Keir

She’s been here all of thirty seconds and already I’ve had to remind myself a half a dozen times that I won’t be sliding my hand between her thighs under this crisp white table cloth anytime soon.

“What made you change your mind?” I ask Saturday night when Rowan takes the chair across from me at a table for two in one of the most exclusive DC restaurants. A candle flickers between us, nestled next to a small vase with fresh pink roses.

So fucking cheesy.

“Does it matter?” she asks, placing her napkin across her lap and glancing over the centerpiece.

“Not really.” Honestly.

A smirk claims her pretty red lips.

In my experience, when a woman wears red lipstick, she has no intentions of kissing you.

Too messy.

Fuck.

It’s okay. We can take this slow. I don’t want to make any sudden moves and scare her off just when I’m beginning to get her where I want her.

Our server brings a bottle of red and pours our drinks, and I manage not to say, “About fucking time” out loud. When she’s finally finished pouring a year later, she takes our orders.

“Where’d you go to college?” I ask, pretending I don’t already know.

I know everything about this woman, or at least everything the private investigator Connor hired could dig up on her. Her kindergarten teacher’s name was Mrs. Abbott. She went on a trip to Seattle with her middle school class and ended up getting sick with the flu halfway through. When she was fifteen, she got her braces off. Her family has a house in the Hamptons, Sarasota, Florida, and Potomac. She has four brothers and sisters.

Etc, etc, etc.

Boring, boring, boring.

“Wellesley,” she says. “You?”

“Dartmouth.”

“God, we sound pretentious,” she says, exhaling. “I hate it.”

“I’m sure you could’ve gone anywhere,” he says. “Obviously you chose Wellesley. Own it.”

“No, no, no,” she says, waving her finger. “I had no choice in the matter. It was my mother’s alma mater. They practically begged her to send me. Gave me a full ride and everything. They thought the publicity would be good. Turns out nobody there cared or even knew who I was, and enrollment for those first four years was stagnant, but hey, my parents got out of paying tuition, so it worked out.”

“Nothing ever really turns out the way we plan,” I say.

The blues of her irises flicker in the candlelight. “Isn’t that the truth.”

Our food arrives a few minutes later. Ordinarily, I request rushed orders. I don’t like to linger in restaurants too long. I don’t like the way the smell seeps into my suits and skin and hair. And I don’t like to wait.

I didn’t request a rush this time, though. I needed to spend time with her. Talk to her. Get to know her as Connor said.

But they rushed our order anyway, the presumptive assholes.

Rowan holds the fork in her left hand and the knife in her right as she cuts a clean piece of chicken from her plate. Her fingers are dainty and delicate, and there’s a thin gold bracelet on her left wrist that catches the light. Everything about her is radiant, polished.

“You seem really at home here,” I say. “With the fine dining, I mean.”

“That’s a weird thing to say.” She brings her wine to her lips.

Jesus, I sound like a fucking moron. Where the hell is my game?

“What I mean is, it’s hard to find a woman who knows her way around a well-set table,” I say. “Most of the time they mix up the bread plates and can’t tell the difference between a salad fork and a dinner fork. I appreciate a woman who can comfortably dine in a fine restaurant.”

She lifts a brow. “The better to please you, Keir.”

Rowan’s got a smart mouth. I like that.

“How’s the steak?” she asks. Her question makes me feel like we’re somewhere between friend zone and old married couple status.

“Perfection,” I answer, sawing off another piece of this melt-in-your-mouth filet. “What do you want to do after this?”

Her eyes widen. She clearly expects our date to end the moment the check is paid, but I’m not going to let her go that easily.

Before she gets a chance to respond, a bright flash lights up the space around us, temporarily blinding me. As soon as I regain my sight, I spot a teenage girl eating dinner with her family and sitting at the table across from us. She pretends like she didn’t just take our picture, and I pretend like I’m not about to request her parents to remove her cell phone for the remainder of this dinner.

One of my agents glances at me and I shake my head. The normal protocol would be for him to snatch her phone from her hand, delete any and all photos of me, and swiftly hand it back with a stern warning.

