Chapter 14

 

 

“You have such sweet lips.” He couldn’t stop kissing her. Her lips were full and soft with a rose color to them. The more he kissed her the darker red her lips became. He liked the look of well kissed female—especially his female.

Her delicate hands were caressing his chest instead of pushing him away. He loved how her touch felt. It had been awhile since he had been with anyone. More importantly, he suspected she had less experience. He desperately wanted to make it good for her.

“We should stop,” she said, the words coming out slow and soft. It didn’t hold fear or really any intent to follow up with her statement.

“Do you want to stop?” He bent down and took her lips with his in a deep, claiming kiss. When he released her from the kiss, her only answer to that was to wrap her arms around his neck and pull him back for another kiss. He could happily kiss her all night, but there were other things he wanted to do.

He surprised her by bending down and scooping her up in his arms and heading for his bedroom.

“Your leg and arm…”

“Are fine, I have enough strength to carry you for miles.”

“Really?”

“Yes. Tell me now if you don’t want this, HonORa, because I have to have you.”

“I…I…want you I’m just a little scared,” she whispered her confession.

“Have you ever been with a male before?”

“No. I was once promised to a young warrior, but he died in battle before I was of age to mate.”

“How old were you?”

“Sixteen when he died.”

“Did you love him?” He should not ask that, but he needed to know.

“I did…but looking back now, I can see how it was more of an infatuation.”

“Do you miss him?”

“I used to a great deal, but as I got older and dedicated myself to the Goddess, the pain of losing him faded and now I have fond memories of him.”

He was grateful to know that he would be her first but it bothered him that she had planned to be with another. Glancing in her eyes and seeing sadness, he felt something new, sympathy. He didn’t want her to hurt for the other male.

“I’m sorry you lost him but I am grateful that I have a chance to share this with you.”

“What about you? Is there someone waiting on you?” she asked shyly.

“No. There were females I courted on Norad, but they died in the attack.”

“I’m sorry.”

He paused and looked down at her. “I’m sorry for their death but I am not sorry that it’s you I’m with now.” His response made her blush.

Once at the side of his bed, he let her slide down the front of his body and it was a bitter-sweetness to feel her curves against him. He reached for her dress, which was simpler than her usual robes. It had buttons on the side, and when he finally got them all done, her dress slid down her body with ease. She wore no underclothing and every inch of her was bared to him.

“By the Goddess…you’re beautiful.”

“Thank you,” she said softly. “I don’t want to be the only one naked.”

She blushed as she shyly reached for the waist of his pants. His cock was full and bursting to be freed. She had such small soft hands. When they touched his flesh, he fought the urge to release right then and there. He helped her finish taking his pants off. He was grateful

Gripping her by her shapely ass, he lifted her up against him. He held her as carried her to the bed then laid her down. He came down with her making sure not to put his whole weight on her. His groin pressed against her in sweet torture. He fought his urge to take her; he needed to go slow.

“Tell me if you want me to stop and I’ll stop. No matter how far we go, I will stop.”

“I want you and I want this. I want to finally know what it’s like to give myself to a male I am beginning to care for deeply. Even if it’s for a little while.”

It would be for a lot longer if he had anything to do with it. “I already care for you HonORa. I feel this connection to you. It hit me the first time I saw you.”

“I know, it’s like a part of me recognized you from the very first.”

“Yes.”

No more words were said as they kissed and kissed. They didn’t stop kissing or touching each other.

*****

 He was blue…everywhere! She was intrigued and wanted to know every inch of him. Touching his hard flesh was a little scary and very exciting. How could something so hard be soft at the same time? She took his member in her palm and felt the pulse there. A since of power filled her, she had control of a part of him and it thrilled her. She wanted to explore and play with him for hours but he removed her roving hand mumbling something about not being able to stay in control.

