The silence between Skye and me grows thick and heavy with tension. Unfortunately, for both of us, this time it’s not sexual tension. The plane’s engines grow louder and louder, and the jet begins to coast down the runway.

“What you mean, like this?” I repeat.

Skye chews her bottom lip. She seems tense, maybe unsure whether to delve any further.

“This,” she whispers, waving her arm around my jet’s luxuriously appointed interior. “All of this. I want you to be different, Harlan. I want you to be open to me, to us, because otherwise, what is this except a fling, an affair?”

I frown, slightly offended. “What do you mean? I am being open.”

Skye actually laughs.

Her face lights up with a smile, and I see the most beautiful girl in the world. Her blue eyes seem to glow as she looks at me, and then the laughter fades, and the warmth in her eyes dies with it.

“No, you’re not,” she says. “This is the exact opposite, Harlan – don’t you see that?”

I feel on unsteady ground for the first time in a long time. Ninety-nine percent of the time, I’m the most powerful person in any room. But in this arena – a stadium of emotion and fear and – I’ll admit it, even in the silence of my own head, a desire for Skye, a longing to know her better, I’m nothing more than a novice.

“No,” I admit.

“It’s you, Harlan,” Skye says, pausing for a second as if she’s straining to figure out the best way to say what’s on her mind. “You have this – this shell built up around you. It’s like you built a wall, and you’ll do anything to avoid letting people in.”

I stay quiet. What Skye’s staying is uncomfortably close to a truth I know – but have never really admitted, not even to myself.

“I want you, Harlan,” Skye says frankly. “Ever since the first moment you walked into my office, I’ve imagined the two of us together.” She flinches, as if she’s only realized that right now for the first time.

“But I can’t have you like this. I don’t want you like this. I want you to –,” she winces, “to fuck me, Harlan. I want you to take me to a place I know only you can. But I won’t just be a one night stand. I can’t just be a one night stand.”

“You won’t – ”

Skye cuts me off with a bitter laugh, and it cuts deep because I know she’s right.

“I will,” she says with brutal honesty.

“That’s exactly what I’ll be – because, unless you open up to me, unless you admit how you became the man you are, then I’ll never know the real you. I can’t bear that, Harlan. I can’t bear being so close, and yet so far.”

Skye slumps back, as though that admission took all the energy she had.

I believe it.

I feel drained as well, because Skye Warren is right. I brought her here – onto this jet – to impress her.

The story about the share price – that was true. But it was a half-truth at best. I could’ve met her in any one of a dozen apartments across Manhattan, had someone pick her up and spirit her to me in complete secrecy.

No, the reason she’s here – on my plane – is I thought that by dangling this shiny object in front of her, I could buy her trust – buy her desire.

But Skye’s not like that. She’s better than that.

Better than me.

That’s the truth, and it hurts. But I can rise to the challenge she’s setting up for me without knowing she’s thrown down the gauntlet.

Or does she know it?

Maybe I don’t give her enough credit. Maybe Skye knows exactly what she’s doing.

Maybe this is what she planned all along.

I take off my jacket, eyes fixed on Skye, but looking at a place a continent away – a dusty place, full of bombs, bullets, and men with guns. I feel the warmth of Skye’s gaze upon me – curious, now – but I don’t see it.

“You know where I served,” I say. My voice sounds quiet, as though I’m speaking from the bottom of a well. “You know there are things I can’t tell you.”

I pause. One heartbeat. Two heartbeats.

“But there are other things… that I can.”

“At your own pace, Harlan,” Skye says softly. Her voice is calming, almost singsong. I latch on to it, let it guide me. “Just tell me what you feel comfortable sharing.”

My mind idly wonders whether this is what she sounds like when she’s conducting a session – without realizing that’s exactly what she’s doing.

“I’ve killed men,” I admit.

“How many billionaires out there can say that? Sometimes I sit around a boardroom table, and I feel like a stranger. I feel like I don’t belong. How can these people understand what I’ve experienced? Do they even try?”

Skye stays silent. I’m glad of it. Strangely speaking those words was a relief. I’ve kept this heavy truth bundled inside me for far too long. There’s no one I’m able to share it with – my daughter?

No way.