But I told them before we arrived that I didn’t want to make any scenes tonight, not in front of Rowan.

I’m used to living my life in the spotlight. She probably isn’t, at least not to this extent, and that could be a deal breaker.

Rowan shakes her head. “How does it feel? When people take your picture all the time? Seems invasive.”

“I don’t even notice it anymore,” I lie, deciding not to elaborate on the fact that I kind of like the attention. I’ve been blessed with a photogenic face and a professionally styled wardrobe. I’ve yet to take a bad picture. No bad pictures mean I have nothing to worry about. Let them snap away. “Besides, I’m sure several people around here have already taken our photo, they were just intelligent enough to turn the flash off.”

“Really?” She glances down as if she’s pondering what this might mean to her.

“It’ll be uploaded to Reddit or Twitter or something by tonight,” I add. “Might even go viral. Everyone’s going to want to know who you are.”

I swear I see a hint of a smile on her lips for zero point seven seconds, but then it’s gone.

Is she … is she happy about being in the spotlight?

Maybe I misjudged her?

Or maybe I imagined the smirk.

“Anyway.” She waves her hand. “How’s your brother? Are you two close?”

“He moved west,” I say. “He’s doing well.”

I leave it at that. My family needs to seem normal and functional because that’s what she grew up with, that’s what she’s used to. She doesn’t bring up the tell-all book and I don’t either.

“He’s married now,” I say. “To an actress.”

… who used to be an escort …

Chuckling to myself at how my idiot, pussy-whipped brother dethroned himself, I shake my head.

“What?” she asks. “What’s so funny?”

“Nothing. Was just thinking about something he said to me the last time we talked, that’s all,” I lie once more. “What about you? Any siblings besides Hannah?”

Her head cocks. “You said you knew my parents and they told you about me. I’m sure then that you know they have five kids.”

This woman doesn’t miss a thing.

“That’s right. I remember now. It was just that they spoke so highly of you. Seemed like you were their pride and joy. It was all they could talk about. You were overseas at the time, right?”

She nods.

I think she buys it.

We finish our meals, taking small bites between small talk, and when we’re finished, Secret Service escorts us to my waiting Cadillac, rushing through a throng of sidewalk gawkers with their phones held out.

“You never said where you wanted to go after this,” I tell her once we pull into the street a minute later.

Her mouth presses into a straight line and she turns toward me, half squinting. “Home.”

I don’t want to push, but for fuck’s sake, I’m not going to get anywhere if she pulls this homebody shit.

“You didn’t enjoy yourself tonight?” I ask. I’ll admit the conversation was dull and boring and typical, but I had no choice. I want to seem like a safe choice, a changed man. I need her to take a chance on me.

“I did. Thank you,” she says. “But this is where it ends.”

“It’s a Saturday night. At least have a drink with me somewhere. Let me show you off.”

Rowan gives me an apologetic half smile. “It’s been a day. Kind of just want to unwind. Get out of this dress. These heels that are killing my feet. Maybe put on a good movie. Pass out on the couch.”

Sounds really fucking lame.

“I should have told you …” she says. “I recently got out of a long-term relationship. It’s been hard. Harder than I expected. It was sudden, and I’m still working through it.”

“So you’re going to let him turn you into a sad, sorry shut-in while he’s out there living the dream? Rowan. Please. Have a little respect for yourself.”

“I’m allowed to be sad. To mourn. We were together almost two years and he ended it just like that. Without so much as a warning.” There’s a bit of defensiveness in her tone, and I remind myself to tread lightly here. “Anyway, this is healthy and normal. I should know. My parents wrote a book on it.”

I turn away so I can roll my eyes.

The SUV slows to a stop outside her building and the guys climb out of the car behind us and get her door.

“Goodnight, Keir. Thanks again for a nice time.” Rowan smiles, but there’s melancholy in her pale gaze. She’s going through the motions, she doesn’t mean any of it.

I begin to climb out as well until she stops me.

“You don’t need to walk me in,” she says before shutting the door.

There’s no, “See you next time” or “Text me when you want to go out again.”

She’s just … gone.

And I’m back to square fucking one.