“We’ll start with a bath,” Shad said, laying her gently on the couch of the guest suite Commander Sylvan had sent them to. “Let’s get you all clean and warm—I think it will help.”
Harper was fairly certain that the only thing that would help her was his shaft deep inside her giving her what Brynn had described as a “deep breeding” but Shad hadn’t seemed willing to talk about that on the way to the guest suite they were staying in. She was pretty sure what was holding him back—he didn’t want to complete the bond between them when he might get taken back to his own time at any moment.
But what else could they do? How else was she going to get over this when Brynn and Varin, the only people they knew who had any experience with the Blood Honey, had told them making love—breeding—was the only way to overcome its effects?
“You need penetration—deep penetration,” Brynn had told her. Her pale cheeks had gone pink with a blush as though this kind of frank talk about sex embarrassed her but she’d forced herself to go on anyway, for Harper’s sake. “And you need his cream—his seed—inside you. It’s the only way.”
Harper had no reason to doubt the other girl—especially when her own body was telling her exactly what Brynn had said. But she didn’t know how to broach the topic with Shad.
Also, it wasn’t just the place between her legs that was aching. Her breasts seemed to be getting fuller by the moment. Had that damn Blood Honey brought back the effects of the sex-milk? Harper was afraid there was no other explanation for the fullness of her breasts and the wet spots on her shirt, but she had to see to be for certain.
Now that she finally had some privacy, she dared to unbutton the red uniform shirt she was wearing and look down at her swollen breasts. She groaned at what she saw.
Sure enough, her nipples and areolas had turned from their normal light brown to the deep, blackberry shade they’d been after she had the sex-milk. And when she squeezed one puffy nipple, a tiny droplet of pale purple appeared on its tip.
“Ah, I was afraid of that.”
The sound of Shad’s voice made her head jerk up and Harper tried instinctively to hide her breasts with her arms.
“No, sweetheart.” He shook his head and knelt beside her. “No, don’t hide it. The Blood Honey brought back the sex-milk effects too, didn’t it?”
“I…I think so,” Harper admitted, allowing him to uncross her arms and pull them away from her body so he could study her bare breasts, now swollen with nectar.
“Then we don’t have much time to fix this.” He sounded decisive. “Let’s get you all cleaned up and I’ll help you like I did last time.”
Harper knew he meant he would suck the nectar out of her overfull breasts and then use his own body fluids as a kind of antidote for her illness. The question was, would he use his saliva as he had last time…or would he make love to her and come in her to solve the effects of both the sex-milk and the Blood Honey at the same time?
The emptiness between her thighs cried out for him but she didn’t want to push—didn’t want to demand he form a bond with her when it would condemn both of them to pain and anguish later if…
If the future takes him back, she finished lamely to herself.
Still, he hadn’t had a fading episode since they’d been sitting together in the spaceship on the way back from Mars, she reminded herself hopefully. Maybe he was getting more stable here—maybe he was going to stay with her after all.
Need to find a way to anchor him here, like Commander Sylvan said. But how? she wondered to herself.
By this time Shad was stripping the red uniform shirt and the tattered remains of the green fringe dress off her, making her naked. Harper didn’t even try to resist, though she still felt self-conscious about her swollen breasts. But he’d seen her like this before, she reminded herself, and he hadn’t seemed to mind.
“Shad…” she whispered as he scooped her off the couch and carried her into the bathing room. There was a wide, deep tub set almost flush with the floor so that it looked like a small swimming pool. The water inside was a pale, crystal blue and steam was rising from its surface.
“Sweetheart.” He kissed her forehead tenderly. “I’m going to put you in the bathing pool now so we can get you all clean.”
“Will you come in with me?” Harper begged softly. “Please, Shad—don’t leave me alone.”
“Of course I won’t…won’t leave you.” The words seemed to stick in his throat and Harper knew what he meant—he wouldn’t leave her if he could help it. But what if he faded right in front of her?
I won’t let that happen, she told herself fiercely. I’ll keep him here with me—somehow I’ll do it.
