CHAPTER FOUR
“SENORITA!”
Stefano’s cry jerked Luke around in the saddle. Chico, bored with standing still, pranced right along with the shift in weight, which worked out just fine as what Luke saw chilled his blood. Glory was still plodding along, every step bordering on hipshot, but the wagon seat that should’ve been sporting the bane of his existence was empty. What the hell had she done now?
“Goddammit, Josie!”
Zach shook his head. “That woman is not made for this country.”
Lobo nodded. “Then it is just as well the Comanche are intent on moving and not war.”
Luke grunted and sent Chico trotting back to Josie’s wagon.
Behind him he heard Zach order Lobo to keep an eye on the tribe.
Kicking Chico into a canter, he raced back down the line. Tia and Ed turned as he passed, and saw what he saw. Ed’s curse and Tia’s gasp trailed in his wake. By the time he got to Josie’s wagon, Stefano was off his horse and climbing into the front seat. Luke pulled back on the reins. Sitting back on his haunches, Chico slid to a stop just short of Stefano’s buckskin. Momentum propelling him forward, Luke jumped off. His boots hit the dirt in time with Stefano’s next curse.
“Back off, Stefano.”
Stefano turned and stepped back, hands raised. “Whatever you say, Luke. You’re the man with the gun.”
Luke looked down. Shit, he was. Damn. Luke took his hand off his revolver. The wagon creaked and sagged as he stepped up. Josie didn’t move from where she lay crumpled on the floorboards, her torso twisted to the left, one arm stretched out to the right. Toward him. “What happened?” he asked Stefano.
“She collapsed.”
He could see that. “Why?”
“Do you want me to guess?”
“No.” He wanted an answer. Josie was lying there so still, her breathing shallower than normal. Her face was pale but she was perspiring heavily. Reaching down, he slid his hand behind her. Her back was soaked.
“What is wrong with her, mi hijo?” Tia asked, coming alongside.
The hard bone of a stiff corset bruised his fingertips. Why the hell was she wearing a corset out here? Was she crazy?
“Might be the heat got to her.”
Tia crossed herself. “That is not good.”
No it wasn’t.
Tia shook the water jug hanging on the side of the wagon. Liquid sloshed. She clucked her tongue. “The pobrecita. The water is untouched. She forgot to drink.”
And he’d forgotten to remind her. “Damn.”
“So we are back to heat,” Stefano concluded.
Heat and carelessness. Luke checked the pulse in her throat. Her skin was smooth and hot under his fingers. Her pulse was steady but fast. This was his fault. He’d been too busy sparking her temper to pay attention to what Josie had been doing—or what she hadn’t. Not drinking enough water was a typical tenderfoot mistake. He knew it as well as he knew his name. There was no excuse for his negligence. He touched her cheek, which was beginning to show a hint of sunburn. She deserved better.
Tia clucked her tongue. “I should have checked on her.”
“Who would think she would not drink?” Stefano sighed.
Tia shook her head. “Apparently none of us.”
For sure, it’d been a long time since an Easterner had landed at Hell’s Eight. Josie’s lashes fluttered.
“Josie,” he called sharply. She didn’t respond. He tried again, grabbing her by the shoulders, shaking her lightly. “Wake up, woman.”
“Here, mi hijo.” Tia handed him a wet handkerchief.
“Thank you.” He wiped Josie’s face carefully. Her skin was so pale, so delicate. As he wiped, a light dusting of freckles appeared.
How the hell had he missed that she had freckles? Looking down at the cloth, he got his answer. She’d put some kind of powder on them to cover up. He shook his head. There was no understanding women sometimes.
He shook her again. “Come on, Josie. Wake up.”
“See if she will drink this,” Tia said.
Taking the cup Tia passed him, he trickled a little water over her dry lips. The clear liquid pooled at the corners before sliding down over her cheeks and neck leaving a trail in the pale powder.
She groaned. He held the cup to her lips, tipping a little into her mouth. “Drink.”
Half-conscious, she frowned.
“Don’t fight me on this, woman. Drink.”
Parting those sexy lips, she sipped.
