Sinner
After having my talk with Tiny yesterday, we decided that moving Rowen out to the barn was probably the best thing and Razor agreed. It wasn't that hard to move her; she slept most of the way, so Saint just held her as I drove.
The night was hard when she woke up; she was sick for hours she was sweating so much we had to change her clothes twice and by hour six we just left her in a vest shirt and her underwear. Saint held her as she shook, it was so fuckin’ hard to see our baby sister like this and I was fuckin’ pissed at Taylor and swore the next time I saw that bitch I was gonna put a bullet in her head.
“LET ME OUT YOU PIECES OF SHIT LET ME GO....PLEASE” Rowen went through stages of begging and raving like a bitch possessed than she slept. Saint was taking it hard, listening to her he'd gone for a long walk just after she fell asleep and when he came back he was quite “You ok” I'd asked him.
“I swear I wanna find Taylor and kill her” I snort.
“Me too Brother me to.”
“Jaxson”
“Yeah”
“Do you think she'll make it.”
“Jordan she's doing good ok, this shit has to happen for her to get better.”
“I know that I'm saying where forcing her to give up do you think she'll go straight back to it when she's better.”
“Man, I don't know, but Tiny said we should talk to her find out how it started, listen to her and not judge” he smiles.
“Wise words.”
“Yeah well, I think Tiny's right man, when I first found out I was pissed but thinking about it more I want to know why.”
“It's just fuckin’ hard man it's Rowen, our little sister.”
“Jordan we'll always be her big brothers we just gotta listen to her”
“Alright”
“You hungry,” I ask him, and he shakes his head.
“You going to the wedding tomorrow.”
“I want to, but I don't want to leave.”
“Sinner she's fine go and see Tink I know you want to.”
“Man, I don't know what to do with her.”
“You know what to do fuckhead, just take her you've got your patch man up and claim her.”
“I think I might have fucked it up though.”
“Man, that woman, is in love with you.”
“She's still with the douche.”
“Nah they broke up” I look at him frowning.
“When?”
“Not sure I just heard Niya and Maggie talking and they said that it was over between them.”
*
That night I help Rowen again, she cried begged and pleaded for me to get her a fix, it broke my heart watching her go through this. I'm still pissed off at our parents for not telling Saint and me just ignoring their own daughters’ addiction; maybe if they ignored it, it would have gone away.
“Please, Jaxson I'm begging you let me out.”
“No Rowen this is for your own good.”
“MY OWN GOOD YOU FUCKING PRICK I FUCKING HATE YOU” she'd broken the side table the first night after she'd woken up so Saint and I moved her to another room with just a mattress a bucket nothing else in the room not even sheets we emptied the bathroom even takin the plug so she couldn't fill the tub. It had already been three days and today was the day of the wedding I was tired as fuck, but I really wanted to see Tink. She was what kept me sane her beautiful face was what kept me going.
“Yo Sinner” I open my eyes to look up at my brother up at my eyes.
“Yeah”
“The weddings in an hour.”
“Shit what time is it.”
“Ten”
“How's Rowen”
“She's asleep.”
“Good”
“Get up you don't want to miss seeing Tink walk down the aisle” I smile the thought of Tink walking down the aisle make me happy, and I imagine her walking towards me “Fuckhead move your ass” I jump up and head for a quick shower. Getting to the clubhouse was a breath of fresh air, even though I was up all night with Rowen I had a few hours’ sleep, and I was pumped to see Tink. I knew the colors of the wedding where cream and pink because the clubhouse looked like a little girls’ doll house pink and cream ribbons and balloons everywhere. It looked so strange with all of the bikers in leather cuts jeans and boots it was the definition of an oxi-moron statement bikers and princesses.
“You made it,” Gunner says
“Yeah”
“No Saint”
“Nah he had to stay and watch Rowen.”
“How is she”
“Angry”
“Brother you'll get her through this you both will” I smile at him and look around.
“Place looks horrible,” I tell him, and he laughs.
“I know right, if another club was to ride pass we'd be branded pussies” I smile
“The guys look clean.”
“Fuck man you missed it yesterday, Lilly made us all show her what we were wearing today if she didn't like it we had to go buy something new the women's crazy” I look at him and notice everything he has on is new.
“So, I guess you didn't have anything she liked.”
“Fuck no the women almost throughout half my shit” I laugh; I at least had the foresight to buy new shit for the day. I watch as Stryker and Colt walk in everyone greeting them. The smile on Stryker’s face is catching, and I find myself smiling for him. They make their way down the aisle the yard has been transferred into white seats on each side of an aisle that has a white cloth flowers and ribbons are all over the place, but all I keep staring at is Stryker's face. The mans a hard nut to crack at best, but today he can't stop smiling, and I know that's down to Lilly. The music starts, and everyone turns to the back. Tink comes walking out, and the earth stopped, her hair is twisted in waves framing her face, and it's down with small white flowers in it. Her dress is gorgeous on her, all pink and flowy. Her smile as she walks, stops me breathing she's breathtaking. I watch as she passes my row but she slightly moves her head and I know she looked at me, as she keeps walking my dick gets so fuckin’ hard her hair flowing all the way past her ass.
I notice out the corner of my eye Lilly walk past with Tiny escorting her, Tiny's face says it all he's happy as fuck and proud. The ceremony goes off without a hiccup, but I don't even pay attention to anything else but Tink, the way she's standing there her tits in that dress has my imagination on overload. I watch every move she makes her smile her gorgeous neck that I want to suck on to holding her hair as I fuck her hard. Damn that women is gorgeous.