Shad lowered her into the steaming pool, which was filled up to the brim. Harper expected the water to spill over and onto the floor but somehow it didn’t. Maybe it was the Kindred version of an infinity pool, she thought.
After making certain she was all right, submerged to her waist in the warm water, the big Kindred began stripping away the leather vest and trousers and boots he’d been wearing all this time.
Harper’s mouth watered and her pussy ached with need when his long, thick shaft was revealed. He was only about half hard—clearly he was worried about her which probably kept him from getting fully erect at the moment—but he was still huge.
Plenty big enough to fill me up and stop this ache, she thought. In fact, he’s more than big enough.
For the first time, Harper wondered if she could fit all that inside herself. She hadn’t been with a guy in a long time and Shad was bigger than anyone she’d ever been with. But the emptiness inside her begged for him—telling her she had to have him—had to have all that hard, thick length inside her and she knew she wanted to try.
But would Shad let her?
His first order of business, when he lowered himself into the pool beside her, was to attend to her breasts.
“Here, sweetheart…let me help you.” Taking a soft, light blue cloth from a stack by the edge of the pool, he dipped it in the water and used it to wash her and then to caress her swollen breasts.
Harper hissed at first when the steaming liquid touched her sensitive nipples and jerked away.
“Sorry, baby,” Shad murmured contritely. “Didn’t mean to hurt you. Do you want me to kiss it better?”
Harper felt a surge between her thighs and squeezed them together tightly.
“Yes…please,” she whispered. God, how she needed him! All of him. His mouth…his hands…and most of all his long, thick cock. But she would take what she could get for now.
Making soft sounds of comfort, Shad cupped her full breasts in his hands and leaned down. Gently, he lapped at her tender buds, letting just the tip of his tongue circle them slowly until she gasped and pressed up to get more of his mouth on her.
“Shad,” she moaned. “Shad, please…”
“Going to suck you now, sweetheart,” he growled softly, looking into her eyes. “Going to suck your sweet breasts and ease the ache.”
Harper bit her lip to keep from asking if he minded drinking the nectar that had filled her breasts. After all, she reminded herself, he hadn’t minded last time. And it would feel wonderful to get rid of the heavy ache that had settled in her over-full breasts.
“Yes,” she whispered. “Yes, please.”
“Over here.” There was a ledge for sitting on one end of the steaming pool. Shad settled on it and pulled Harper into his lap, facing him, so that she straddled his hips and her breasts were on level with his mouth. “Easier this way,” he murmured, stroking her back.
She moaned softly as she felt his thickness brush against her inner thighs—there was no doubt he was completely aroused now. The broad head of his cock slipped between her swollen pussy lips, nudging her clit, making her gasp and want to beg for more.
But it was clear Shad was only interested in sucking her breasts.
“Carefully,” he growled softly, putting his hands on her ass to steady her in his lap and keep her from sinking down any further against his straining shaft. “Just let me ease you, Harper—just let me suck your sweet breasts.”
“All right,” she whispered and leaned forward, giving him access to her chest.
Shad groaned softly and took her right nipple between his lips.
Harper couldn’t hold back a cry of pure lust as he drew hard on her tender nub, easing the ache in her breast even as he caused the one between her legs to grow.
“Shad,” she whispered breathlessly as he sucked and swallowed her nectar. “Shad, please, I need…I need…”
“What is it you need, sweetheart?” he growled softly, releasing her nipple to look up at her.
Harper knew what she really needed—she needed his hard shaft pounding into her while he did this, while he sucked her. She needed to ride his cock while he sucked the nectar from her breasts. But somehow she couldn’t make herself ask for it. What if he said no? What if he refused her?
“I need more…more contact with you,” she said at last, wiggling against him. She lowered herself until she felt the broad head of his cock pressing against her outer pussy lips again.
“Harper,” he said warningly and started to pull away but she stopped him with a hand on his broad shoulder.
“Please, Shad,” she murmured. “Even if you don’t…don’t want to put it inside me, can’t I please just rub against it? I feel so…so empty inside.”
His gaze softened and he reached up to stroke a strand of her long, curly hair away from her face.