“She’ll be all right?” Stefano asked.
“Yes.” He wouldn’t allow otherwise. He smoothed the moisture over her cracked lips and tipped the cup again. “More.”
“She needs to get out of the sun,” Ed called, limping over.
He was right. The shadow he was casting over her merely darkened her expression, emphasizing her distress rather than providing any real relief.
“True enough.”
Across the way, he saw the scout nod to Zach before heading out. He could tell from the slap of the reins against his boot Zach was worried. And rightly so. A Comanche sighting was never good news. They needed to keep moving.
Handing Ed the cup, Luke gathered Josie up. She struggled a little before settling into his arms as if she belonged there. The corset pressed into his forearm. He didn’t know why she wore one. They were impractical as hell. A woman couldn’t move in one, let alone breathe. While those restrictions might be fine and feminine back East, out here those restrictions could be a death sentence. The wagon creaked and dipped as he backed awkwardly down the steps. As his boots hit the grass, her petticoats caught on the brake lever, yanking him up short.
“Shit.”
“Hold on.” Ed reached over and tugged at them. There was a slight rip and then “There you go.”
“Thanks.”
Ed frowned as Luke carried Josie toward the back of the wagon. “I thought she’d handle the trip better.”
“She is not used to our heat,” Tia fussed, hurrying to get to the rear of the wagon before Luke. Her gait, he noted, was not as easy as it used to be. There was a stiffness in one hip. He shook his head, remembering his conversation with Ace. Damn.
She opened the back door, revealing the interior. Hot air rushed out.
At least the pallet on the floor was clear, he noted.
“Be careful,” Tia cautioned as he propped Josie on the edge of the pallet, leaving her feet dangling over the side.
“Aren’t I always?”
Tia clucked her tongue. “Hardly.”
“Ed?” Luke called to the front.
“Yes?”
“Could you water the nag? We don’t need him dropping from exhaustion, too.” If they had to run for it, he needed the gelding ready.
“Stefano is already on it.”
He wasn’t surprised. Zach only kept on good men. “Thanks.”
A tug on his shirt drew his gaze. Josie’s lips moved.
“What?”
She said it again. He had to bend closer to hear.
“His name’s Glory.”
That again? “As in glory be to God?” he asked drily. “Or Glory be, will he make it through the day?”
She frowned up at him, a little of the fight coming back into her expression. “Neither.”
At least her voice was getting stronger.
“Are you sure?” He hitched her up to move her back. Her nails dug into his arm. Her eyes opened wide. “Oh no!”
He’d been on the back end of too many benders not to know that look. He turned her just in time. She vomited. All over his boots.
“Son of a bitch!”
If her moan hadn’t been so pitiful, Luke would have dropped her right there. Instead, he set her gently on the ground. She scrabbled to her hands and knees. He supported her with an arm around her waist as she vomited up all the water he’d just poured down her throat. Between heaves, she swatted at her bonnet. Since he hated the drab, ugly thing, too, Luke tugged it off and tossed it aside. His own stomach lurched, but he held it back, until finally, with a last retch, she slumped. With another sympathetic “Pobrecita” Tia handed him the cup. Water sloshed as he held it to Josie’s lips. She shook her head.
“Rinse your mouth out.”
She took a sip. “Don’t swallow, spit,” he ordered.
She did with an utter lack of self-consciousness that said more than anything about how horrible she felt.
“Good job.”
When he was sure she was done, Luke pulled Josie back until she sat on his thighs. Her head flopped limply against his shoulder. Her breath shuddered out.
“I’m so hot,” she whispered. “Just so hot.”
“I know.” He stood and turned to look into the wagon. It was dark and still, likely still stifling. “Stefano!”
“Yes?”
“Open the front panel, please.”
The wagon slouched with the vaquero’s weight. The panel rattled as it opened.
“It is done.”
A little bit of light and air moved through the interior. Hopefully, more air would flow once the wagons were moving. Josie braced her hand on a trunk as he set her down on the thin mattress sandwiched between her belongings. Tremors vibrated from her to him. He started unbuttoning her dress. Her fingers wrapped weakly around his wrist. From behind him, Tia said, “I can do that.”
