Chapter Fourteen
“Giving honor unto the wife, as unto the weaker vessel.”
NEW TESTAMENT, I PETER 3:7
“I’m not marrying anyone.” Madelyne meant to shout her decision, but the words came out strangled. She couldn’t help that, for she finally understood what Duncan meant to do. Gilard might not challenge that decision, but she certainly was going to.
Duncan did seem determined in the matter. He ignored Madelyne’s struggle to get away from him and motioned for the priest to begin the ceremony.
Father Laurance was so flustered, he couldn’t even remember most of the standard phrases, and Madelyne was so incensed, she wasn’t paying the least attention. She was too busy yelling at the man trying to squeeze her to death.
When Madelyne heard Duncan promise to take her as wife, she shook her head. The priest then asked her if she’d have Duncan for husband. Madelyne gave an immediate answer. “Nay, I will not.”
Duncan didn’t care for her answer. He gripped her so tightly, Madelyne thought he was trying to push the bones right out of her.
Duncan grabbed hold of her hair, twisted it back until she was looking up at him. “Answer him again, Madelyne,” Duncan suggested.
The look in his eyes almost changed her determination. “Let go of me first,” she demanded.
Duncan, believing she meant to obey him, released her. His arm settled on top of her shoulders again. “Ask her again,” he told the frazzled priest.
Father Laurance looked ready to faint. He stuttered out the question again.
Madelyne didn’t yell a denial or an acceptance. She didn’t say anything at all. Let them stand there until morning, she didn’t care. No one was forcing her into this mockery.
She hadn’t counted on Gilard’s interference. Madelyne thought he looked as if he wanted to kill Duncan. When his hand went to the handle of his sword, and he took a threatening step forward, she let out an involuntary gasp. Good God, he was going to challenge Duncan. “I do take you, Duncan,” she blurted out. She continued to stare at Gilard, saw the indecision in his eyes, and added, “Willingly do I pledge myself.”
Gilard’s hands dropped back to his sides. Madelyne’s shoulders sagged with relief.
Adela walked over to stand between Edmond and Gilard. She smiled at Madelyne. Edmond was grinning too. Madelyne wanted to scream at both of them. She didn’t dare, what with Gilard looking so crazed.
The priest rushed through the rest of the ceremony. After giving an awkward, backward blessing, he excused himself and rushed out of the room. His color had turned green. The man was obviously terrified of Duncan. She understood that feeling well enough.
Duncan finally let go of Madelyne. She rounded on him then. “This marriage is a mockery,” she whispered so that Gilard wouldn’t hear. “The priest didn’t even give us a proper blessing.”
Duncan had the audacity to smile at her. “You told me you never make mistakes, Duncan. This time you certainly have. Now you’ve gone and ruined your life. And for what purpose? Your vengeance against my brother is endless, isn’t it?”
“Madelyne, the marriage is real enough. Go up to my room and wait for me, wife. I’ll join you soon.”
He deliberately stressed the word wife. Madelyne stared up at him in astonishment. There was a warm glint in his eye now. His room?
Madelyne jumped when Adela touched her on the shoulder, trying to tell her everything would be all right. That was certainly easy enough for her to say; she wasn’t the one bound to a wolf.
She had to get away from all the Wextons. There was so much to think through. Madelyne lifted the skirt of her gown and slowly started to walk out of the room.
Edmond stopped her when she reached the entrance by putting his hand on her arm. “I would welcome you into our family,” he said.
The brother actually looked as though he meant what he said. That infuriated Madelyne almost as much as his horrible smile. She much preferred him scowling at her. “Don’t you dare smile at me, Edmond, or I’ll hit you. Just see if I don’t.”
He looked surprised enough to satisfy her.
“I seem to remember your threat to hit me for just the opposite reason, Madelyne.”
She didn’t have the faintest idea what he was talking about. Nor did she particularly care, for her mind was filled with far more important matters. Madelyne pulled away from Edmond, muttering to herself that she hoped he’d choke on his dinner, and then he walked out of the room.
Gilard tried to go after Madelyne but Edmond grabbed him. “She’s your brother’s wife now, Gilard. Honor that bond.” Edmond kept his voice low so Duncan wouldn’t overhear. The eldest brother had turned his back on them and was staring at the fire again.
“I would have made her happy, Edmond. Madelyne has had so much pain in her life. She deserves to be content.”
“Are you blind, brother? Haven’t you seen the way Madelyne looks at Duncan and the way he stares at her? They care for each other.”
“You’re mistaken,” Gilard answered. “Madelyne hates Duncan.”
“Madelyne doesn’t hate anyone. She isn’t capable of it.” Edmond smiled at his brother. “You just don’t want to admit the truth. Why do you think I’ve been so angry with Madelyne? Hell, I could see the attraction from the beginning. Why, Duncan never left her side when she was so ill.”
“That was only because he felt responsible for her,” Gilard argued.
The youngest brother was trying desperately to hold on to his anger, yet Edmond’s argument was staring to sound reasonable.
“Duncan married Madelyne because he wanted to. You know, Gilard, it’s quite remarkable that our brother married because of love. In these times, that is a rarity. He’ll not gain any lands, only the king’s displeasure.”
“He doesn’t love her,” Gilard muttered.
“Aye, he does,” Edmond contradicted his brother. “He just doesn’t know it yet.”
