Chapter 15
It’s like it’s a dream repeating over and over in my head, I can’t believe this happened, I should have known better.
I push the door open, nothing could prepare me for what I’m about to see. Ace lying in bed with Porsche wrapped around him sleeping.
What the fuck? My eyes start to burn; my hand goes right to my stomach, I feel sick, knowing everything he has told me was a lie, what pisses me off is that Mark was right about him, he would get bored of me, and it seems like he already has.
I hear talking and a beeping noise around me. My eyelids are so heavy, I try to open them but they don’t budge. What the hell happened to me, I feel like I got hit by a cement wall?
I try to move my arm and legs, but my body doesn’t seem to want to move. My chest hurts. I try to open my eyes once more, I force with all my strength to open them; it takes a couple tries but I blink slowly, the bright lights, blinding me.
It looks to be as if I’m in a hospital, but I don’t remember coming here or being brought here. I try to think back, I groan as my head starts to pound.
My hand goes to my stomach, I feel as I’m going to be sick, trying to speak; my voice comes out low and scratchy. Where are the voices from earlier, they were just in the room a second ago.
Just as I try to move to sit up, the door opens. Ace walks in, what is he doing here? We have nothing to do with each other anymore, he cheated on me. I’m not sure what to say to him, there’s nothing left to say. I caught him in bed with her. I feel the emotions come bubbling up as flashbacks of seeing him in bed with Porsche hit me.
He comes up beside the bed; he reaches for my hand. I move it just before he gets the chance to touch me, I don’t need his pity. I don’t need anything from him. If I’m here, my hand goes right to my stomach as my face falls, my baby. Please let my baby still be there.
As if he can read my mind, “Don’t worry, the baby is fine!” He says as he sits on the edge of the bed. What the hell did he just say, how does he know I’m pregnant?
“Ummm…How do you know I’m pregnant?” I ask my voice void of emotion as I lift my head high. I look at him closely; I can see the darkness around his eyes.
“The doctor wouldn’t let us know anything unless we were family, so I told them I’m your fiancée.” He mentions as he sighs running his hands over his face.
“You really scared me Peaches. When I got the call from Blaze saying there was an accident and you and Tammy were brought to the hospital. My whole life flashed before my eyes,” he says softly as he tries to reign in his emotions.
I close my eyes trying to remember the accident but nothing comes to me, I don’t remember what happened. Knowing that my baby is okay puts me at ease. I don’t know what I would do if I lost this little precious miracle inside of me, this is the only part of Ace I will ever have now. I might not be ready to be a mother but who is really ever ready?
“Alison, I want to explain what happened when you showed up at the clubhouse the other day,” he says as he looks at me, checking to see my reaction but you know what I won’t give him the satisfaction. I keep my emotions at bay, my face goes blank, and I don’t say anything.
“Alison, please say something,” he whispers softly as his eyes glaze over. I truly love Ace, but what he has done to me is unforgivable, my heart is broken in two, and he thinks he can just explain that it was a mistake, and he didn’t mean it. It’s like Mark all over again.
The hurt and betrayal is worse with Ace then it was with Mark; I thought I truly loved Mark, but I didn’t. Ace is the man who stolen my whole heart and he is the one to shattered it to pieces.
I sigh as he continues to speak but I sit there looking down at my hands, not trusting myself not to cave if I look into his eyes.
“That afternoon, I was at the clubhouse…I had a few drinks, then I went back to my room for a nap. Next thing I’m butt naked, which I don’t understand because I was too buzzed to even walk straight. I remember hitting the bed and passing right out.” He takes a moment, swallowing roughly.
“Next thing I know is that Porsche is in my room, and Viper is shouting at me. I never slept with Porsche, Alison. I swear it on Pop’s life, I didn’t even touch her,” he mutters out as he grabs my hand rubbing his thumb over the back of my hand.
I’m torn, even if he hasn’t slept with her. I could have lost the baby. Porsche will always be there no matter what. I don’t know if I can live with the fact that I have to worry every time I’m not with him. That’s not a relationship.
Ace leans forward and kisses my forehead, and I break, “Ace, please leave,” I stutter out as I try to stop myself from crying. He backs away and looks at me bewildered. I can’t deal with this right now, he needs to leave.