HonORa marveled at the feel of his larger body on top of hers. He could crush her easily, but he didn’t. He used his strength to give her pleasure. He slide his body against hers and his groin ground pleasurably against hers over and over. She could feel his cock rubbing against her pussy but he didn’t thrust into her like she thought he would. He was taking his time, making sure that everything he did felt good to her. It did and it also felt wickedly delicious.

Slowly, all of HonORa’s inhibitions faded as she began to experience the pleasure that other females had gushed over. Something inside of her was aching to be filled. She wanted more from him. His kisses, his touch…she just wanted everything she could get from him and she wanted to give him everything that she had to give as well.

She kissed him tentatively, wanting to show him just how much she desired him. Even though HonORa was inexperienced, she wanted him know that she wasn’t thinking about anyone but him, that he was the one she wanted to be with. She wanted him more than anyone, even TomAZ. She bit his bottom lip teasing him with her teeth.

“HonORa, you’re driving me crazy,” he groaned kissing her.

She felt his hands skim her body, over her breasts, down her side until he had her thighs in his large hands. She arched her hips up when he spread her thighs open and settled there. “You drive me crazy as well. Make love to me, Zander.”

To her consternation, he still held back as he moved his hands back up her body skimming her skin and making goose ups pop up everywhere on her. His hands cupped her breasts, massaging the mounds and teasing the tips into tight peaks. With every tug and pinch, little currents of electricity ran throughout her entire body. Excitement raced through her at the thought of having him inside of her. She would finally know what it was like to be with a male that she longed for.

He ran his tongue along her lower lip, nibbling and driving her crazy. He growled, plunging his tongue inside of her mouth. “You taste so good, I can’t seem to get enough of you.”

Zander tasted good, too. She could kiss him forever. His lips were strong and commanding, but at the same time soft and gentle. Her fingers were shaking with nerves as she ran them over his shoulders and down his back. His skin was hot and smooth, softer than she would have thought. She enjoyed the feel of his hot flesh beneath her hands. It was a heady feeling knowing that he desired her just as much.

“Do you know how exquisite you are?” He asked, skimming his hands down to her hips again. He seemed to enjoy touching her as much as she enjoyed touch him.

“No.” She could feel heat sweep over her wherever his hands or his eyes touched her. It was awkward at first, but then she found it thrilling to be appreciated. She was the center of his attention and that made her feel sexy and beautiful. She hadn’t felt that way in a long time.

“You are gorgeous and so delicate, a miracle beyond anything I could have imagined, and I haven’t even gotten inside of you yet.”

“Will you be doing that next?” her shy question had him smiling at her wickedly.

He chuckled. “Are you getting anxious?”

“Maybe a little, I want this. I want you in every way..” She was breathing deeply and everywhere he touched, her skin would tingle. His body vibrated against hers, causing her body to vibrate in response. The energy generated from their vibrations was focusing intensely in her lower region. She wasn’t sure if she liked it or not. No one had ever made her feel this way. The one thing she knew for sure was that she didn’t want him to stop.

He cupped her breasts, lifting them and teasing her nipples with his teeth. She felt like she was going to scream if he didn’t do something soon. “Please, Zander.”

“Do you like the way I touch you here?” He squeezed her breast.

“Yes.”

“What about here?” He lowered his hand to her stomach and bent down to kiss her navel.

“Oh yes.”

“What about here HonORA? Do you like it when I touch you here?” He moved his hand down to gently caress her bare pussy mound.

Her hips arched toward his hand without thought, and she moaned, “Yes.”

Zander inserted a finger between her lower lips. It was one of the strangest things she had ever felt, and it was amazing. She pushed herself closer to him, wanting more. He growled in pleasure at her response, adding another finger, pleasing her with his fingers.

“Am I hurting you? Do you want me to stop?”

“No, I want this…”

“I want this too. I love how tight and wet you are for me.” He increased his pace with his fingers.

“Zander, please. I need more.”

“I’ll give you all of me.”