Duncan’s mind wasn’t on his brothers. He ignored them as he reviewed his plans for tomorrow. The messenger had hinted they’d attack with first light if Madelyne wasn’t given to them. Duncan knew it was a bluff. He was almost disappointed. Aye, he was aching for another battle with anyone pledged to Louddon. However, the paltry assembly freezing their backsides outside his walls wouldn’t be foolish enough to challenge their leader’s petition. They knew they were outnumbered, outskilled. Louddon had probably sent them so that he could stand before his king and show he’d tried to regain his sister back without involving his leader.
Satisfied with his conclusions, Duncan put the matter aside and turned his thoughts to his new life. How long would it take her to accept him as husband? It didn’t make the least difference to him how long it took, he told himself, but the sooner she came to terms with her new life, the better for her own peace of mind.
He felt honor bound to keep her safe. She’d given him her courage and her trust. He couldn’t turn his back on her. Aye, it was a sense of duty that propelled him into this hasty decision. Sending her back to Louddon would be like sending a child into a cage to fight a lion.
“Hell,” he muttered to himself. He’d known from the beginning, when he first touched her, that he’d never let her go. “She is making me daft,” he said, uncaring who overheard.
She did please him. He hadn’t realized just how rigid his life had been, until Madelyne began to interfere. She could get reactions from him with just an innocent look. When he wasn’t thinking about strangling her, he was obsessed with kissing her. It didn’t matter that Louddon was her brother. Madelyne didn’t have his black soul; she was gifted with a pure heart and a capacity for love that rocked all of Duncan’s cynical beliefs.
Duncan smiled. He wondered what state he’d find Madelyne in when he went upstairs. Would she be terrified or would she give him one of her practiced serene expressions again? Would his new wife be a kitten or a tigress?
He left the hall and went in search of Anthony. After listening to his vassal’s congratulations on his marriage, he gave Anthony additional instructions for the night’s watch.
The nightly ritual of swimming in his lake came next. Duncan took his time, giving Madelyne a bit longer to prepare herself for him. It had been over an hour since Madelyne had stormed out of the hall.
Duncan decided that was time enough. He took the steps two at a time. It wasn’t going to be easy to convince Madelyne that he meant to bed her. He wouldn’t use force, however, no matter how she tried his patience. It would take time, but she would willingly give herself to him.
His vow to keep his temper under control was strained somewhat when he reached his room and found it empty. Duncan sighed in exasperation and immediately went up to the tower.
Did she actually think she could hide from him? He found that thought amusing and smiled. His smile faded, however, when he tried to open the door and realized it was barred against him.
Madelyne was still a little worried. She’d returned to her room in a nearly hysterical state and then had been forced to wait until her tub was filled with water. Maude had already begun the nightly task. Madelyne tried to be appreciative, but the servant and the two men carrying the buckets of steaming water did take the longest time, until Madelyne was sick with fear that Duncan would find her before she could lock him out.
The slat of wood was right where she’d hidden it, tucked underneath the bed. Once she slid the heavy panel through the metal loops, she let out a loud sigh of relief.
The muscles in Madelyne’s shoulders throbbed. She was tense and out of sorts, and no matter how she tried, she couldn’t seem to reason anything through. Had Duncan married her just to infuriate Louddon? What about Lady Eleanor?
Madelyne took a long time soaking. Her hair had been washed the night before so she didn’t have that chore to do. She tied the curls on top of her head, using a strip of ribbon to anchor them in place. Yet most of the strands had fallen back to her shoulders before her bath was finished.
God’s truth, she didn’t feel the least bit calmer after her bath. Her mind was consumed with worry. She wanted to scream in anger, yet weep with humiliation too. The only reason she didn’t do either was that she couldn’t make up her mind.
She heard Duncan coming up the steps just as she was getting out of the tub. Her hands shook when she reached for her robe, but it was only because it was so cold in her room, she told herself.
The footsteps stopped. Duncan was right outside the door. Madelyne reacted with a fresh spurt of fear, shamed she was acting so cowardly when she ran over to the far corner of the room and stood there trembling like an infant. She frantically knotted the belt of her robe even as she reasoned Duncan couldn’t see through the wood, for God’s sake, and there wasn’t any need to work herself up into such a fit.
“Madelyne, get away from the door.”
His voice had sounded so mild. That surprised her. Madelyne frowned, waiting for him to start threatening. And why didn’t he want her standing by the door?
She had her answer soon enough. The sound was so explosive, she jumped back, bumping her head against the stone wall. Madelyne let out a yelp when the slat of wood snapped like a twig, and would have made the sign of the cross if she’d been able to get her hands undone from each other.
The door shredded, and what puny strips remained, Duncan easily ripped apart.
He fully intended to drag Madelyne down to his room, yet when he saw how she cowered in the corner, his heart softened. Duncan also had the real concern she’d jump out the window before he could get to her. She looked frightened enough to try it.
He didn’t want her frightened. Duncan deliberately sighed, a long-drawn-out affair it was, and then casually leaned against the doorway. He smiled at Madelyne, waiting for her to regain her control.
He’d use reason and soft words to make her come to him.
“You could have knocked, Duncan.”
The change in her happened so swiftly. She wasn’t cowering in the corner now but standing there frowning at him with a look that told him she wouldn’t be throwing herself out any windows. She might, however, be thinking of trying to push him out.