“What do you mean you want me to leave?” he asks as he reaches for me, I move away from his touch, I wince as my body is stiff from lying in this bed God knows how long. .He sighs as he gets up from the edge of the bed.
“Alison, I’m not sure what to do here. I’ve told you already what happened, which is nothing.” He paces in front of the bed shaking his head as he goes.
“Ace, I’m sorry…I really am, but I can’t do this right now. This is all too much,” I coax out hoping he will do as I say and leave for now before I have a full-out breakdown in front of him.
My monitor starts beeping wildly, Ace’s head snaps up to looking at my monitor to see what’s happening.
Then a nurse comes rushing in, and she looks between us both before walking over to the monitor.
“Alison, your heart rate is a little high, you need to calm down and relax,” she says as she checks my IV’s.
“Please ask him to leave,” I whisper out, hoping she can help me but as I look over at Ace, anguish written all over his face.
“Sir, I’m going to have to ask you to leave,” she tells him.
I close my eyes as I reopen them, looking at the same place where Ace was standing just seconds before, he’s gone. I’m not sure how to feel right now; did I want him to fight harder to stay? Of course, but I can’t beat this dread feeling in the pit of my stomach.
The nurse attending to me gives a sympatric smile as she leaves the room. As soon as she shuts the door, I burst into tears. I can’t hold them back any longer.
Being alone in this room, I think about everything that has happened in the last few days and I’m terrified, wondering what will happen next. I’m not sure where to go from here.
I don’t know how long I cry for, but I’m snapped out of my crying fit when there’s a knock on the door. I wipe the tears from my eyes with my palms.
“Come in,” I say as I take a deep breath trying to sit up a little more. I place my hand back to push myself up; the pillow slides from underneath my hands, and I slip a little cursing at my sore body. Blaze sees I’m in distress and comes right to my side.
“Are you okay?” he asks as he grabs some tissues off the table that’s beside the bed.
“You want to tell me why you’re crying?” he stands in front of me, grabbing my hand giving me reassurance that everything will be okay.
“Ummm…” My voice cracks.
“Ace stopped by and tried to tell me what happened between Porsche and him…But I couldn’t listen, with everything that has happened I can’t…I just can’t!” I exclaim as my voice gets lower, barely noticeable.
Blaze sighs as he carefully sits on the edge of the bed, “I understand Alison, and don’t worry. I’m sure Ace understands perfectly,” he mentions. I’m not sure what else to say, so I nod my head.
I ask Blaze what happened. He replays everything to me about the accident, I shiver when he tells me about the piece of glass in my chest… Tammy’s head smashed the window on the driver’s side. We were upside down for a few minutes before the ambulance showed up.
Blaze was there the entire time, hearing him re-play the events of the accident; a soft whimper leaves my throat.
Blaze brings me against him for a friendly hug, whispering softly into my ear telling me everything will be okay. Just as I calm down, Blaze leans away from me a bit.
“Ace has been here since he found out about the accident; he really loves you, Alison,” he mentions, and my heart tightens.
Knowing that Ace has been here, and I couldn’t even bare to talk to him, I should of tried to talk to him.
“You should give Ace a chance Alison. I know what you walked in on hurt you, but from my understanding nothing happened and that bitch Porsche has been thrown out of the club because of it,” he says as he stares at me, gauging my reaction.
“Porsche has been thrown out of the clubhouse?” I ask, I’m praying I heard him right. He nods his head. I’m torn as to what I should do, should I forget the whole thing and take him back no questions asked? I sigh leaning my head back on the pillow.
“I will think about it,” I utter out.
“How is Viper holding up? I know they aren’t together anymore, but I just want to know…Has he been here to see her,” I ask as I look up at Blaze.
He clears his throat, rubbing his hands on his pants “Well Viper has taken a pretty hard hit with all this,” he mentions.
“He hasn’t left Tammy’s side unless it was to go to the washroom which is only a few feet away,” he adds giving a small laugh shaking his head.
“He must really love her,” I say as I groan from moving as I try to sit up a little higher.
“Are you ready? Are you in any pain? Do you need the nurse?” he shoots out quick looking wide-eyed as he panics, I shake my head.