“I know you do, sweetheart and I know you need my seed inside you to help with the effects of the Blood Honey. But I don’t like the idea of leaving you alone with an empty bond if I…if I get called away.”
“Don’t talk about that,” Harper pleaded. “Not now. Not unless we have to. For now can’t I just rub against you? Maybe if I just lowered myself down like this…” She demonstrated, pressing her pussy lips against the head of his shaft until he slipped inside and pressed against her clit. “Ahhh! That feels so good.”
“Yes, it fucking does,” Shad growled. “Gods, sweetheart…”
“We don’t have to do anything,” Harper told him breathlessly. “We could just…just rub against each other while you help me with my breasts.”
Shad looked indecisive for a minute, then he sighed.
“I can’t say no to you. But we need to move out of the bathing pool to do this right.”
Harper didn’t mind. She allowed him to help her out and towel her dry with a large, white sheet-like towel.
“Gods, baby, you’re so beautiful,” Shad murmured, kneeling at her feet to dry her legs and ass and patting gently at the mound of her pussy. “So fucking gorgeous it takes my breath away.”
“Oh, Shad…” She didn’t want to cry again but his sweet words seemed to pierce her heart. Why did she feel like they were doing this for the last time? Why did she feel like someone or something was granting them one last reprieve before taking Shad away from her?
Don’t think like that, she ordered herself. Find a way to anchor him here, find a way to keep him with you!
When she was dry, Shad lifted her easily into his arms and carried her back to the couch. There was a fireplace with a crackling fire of blue and gold and green flames in front of it and Harper luxuriated in the feel of the warmth against her bare skin.
“Now…” Shad settled on the couch and had her face him, once more straddling his hips. “Where were we?”
“You were helping me with my breasts,” Harper murmured, thrusting them forward so he could reach the sensitive nipples with his mouth again. “And you said it was all right to do this.”
With a little moan of pure desire, she sank down on him again so that the wide head of his cock slipped between her spread pussy lips. This time, with no water to make her buoyant, she was able to get much better contact. They both groaned when his thickness pushed into her wet folds and rubbed against her aching clit.
“God, Shad,” she gasped breathlessly, working her hips to feel the slick friction between them. “Suck my breasts again…I think I could come this way.”
“Love to feel you coming all over my cock, baby,” he growled and took her left nipple between his lips.
Harper moaned and ground against him, loving the feeling of him drawing the nectar from her breast as she pressed her swollen pussy against his thick shaft. He seemed to throb between her thighs and she wondered how close he was to coming himself. She wondered too if this kind of orgasm, with Shad outside her rather than planted deep in her pussy where she really wanted him, would do anything to satisfy her.
“You’ll need his shaft and his cream—his seed—deep inside you,” Brynn had told her. And God, that was exactly what she wanted—what she needed—but it didn’t seem like Shad was going to give it to her. He was too afraid of forming a bond that he might have to break later.
Maybe I need to get it for myself, then, she thought, half delirious with lust as she pressed against him, rubbing his long shaft between her swollen lower lips. Maybe he won’t stop me if I just get started.
Deliberately, she tilted her hips until the head of his cock was lined up with the entrance of her pussy. By this time Shad was thrusting in a regular rhythm, rubbing against her as she had been rubbing against him. The next time his shaft came forward it didn’t rub against her though—it entered her.
It was only the head but that was enough for Harper to know it was exactly what she needed—what her body so desperately craved. With a low cry, she lowered herself onto him, taking another inch of his thick cock inside her even though it felt like he was stretching her inner walls to the limit.
“Harper no—wait!” Shad released her nipple and put his hands on her waist, holding her steady, keeping her from taking the rest of him inside.
“Please!” she moaned softly, struggling in his grip. “Please, Shad, I need you inside me—please!”
“I don’t want to leave you with an empty bond and a baby if the future takes me back,” he said hoarsely. “If we do this, I could get you pregnant—did you think of that?”
Actually, Harper hadn’t even considered it. But she was too far gone to care now.
“Please,” she begged. “Brynn said I would…would need your seed inside me to get over the Blood Honey.”
He sighed, his pearlescent eyes uncertain.