He tried not to laugh, recognizing her pride was important to both of them. Damn, he didn’t like her cowering away from him. “And would you have opened the door for me, wife?” he asked, his tone soft, coaxing.
“Don’t call me your wife, Duncan. I was forced to say those vows. Now look what you’ve done to my door. I’ll be sleeping with a draft flying around my head, thanks to your ill consideration.”
“Ah, then you would have opened the door for me?” Duncan asked, grinning. He was thoroughly enjoying her outrage. Edmond was right, Madelyne was a bossy bit of goods. Her door, indeed.
She was a lovely sight to be sure. Her hair fell below her shoulders. The fire from the hearth cast a deep red glow to her curls. Her hands were back on her hips, her back as straight as a lance, and the opening of her robe gaped almost to her waist, giving him an ample view of the cleft between her full breasts.
He wondered how long it would be before Madelyne realized her vulnerable position. The oversized robe was slowly working its way loose. Duncan had already realized she wasn’t wearing anything underneath the covering. Her knees peeked out at him.
The grin slowly faded from Duncan’s face. His eyes darkened as well. His concentration was strained, and all he could think about was touching her.
Whatever was the matter with him? Madelyne wondered. His expression had turned as black as his tunic, and heavens, she did wish he didn’t look so handsome.
“Of course I wouldn’t have opened the door, Duncan, but you should have knocked all the same.” She blurted out the ridiculous statement, feeling like a fool. If only he’d quit looking at her as if he wanted to …
“Have you never told a lie?” Duncan asked when he saw fear return to her eyes.
His question caught her off guard, as was his intention. Duncan slowly straightened and walked into the room.
“I’ve always told the truth, no matter how painful,” Madelyne answered. “And you know that well enough by now.” She gave him a disgruntled look and began to walk toward him so that he’d hear her next rebuke clearly. Madelyne was determined to give Duncan a piece of her mind, and she certainly would have done just that if she hadn’t forgotten the robe was too long and the wooden tub was directly in her path. She tripped over her hem, stubbed her toe on the base of the tub. She would have pitched forward into the water if Duncan hadn’t grabbed her in time.
He took hold of Madelyne’s waist when she bent to rub the sting from her toe. “Every time I’m near you, I get injured.”
She was muttering to herself, but Duncan heard every word. He took immediate exception. “I’ve never harmed you,” he insisted.
“Well, you threatened to,” Madelyne said. She stood up then, realized his arm was around her waist. “Let go of me,” she demanded.
“Do I carry you like a sack of wheat to my room or will you walk beside me like a new wife should?” he asked.
He slowly forced her to turn around and face him.
She was staring at his chest. Duncan gently pushed her chin up. “Why don’t you leave me alone?” Madelyne asked, finally meeting his gaze.
“I have tried, Madelyne.”
She thought his voice sounded like a caress, as soft as any summer’s breeze.
His thumb was slowly stroking the curve of her chin. How could such an insignificant little touch have such a devastating effect on her? “You try to bewitch me,” Madelyne whispered, yet she didn’t pull away when his thumb moved to stroke her sensitive lower lip.
“’Tis you who bewitches me,” Duncan admitted. His voice had gone hoarse. Madelyne’s heart started pounding. She could barely catch her breath. Her tongue touched the tip of his thumb. It was all she’d allow herself, this one small pleasure that sent a shock down her legs. She bewitched him? The thought was as pleasing as his kisses. She did want him to kiss her. Just one kiss, she told herself, and then she’d demand his dismissal.
Duncan seemed content to stand there all night. Madelyne quickly grew impatient. She pushed his hands away and then rose up on tiptoe to place a single chaste kiss on the cleft of his chin.
When Duncan didn’t react, she grew a bit bolder and put her hands on his shoulders. He was looking down at her and that made the task easier, yet she hesitated when she felt him stiffen against her. “I would kiss you good night,” she explained, barely recognizing her own voice. “I do like to kiss you, Duncan, but that is all I will allow.”
He didn’t move. Madelyne couldn’t even feel him breathing. She didn’t know if her admission angered him or pleased him, until her lips touched his. Then she knew he liked kissing almost as much as she did.
Madelyne sighed, content.
Duncan growled, impatient.
He wouldn’t give her his tongue until she demanded it, using her own to push him into responding. Then he took control, thursting his tongue deep into her mouth.
Madelyne didn’t want to stop. When she realized that, she pulled away from him.
Duncan’s hands rested on her hips. He let her pull back, waiting with great curiosity to see what she’d do next. She was unpredictable.
Madelyne couldn’t quite look up at him. A true blush covered her cheeks. She was obviously embarrassed.
Duncan suddenly lifted Madelyne up into his arms, smiling over the way she grabbed the edge of her robe where it parted at the knees. He almost mentioned that her modesty was ill placed, since he’d taken care of her when she was so sick. But Madelyne was rigid in his arms and he decided not to bring up that subject.
When they were halfway down the steps, Madelyne realized how unprepared she was to spend the night with Duncan. “I’ve left my sleeping gown upstairs,” she stammered. “’Tis one thing to sleep in my day gown but this is so bulky and—”
“You won’t need anything,” Duncan interrupted.
“I will,” Madelyne muttered.
Duncan didn’t answer her. Madelyne knew she’d lost the argument when the door to his bedroom slammed shut. They were, unfortunately, inside his room.
Duncan placed Madelyne on his bed and went back to the door. He pushed the wooden slat through the loops. And then he turned, slowly folded his arms across his chest, and smiled at her.