“No. I don’t want pain meds because of the baby. I’m fine Blaze don’t worry.” I exclaim. I narrow my eyes daring him to say something; he opens his mouth but snaps it shut, deciding not to say any more on it. Good boy!
My parents pop up in my mind, shit I need to call them and let them know what happened. I look at the phone and back to Blaze.
“Ummm…Blaze can you pass the phone please. I need to call my parents to let them know what happened,” I utter as I getting emotional as I figure out how to tell them Tammy, and I are in the hospital. That Tammy is in a coma, and I’m pregnant… This is not going to go over well.
Blaze shakes his head, “Your parents were already contacted when you were brought in,” he mentions.
“Well I have to get going, your parents are here actually they were in earlier, but you were still out of it. Let’s just say your parents are going to have questions about your relationship with Ace,” he says as he stares at me with a raised brow.
“Your father didn’t seem too pleased finding out that Ace; the VP of a motorcycle club is the father… But seeing the tattoo on your father's arm, I must say he's a bit of a hypocrite if you ask me,” he mentions as I cock my head to the side, looking at him like he’s grown another head. What the hell does he mean he’s being a hypocrite?
“What do you mean he's a hypocrite?” I ask him as I stare at him, confused by his comment. He shifts from foot to foot looking anywhere but me.
“Ummm…Your father should be the one to tell you, but I know if I don’t you will never leave it alone,” he sighs as he runs his hand through his hair.
“Alison, your father was in an MC before you were born.” Just hearing those words, my eyes widen. No, there’s no way my father was in an MC before I was born. He doesn’t have a mean bone in his body.
“What?” I snap out as I grab my head and groan.
There’s a knock on the door, Blaze turns and looks at the door waiting to see who it is, “Come in” I say softly.
The door opens, and my parents are in the doorway my mother’s eyes are red and puffy from crying, as soon as she looks at me she starts to cry. My father’s eyes are red and glossy; you can tell this has been hard on him. I don’t ever recall seeing my father cry, seeing his eyes glossy as he tries to hold back his tears, makes my break down.
“Oh daddy,” I sob out as he walks over to me and places his arms around me.
“Daddy’s here, baby girl…Shhh…Everything’s going to be fine,” he whispers as he holds me close.
My parents stick around in my room for a bit before returning to check on Tammy before they head back to their hotel room. I ask my father why he never mentioned he was in a MC. He tells me he didn’t want to mention it because he got out of it when Tammy was born, he didn’t want us to know about.
My parents met when my father was the VP in an MC, but things were pretty rough at first for my parents. My mother wasn’t a club whore or anything; they met when my mother decided to go to one of their parties they were having with a friend of hers.
Supposedly it was love at first sight. My mother’s parents didn’t approve of my father being in an MC and disowned my mother.
My father took care of her and loved her, finding out their story; maybe I shouldn’t have judged Ace so quickly.
I’ve been in the hospital for two days since I woke up from the accident, I’m going stir crazy. I need to get home and out of this hospital gown. I need to be in my nice comfortable bed, not this hard mattress I’ve been on. Jesus, my back is killing me.
I can’t wait to get home, take a nice long hot shower. Wash away the aches and pains in my back and this disgusting hospital smell.
I got news this morning when I woke up, that Tammy has woken up. I’m thrilled, to say the least. I was so worried that Tammy wouldn’t wake up from the coma. With how bad the swelling got, they weren’t sure if she would wake up for another two weeks.
I prayed and prayed for her to wake up, and it seems my prayers were answered. I haven’t had the chance to go and see her yet since she’s been up. My parents have been to see her and they warned me that she doesn’t remember much about anything except my parents and me. She has memory loss.
Hearing my parents say she has memory loss, my heart hurts for Viper. My parents told me that when she woke up and Viper was by her side asking her if she was okay. She replied that her head hurt and when he went to touch her face she shied away from his touch. Viper was confused by that and asked why she moved away from him, and she said ‘I’m sorry, but who are you?’ And right there my parents said that his shoulders dropped, and the look on his face was pure hopelessness.
I hope my sister gets her memories back soon. I know Viper loves her and Tammy well she’s just stubborn but I know she loves him too, even if she won’t admit it. Her not remembering him has got to be hitting him hard. He told her everything about them. But still, there was nothing… It’s like her memory was wiped clean of him.