“Varin said the same. But Harper, I don’t think—”
“Just keep it in me this far,” she said, trying to find an opening—a chink in his defenses. “You’ve only got the head inside me—can’t you keep just that much in my…my pussy while you finish with my breasts?”
“Well…” He seemed to hesitate but Harper used her inner muscles to squeeze him enticingly. “Please, Shad,” she whispered.
“All right,” he said at last. “But until we discuss this thoroughly and decide what to do, this is as far as we go. I’ll stay inside you while I finish sucking your nectar, but we can’t go any further.”
“Thank you…” Harper leaned forward, putting one sensitive nipple to his lips again. “Please, Shad—suck me again. Make me feel better,” she murmured.
“Gods, sweetheart…” he groaned and took the offered nipple, sucking it deep as though he was trying to get her whole breast into his mouth.
Harper moaned in pleasure and worked her hips, taking just the tip of his cock inside her over and over…the tip and just a little more. Because it seemed that as her nectar gushed into his mouth, it caused her pussy to gush as well—wetting his invading shaft with her juices until her inner walls—which had been stretched tight around the thick invader—at last began to relax.
Before Harper quite knew what was happening, another thick inch of his shaft had slipped inside her and then another and another.
“Harper…” Shad released her nipple and looked down between them, frowning disapprovingly. “Harper, look at this—look where I am.”
Biting her lip, Harper looked down to see that over half the big Kindred’s thick length was impaling her pussy. She was stretched tight around him but it felt so good.
“Oh,” she whispered, squeezing her inner muscles nervously. “I…I’m sorry, Shad. I don’t know how that happened. I think when you suck my breasts it just makes me so much more slippery down there…”
“Apparently,” he rumbled, still frowning. “Harper, please I don’t want to get you—”
“I know, you don’t want to get me pregnant and leave me with a baby to raise on my own,” she whispered. “Or bond with me and then have to break it. I don’t want that either. But Shad, just being inside me isn’t going to get me pregnant or form a bond. I feel so empty inside. Even if you won’t come in me, can’t you at least fill me completely? I think it would help me feel better—help me get over some of the effects of the Blood Honey.”
“Well…” She could see the indecision in his shifting white and rainbow eyes.
“Please,” she whispered pleadingly, lowering herself down just a little more. “Please, Shad—let me feel you all the way inside me, filling me up while you suck my breasts.”
“Gods, sweetheart, we shouldn’t…”
But he was already pulling her down onto him, thrusting the rest of his long, thick shaft into her open, willing pussy.
Harper sighed in relief when she finally felt him bottom out inside her. God, it felt good to have him all the way in her pussy! Having his thick cock stretching her inner walls, the broad head kissing the mouth of her womb, felt like exactly what she needed…well, almost.
“You’ll need him to breed you hard,” Brynn had said. “Don’t be ashamed of that. Take what you need.”
That was exactly what Harper needed and she tried to take it, just as the other girl had advised. As Shad leaned forward and took one of her nipples into his hot mouth again, she began to work herself on his thickness, raising up and lowering herself down, loving the intimate friction of his cock deep in her pussy.
“Harper,” Shad growled, releasing her nipple again. “What are you doing?”
“Just…just moving a little,” she whispered breathlessly as she rocked back and forth on him, taking him as deeply into her wet depths as she could manage.
“You’re fucking yourself on me,” Shad said sternly and then groaned softly. “Gods, baby, you’re fucking your hot little pussy on my cock.”
“Oh, Shad,” Harper didn’t know if he meant to talk dirty to her or not but the hot words growled in that low, almost-angry tone sent a shiver of pure lust through her entire body. “I can’t help it!” she moaned, bracing her hands on his broad shoulders to try and get better leverage. “I need this, Shad—I need you. Not only that, I need you in me hard. Can’t you please just…just fuck me a little bit while you suck my nipples? Please?”
“Fuck you just a little bit, hmm?” he snarled softly.
“Hard,” Harper emphasized again. “Please, Shad—I’m so empty inside. I can’t do this on my own—I need you to fuck me.”