The attractive dent was back in the side of his cheek. Madelyne would have called it a dimple, yet that was an incorrect description for a man of his size and might. Warriors didn’t have dimples.
Her mind was rambling. It was his fault, of course. Why, he just stood there, staring at her. She felt like a little mouse cornered by a hungry wolf.
“Are you deliberately trying to frighten me?” Madelyne asked, sounding terrified.
Duncan shook his head. He caught her fear, realized then that his forced smile hadn’t aided his cause at all. “I don’t want you frightened.”
He started to walk toward her. “I’d prefer you unafraid, though I can understand the first time would be frightening for a virgin.”
His bid to soothe her failed. Duncan reached that conclusion when Madelyne bounded off the bed. “First time? Duncan, you’re not going to bed me,” she shouted.
“I am,” he answered.
“’Tis one thing to be forced to sleep beside you, but that is all that’s going to take place this night!”
“Madelyne, we’re married now. ’Tis a usual occurrence to bed one’s wife on the wedding night.”
“And is it a usual occurrence to force a lady to marry?” she asked.
He deliberately shrugged. She looked ready to cry. Duncan decided to make her angry again. He preferred it over tears. “It was necessary.”
“Necessary? You mean expedient, don’t you? Tell me this, Duncan. Will it also be necessary to force yourself on me tonight?”
She didn’t give him time to answer her. “You didn’t even bother to take the time to explain your reasons for this marriage. That is unforgivable of you.”
“You actually expected me to explain my actions to you?” he roared. He was almost immediately sorry for his lack of control because Madelyne was back to sitting on the edge of the bed, wringing her hands.
Duncan attempted to cool his temper. He walked over to stand in front of the fire. With deliberate slowness he began to unfasten the lacings at the neck of his tunic. He never took his gaze off Madelyne, wanting her to see what he was doing.
She tried not to look at him, but he was an overwhelming presence, and she could not ignore him. His skin was bronzed by the sun, golden now by the glow of the fire. The play of muscles showed when he bent to remove his boots.
God’s truth, she wanted to touch him. It was such an appealing admission, she shook her head. Touch him, indeed. She wanted him out of this room. But that, she thought with a sigh that reached her toes, wasn’t the truth at all.
“You think I’m a whore,” Madelyne suddenly blurted out. “Aye, living with a defrocked priest… those were your words, Duncan,” she reminded him. “You’d not want to bed a whore.”
She prayed she was right.
Duncan smiled over the way she thought to sway him. “Whores do have certain advantages over unskilled virgins, Madelyne. You, of course, understand my meaning.”
No, she most certainly didn’t understand his meaning, but she couldn’t tell him that, now, could she? Her deception was getting out of hand.
“They do not have certain advantages,” Madelyne muttered.
“Don’t you mean to say we?”
She gave up. She wasn’t a whore and knew he realized it too.
When she didn’t answer him, Duncan concluded she’d be forced to lie if she continued. “A whore knows all the ways to please a man, Madelyne.”
“I’m not a whore and you know it.”
Duncan smiled. Oh, how her honesty pleased him. He was a man conditioned to betrayals, yet he knew with a certainty he’d stake his life on that Madelyne would never lie to him.
Duncan removed the rest of his clothes and walked over to the other side of the bed. Madelyne’s back faced him. He saw her shoulders stiffen to the snapping point when he threw back the covers and got into bed. He turned, smothered out the candle flame, and then let out a loud yawn. If Madelyne had been watching him, she would have known the yawn was a blatant lie. His arousal was obvious, even to someone as naive as his skittish wife. It was going to be a long night.
“Madelyne.”
She hated the way he called her name when he was irritated with her. Duncan always drew out the last until it sounded as though her name was actually Lane.
“My name is not Lane,” she muttered.
“Come to bed.”
“I’m not tired.” It was a stupid remark, but Madelyne was too frightened to be clever. She should have listened to more of Marta’s tales. It was too late to do anything about that now. Oh, God, she thought she was going to be sick right this minute. And wouldn’t that be humiliating—to lose her dinner in front of him. The thought made her stomach lurch, intensifying her worry.
“I don’t know what to do.”
The anguished whisper tore at Duncan’s heart. “Madelyne, do you remember the first night we spent together in my tent?” Duncan asked.
His voice was soft, husky too. Madelyne thought he might be trying to calm her.
“I promised you that night I’d never force you. And have I ever broken my word to you on any matter?” he asked.
“How would I know?” Madelyne returned. “You’ve never given me your word on anything.” She turned to see if he was going to try to grab her. That was a mistake, because Duncan hadn’t bothered to pull the cover over himself. He was as naked as a wolf. Madelyne grabbed the blanket and threw it toward him. “Cover yourself, Duncan. It isn’t decent to let me see your … legs.”
She was blushing again. Duncan didn’t know how long he could keep up this nonchalant facade. “I want you, Madelyne, but I want you willing. I’ll have you begging, even if it takes all night.”
“I’ll never beg.”
“You will.”
Madelyne stared into Duncan’s eyes, trying to discover if he was trying to trick her or not. His expression told her nothing of what he was thinking. She nibbled on her lower lip while she worried. “You promise me?” she finally asked. “You really won’t force me?”
Duncan let her see his exasperation even though he nodded. He decided that tomorrow he’d let her know she wasn’t to question him in such a manner. For tonight, however, he’d allow her transgression.