*****

Using his fingers, he felt the tiny nub inside her that would bring her the most pleasure. He stroked the spot over and over. He watched her every emotion, making sure that he wasn’t scaring her but only bringing her pleasure. When he went to remove his fingers, she protested.

“Don’t stop!”

“Never.” Moving down her body he kissed every soft smooth bit of her flesh, further and further until his mouth was directly over her pussy lips. Having reached his final destination, he lowered his head and licked the seam of her lower lips with his tongue flicking inside.

 “You taste so good.” He licked her over and over. Then he inserted his tongue and began to love her with his mouth. This was a great honor to be able to love a female in such a way and he was deeply pleased that HonORa trusted him to touch her in such a way.

 “Zander I feel so strange,” HonORa whispered.

“Strange as in bad?” Zander hesitated, waiting for her to answer.

“Strange…good. There’s a fire inside of me, I feel like I’m going to burn up.”

“Let yourself feel it. I feel it too my love. We’ll burn together,” he told her.

She arched up against him, her fingers clutching his hair. He knew she was close to her release, he broke the barrier as gently as possible not wanting to cause her further pain. She halted movement as she gasped. He halted waiting for her to recover. It didn’t take long. Her but responses quickened to desire and need.

“Move, I want more,” she told him.

He gave her faster when she needed it, slow when he felt her hesitation and he gave her his heart along with the release she desperately wanted.

HonORa called out his name as she had her release. Her body arched and glowed with pleasure. His male pride was one he couldn’t hide as he licked every drop of her essence. Pulling back, he smiled with satisfaction at the amazement and happiness on her face. He wanted to give her that every time They came together. He swore there would be many many more times.

His spine was tight with tension as he climbed up her body, letting his skin drag against hers. He enjoyed the feel of her against him, as if she belonged there. In his mind, she did belong there. He placed his cock right at her entrance but didn’t move. “Are you ready, my love?”

She looked up at him with heavy lids. “Yes.”

Slowly he eased the tip of his cock inside of her, fighting the need to slam inside to claim her. The thin barrier to her innocence was gone but he took a moment to appreciate the gift she was giving him. It was precious and he would be grateful to her for all his days.

“Breathe with me.” He inhaled, making sure that she copied him. “Release it when I say.” She took a deep breath with him trusting him completely. “Now!” he told her. As she released her breath he pushed past the remnants of the thin barrier. He kept going slow and steady despite the tightness of her inner walls, kept going until he was fully sheathed inside of her, then stopped moving so that she could adjust to his size and length.

“Oh my goddess,” she whispered. Closing her eyes, a tear trailed down her face. His size was causing her discomfort. He wished he didn’t have to hurt her at all. He waited, not moving, showing patience of the great hunter father had taught him to be. She finally opened her eyes and some of the pain faded.

“I’m sorry. I knew there might be some pain but…”

“I promise it will never hurt again like that and your body will adjust to mine. Just let me know when to move. If you don’t want to go further I will withdrawal.” It might actually cause him pain but he would stop if she didn’t want to continue.

She took another deep breath and released it, then wiggled under him, wanting him to move. So he did. Zander moved in and out. Faster and deeper he went, as her moans of desire spurred him on.

“I want…need…” she couldn’t finish her thoughts.

He gave her more, pushing and dragging out of her only to push back in again. Her fingernails digging into his sides made him growl out with his desire for her. She caught on quickly, lifting her hips for him as he thrust forward.

His pace increased and so did her demands. “Harder, Zander!” Half laughing, half moaning, he gave her what she wanted. That energy between them traveled down his spine and had him grinding into her over and over. He knew that he would not be able to last much longer. Being inside of her, filling her was beyond anything he had ever experienced before. When they moved as one, he felt them melt into one another.

HonORa screamed out as she had another release. Her inner walls squeezed him over and over, milking him until he finally released his seed deep inside of her.