“I’ve got it.”
“You cannot undress a young, unmarried woman.”
He didn’t spare her a glance. “I can do whatever the hell I want.”
Tia placed her hand on his arm. “No, mi hijo, you cannot.”
Her resolution flicked at his determination. “Dammit. It’s not the first time I’ve seen undergarments.”
Tia’s chin set. “You would mortify her.”
“She should be mortified for being so stupid. Why the hell is she wearing so much?”
Tia elbowed him aside. “It is proper.”
Dammit. There was no fighting with Tia when she got that set to her mouth. He stepped back. She didn’t have to say it as if he were an idiot. “Proper will get her killed.”
“Women are taught proper is what saves their lives.” Tia glanced over her shoulder. “Turn your back.”
Even more reluctantly, he did. “You’re not wearing that much,” he pointed out, tipping the cup and rinsing the vomit off his boots. It was going to take more than the cup he held to get the job done. Son of a bitch. His cobbler was going to be pissed.
“I should have talked to her,” Tia fussed.
He could hear the sounds of clothing being removed. The slide of a sleeve down an arm. The rustle of petticoats being removed. His imagination pieced in the removal of the corset. At any other time his imagination would be running rampant. But right now, all he could think about was the Comanche, the delay and the risk to everyone every minute they were stopped here. A trunk opened and a minute later it closed.
He hated being forced to cool his heels. “Does she at least have something lighter to wear?”
Tia sighed. “Do you not have something else to do?”
“No.”
“Then you can come make yourself useful.”
“Uh-huh.” Turning, he saw Josie drooped on the pallet, half sitting, half propped against a crate. Her eyes were closed. She looked pale and lethargic in the yellow dress. In need of support. “I could have been useful all along,” he muttered, helping Tia down.
Tia just rolled her eyes as she stepped back.
Luke slid his hand between the rough wood and Josie’s head. Her hair was silky against his palm. Her breath an airy caress as he tilted her face up. “You gave us a scare, my darling.”
She blinked at him, whether at his endearment or his touch, he didn’t know. Didn’t care. She was still a little green around the gills.
“Sorry.”
He smiled at the weak apology that could have covered anything. “You’ve got to be feeling pretty badly not to be taking a swing at me right now.”
She licked her pale lips. “At least the darn wagon has stopped moving. All that back and forth...” She shuddered. “It’s worse than being on a ship.”
“You get motion sick?”
She nodded and swallowed hard.
He scooted back a bit. Just in case. His boots couldn’t take another attack. “You feeling sick now?”
“Not yet.”
That yet was ominous.
“Do you feel as if you could sip a little water?”
There was nothing lethargic about her “No.”
“We have a problem with her dress, hijo. I cannot reach around to fasten it and she does not yet seem ready to stand,” Tia interrupted.
“I can handle that.”
“I thought you might be able to,” she agreed drily.
He didn’t have to look over his shoulder to know Tia was watching him with assumptions brewing. He’d never called anyone “my darling” before within her hearing. Hell, he hadn’t done it within his own hearing, but what was done couldn’t be undone. Tia would just have to speculate and he’d just have to deal.
“Turn for me just a bit, Josie.”
Using his body as a brace, he turned her enough to see what he was up against. The dress had a little collar and buttoned down the back with over a dozen cloth-covered buttons. It was made of heavy cotton, and within the gape of the material, he could see red spots on her neck where the previous dress had chafed.
“She’s got some prickly heat here. Do we have any ointment?”
“Of course.” Tia called out instructions to Ed.
While he waited for the ointment, Luke began working from the bottom. Her camisole protected her modesty. He could see the deep creases in the fine material from her corset. He was equally sure that beneath it, her skin bore the same imprints. He traced a wrinkle with his fingertip. “No more corsets.”
Her lack of argument settled a little of his annoyance. The satisfaction lasted a good five seconds, until she began to retch again.
“Son of a bitch!”