“I trust you,” she whispered. “’Tis strange, yet I think I’ve always trusted you.”
“I know.”
She actually smiled over his arrogant remark. Then she let out a sigh of relief. She felt safe again. “Since you wouldn’t let me bring my sleeping gown, I’ll just have to use one of your shirts,” she said.
Madelyne didn’t wait to gain his permission. She went over to his chest, opened the lid, and rummaged through the clothing until she found one of his shirts. She didn’t know if Duncan was watching her or not, so she kept her back to him when she pulled her robe off and put his shirt on.
The garment barely covered her knees. She hurried to get under the blankets. And surely that was the reason she accidentally bumped into Duncan.
She took an infinitely long time adjusting the covers to her satisfaction. Madelyne didn’t think it would be proper to touch him, but she wanted to get close enough to feel some of his warmth. At last she was settled. She let out a sigh. She had hoped that Duncan would have grown weary of her motions by now. In truth, she wanted him to grab hold of her and pull her up against him. Lord knew she was used to being grabbed and hauled around, and if the truth were admitted, she actually liked it a bit. She always ended up cuddled against him, feeling snug and safe. And almost loved. It was a fantasy, that, but she allowed the pretense anyway. There wasn’t any sin in pretending, was there?
Duncan had no idea what was going on inside Madelyne’s head. It had taken him far longer than he had anticipated just to get her into bed. His nightly ritual of swimming in the freezing lake was a paltry effort compared to the trial he was presently undergoing. The prize was worth the torment, however. With that thought in mind, Duncan turned to his side. Propping his head up on his elbow, he looked down at his wife. He was surprised to find her staring up at him, for he truly expected her to be hiding under the covers. “Good night, Duncan,” she whispered to him, giving him another smile.
Duncan wanted much, much more. “Kiss me good night, wife.”
His tone was arrogant. Madelyne wasn’t upset by it. She gave him a frown. “I’ve already kissed you good night,” she reminded him sweetly. “Was it so insignificant that you’ve forgotten it already?”
Was she baiting him? Duncan decided she was, and probably because she felt so safe. Victorious too. Ah, she trusted him, and while he was pleased by that fact, the throbbing increased in his loins, bothering his concentration. He couldn’t take his gaze away from her mouth, was powerless to stop himself as he slowly, inevitably, lowered his mouth to hers. His arm circled her waist, blocking any retreat if she tried to leave him. He promised himself that he wouldn’t force the kiss, only keep her next to him until he could find a way to reason with her.
His mouth settled on hers in a kiss meant to melt any resistance. His tongue plunged into her mouth, hungry, almost savage in the quest to mate with her. He wanted to give her pleasure and knew he had succeeded when her tongue touched his and her hand gently brushed the side of his cheek.
Duncan captured her sigh when he deepened the kiss. His hand caressed the side of her neck while his thumb rubbed a lazy circle above the wild pulse he felt.
Madelyne wanted to get a little closer to his warmth. Kissing him felt so right. Her hands slipped around Duncan’s neck, and when he showed his pleasure over her aggression by emitting a low growl, she smiled against his mouth.
He lifted his head to look at her. Madelyne looked thoroughly satisfied. Her lips were dewy and swollen and there was a sparkle in her eye that warmed his heart. He found himself smiling back and couldn’t explain the reason. When he felt her fingers tentatively brush the nape of his neck, he couldn’t resist kissing her again. Her lower lip was easily captured between his teeth; he tugged, bringing Madelyne up to him. She laughed, delighted. Duncan groaned, tormented.
The kiss turned fierce and hot. His hands captured the sides of her face, and when she began to respond, he let her feel the hunger in him.
Madelyne moaned and moved closer, until her toes were rubbing against the crisp hair on his legs.
Duncan stopped her restless motions by trapping her legs between his heavy thighs. His mouth never left hers. He feasted on her, using his tongue to plunder the sweet interior she so willingly offered.
He couldn’t get enough of her. The kiss turned wild, ravenous. His hands were as undisciplined as his mouth, taming and exciting as he stroked a warm path from her shoulders to the base of her spine. Shivers of ecstasy made her tremble all the more. She couldn’t seem to catch a thought and hold on to it. Madelyne felt as if she were spinning out of control. She couldn’t seem to save herself. Her mind was being ruled by such new, erotic sensations flooding her body.
Madelyne squirmed within his hold. She was drawn to the heat, until she felt his hard arousal against the junction of her thighs. She uttered a gasp and tried to pull away, but Duncan’s hot kiss was pushing away all her fear. The heat was incredible. Her mind rebelled against the intimacy, but her body knew how to respond. She instinctively captured him and held him there, using her thighs to cuddle him. She let the warmth penetrate, but when Duncan began to move his hips and his arousal rubbed against her, she tried to stop him. Her hands grabbed hold of his thighs and she pushed him. She thought she was making him stop, but the more he moved, the weaker her struggle became. His touch ignited the embers of desire deep inside her, and it wasn’t long before she was actually clinging to him, her nails digging into his backside to keep him firmly against her.
Duncan realized she was frightened by the longing that had taken her, but he was determined to make her respond with equal passion. His hands cupped her buttocks, almost roughly. He lifted her and pulled her against him, letting her feel all of him. A low mating sound came from deep in his chest, a primitive, erotic sound, and as magical as the song of the Sirens calling to Madelyne, mesmerizing her. She couldn’t resist and she kissed him with wild, free abandon.