“I’ve had brothers die in my arms. I’ve called down airstrikes on my own position, knowing that I could die, but accepting it because my men would be saved.”

“And –?”

“How did that make me feel?” I spit bitterly, anticipating Skye’s question. My eyes are closed now, and I can smell the cordite in the air now, and hear the helicopters clattering in the distance.

“I wasn’t going to say it in so many words,” Skye says softly. “But your way works too, I guess…”

In spite of myself – and the seriousness of what I’m talking about, I can’t help but smile. Skye didn’t start all this by taking my shit, and she sure as hell isn’t planning to start now.

“It made me feel like shit,” I admit. “Powerless. I resolved that I was never going to feel that way again.”

Something – I don’t know – flashes inside of me. It’s like a light bulb switching on. I feel a kind of lightness inside me, but I can’t for the life of me work out why.

“And that,” Skye says, “is the heart of it, isn’t it? It’s why you are the way you are. It’s why you try to control the world around you – why you try to control me.”

“I – ”

The second word of my protest – don’t – dies in my throat. It dies because I know that Skye is right. This whole trip – this whole time, I’ve been trying to control this beautiful, fiery headed, fiery souled woman.

And this whole time, whether I realized it or not, she’s been controlling me. Shaping the way I think, shaping the way I feel. My eyes are already shut, but I let the darkness envelop me in a desperate attempt to hide from my embarrassment.

I’ve been such an ass.

“Don’t try and deny it,” Skye says. But her voice isn’t hectoring, it isn’t accusing. In fact it’s masterfully pitched. Whoever hired her got one thing right. She’s the goddamn best in the business.

“Okay,” I breathe.

In truth, I’m bristling. Bristling from the memories of the things I’ve been through, bristling from the memories of the men – and women – I left behind.

“Tell me the truth, Harlan.”

“The truth?”

I hear her nodding. Or maybe I imagine it – but I’m sure that my ears pick up the sound of her hair whispering as it kisses her face.

“Tell me the thing you’re hiding from me. The thing you’re hiding from yourself. Whatever it is, I don’t care. You’ll never be able to move past your –,” her voice breaks, “issues without coming to terms with it.”

I pause for a second. Somehow, perhaps in the way Skye said those words, she gave me an insight. I think when she speaks, she reveals as much about herself as about me.

My throat is gripped by a sudden burst of emotion the likes of which I haven’t felt in years.

I’m Harlan Wolfe. I’m cold, ruthless – a killer. I’m the kind of man who’s deadly for America’s enemies, and now I’m as ruthless when I make money in her markets.

And yet today, with Skye by my side, I’m a different Harlan Wolfe. I’m the kind of man not afraid to give into my emotions. The kind of man who’s afraid, that if he doesn’t give in, then the goodness in his life will seep through his cupped hands. I don’t mean my money:

my daughter.

“I –,” I take a deep breath, preparing myself for a truth that no one in my life – bar one person, one angel – knows.

“You can tell me, Harlan,” Skye whispers.

And in her voice I hear something different than anything I’ve ever heard before – I hear acceptance. I know that no matter what happens in life, Skye will never judge me, not like some. She’s not in it for my money. If she was, she wouldn’t be doing this. She’s doing this because she wants to help.

“I had a wife,” I croak, “Ashley Ward, then Wolfe. She was a medical corpsman, Charlie Company in the Marine Corps 1st Combat Medical. The best woman I’ve ever known.”

To her credit, Skye doesn’t let my revelation interrupt her, not even for a second. She’s just heard my deepest secret without blinking.

“What happened to her? To Ashley?” She asks.

“Her squad was doing a run, clearing IED’s from some dusty road in the middle of fuck nowhere,” I say, losing myself in my past once again.

I hear the satellite phone ringing in my head. I hear the call that gave me the news the turned me into the man I am today.

“They were stretched – too many bombs, too few men and women. They didn’t have enough guns on perimeter security. By the time the quick reaction force got to them, it was too late…”

“Harlan,” Skye whispers. “I’m so sorry…”

I clench my jaw, doing my best to ward off the tears. But it’s useless. I feel like I punctured a dam inside me, and now hot lava streams out of my eyes, and I’m incapable of stopping it.