Letting gravity flip her forward, Luke barked a warning to Tia. Placing his hand against the wagon in front of her, he gave Josie something to brace against as she vomited. When she was done, Tia gingerly stepped closer and held out a fresh cup of water.
“You will feel better when you rinse your mouth, hija.”
Luke took the cup and held it to Josie’s pale lips. Cupping her hand around his, she attempted to take control. He circumvented the move through a simple application of muscle.
“I don’t need help rinsing out my mouth,” Josie muttered.
“Humor me.”
“Maybe I don’t want to.”
“Why?”
She took a sip, rinsed and spat. Half her bun was straggling around her shoulders in a dark, sleek fall. “I’m trying not to be so obedient.”
Interesting. “What have you got against obedience?”
“It’s not part of my plan.”
He humored her. “I see.”
She seemed oblivious to the fact that she was half naked in his arms. He took advantage of the position to work on the buttons of her dress. The bottom seven were hopeless—the dress was cut to go over the corset, which held her in—but when he got to her rib cage they fastened.
“Here’s the balm,” Tia interrupted, handing him a small pottery jar.
“Thank you.”
He pulled the cork out and set it on the mattress. He motioned with the jar. “You’re going to have to lift your hair for this.”
With one hand Josie held her dress against her chest, and with the other she lifted her hair. It was all very cooperative for someone dead set against obedience.
Dipping his fingers in the cool ointment, he smoothed the cream on her neck. She sighed and let him.
“What? No maidenly protests?” Luke asked.
“Always you are contrary,” he heard Tia mutter.
Josie shook her head. “I’m saving them until I have the energy to scream them.”
He chuckled. She suddenly clutched the side of the wagon.
“Are you going to be sick again?” he asked.
She swallowed twice before answering, “I haven’t decided yet.”
“If there’s an option, my vote’s for no.”
“I’ll bear it in mind,” she muttered.
He smiled as he handed the jar and cork to Tia and went back to buttoning Josie’s dress. The thin beige muslin of her camisole was transparent where it stuck to her skin, giving him peek-a-boo glimpses of soft skin everything male in him craved to explore. For sure she was a lush little thing.
He fastened the final button at her neck. “There. You’re done.”
He helped her down, avoiding the vomit. Her skirts hung limply without the support of the petticoats.
Standing, she reached behind her and clutched at the unbuttoned section at the small of her back. “Not quite.”
“I’ve got a plan for that.”
“You always have plans.”
She didn’t sound pleased about it. He shrugged. “I believe in being prepared.”
From around the side of the wagon, Zach called, “If the photographer is better, we need to resume.”
“Company coming?” Luke called back, keeping the concern out of his query. They were ill defended for a Comanche attack.
Josie stiffened.
“It does not seem so,” Zach answered. “Lobo is keeping an eye on them.”
“So we have time.”
He heard the snap of leather against leather. Zach was impatient. “Not if we wish to avoid others who may be on the move. There is no cover here.”
He knew that. “True enough.”
“So if you could encourage the photographer...”
“I’ll work on it.”
“I have a name,” Josie muttered.
“Tell him that.” Luke waved in Zach’s direction.
“I can’t.”
He raised a brow. “Don’t tell me Mrs. Not-So-Obedient is afraid...”
She shot him a look that spoke volumes.
He grinned. “Not as afraid of him as you are of getting back in that wagon, I bet.”
“Heavens no.”
He smiled again. She did amuse him. He plopped her bonnet on her head. “Don’t worry. I’ve got a plan for that, too.”
She looked at him and raised her brows. Beneath the misery in her expression, he caught a flicker of hope. “You might just be my hero.”
“Hold on to that thought.”
Tia rolled her eyes and snorted. “I will return to my wagon while you sort this out.”
Josie watched her go. “I don’t think I want to be sorted.”
Luke whistled. “Too late to take a stand on that now. I’m married to the thought of being a hero.”
“You don’t strike me as the marrying kind,” she muttered under her breath, straightening the ugly bonnet.
Chico came strolling around the wagon. Tossing his head, he nickered a greeting. Luke gathered up the reins and drew him up.