“Goddess!” He couldn’t stop coming inside of her. He knew her people considered this mating, but at that moment, in the heat of passion, he couldn’t pull out of her and didn’t want to. In his mind she was his mate. He needed time to convince her of that.

He kept them connected as he rolled them to their sides so that he wouldn’t crush her. She had her face pressed against his chest but didn’t say anything. They lay there for a short while enjoying the closeness. Finally, the silence had to be broken.

“Did I hurt you?” he asked with genuine concern.

“No. I’m just a little winded and dazed. Is it always so…intense?”

He pulled back so that he could look into her face. “Not always. It’s different with each person. Did I give you pleasure?”

She frowned at him. “Of course you did, twice. I’m just never felt anything so all-consuming before. If it’s like that with other females, how did they ever let you go?”

His pride was puffed up at her words but he wanted to reassure her. “What we shared was unlike anything I have ever experience before. It was amazing and special. No female makes me feel the way you do.”

She sighed with relief. “Good. I want to do that again but right now, I would love to take a nap with you.”

He sighed. “I would love that, too, but I have to get back to questioning the Morinian elders.”

Frowning, she sat up on her elbow to look at him. “Why?”

His hand reached out to stroke her exposed breast. “What?”

“Why are you questioning the Morinian elders?”

“Two of their males are withholding information on where the Morins might be hiding. I need those locations.”

“Why not Let Leader LarIS handle it? Or maybe Leader KadEN or RendEL? Why does it have to be you?”

He sat up and turned his back to her to reach down for his pants. “It is my place to seek justice for my people.”

“Your remaining people need their leader more than they need revenge.”

“What do you know of what my people need? Have you ever been attacked and left for dead?”

She wrapped her arms around herself defensively. “No. I have never felt the need to seek revenge on anyone.”

Kitana! He didn’t mean to upset her. “I’m sorry for my harsh words. I only meant to point out that you would not be able to understand. It’s not revenge I seek, it’s justice. Someone has to stand up to the Morins and make them answer for the cruelty they have caused” he said  as he pulled away from her.

“In time, you could learn to forgive,” she offered.

“You don’t understand what it was like. You’ve been sheltered your whole life. I look in my sister’s face and see the pain and humiliation she suffered and tries to hide. I close my eyes and can still see my dead mother and dead father’s bodies lying lifeless on the ground before me. My nightmares are filled with replaying the attack and watching myself helpless, limbless crawling over the bloody bodies of people I grew up with. I cannot just walk away from this. I need to make sure that the Morins pay for what they did.”

He pulled pants on. Then he put on socks, boots and a shirt. “I’ll be back late tonight. Could you let Lizetta know?”

“Yes,” HonORa said softly.

He was at the door when he turned around to look at her. She sat up holding the blanket to cover her naked body. Regret filled him. All he wanted to do was return to her and make love to her again. Her eyes wouldn’t meet his and he knew that his words had caused damage.

“I’m sorry. I haven’t come to terms with what happened to Norad yet, and I didn’t mean to take it out on you. We’ll talk more later.” He waited until she nodded before he left, but a feeling of dread filled him and he knew that things were far from settled.

*****

HonORa sat up in the bed and felt confused and hurt. How could he say what he said then just leave here there? They had made love and it was amazing and beautiful. In all her dreams of finally sharing sex with someone, nothing could have compared to what she just experienced.

Zander had been loving, gentle and thorough making sure that she was pleasured. Every inch of her still tingled where he had touched her. Standing up she walked over to where there was reflective glass hanging on the wall.

She expected to look different now. Her face was flushed and her eyes had a glow about them, but she still looked like herself. So why did she feel so different inside. She wasn’t talking about the tiny little aches from the lovemaking, those she didn’t mind. Her heart hurt and she couldn’t help but feel a little betrayed. She had opened up her heart and body to Zander but because they had differences of opinions, he shut her out. How could they possibly have a relationship if he kept himself at a distance? It would never work.