I get dressed in the clothes my parents brought me this morning. I put on the shoes that I was wearing the day of the accident; I’m surprised they aren’t ruined. I look down at my feet, my eyes stop on my flat stomach, where my little precious baby is growing inside of me, placing my protective hand over my stomach.
I smile knowing, I’m going to be a mother. I might have been scared before the accident but now my head is much clearer than it was. I’m not going to live life being scared.
I open the door; I’m going to visit with Tammy. I halt as I come face to face with Blaze.
“Hey, you don’t look like shit today,” he mocks as he snickers, he’s been bugging the crap out of me the past two days, between being stuck here in the hospital and him, I’m going to end up in the loony bin.
I start laughing, shaking my head. I give him an evil smirk as I punch him in the arm.
“Ouch, what did you do that for?” he asks as he rubs his arm. What a big baby, I didn’t even hit him that hard.
“Oh hush, you big baby,” I mock him in return. We’re both laughing as we walk towards Tammy’s room, which is at the end of the hall. I notice her door is open as we walk up, and I hear her speaking to someone when that someone replies to her I know right then its Viper. Of course, he would be here, he hasn’t left her side and now with her memory loss he won’t either. I’m sure he’s trying to jog her memory.
I head into her room; she turns and smiles at me.
“Hey sis, I heard I’m going to be an auntie,” she squeals out as she bouncing up and down on the bed. Nodding my head as I walk over to her, I give her a big hug.
“You’re looking good Tammy,” I say as I hold her hand, Viper staring down at her with so much love in his eyes.
“Viper was just telling me about how we met, but I’m still not able to remember anything,” she says as she frowns, putting her head down like she’s ashamed by not remembering, but it’s not her fault.
I look at Viper and Blaze, who are there talking on the other side of the room, clearing my throat.
“Ummm…Guys, can I have a moment alone with my sister?” I ask.
They both nod and leave, shutting the door behind them. I take a seat on the bed beside Tammy. I mention that she and Viper were together, but she kept pushing him away before, because she was afraid. I tell her that he loves her and that she loves him but her stubborn ass didn’t want to admit it.
I chat a bit with Tammy before Viper comes back with something to eat for, well that’s my cue. I need to get home anyways.
Giving her one last hug, “I love you, Tammy,” I whisper in her ear as she tightens her hug.
“I love you too Ali," she replies as she places her hand on my stomach, “And Auntie Tammy loves you too, Peanut.” My eyes begin to water; I need to get out of this room before I break down crying again. My emotions are all out of whack, hormones…
As I make my way out of her room, I head down the hall back to my room and I see Blaze is waiting for me, “What are you doing here?” I ask warily not sure why he’s waiting here for me.
“Well doll face, I’m your escort home,” he snickers out as he tries to contain his laughter.
Blaze drives me home from the hospital as we pull up at my apartment. Ace is standing there leaning on his bike. I guess I have no choice but to listen to what he has to say. He’s been to the hospital every day I was there, not wanting to leave my side but I couldn’t deal with him being there. It was all too much to bear.
Now my head is clearer than it has been, so I have to see what we can do about all this mess. Finding out that Porsche has been kicked out of the club makes me do the happy dance inside. But at the same time did Ace do that because I caught them in the act?
I’m so confused. I’m unclear with what to do. Should I believe him or just cut my losses? It’s a tough decision considering he’s the father of my baby.
I dismount Blaze’s bike, stepping away from him, “Are you going to be okay?” he asks as he nods towards Ace, who stepped away from his bike and walking towards us. I nod my head.
“Thank you for the ride Blaze,” I say as he gets on his bike, and peels out of the driveway leaving me alone with Ace.
“You look good,” Ace mentions as he looks me over to see if I’m in any pain, his eyes linger on my stomach for a few brief moments before, he looks up at me.
“Thanks.” I utter out as I make my way past him to the door, Ace following close behind me.
“Can we talk, Peaches?” he asks as he places his hand on my shoulder, stopping me from walking away from him.
I let out a soft sigh as I come to a halt, turning to face the father of my baby, the man that I’m in love with… But all I can see is flashes of him and Porsche in bed together as I look at him. I blink my eyes repeatedly to get the images to disappear; he stands there looking so broken.
