Sam

I stayed up listening to her even breathing for some time. The tiny woman was curled against my chest, her curved body touching mine. I wanted her again, hell needed her again desperately, but it had not worked out the way that I thought it would. I had assumed so many things, that I now knew were wrong. I was her first and I heard the soft words uttered right before I came. I had really messed up this time.

Getting up, I went to the phone that I had been ignoring all day. It wasn’t like I wasn’t worried about what was going on back home, but I just wanted some time together. I wanted to be with Meri all on my own, just me and her. It was all I could think about and the more I tried to push the thoughts away, the harder it was to do that.

My phone had so many missed calls. I had done my best to postpone the court date next week, but it looked like my assistant wasn’t able to make it happen. That meant that I had just four days, two of those non-business days to get me and Meri back home. It may have well been impossible, but I knew that I wasn’t going to leave her here. I was going to be in Thailand until she left. I owed her at least that much. There was so much that she wanted from me, most likely expected from me, but it would never happen. I was not the man of her dreams. I was not a man worthy of love.

Going back into the hotel, I stayed downstairs for a while, trying to get my head on straight.

“You look lonely.”

The same woman that I had seen every day since I had been here finally spoke to me again. She sounded even younger than she looked.

“No, I am not lonely, but thank you.”

She was surprised to be turned down, much like I had felt when Meri had done the same thing to me. “You are beautiful, but I cannot.” It was strange that I felt like I even had to give an excuse, though I knew what it could do to someone’s ego, what it had done to mine.

Going back upstairs, I didn’t look back at the temptation. Now was I not able to indulge? Was this night the start of the end? Relationships, marriage were the end. I had never seen one work and I told myself years ago that I wouldn’t play the game. Why have one woman, when you can have them all?

I slipped back into the fold out bed that she was lying in. Meri was still naked, her body was half exposed by the sheet at the bottom of the bed and I was left hypnotized by how good she looked. I wanted her again, desperately and I moved closer, hoping that I could awaken the woman and her desires one more time. I had thought that one time would be enough. I just needed to feel her and taste her that once to get her off of my mind. But it hadn’t worked at all. I wanted her even more than ever before and the more I tried to fight it, the worse off I was.

She moaned as I kissed her neck, her ass backing up against me. Meri wasn’t even all the way awake, but her body had already agreed to my plan. She wanted me, I could feel it and it didn’t take long to wake her up and convince her. I pulled her on top of me and entered her slowly. She was sore, I knew that I had to take it slow, but it was Meri that pushed for more. I had created a monster and it was I that was drained dry an hour later.

***

We did what we could to search for Carol and by Sunday we had a lead that was promising. My mind had shifted from the woman I was helping, to actually helping her. With my career on the line, I had to find Carol and get this all straightened out.

She was supposed to be working at a type of whore house outside of the city. I went without Meri, while she was sleeping to see if I could get eyes on Carol. It wasn’t that hard to recognize her and before I knew what was happening, I had her out of the dank house and back to the hotel with me. Carol was not okay. They had been giving her something and I found a doctor to see to her. I needed her at least with it enough to take to the police station for identity purposes.

It all was working out and that didn’t make sense to me. Nothing was ever this easy, but by the evening of Sunday, Carol and Meri were talking about everything and I had a good feeling that everything was going to end the way it was supposed to. We would be back in the States tomorrow and from there, I don’t know. I was still trying to decide what I was going to do about Meri. I had a feeling that she expected something to come of this trip. She was going to be expect me to be with her. The problem was, I was not with anyone.

The hotel was still booked, so the girls stayed in the bedroom and I was left alone with my thoughts out on the couch. I heard the door open and several times I thought it was Meri sneaking into bed with me, but she never came and I finally went to sleep.

When I was awaken later, it was Meri and she wasn’t wearing any clothes.

“Another bad dream?”

“No, it just occurred to me that we would most likely be leaving tomorrow.”

“Uh huh.”

“So I was thinking that maybe you would want to do something our last night here?”

There was no talk of what happened next, but there really didn’t need to be. I could see in her eyes that she wanted more, but at the moment I was unable to give her that. I couldn’t see past the naked woman standing in front of me. Her body was still pure perfection and instead of answering her, I lifted the sheet back and invited her in with me. I promised to keep her warm.

Meri moved against me like a moth to a flame and I could feel all of her wonderful curves up against me. Her nipples were already hard, pressing back against my hot skin. It wasn’t long before I was as naked as she was, pumping into the woman that I knew was all mine. When had I ever been able to say that before? Meri was all mine, every inch and as I laid down next to her and pulled her close, I realized that I didn’t want anyone else to ever have her. I didn’t want her, not in the way that she would want, but the idea of another man touching her put my stomach to tilt.

“What happens when we leave Sam?”

“What do you mean?” Were we already having this conversation?

“I mean, what happens with us when we get back to New York.”

It was the moment of truth and I should have been honest.

I wasn’t the type of guy that was okay being with only one woman. I was a man that still had some wild oats to sow and even though it had been magical here with Meri, I knew that reality had to sink in eventually. I would get back to New York and I was sure that I was going to fall back into my old self. There was too much temptation there to think that anything was going to be different.

“I don’t want to think about what happens after tonight Meri. I just want to enjoy this moment with you. You are going home and I know that it is going to be a lot for you right now. We will get together after the dust settles and see where we are.”

It wasn’t what she wanted to hear. That was more than obvious by the way she was looking at me. I wanted to smooth it over and I pulled her to me for a kiss. I knew that she wasn’t going to be able to resist me, no matter how badly she wanted to. She could be mad at me in the morning, but tonight I wanted that look of lust back in Meri’s eyes. She was vulnerable and I was going to have to be gentle letting her down. I would make it easy. I was her first after all.