“Oh no.” Josie plastered herself back against the wagon and shook her head as comprehension dawned. “I don’t ride.”
“Who said anything about riding?” Riding took effort. He wasn’t planning on her working up to even a deep breath. Mounting, he turned the horse until he was perpendicular to where Josie stood watching with a mixture of horror and fascination. Any color she’d regained faded away as he scooted back behind the saddle. The sunburn stood out in garish streaks on her cheeks. Holding out his hand, he beckoned her closer.
“No.”
He cocked his head to the side. “Chico doesn’t sway like the wagon.”
She pressed against the tailgate. “I don’t like horses.”
An idiot could see that. Tipping his hat back, he asked, “How much do you like Comanche?”
That did the trick. She looked around as if warriors lurked behind every anthill. He mentally shook his head. As if he’d permit any threat to get that close. Reluctantly, she placed her hand in his and allowed him to draw her onto the saddle. Her skirts tangled around her legs as she dangled awkwardly.
“Throw your leg over the saddle horn,” he grunted as he strained to hold her high enough and keep Chico from prancing his displeasure with the unbalanced weight.
“We’re too high.”
“Hardly.”
She grabbed the horn as Chico sidestepped. “Says you!”
“A horse is your best friend out here.”
Clinging to the horn, she gasped. “Is he yours?”
“Yup.”
“That explains a lot.”
He chuckled. “You’ve got sass, I’ll give you that. Now fix your skirts unless you want to ride with them cutting off your blood supply.”
“I’d prefer not to ride at all.”
“Duly noted.”
Pulling her up and back against him, he waited for her to get the folds of material arranged to her liking before settling her back against him with improper closeness. She stiffened at the proximity, but he just grinned and urged Chico forward. Her hips rocked pleasingly against him as she clung to the horn.
“This isn’t decent,” she whispered.
At least her color was back. “But it is practical.”
“I’m not a fan of practical.”
He spread his fingers over her stomach, and clucked his tongue as Chico stopped to nose the grain bucket tied to Tia and Ed’s wagon. “Not a fan of obedience or practical.” He shook his head and smiled. “I knew you were going to be trouble.”
* * *
IF SHE HADN’T felt so sick, Josie might have protested Luke’s high-handedness. At the very least, been horrified at the enforced intimacy of her transport, but her sense of proper was otherwise distracted. She’d never ridden a horse before. It was not the liberating experience she’d attempted to convince herself it could be. In fact, it was terrifying.
On horseback she sat much higher than in the wagon and she couldn’t get her mind off the fact it was a long way—maybe a neck-breakingly long way—to the ground. Combine that with the potential that Chico might object to her presence on his back and she had good reason to be nervous. If he reared or bucked she’d go flying. As if hearing her worry, Chico tossed his head and pranced. She grabbed the saddle horn.
Luke’s arm tightened around her waist. “I’ve got you.”
“Wonderful, but who’s got him?”
“I’ve got him, too.”
All he had when it came to the horse was the reins.
She bit her tongue on a retort. For her safety, she didn’t need him distracted by an argument.
“Nothing to say to that?” he asked.
“What do you want me to say? You’re holding two pieces of leather and calling it security. Clearly you’re delusional.”
She expected anything but his bark of laughter.
“I’ve been with Chico a long time. We understand each other.”
“He doesn’t like me up here. I can tell.”
“He’s not used to riding double.”
“Which is what concerns me.”
“He trusts me.”
He said it as if it was the final word on the subject. “What if I don’t trust you?”
“You will.”
The confidence in that statement irked her. “What makes you so sure?”
“I’m very trustworthy. Ask Tia.” He urged Chico forward until they were even with the front of Tia’s wagon. Ed cocked an eyebrow at them. Josie cringed in embarrassment.
“Am I trustworthy, Tia?” Luke asked.
“Of course.”
The chuckle Josie felt vibrating along her back was also present in Luke’s voice. “There you go. Chico trusts me. Tia trusts me. All the confirmation you need.”
“Some things a woman just likes to decide for herself.”
He wasn’t daunted. “And trusting me is one of them?”