It was as though her words released something inside him—some beast he’d been keeping caged. With a low, possessive growl, he gripped her by the hips, his fingers digging into her flesh until Harper was certain she was going to have bruises. Then he pulled almost all the way out…and slammed back into her, filling her to the brim, battering the inside of her tender pussy with the hard ram of his cock.
Harper threw back her head and wailed as a pleasure too deep for words overcame her. She dug her nails into his shoulders and arched her back, spreading her thighs wider for his cock, begging wordlessly for more…more…more.
Shad gave it to her. Wrapping one muscular arm around her waist to hold her in place, he rammed himself into her, filling her to the limit, stretching her inner walls as the head of his shaft hit bottom inside her with each hard, pounding stroke.
“Yes…yes, please yes, Shad!”
Harper heard herself gasping and begging, wanting more, always more and harder, always harder. She’d never had sex like this—so hard and deep and animalistic. She’d never felt the edge of pleasure and pain converge inside her so deeply but she knew this still wasn’t all she needed.
Need him to come inside me, she thought and knew it was true. Need to feel him coming, spurting deep in my pussy—filling me with his seed.
But would Shad do it? He’d spent so much time during the various time paths they’d taken avoiding this exact scenario. Suddenly she had an idea.
“Shad,” she gasped, still holding onto his shoulders. “Shad—come in me! Seal the bond!”
He slowed his thrusts and started to protest but she shook her head, overriding him.
“Maybe this is the way,” she panted, rolling her hips to keep up their rhythm. “Don’t…don’t you see? Commander Sylvan said you needed something to…to anchor you here. Maybe the bond will do it!”
His eyes widened and she could see him considering it. To help him decide, she squeezed him tight with her inner muscles, wiling him to come…willing him to tie the two of them together forever.
At last, he nodded.
“All right,” he said hoarsely. “I don’t know if it will work but I’ll try it. We have to cure you of the Blood Honey too and I guess this is the only way.”
“Come in me,” Harper urged him again.
“Not until you come first, sweetheart.” As he spoke, one big hand slid from her waist to the place where they were joined.
Harper gave a soft cry of pure lust when she felt the broad pad of his thumb slide into her slippery folds and begin slipping back and forth over her clit.
“Shad,” she begged. “God, that feels so good! Do that—touch me while you fuck me! Make me come on your cock!”
Her dirty talk seemed to have the same effect on Shad that his had had on her. He groaned and his white eyes went half-lidded with pure lust. Then, as he continued to stroke her throbbing clit, he began pumping inside her again, taking her with long, hard thrusts that felt like exactly what she needed.
“That’s right, baby,” she moaned. “Need you to pound me—pound me hard.”
“Going…as hard as I can without…hurting you,” Shad growled hoarsely.
“You won’t hurt me,” Harper promised breathlessly. “Just need you in me deep and long and hard. Just need to feel you filling me up!”
Suddenly she felt her orgasm approaching. She’d been on the edge so long that it took her almost by surprise when it finally hit, crashing over her like a warm wave at the beach she hadn’t seen coming.
“Shad!” she cried, her toes curling, her nails biting into his shoulders as she rode him as hard as she could. “Oh God, Shad! Coming…you’re making me come so hard, baby!”
“Gods, Kallana, I can feel you coming all around me! Can feel your tight little pussy squeezing my cock,” he groaned as he thrust inside her. “Love you, Harper—love you so damn much!”
And then he allowed her orgasm to trigger his own. Pulling her down hard onto his cock, he thrust as deeply into her as he could and Harper felt something hot and wet pulsing inside her, finally curing the empty ache inside her.
“Shad,” she moaned and heard her answer, but not with her ears.
“I love you, Kallana. We’re bonded now—bonded forever.”
“We are?” Harper asked, and realized she was thinking at him rather than talking.
“We are,” he affirmed and sighed heavily. “I just pray to the Goddess we won’t regret it.”
“I could never regret being with you,” Harper assured him. “I love you, Shad. And I’m sure making love like this—bonding—will help anchor you here, in this time with me.”
“I pray to the Goddess you’re right, Kallana,” he murmured. But to Harper, he didn’t sound at all certain.