever told me that, it’s been bad news. You already told me he’s moving you to New York and you still won’t leave him, what else? Huh, Cam? I can only take so much more.”
“I’m pregnant,” I blurt out.
His tan skin goes pale for a second before he sits up and stares at me. “This is why you won’t leave him.” I bite the side of my lip, not wanting to tell him that he’s right. He’s going to hate me when I tell him. “You don’t know which one of us is the father.”
I close my eyes, and the tears start to fall. He’s right. I have no clue who is the father, and I hate myself for that.
“Did you use protection with him?” I nod my head yes but then I know I have to tell him the rest.
“The other night I told Alec I was pregnant and it was like he knew already. He had this smug look on his face, and when I asked him about it he just said, ‘about time it worked.’ I tried to piece it together, and when I realized it, he was talking about moving to New York and the wedding.”
“You mean he tried to get you pregnant on purpose?” I nod my head, knowing that it all sounds crazy. But Sager and I have never used protection before. I never even thought about it when I was with him.
“I don’t know what to do, Sager. Everything is a mess and if he was really trying to get me pregnant, why all of a sudden am I pregnant when we’ve been having sex without protection for months?” More tears fall down my face, and he wraps me in his arms and holds me to his chest.
“We’ll figure it out, babe. I’m not just letting you go.” I cry harder into his chest because I know he didn’t sign up for this. He didn’t want to be part of whatever this road I’m on entails. “How far along are you?”
“Six weeks.”
My heart starts to pound. I can see him doing the math in his head, and then he grins. “He was gone. You were with me for almost a month when he was out of the country.”
I suck in a breath and I stare at him.
“This baby could be mine.” His hands grab the back of my head, pulling me to his mouth.
“I hope it is,” I whisper against his lips. “I just wish things were different. That I would have just left when I fell out of love with Alec.”
“I’m right here. You say the word, and I’ll do whatever it takes to keep you with me.”
I kiss him again. “Thank you, Sager. I love you.”
“I love you too babe. Now, I want you to ride me since you fell asleep as soon as your head hit my pillow last night.” I roll my eyes at him, but it makes me smile too.
“I can’t help it. I’m growing a little person inside of me. I’ve been so dang exhausted lately.” He puts his hand on my still flat stomach and presses his mouth to mine.
“I’m not letting you leave, not now.” A look of unease passes over his features, and I know this isn’t going to be easy on either of us.
Alec wanted to move next month, and now I don’t know what to do or how to postpone it.
I don’t want to leave, but more importantly, I don’t want to lose Sager. Closing my eyes, I let Sager kiss me.
He pulls me on top of him, and before I can even move, he moves me so I’m practically sitting on his face. His fingers slide my panties to the side and his tongue brushes against my heated flesh. “I want you to ride my tongue,” he murmurs against my skin.
As his tongue swipes along my core, I grip the headboard and try like hell to hold on. Every movement of his tongue feels freaking amazing, and it doesn’t take long before my legs are quivering. I ride his tongue just like he told me and my hips buck and I moan out his name as I come hard. He continues to lick and suck my clit into his mouth as I ride out my orgasm and when the spasms stop, he pulls me down his body and slams the head of his erection into me.
“Sager!” I call out. Every inch of my body tightens, and I let out a choppy breath.
“Tell me you love me.” It’s a plea, and I hate that I’m the one who makes him second guess everything between us.
“I love you, Sager. You’re the air I breathe.” He lifts his shirt up my body and tosses it on the ground somewhere by the bed. His lips trail over my chest, and his hand grabs my shoulders, pulling me down harder on him. Every thrust of his hips has us both crying out in pleasure, and I want like hell for things to be different.
If only I’d met Sager sooner. If only I never fell in love with Alec.
Our bodies move in perfect sync and the feel of his hands on me remind me of the truths that sometimes I try to hide.
The love I have for Sager is something that I will never take for granted again. I’ve done it this whole time and look where it’s gotten me. He thinks that I don’t love him most days because I’m afraid to admit it.
I’m afraid of falling.
I roll my hips, and we come together. I collapse on him, and he wraps his arms around me, hugging me tightly to his body.
“I love you, Cameo. Please leave him. I can provide for you and the baby. It doesn’t even have to be mine. I’ll still love him or her like they were. Just give me a chance to prove it to you.”
Tears fall from my eyes, and I don’t say a word. I let him hold me and try to think of what to do.
---
My phone rings a few hours later, and I know it’s Alec before I even move to get it. Sager and I have spent most of the morning in bed after I threw up from morning sickness and he even fed me crackers and ginger ale to help with the nausea.
“Don’t answer it. He can make his own lunch. You’re mine.” Sager wraps his arms around my middle and cuddles into me.
“As much as I want to lie in bed with you all day, you have a job to get to, and I have some things to figure out.”
“Fine, but he’s leaving soon, right?” I nod my head yes and kiss his lips.
“You’ll have me all to yourself for a week while he’s looking at houses.”
“Thank fuck. I need way more time with you. I want to wake up to you every morning and watch your belly grow.”
I bite the inside of my lip to keep my emotions from showing. When he says things like that, I fall even harder for the man.
“I love you.” He kisses me again before letting me get up.
I look at the screen of my phone and see Alec’s name there. I click open the text and read it.
Alec: My flight is delayed. I’ll be here another night.
“Look.” I show Sager the screen, and he pulls me into his arms.
“Good. I didn’t want you to leave yet anyway. Now get under the covers and let me take care of you the rest of the day.” He kisses along my neck, and I melt into his embrace. “If you get out of bed for anything other than to puke or use the bathroom, I’ll tie you down to the bed.”
I push against his chest, and he just grins at me.
“You can’t keep me in bed all day and night.”
“Wanna bet?” I raise an eyebrow at him, and he just grins. “Let me take care of you. I’ll keep you hydrated, fed, and fucked thoroughly all day long.”
“You are insane.”
“Eh, maybe. But I already told you, I’d do anything for you Cam.”
“I know,” I whisper. My hand inches to reach out and touch him. Sliding under the covers, I cuddle into his side. He presses his lips to my forehead, and I close my eyes. Sager Stone loves me, and no matter what disaster happens next, I know that I’ll always have a safe place to run to.
Now if I could just end things with Alec so I don’t have to lie or cheat anymore. I want to be able to live without all the stress that has been piling up on me over the last seven months.