Chapter 10
Candy
The memory of how I acted the night before was not something that I wanted to relive. I had acted in poor taste and I was thankful that I’d woken up alone. It certainly wasn’t because of me. I had tried my best to get Colt to lay with me, but he’d told me that he was going to leave as soon as I was asleep. He hadn’t wanted to lay with me at all, but there was nothing that I could do about it. I had been so horny, so drunk, I don’t even know. What I did know, was that Colt had been the voice of reason and I owed him for it. I almost didn’t something that I would have surely regretted.
At the end of the day, I knew that I was lucky that he hadn’t taken advantage of me like I knew he could have done. It was very clear to me that I was lucky. It became even more apparent when my phone started to ring, and I could see that it was Jax on the line. What would I have said to him if Colt wouldn’t have been the way that he was? How would I have been able to explain myself?
I picked up the phone and said hello. My head was pounding from the night before, and I hadn't really opened my eyes that much, but after talking to Lisa, I knew that I had to take the call.
“Hey Candy. I was wondering when you're going to answer the phone. I was worried that you didn't want to talk to me.”
“Why wouldn't I want to talk to you?”
“I don't know, it's just weird not talking to you. I think this is the longest we've ever went without talking since we've met.”
Of course, Jax remembered things like that. Sometimes I really think that I didn't deserve him because he was so romantic, when I wasn't. I said that he was perfect, and I meant it, but that didn't mean that I was. I knew that I was far from perfect.
“I know baby, it has been weird here without you.”
“So how is it going? Do you like the hotel?”
Again, he was putting me on the spot and I didn't know what to say.
“The place I'm staying at alright, but it's cheap, so what can you expect?”
“You should get you a nice place and have some fun. You’re in Vegas after all.”
I suppose if he knew what I was doing last night he wouldn’t be telling me that. I wasn't much into drinking and I had gone way over my limit the night before. I could still feel it in the throbbing of my head and the fact that I still couldn't even open my eyes that much. It was just too bright, and my head was killing me.
“I'm not here to have fun Jax. You know what I'm here for. And as soon as I am done with that, I will be back home to you.”
“I know Candy. I just miss you and wanted to hear your voice. I didn't get to talk to you last night, so I wanted to talk to you this morning. You sound like you just woke up. This is kind of late for you, isn't it?”
Considering the fact that I didn't even know what time it was, I nodded my head to nobody in the room. Pulling my phone from my ear, I looked at the time and it was almost noon. I don't know what I had been doing, but it was Saturday and I had to get things taken care of. While I was trying to convince myself that I was here for the right reasons, if I didn't get it done, then that wouldn’t be true.
“I didn't just wake up I'm just, I don't know little tired. Probably jet lag from the trip. You know that I hate to fly, especially if there isn’t a beach on the other end.”
“Well, I'm about to go to the meeting. If you need anything just call me and Betty will answer. It won't be long until I'm out and I'll give you a call when I'm done, okay?”
“Okay, baby. I hope everything goes well with the meeting.”
“It will be fine. Although I am glad that you told me to go. The firm really needs this client and I don't know why but they wanted me here.
I told him that it was because he was so talented, and I know that I was stroking his ego a little bit, but at the end of the day, he was one of the best lawyers in the city. Everyone knew of him and I was happy that nothing else was going to be messed up because of my mistake. The last thing I needed was for him to lose a client, a very good client, over the mess with me being married.
“Just tell me that everything is going to be alright.”
“Everything is going to be fine Candy. Take care of what you have to take care of and then come home to me. That is all that matters.”
I told him that I would, but there was a part of me that wondered what was going to happen next. I couldn't very easily forget what had happened between me and Colt the night before. I had been horny as hell and he was the one that I was looking for. He had been the one that has stopped it from happening, but that didn't mean that I wanted it to happen. At the time I did, but now, thinking back, I'm glad that he had his mind about him and not me. It was sort of strange though, because I knew that's what he wanted.
Jax told me that he loved me and told me to hurry up and come home. Just the fact that he was being so sweet made me feel bad and I felt worse as I took a shower and got dressed for the day.
I did have a max-match of clothes with me, but there was one outfit in particular that wasn’t like the rest. It was a little tight on my curves and I were too impressed. I had just gotten off the phone with Jax, but I was getting dressed up for Colt. I knew that I was wrong in so many ways. but that didn't stop me from going down the stairs and giving Colt a smile. It wasn’t hard to see that he liked what he saw.
“Good morning.”
“Good morning. I am sorry that I slept in so late. I didn't realize that. I usually don't do sleep so late. I have to get up early for work most days.”
“I can tell by the way you handle your liquor. It is starting to seem like I am a bad influence on you.
I agree with that wholeheartedly and I knew that it was easier to blame him than to play myself. I don't know what the hell is going on with me lately, but I need to get my head on straight so that everything will be taken care of. I was here to get a divorce, nothing else. I said that in my head, at the same time I was smiling, hoping that he noticed me.
“Yeah, sorry about last night. I don’t know where my head was at.”
I could have mentioned the fact that I was sorry I came on to him the night before. That wasn't me at all either, but I was getting sick of saying it and I wanted to pretend like I didn't remember. We wouldn’t have to have a conversation if I didn't remember, because I didn't think that he would bring it up himself.
“It's no problem Candy. It was good to see the old you again. I told you that she was still in you.”
While I knew he was kind of being a smart ass, part of me knew that what he said was true. He seemed to bring out a side of me that I hadn't been in a long time. While I like to think of that time as a crazy time, a time where I made a lot of mistakes, which was true. It was also true that I had learned a lot about myself and about the world. I had a freedom back then, no expectations and in a way, I missed it. I missed only having to make myself happy instead of everyone else. It was a lot easier that way.
“Your right. she came back for the night, but don't expect to see her again. I'm not...”
“I know, you're not like that.”
I giggled at him and told him not to be so upset about it.
“You make it sound like it's a bad thing.”