Madelyne’s uninhibited response nearly pushed Duncan over the brink of sanity. He tore his mouth away from hers and began to press hot kisses down the column of her neck. He tried to gain control but the effort cost him. It had turned painful holding back, and he wanted nothing more than to plunge inside her, to fill her body and her soul completely. He couldn’t, of course, it was too soon for her. Duncan told himself to go easy, to give her a little more time, but his mouth and his hands refused to listen to the dictates of his mind. God help him, he couldn’t stop touching her. Her scent drove him to distraction; Duncan had never experienced such overwhelming passion. The realization that there was still much more to come made him feel close to exploding.
Madelyne knew she should stop his liberties. She was clinging to Duncan, her arms wrapped tightly around his waist. She took a deep breath, trying desperately to control herself. It proved an impossible task; Duncan was tantalizing her neck with his mouth and his tongue, and whispering such bold, sexy, unrepeatable words into her ear, she couldn’t think much at all.
He called her beautiful, told her in erotic detail what he wanted to do to her. He said she made him crazed with desire, and she could tell from the way his hands shook when he pushed her hair away from her face and kissed her brow that he meant what he said.
She knew he could easily crush any resistance she offered him. Yet his strength didn’t frighten her now. All she had to do was tell him to stop. He wouldn’t force her. Duncan always kept his power contained when he was with her, whenever he touched her; he used an even greater method of winning her. Aye, he wooed her with tender caresses and soft, forbidden promises.
If she could just find the strength to put a little distance between them, perhaps she could think again. With that intent in mind she rolled away from him.
Duncan followed her. She realized then that the blankets were gone. He covered her now, most thoroughly. Their bare legs were entwined and only a thin shirt protected her virginity from him.
He removed that barrier as well, slowly edging the material up over her breasts. He was determined, and had the shirt off before she could utter a single word of denial. In truth, she might have helped him.
All thoughts of caution left when Duncan’s chest touched her breasts.
The thick mat of hair rubbed against her nipples. She moaned with true pleasure. His breathing excited her almost as much as his touch did. It was harsh, uncontrolled, as ragged with need as her own.
Duncan lifted his head to look at her. Madelyne’s eyes were dark, slumberous.
“Do you like kissing me, Duncan?”
He wasn’t prepared for the question and answered her only when he’d found his voice. “Aye, Madelyne, I like kissing you.” He smiled then. “As much as you like kissing me.”
“I do,” Madelyne whispered. She shivered with heat, nervously rubbed the tip of her tongue along her lower lip. Duncan watched her. He groaned and had to close his eyes for a second before he could look at her again.
She was making him frantic. This wooing was difficult work. He wanted her. Now. He knew she still wasn’t ready for him. He’d have to continue this trial of endurance even if it killed him. He thought it just might.
Duncan took a deep breath and placed a kiss on the tip of one of Madelyne’s finely arched eyebrows. He kissed the bridge of her nose next, right in the center of her attractive freckles, the ones he knew she probably would have denied she had.
Madelyne held her breath, waiting for him to reach her mouth. When Duncan turned and moved to the side of her neck, she tried to get him back where she wanted him.
“I want to kiss you again, Duncan,” she whispered.
She knew she was being brazen. Aye, she was playing with forbidden fire. Madelyne told herself she acted so bold because she was so unprepared. No one had ever explained the ways of men and women. No one had ever cautioned her about the intense pleasure. And the pleasure warred with her ability to reason.
Madelyne suddenly realized that the make-believe battle she fought with herself was just that, make-believe. She was trying to force Duncan into taking the decision away from her. Then he alone would be responsible for this act. She’d remain an innocent, trapped by the pleasure he forced on her.
The truth shamed her. Duncan wasn’t forcing her at all. “I’m a coward,” she whispered.
“Don’t be afraid,” Duncan soothed her. His voice was filled with tenderness.
Madelyne tried to explain, to give him all the words, to tell him how much she wanted him. Just for tonight she wanted to belong to him. She didn’t believe he could ever love her, but for one glorious night she wanted to pretend the promises he gave her were true. If Duncan could give her only a part of himself, she’d make herself believe it was enough.
“Put your arms around me, Madelyne,” Duncan ordered her. His voice was controlled, yet his hands were gentle as they played against the swell of her breasts.
The palms of his hands cupped her breasts fully then. Madelyne instinctively arched against him, thinking the pleasure he gave her was excruciatingly sweet.
Duncan ignored her surprised gasp. He used his thumbs to coax her nipples into responding. When they were hard and straining, he moved downward and took one into his mouth. His tongue was velvet torture. He used suction to drive her mad. She twisted and moaned while her hands clung to his shoulders.
Both breasts felt swollen when he finished with them. Duncan covered them with his chest again and captured her mouth in a long, searing kiss that only made her desperate for more.
He couldn’t wait any longer. In the back of his mind he knew she still hadn’t given him permission. He lifted his head to look at her, saw the tears shimmering in her eyes. “Do you want me to stop?” Even as he asked the question he wondered how in God’s name he’d ever be able to accomplish that feat.
“Tell me why you’re crying, Madelyne.” He caught the first tear that escaped from her lashes with his thumb.