I take a good look at him, he looks thinner; he looks like he hasn’t had a good night sleep in days, he has huge bags underneath his eyes. My eyes take him in, and I feel myself softening at his appearance, knowing he has been affected by all this as well.
I place my hand in his, giving a light squeeze as I walk towards my apartment, holding his hand in mine. I give him a reassuring smile.
I need to show him that I can forgive him, even if nothing happened… He needs to know that I’m willing to work to save our relationship. I need to know if he will be here for the baby. Even if we might not get back together I need to know that I have his support.
As I open the apartment door, I sigh as I make my way towards the kitchen to get something to drink. Ace closes the door, removing his boots, placing the on the mat. He follows me into the kitchen a few minutes later.
We stand there in silence, staring at each other. I’m taken back by the intensity of his stare. My eyes start to get dry itchy even, from not blinking as we continue to do our little staring contest. I blink my eyes multiple times, clearing my throat. I think we’ve stared at each other plenty.
“Are you able to wait for a bit while a take a shower? I need to wash away the hospital smell.” I place the bottle of water on the counter. I can’t wait to get under the warm water, soothe my sore muscles.
“Sure, take your time. We’ll will after you get out.” He shifts from side to side, looking around the kitchen as if he is unsure what to say.
“Can I wait in your room?” he asks warily. I nod my head
“Sure, I shouldn’t be too long,” I mention as I walk passed him, heading to my room to get a change of clothes. He follows me into the room and takes a seat on my head.
He grabs my hand as I walk by him to go to the bathroom, stopping me “I love you Peaches, I truly do,” His voice cracks as if he’s trying to hold back a sob, that wants to break out of his throat.
My throat tightens as I hold back my tears, “I love you too Ace, I never stopped. Even when I saw you in bed with Porsche… Yes it broke my heart, but I still love you.” I don’t say anymore as he releases my hand. I make my way to the bathroom closing the door behind me; I grab two towels behind the door. I take a deep breath in and blowing it out as I try to calm myself.
As I turn on the shower, I let it warm up as I remove my clothing. I place them in the hamper in the corner of the bathroom. Stepping under the spray, I groan as I feel the warm water rolling down my achy muscles. Soaking my hair, I reach for my shampoo, working the shampoo into my hair, after rinsing my hair. I grab the body wash and sponge, rubbing it between my hands, making sure it’s lathered up. I wash my body, scrubbing my face.
I turn the water off, reaching for the towel wrapping it around my head. Stepping out I grab another towel wrapping it around my now relaxed body.
As I stand in front of the mirror, I clear the condensation with my hand. I stare at myself in the mirror brushing my teeth my mind wanders around two things. How did I get here? Being pregnant, and being in a complicated relationship. Drying myself, I grab my clothes from the counter and get dress quickly. Once I’m done I head back to my room where Ace is now lying down with his eyes closed. I hear light snores… He fell asleep.
I don’t want to wake him; it seems he hasn’t slept much in the past few days, I’m pretty tired myself. I lay beside Ace closing my eyes drifting off to sleep within a matter of minutes.
I awaken from movement beside me; I’m not sure how long I’ve been asleep for. Opening my eyes I look down and see Ace’s arm on my hip with his hand protectively on my stomach, I smile at the tiny gesture of his hand resting on my flat stomach.
I try to move, but he pulls me in closer to him.
“Ace,” I whisper softly trying to wake him, he groans stirring a bit but he doesn’t wake up, shit. “Ace,” I whisper a little louder than before. He still hasn’t moved his arm, I slap his arm lightly, “Ace,” I repeat once more. He mumbles something I can’t make out, shaking him again.
“Peaches, I love you baby, don’t ever leave me.” Giggling to myself, it’s cute to know that he was dreaming about me.
“Ace,” I snap, he jots up in the bed looking around shaking his head.
“Shit, Sorry I must have fell asleep,” he mumbles out.
“Don’t worry you needed the rest.” I sit up and move to the edge of the bed, stretching as I get up.
“You said you wanted to talk.” I turn on the bed to face him. He looks up at me and scrubs the sleep off his face.
“Yeah… I wanted to talk to you about when you came by the clubhouse and saw Porsche in bed with me. I want to make sure you know that, absolutely NOTHING happened. I swear!” he replies warily as he looks at me.