“Absolutely.”
“All right. I’ll give you time.”
She knew better than to leave such things open-ended. “How much?”
“We’ve got another two hours until lunch. I’ll check with you then and see how you feel.”
Two hours? She clutched the horn again. She didn’t know if she could handle two hours. The nausea was settling and the light-headedness was fading, but all that did was make her more aware of the muscled forearm settled across her stomach and the strong chest cradling her back. The scents of leather, horse and Luke combined, filling her nostrils. She wanted to hate it, position it as something to resent, but the truth was he smelled and felt pretty darn good. Like the first exhilarating touch of fall after the draining heat of summer. Crisp, cool and inspiring.
It was easy to imagine him walking to the door at the end of a long day, bringing that certain excitement with him. She could imagine meeting him halfway, sliding her hands over his hard chest and around his neck, kissing him hello, breathing in his answer, letting his strength surround her. It was too easy to imagine him sitting down at the supper table, filling the room with his presence and masculine scent. Turning the house into a home.
As much as she loved the concept of happily-ever-after when she looked at Hester and Uncle Jarl and the happiness they embraced, when it came to marriage, her mother had always told her a woman had to be practical. Monotony and submission were a cheap price to pay for security.
She wasn’t sure she wanted security all that much. She’d been trapped in monotony all her life, trying to be so good, so quiet, so obedient, that people wouldn’t remember that she didn’t have a father like everybody else. That her mother lived alone in a shame that Josie shared. That they wouldn’t think about all the hours she spent on her knees in church repenting for sins she’d never committed. That they wouldn’t see her.
“You’ve gone quiet on me.” Luke interrupted her thoughts.
“I wasn’t aware you wanted me to talk.”
“It’d be nice. After all, we’re sharing a horse.”
“Not by my request.”
“You didn’t leave me many options, what with needing your modesty protected.”
“I could have ridden with Stefano.”
His “No” was terse and to the point.
She had to ask. “What’s wrong with Stefano?”
“He’s Zach’s cousin. The Lopez men are good men, but womanizers to the last.”
“And you’re not?”
His chin rested on top of her head, squashing her bonnet flat. “I just got done proving I’m trustworthy.”
She pushed the bonnet back off her face. “That’s not an answer.”
“You’re mighty feisty for somebody who wouldn’t say boo to a ghost a few hours ago.”
She was, she realized. There was something liberating about not having to look at the person to whom she was speaking. She could just stare into space, say what was on her mind and not see their reaction. She kind of liked it.
“I’m sure Stefano is safe.”
“He’s not.”
From the wagon, Ed snorted and Tia chuckled. Josie noticed Luke didn’t tell her to be quiet. She supposed he wouldn’t dare. From what she’d observed, the men of Hell’s Eight revered Tia. A little part of her was jealous. She’d never known the sense of safety that came from somebody loving her like that. The love Tia and the men gave each other was an unconditional love. Well, maybe not unconditional, but they shared the same values, the same strengths, the same code of honor, so the conditions were easy to meet.
It was the opposite of her relationship with her mother. She’d never done one thing to make her mother think that she was a whore, but it was her mother’s overriding concern that she would become one. Because she was born out of wedlock. Because of that, Josie had to work harder, prove herself. If her mother saw her right now, she’d point her finger and yell, “Jezebel.”
Josie couldn’t help it. The thought amused her. Despite all her mother’s precautions and her own efforts, here she was sitting on a man’s lap in a state of total dishabille.
Luke leaned over her shoulder and pulled the bonnet back. “You’re smiling.”
“I do that sometimes.”
“I like it.”
The way he said it in that deep drawl, the timbre resonating with sexual meaning, so serious when there was usually an edge of banter to his tone, made her shiver. There was no hope he didn’t feel it, either, pressed up against her as he was.
“I like that, too.”
And that fast her breath caught and her skin sensitized. Through the gap in the back of her dress she imagined she could feel the heat of his skin, a sensual connection through which his energy seeped, flowing from him to her and back again. The urge to squirm began deep inside.