She didn’t answer him. Duncan roughly took hold of her hair. His fingers twisted into the silky strands. “Give me your honesty now, wife, full measure. I can see the passion in your eyes. Say the words, Madelyne.”
His demand was as forceful as his need. Duncan could feel the heat in Madelyne. Her body moved restlessly against him.
“’Tis wrong of me to want you, but I do,” Madelyne whispered. “I want you so much, I ache.”
“You’re my wife now, Madelyne,” Duncan answered, his voice raspy. “What we do isn’t wrong.” He leaned down and kissed her again, a hot, searing kiss that held nothing back. She responded with equal passion. When her fingernails dug into his shoulder blades, he abruptly pulled back.
“Tell me you want me inside you. Now. Say it, Madelyne.” Duncan stared into her eyes as he slowly pushed her legs apart with his thigh. Before Madelyne understood his intention, his hand slid into the soft mount of curls covering the most sensitive part of her. His fingers gentled and stroked until her heat was wet and slick with desire. And all the while he watched her passionate response.
His finger slowly penetrated her. Madelyne instinctively arched against his hand, giving him so much pleasure by her uninhibited action, he thought he was going to die. She was so incredibly hot. And the heat belonged to him.
“Cease this torment, Duncan. Come to me.”
He moaned her name just before his mouth took hers again. As slowly as he could manage, he settled himself between her silky thighs, lifted her hips, and began to penetrate. She twisted, driving Duncan forward.
Duncan paused when he felt the shield proving her virginity. “Put your legs around me.” He groaned the instruction. His face fell against her neck. When he felt her move to obey him, he plunged forward. Madelyne cried out in pain and tried to pull back. “It’s all right, love. The pain is over now, I promise. Hush now,” he whispered.
Duncan wanted to wait until her body had adjusted to his invasion, but the throbbing was unbearable now. He couldn’t stop. He began to move, slowly at first, and then with growing need and force. His hand moved between them, arousing her to a fevered pitch when his fingers rubbed against her.
The pain was soon forgotten. Duncan filled her completely. Madelyne began to move with him, arched her hips to take him deeper inside, and felt the change that overcame her husband then.
The power uncoiled, surrounded, penetrated. She glorified in the sensations, allowed her softness to become the sheath for his power. They were so much a part of each other now; each belonged to the other, body, mind, and soul.
Her control deserted her. She was wild, as free as a tigress now, reaching to attain the mystery of fulfillment just outside her grasp. She gave herself up to the feelings, surrendering herself to her husband, her lover. And all because he surrendered himself to her.
He whispered bold words into her ear, but she was soon too mindless to understand what he was saying. She couldn’t think, only feel the power pulling at her, stroking, demanding.
The climax was so overwhelming, she cried out. His name. She was terrified, vulnerable, safe. She was loved.
Duncan answered her with an explosive climax and a harsh growl. He called out to her, held her so tightly she thought he might absorb her. And then he collapsed against her, sighing her name with true satisfaction.
Their bodies were damp with perspiration. The musky smell of loving surrounded the haze of their passion. Madelyne touched his shoulder with her tongue, licked the salty taste of him.
Duncan didn’t think he had the strength left in him to roll away from her. He decided he’d stay right where he was forever.
He had never experienced such contentment. When he was finally able to gather his wits, he leaned up on his elbows to look at her. Madelyne’s eyes were closed. Her cheeks were pink. She was back to being a timid kitten, Duncan concluded with a smile. Lord, how could she be embarrassed now, after the way she’d responded to him. He thought he’d carry her scratches on his shoulders for at least a week.
“Did I hurt you?”
“Yes.” She sounded shy.
“Very much?” He sounded worried.
“Very little.”
“And did I pleasure you, Madelyne?” Duncan asked.
Madelyne dared a look up at him. His arrogant smile captured her. “Yes,” she admitted.
“Very little?”
She shook her head, smiling now. Madelyne suddenly realized he needed to hear her tell him how much he’d pleased her almost as much as she needed to hear of his satisfaction. “Very much, Duncan.”
He nodded, thoroughly satisfied. Though he’d known he’d given her fulfillment, his contentment was intensified because of her honesty. “You’re a passionate woman, Madelyne. You’ve nothing to be embarrassed about.” He kissed her long and hard, and when he next looked at her, he was pleased to see her shyness gone. Her eyes had turned a deep blue. Lord, he could lose himself in her again.
Duncan suddenly felt vulnerable. He couldn’t give a reason for the feeling. It was too foreign to his nature to understand. If he didn’t guard against her, Madelyne could turn him into Samson. He thought she was more enticing than Delilah. Aye, she’d snatch his strength away if he allowed it.
With a frown Duncan rolled onto his back, clasped his hands behind his head, catching some of Madelyne’s hair under his elbow. He ignored her, staring at the ceiling while she struggled to get free of the restriction.
Duncan was trying to come to terms with all the truths demanding his attention. He’d ignored the facts too long. The only time he’d been honest with himself was when he touched Madelyne. He couldn’t control his reactions then, no matter how valiantly he tried. She had come to mean a good deal to him. The power she had over him actually worried him. And Duncan wasn’t a man given to worry much or easily.
Madelyne pulled the covers up to her chin. She rested on her back but glanced over to catch the ferocious frown on her husband’s face.
She immediately became frightened. Had she failed him some way? She knew she’d been a little timid, awkward too. “Do you have regrets now, Duncan?” she asked, her voice hesitant.
