The glow in Ren’s eyes turned Jimmy on even more. Jimmy couldn’t control himself, and for the first time in forever, he didn’t care. Telling him the words he’d dreaded his whole life—saying ‘I’m gay’ out loud, even if in another language—made him feel twenty times lighter. He’d never felt so liberated. Ren understood. Of course he did. He was gay too. But he respected Jimmy’s feelings. He cared about Jimmy. Jimmy could see it in Ren’s eyes when Jimmy kissed that girl. And that made him crave Ren even more.

Jimmy kissed him again, and he didn’t care that Ren could feel his boner rubbing against him. Jimmy felt Ren’s cock on his stomach, but, while tempting, Jimmy wasn’t done exploring Ren’s face and neck yet. He’d never been with a man before, never been with anyone before, so the face and the upper body seemed like a good place to start. Even if he wanted to, he couldn’t put his hands anywhere else. His heart was pumping way too fast to make it possible.

Ren’s hands rubbed Jimmy’s chest and travelled to his waist. Jimmy’s breath hitched. Ren’s fingers traced around on his stomach and Jimmy felt the urge to laugh. He felt ticklish and aroused at the same time. That was a new sensation.

Ren pulled back from him. ‘Are you sure you want to do this?’ he mumbled, and Jimmy steadied his eyes on Ren’s before answering the question.

‘Yes!’ Jimmy shouted.

Ren pushed his mouth on Jimmy’s again, making Jimmy’s dick pulse. Ren’s cheekbones felt smooth, his eyes an ocean to get lost in. His neck was bony, which didn’t surprise Jimmy. Ren was a skinny man. Not any less attractive, however. Jimmy found the courage to explore the lower parts of Ren’s body, starting with the chest. Ren’s ribs were sculpted under his skin.

Ren’s body trembled, reacting to Jimmy’s touch. His skin was delicate and for the most part hairless. Ren’s hands moved to Jimmy’s hips and squeezed his ass gently. Jimmy’s dick throbbed. He put his hands on Ren’s ass and massaged it. It was small and plump. Ren moaned in his ear and his breath gave Jimmy shivers. Ren sucked on Jimmy’s earlobe and Jimmy continued massaging Ren’s ass.

Jimmy pulled Ren’s pants down with one hand, slowly, waiting for him to protest. He didn’t. After Jimmy had uncovered Ren’s ass and dick, Ren took the rest off. He slid Jimmy’s pants off him and Jimmy lay there, naked, with his hardness in front of another man.

Ren knelt in front of Jimmy and licked the head of his dick. Jimmy stretched against the floor. Ren eased Jimmy’s length into his mouth and Jimmy remained still. He closed his eyes and moaned. Ren moved rhythmically. Jimmy’s stomach tightened and he took deep breaths to stop the crippling sensation overtaking him.

Jimmy pushed Ren’s head away from his cock and Ren came back up to kiss him.

‘Was that okay?’ he asked.

Only a croak came out. ‘That—that was perfect.’

Ren exhaled. ‘Oh, thank God. I’ve never done this before.’

‘Me neither,’ Jimmy told him. ‘But it doesn’t matter.’

Ren nodded in agreement. Jimmy kissed him again and pushed him onto the floor as Jimmy crawled down to Ren’s dick. He licked around his cock before taking it in his mouth and swallowing as much of it as he could. It was a reasonably long and thin cock, but nothing gigantic or scary. It was mere perfection and sucking it made his own dick crave release.

‘Stop!’ Ren whispered and Jimmy looked up at him. ‘I’m gonna come,’ he stuttered.

Jimmy continued sucking him and Ren breathed heavily until his breaths became pants. His come splashed Jimmy’s face and he closed his eyes, welcoming the warmth.

Ren’s fingers grabbed Jimmy’s chin and pulled him up. He grabbed the hem of his T-shirt and wiped Jimmy’s face. ‘Now it’s your turn,’ he said.

Jimmy grabbed his dick and rubbed it over Ren’s stomach. He kissed Ren, tongue and all, while looking into his eyes. Jimmy’s pelvis tightened and before he could stop, his come oozed all over Ren’s stomach and his breathing roughened. He fell on top of Ren and Ren hugged him.

‘That was…’ Jimmy started.

‘The best first time I could have imagined,’ Ren finished.

‘I was gonna say fucking hot, but I guess that also works.’

‘Let’s do that again, sometime,’ Ren chuckled.

Jimmy smiled and gave him another kiss.

No more fear. There was no reason to be afraid of something that felt so good. This was where he belonged. And it was okay.