Good grief. She clutched the horn for a whole different reason. She couldn’t squirm, not for this man.
His hands covered hers. His palms were calloused and rough. They felt the way she’d always imagined a man’s hands should feel. How would they feel against her body? Just thinking about it made her shiver.
“I was serious when I said you could trust me.” His tone was softer without the banter. “I won’t hurt you, Josie.”
That wasn’t a promise anyone could keep, but she went along with it. Maybe just to see how far he would take it. She glanced over her shoulder.
“A Hell’s Eight promise?”
His head cocked to the side, casting half his face in shadow. Darkness and light. “What do you know about a Hell’s Eight promise?”
“I’ve heard a body can take them to the bank.”
“That’s true, but that wasn’t a Hell’s Eight promise. That one was pure Luke Bellen.”
Was that better or worse? She didn’t know and he didn’t offer clarification. One by one Luke’s fingers pried hers from the horn. When her pinky released, she had nothing left to hold on to. Folding her fingers together, she placed them primly in her lap. She always lapsed back to proper when she was uncomfortable, and this was as proper as she could manage in her current circumstance.
Luke sighed. “I’ll keep you safe, Josie.”
She’d heard those words before. Believed them. And then had her world destroyed. “Am I?”
She felt his shrug against her back. “As safe as you want to be, at least.”
“What does that even mean?”
“You don’t know?”
Inside her, the hurt coiled into anger. He thought she was loose. It wasn’t the first time she’d run into that assumption.
“I may be illegitimate, but I’m not a whore.”
Almost imperceptibly, his muscles stiffened. If she hadn’t been so focused on him, she probably wouldn’t have noticed. He was very good at hiding his feelings.
“I don’t remember asking you if you were.”
“You implied it.”
“No, I did not.”
It wasn’t the first time she’d seen a man backtrack once she’d confronted him, either. The only difference between this time and the others was the disappointment she was feeling.
“Do you think you’re original? Don’t you think I’ve heard it all by now? The insinuations? Men asking questions they wouldn’t otherwise ask to see if I’m desperate enough to take them up on the lousy offer they’re making me?”
“No, I actually didn’t think that.”
“Horse hockey!”
His finger caught her chin and turned her head up. He leaned forward so she had no choice but to see his expression. This close she could see the flecks of black in his irises, see the stubble on his jaw, the fullness of his lips and his ridiculously long lashes. And the conviction behind his words as he stated, “I don’t say what I don’t mean.”
She jerked her chin free and he let her. She went back to clutching the horn. Damn him for putting her in this position. Now she had to apologize. “Neither do I.”
Usually.
“You shouldn’t have had to face that alone. There should have been someone there to stand for you.”
Yes. There should have been. “Uncle Jarl tried.”
“But he’s not really your uncle, is he, and he wasn’t always around, was he?”
Luke was too astute by far. She shook her head. “No.”
“And your mother?”
He knew the worst, so he might as well know the rest. “My mother, more than anyone else, believes I’m destined to be a whore—”
He cut her off. “That’s twice you’ve used that word in regard to yourself. You won’t use it again.”
She hadn’t meant to use it the first time. He had a way of making her reckless. “You have no say over me.”
Another shrug and another tip of her face to his. “Say it again and see where it gets you.”
His expression was as hard as his tone. Part of her didn’t care. Part of her cared too much. The heat and the sickness had taken more than she thought out of her. She knew better than to confront a man like this.
She jerked her chin out of his hold and knotted her fingers together. “Please. I’m not feeling well.”
It was, at best, a convenient excuse. She expected him to tear through it, but he neither agreed nor disagreed, just left her in a limbo of her own creation.
She could feel him staring at her, feel his impatience. His intention. He wasn’t going to let it go.
“Please,” she repeated.
She hated the whisper, but more than that, she hated the weakness it betrayed.
Luke’s fingers splayed across her belly, the warmth of his palm soothing, the support even more so. His drawl eased across her nerves. “Rest, Josie. Let me handle things for a while.”
With a whispered “Damn you” she leaned back against him, closed her eyes and accepted the comfort he offered.