She couldn’t look at him. Madelyne closed her eyes, letting her fear and shame build.
“None.”
He snapped out the denial. His voice was harsh. Madelyne wasn’t the least comforted. She felt hurt and humiliated. The glow of their lovemaking was gone now, replaced by such a desolate, desperate feeling of failure. God help her, she started to cry.
Duncan wasn’t paying Madelyne much attention, for he had only just accepted the full truth.
The admission staggered him. The disrespectful, unpredictable woman weeping loud enough to wake the dead had tripped her way right into his heart.
He suddenly felt as vulnerable as this Achilles warrior Madelyne told him about. Aye, Achilles couldn’t have been too pleased to find out his heels were vulnerable. He’d probably been infuriated, as infuriated as Duncan suddenly was.
Duncan didn’t have the faintest idea how he was going to protect himself from her. He decided he needed time to think through this situation. Aye, time, and distance, too, because it just wasn’t possible to think about all the ramifications when Madelyne was near him. Hell, that infuriated him.
Duncan sighed, long and loud. He knew what Madelyne wanted, what she needed from him now. With a groan of frustration he jerked the covers away and pulled her into his arms. He told her to quit crying, but she blatantly disobeyed him and continued on until his neck was soaking wet from where her face rested.
Madelyne fully intended to tell him she despised him and that she was never going to speak to him again, that he was the most insensitive, overbearing man she’d ever encountered. She needed to quit crying first, else she’d just sound pitiful instead of angry.
“Do you have regrets now, Madelyne,” he asked her when he couldn’t stand the sound of her weeping any longer.
She nodded, bumping his chin. “I do,” she told him. “I obviously didn’t please you. I know that’s true because you’re frowning and snapping at me, but it was only because I didn’t do what I was supposed to do, Duncan.”
Lord, she was unpredictable. She cried because she thought she hadn’t satisfied him. The realization made him smile.
Madelyne suddenly pulled out of his arms, bumping him again. “I don’t want you to touch me ever again.”
In her anger she forgot all about her nakedness. Duncan’s body reacted swiftly to the lovely view. Madelyne faced him, her legs tucked beneath her, and her breasts, magnificent, full and rosy-tipped, were too irresistible to ignore. Duncan reached out and circled the nipple of one with his thumb. The nipple hardened before Madelyne could slap his hand away.
She tried to deny him then by pulling the covers over her bosom, but Duncan easily won the spontaneous tug-of-war when he ripped the blanket out of her grasp and flung it to the floor. She would have followed it if he hadn’t grabbed hold of her arm and yanked her back on top of his chest.
Duncan trapped her hands with his and grinned. The grin left quite abruptly when her knee found a vulnerable target between his legs.
He groaned, captured her legs by locking his own around her ankles, effectively stopping her struggles. He let go of her hands and then slowly pulled her head down to him. He could feel her heart pounding against his chest, wanted nothing more than to kiss her anger away, but when she was just a breath away, he stopped. “Listen well, wife. You weren’t awkward, only innocent. And you have pleased me more than I had thought was possible.”
Madelyne stared at him a long moment. Tears flooded her eyes again. “The truth, Duncan? I did please you?”
He nodded, exasperated. He vowed to lecture her first thing in the morning about questioning him, and then remembered he’d already made that vow.
She was appeased. “You pleased me too,” she whispered.
“I know I did, Madelyne.” He wiped the tears away from her cheeks and sighed over the disgruntled look that came over her face. “Don’t frown at me,” he ordered.
“How do you know you pleased me?”
“Because you screamed my name and you begged me to—”
“I never beg, Duncan,” Madelyne interrupted. “You exaggerate.”
He smiled most arrogantly. Madelyne opened her mouth to tell him just how arrogant she thought he was, but his mouth caught hers, effectively stopping her rebuke.
It was a hot kiss. Madelyne could feel his arousal pressed against her. She moved her hips against him restlessly, teasingly, too, arousing him all the more.
Duncan gently pulled away. “Go to sleep now. It would be too painful a second time.”
She stopped his protest with another kiss. Madelyne decided she liked being on top of him, shyly whispered that fact to him.
He smiled, yet still insisted she sleep. “I command it,” he told her.
“I don’t want to sleep,” Madelyne said. She nibbled on the side of his neck, shivering with new awareness. “You smell so good,” she told him. Her tongue played with his earlobe, driving him to distraction.
Duncan decided to put an end to her game now, before he was unable to stop himself from taking her again. He didn’t want to hurt her, but he knew that she was too innocent to understand.
He’d have to show her how uncomfortable it would be for her.
With that intent in mind, his hand moved between them. When he thrust his finger inside, Madelyne moaned. Her fingernails dug into his shoulders. “Now tell me you want me,” Duncan demanded, his voice harsh with his desire.
Madelyne slowly arched up. Pain and pleasure blended into confusion. She rubbed her breasts against his chest. “I do want you, Duncan,” she whispered.
Duncan suddenly felt his control desert him. He felt strong enough to conquer the world. When Madelyne tried to roll onto her back, he shook his head.
“Do you really force me to beg you, Duncan?” she asked, though it sounded more of a demand to her husband. He thought her voice quavered because she ached with as much need as he did.
He kissed the frown away from her face while he slowly began to penetrate her.
Madelyne straddled his hips, moaning with contentment. Her last coherent thought was a revelation. She didn’t have to be flat on her back.