“Porsche has been banned from the clubhouse. She is no longer welcome there, and will never be allowed to step foot back there ever.”
Hearing those words, my gut tightens; I know he’s telling the truth, Blaze mentioned that she has been kicked out. But at the same time I’m hesitant about it, just because she’s gone, doesn’t mean that one of the other girls won’t take her place.
“I understand everything you're telling me, and I believe you when you say nothing happened with Porsche.” He lets out a huge sigh of relief.
“But I’m not sure if I can handle all the women throwing themselves at you left and right when I’m not there. I can’t be stressing over it and with the baby… I don’t want our baby to grow up seeing all the whores running around.” His face drops as the words leave my mouth.
“I don’t want to worry about another Porsche coming along,” I add.
“Peaches, you don’t have to worry about all that, I will make sure that all the girls are wearing clothes at all times. Hell I will even have the club cleaned up. I want you Alison and only you; I could care less about all the other girls at the club.” He reaches for my hand bringing it close to his mouth, placing a gentle kiss on the back of my hand.
I smile as his lips touch my skin, “Okay… I’m holding you to your word Ace. We can try being together.” I hope I don’t regret this decision.
He jumps up off the bed, coming around to my side looking at me with such excitement in his eyes, “Really?”
Nodding my head, he picks me up and spins me around. “You won’t regret this, Peaches. I love you and the baby so much already.” I laugh as he places kisses all over my face. He grabs both sides of my face, kissing me deeply. My heart feels like it’s going a mile a minute, I’m so happy to have him in my arms again.
Waking up beside Alison is amazing, being in bed with her sleeping peacefully beside me with my hand on her stomach, where my son or daughter is growing inside her. It makes my day.
After telling her nothing happened with Porsche, I’m praying to God she knows I’m telling the truth. When she told me she’s worried about all the women being around. She’s afraid about another Porsche coming along. When she mentions that, my life literally flashed before my eyes.
I rush to tell her I will do anything, make sure the girls are dressed at all times when out around the clubhouse, the place will be cleaned every day. And hearing her whispering those words ‘Okay….. I’m holding you to your word Ace. We can try again being together’ hearing those sweet words escape her mouth, I wanted to yell out and kiss the living shit out of her. Man, I love this woman.
“Ummm…Ace I know I told you we can try, but can you please give me some alone time. I want to be alone right now,” she asks as she brushes her hair behind her ear rolling her lips between her teeth, as she stares at me.
I know she’s had a hard couple of days with everything, I know we can’t just forget nothing happened and jump right in where we left off.
“Sure, I understand. Text if anything comes up.” I give her a kiss on the forehead and I head out of her apartment.
Throwing my leg over my bike, I turn the key, the purr of engine as I rev it, God nothing sounds better, well besides Alison’s sweet moans. I pull away from Alison’s apartment and head in the direction of the hospital to check on Viper. Hopefully, things work out for them; he has been so broken up since she woke up and didn’t remember him. I felt horrible for him, I can’t even think of how I would feel if Alison didn’t remember me.
As I pull up to the hospital, I park my bike. I head inside, I walk over to the elevator, pushing the button to the floor Tammy’s on.
As I make my way towards her room, I notice her door is closed; I don’t bother knocking because she must be sleeping, and I don’t want to wake her up if I knock. What I see when I open the door, puts the biggest smile on my face. Viper’s leaning over Tammy kissing her, as she holds onto the front of his shirt, moaning softly. Well that is my cue to leave.
Well, I guess they worked some stuff out, smirking as I shake my head, I close the door lightly.
I guess I will be heading to the clubhouse to get some more sleep. I feel asleep on Alison’s bed, she was only gone for twenty minutes. I must have been more tired than I thought. I wish I could sleep beside Alison, I feel at ease with her beside me as I sleep. I shoot her a quick text.
Ace- : I just checked in on Viper and Tammy, everything is good. I’m going to head to the club and try to get some more sleep. Remember if you need anything let me know.
A few moments later there’s a ding on my phone.
Alison- : Thanks for letting me know about Tammy. I hope you can get some more sleep. You need your rest. Don’t worry, if I need anything I will text you.
Once I get to my room, I crash on the bed. Just as my head hits the pillow; I’m out like a light.