Everyone cheers and I realize the ceremony is over, I watch Niya hand Tink a tissue, and she wipes away the tears, she hugs Lilly and kisses Stryker, and I feel like marching over there and claiming her, but I don't. I just stand back and watch her. My phone pings in my pocket and I pull it out, and it's a message from Saint
'need ya Brother' I look back up at Tink, and my heart feels heavy. Fuck I wanna claim her, but my family need me
'on way' I message back.
****
Tink
I watch Sinner say something to Gunner, and he nods; he walks around to where the bikes are, and I hear a bike roar to life and leave. My heart sinks a bit he just left “Tink you ok” Niya asks me, and I smile
“Of course, just happy.”
“That wasn't a happy look Tink, are you sure you’re ok” I plaster on a smile.
“Yeah, I'm good,” I tell her
*
We spend the next half an hour taking photos, I really would have liked a photo with either of the twins, but apparently, they have somewhere else to be because I haven't seen Saint either. Everyone makes their way into the clubhouse taking a seat; there's no seating chart so everyone can sit where ever they want.
The laughter and happiness coming off of everyone is amazing, all the women look phenomenal in their pastel colors while the guys are in there usual bikery attire. Lena is in an amazing light blue dress that has sequence all over it's a mermaid style dress accentuating all of her gorgeous curves, Niya's in a light lilac dress with a sweetheart neckline backless dress that's skin-tight her hair up and curled as well. Everyone looks amazing; I sit at the main table next to Lilly. The table is dressed in whites and silver. I've only ever seen something like this in a magazine or on TV and never in a million years would I have thought that I'd be sitting at a table like this. I watch Lilly walk around laughing and smiling, god how we've come so far in just over a year and to think that maybe next year Lilly might become a mother (shit a mother) I couldn't imagine the women I met a few years ago would want to have a kid let alone a husband.
“You ok Tink” I look up and see Chelsea smiling at me.
“I'm good.”
“You looked lost in thought.”
“I was”
“Can I ask what you were thinking about” I look at her
“Just life, me Lilly how far we've come.”
“She looks happy doesn't she.”
“Yeah, she really does.”
“No date than” I smile
“No, no date” I know she wants to know what happened with me and the douche
“Well I'm going to find a hot biker to dance with,” she says making me smile again
“Well, you've got a great selection,” I tell her and she laughs
“See ya later Tink” I give her a chin lift as I see her make her way towards Cuff.”
I dance laugh and drink with the new family I have, I even take Logan off of Maggie and have a dance with him making him giggle his cute little smile. I can see why Lilly wants a baby; Logan is gorgeous.
The time for speeches comes just after dinner, and I watch Colt get up and give his speech about Stryker and him as kids than Tiny than it's my turn. I stand up and all eyes on me I take a deep breath and Lilly grabs my hand giving it a squeeze.
“I'm not sure if many of you know this, but Lilly is not my biological sister, we may not be sisters by blood but where sisters of the heart much like all of the men here tonight. We may not have grown up together, but we've lived a lifetime together in the short amount of time we've been together. When Lilly and I first met I was begging for food; I remember sitting in front of the store she found me at for days. I hadn't eaten in almost a week, and she stopped and helped me. I knew that God had sent Lilly to me and I'm thankful every day that he did. I know that if she hadn't helped me I would most likely be dead. I never knew what love was growing up, and Lilly showed me that, she was my savior in every way and I'm proud to call her my sister and my friend. I never wanted to stop in this town, but Lilly dragged me off of the train telling me she had a good feeling about it and I'm glad we did, we've found something that many people never find. Love happiness and family, The Devils Soldiers, Stryker and Tiny have been a godsend and I will always be grateful to you all. So, before I blubber everywhere and mess up my makeup more, lift your glasses to Stryker Lilly and the Devils Soldiers” Everyone lifts their glasses and then yells
“DEVILS SOLDIERS FOREVER” I smile as Lilly, and Stryker get up and pulls me in for a big hug.
“I love you Tink” Lilly whispers, and I kiss her on the cheek.
After all of the speeches were over with it was time for the first dance. Lilly had been listening for the past month trying to come up with the perfect song when one day we were headed to the grocery store when the perfect song came on the radio. She jumped for joy knowing she'd found her first dance song where she could dance as husband and wife.
'Say you won't let go by James Arthur' starts and Lilly and Stryker make it to the dance floor, and the room goes quiet, we watch as they dance together kissing and whispering to each other and I know whatever Stryker is saying to Lilly is not PG rated. I feel a tap and look up as Tiny holds out his hand, I know I'm supposed to dance with Colt, but I would prefer to dance with Tiny. We make our way to the dance floor, and I tell Colt to get Niya. The six of us dance around each other, and I can't help but smile. Even in my heels I look like a child in Tiny's arms, not as much when I'm near Sinner or Saint, but still, everyone is taller than me even Zoey Niya's sister “How are you Tink” Tiny asks
“How are you,” I ask him, and he smiles, and we both look at Lilly and Stryker
“They look good don't they,” he says, the look on their faces says it all
“Yeah, they do,” I tell him
We dance to another song, and I realize Tiny's not a bad dancer at all, I was worried that he'd crush my feet, but so far, he's dancing amazing
“Tiny”
“Yeah, darlin’.”
“Why did Sinner leave” Tiny looks at me
“Family business,” he says not elaborating
“Is there anything I can help with.”
“No darlin’.”
“Ok” I feel sad that I won't get to dance with Sinner, I know where never going anywhere together but I really wanted to dance with him just once.