But I’m glad of one thing. I’m glad Skye hasn’t tried to reassure me with empty words. I’ve had enough people tell me that my wife died a hero. I don’t need that from Skye as well.

“And that’s why you are the way you are,” Skye says.

I’m so wrapped up in my own grief that I’m not sure I’m hearing right, but she sounds closer to me.

“That’s why you built Wolfe Capital – because you felt powerless over the death of your wife. There was nothing you could do to save her. You never wanted to be in that position again.”

I nod, and hot tears drip down my front as they are shaken loose. Now it seems like after a decade of hiding from the truth, now I can’t stop talking.

But there’s one thing I hold back. I’m not sure why – maybe the same need to be in control. I don’t tell her about my daughter. Not yet.

“When I heard the news, I was in the field. I got the hell out, sweet talked and bullied my way onto half a dozen choppers and planes. Benefits of being in spec ops,” I say with black humor coloring my voice, “people think you’re important. That there’s somewhere you’ve got to be.”

My hand grips the seat rest as I remember the hours ticking by. My nails dig into the soft, expensive leather. I smell the aviation fuel on the air, and the sweat of the door gunners. I remember the way the rotor wash kicked up sand into my face, and the way the sun’s fierce heat blasted my cheeks. But more than anything, I remember the feeling of utter powerlessness that consumed me on that long journey.

“I was too late,” I whisper. “I never got to say goodbye. She was medevac’d, made it to the hospital, even. But she’d lost too much blood.” I let out a deep, shaky breath that seems to expel half my body’s heat.

I say it again. “I never got to say goodbye…”

The silence hangs heavy between me and Skye. It takes me a few long, hard seconds to master my breathing, to stop the flow of tears running down my face. When I finally force them open, Skye’s not where I left her, sitting in the plush seat opposite me.

She’s standing in front of me. Her cheeks seem flushed with sadness, her eyes almost as wet as mine.

“Thank you, Harlan,” she says in a broken, yet nevertheless strong voice.

“I need you to know – I can’t be her.”

She takes a pace forward, and then she’s in front of me, and I’m forced to look up to keep my eyes on her face.

“I can’t be Ashley. I can’t be your wife. I can never be that.”

She crouches in front of me.

“But I can be something different, if you’ll let me in?”

She stops, dangling the question in the air like bait to a fish. But there’s nothing dishonest about it. There’s nothing dishonest about Skye, full stop.

She’s right.

She can’t be Ashley. But I can’t have Ashley. I realize that now – and a woman as good as my dead wife would never have wanted me to be lonely all these years.

Because the truth is, no matter how good my life seems, it’s been missing the most important thing.

And if I spend all my days grieving, I’ll never be able to raise my daughter the way she deserves.

I reach forward, cupping Skye’s cheek. God, she looks so damn perfect. I don’t want to screw her, not right now. Hell, that’s the last thing on my mind. I just want to taste her.

to thank her,

to kiss her,

“Thank you,” I croak, from the bottom of my heart.

I know that one conversation one time with one woman won’t be what fixes me. But if anyone can, it’ll be Skye.

I stroke her cheek with my thumb, then push my hand forward, entangling my fingers in her hair. I hold the back of Skye’s head and pull her toward me. She doesn’t resist. Her eyes, now wet, are glistening with an even deeper blue.

I am not afraid to admit it. I’ve never seen a woman as enticing as Skye Warren. Okay – maybe one, but I’m a different man now than I was then.

I’ve seen things, done things that have changed me forever. But if there’s anyone who can lead me out of the darkness, it’s Skye.

I pull her the last couple of inches, and then her lips graze mine. It’s electric. I’ve seen her naked, done things to her that are unspeakable – graphic things.

Yet this, this is different.

This is perfect, because it means something. I feel like we’ve shared a moment that will change both of our lives for the better, forever.

“Thank you, Skye,” I whisper.

I don’t know what I’m thinking her for – for everything, perhaps. Just for being here…

… or maybe this kiss.

Because it’s not like any kiss I ever remember. It’s like we’re made for each other. I pull Skye forward yet more, and rest her on my lap. Her heat blends with mine.

It’s as if we are one person. I wouldn’t change this moment for anything in the world.