Chapter 12
Ashley
Frank was looking at me funny and it was much of the same look as he had last night. It didn’t take but a quick glance in front of him to see that he was hard and that certainly got my attention. Now I was looking strange most likely and I was avoiding the bottom half of him.
“What’s up Frank?”
“Um, uh…”
I giggled a little and asked him if the cat got his tongue.
“No, um I was just going to make sure that we were okay after last night. I shouldn’t have brought her back here, and I'm sorry that you had to see that.”
I waved him off and told him that it was no big deal. I wasn't going to tell him that it was a big turn on, and I certainly wasn't going to tell him that I knew he was horny right now. It just didn't seem like the thing to do.
“It's no big deal, really. I guess if we lived together like we do now, it is bound to happen. I know that you can't be celibate. I will just make sure to stay upstairs if I hear noises next time.”
I should have mentioned that it would have been better if he would've just banged her in his own room, but it didn't seem like something I should say. Even after a week of being here, I still wasn't sure where I stood in the whole situation. It was kind of confusing, and the way he made me feel when I walked in on him, was even more confusing. I wasn’t sure where to go from here. I finally looked into his eyes, and I could see the same hunger that I'd dropped in on last night. Why was he looking at me like that?
“Well, I just wanted to make sure that you were okay. I didn't mean to scare you or anything.”
“Frank, it's no big deal, really. We all do it.”
My words got a jump of fire in his eyes and I had to think that he was imagining the two of us doing it. I know that I was, and it was even harder to keep my eyes focused away from him with the conversation that we were having. It was almost like he knew what he was doing to me, but I couldn't be for sure. All I knew for certain was that this conversation was starting to make me horny. At least I could get away tomorrow and take care of my needs. It was a lot harder for me to satisfy them the six days that I worked, because I certainly couldn't bring a guy home like he had brought a woman home.
“Well I'm glad you think that way, but I just wanted to make sure.”
“Make sure of what?”
“I wanted to make sure that you're going to come back. It has been nice having you here and you have made things a lot easier.”
I put my hand up in told him to stop.
“It really is fine Frank, it's no big deal. Don't mention it again. I am not going anywhere. I certainly wouldn't just walk off and then not say anything to you. I need tuition, you need a babysitter, it's perfect. I am going to take off in the morning and I will see you Monday morning bright and early before you go to work. Okay?”
He agreed and I waited for him to leave. He was standing by the door, and then turned back around and asked me one more time if everything was okay.
“Why do you keep asking?”
“I don't know, I just want to make sure.”
I assured him one more time that everything was fine. Frank finally left, and I will be the first to admit that I wasn't too happy about it. I knew that nothing could happen between us, but they didn't mean that I didn't want to push it.
***
The next morning, I got up early and left. After the dreams I had had, and the things I had seen this week, there was only one thing in particular that I was thinking of. While I didn't think that Duane would be everything that I wanted him to be, that didn't matter to me at this point. At this point, I just needed a release and he was always good for that one way or another.
I got home, and my roommate was sleeping. Duane was probably sleeping as well, but since it had been so long since we'd been together, I figured that he wouldn't mind too much if I woke him up.
He let the phone ring a couple of times before he answered, but it wasn't long before he was on his way to my house.
“You don't have to say another thing Ashley, I will be there in a little bit.”
I was suddenly thankful that he was such a man. He didn’t care why I was calling him so early for sex. The truth was that I don’t think he cared at all. What he cared about was what was going to happen next and I was feeling the same way. There was just something about Frank and the scene before had me practically watering my panties. It wasn’t good, I’m sure of that, but there was nothing that I could do about it now. The only thing I could do was get Duane over here and ride him until I wasn’t worried about Frank anymore. He wasn’t what I wanted, not by far, but Duane was going to have to do.
I would worry about the rest of it later.
***
“I really don't understand what you are doing Ashley.”
“You know exactly what I am doing Duane, but you don't agree with it. I can't help that. Not all of us have rich parents that we can just get money from.”
He hated when I talked about money, but the fact that he never had to worry about it never crossed his mind. Duane was in a different situation than I was, but I could tell that me working for Frank was bothering him. Maybe it was because he knew that something was going on? I know that sex between us was different now. I kept pushing him to go faster, and to go harder, but that wasn't who he was. It never had been. The fact was that I didn't want Duane anymore, I wanted something else. I wanted someone else and I knew exactly who it was.
“I get that you have to make some money for tuition Ashley, but what I don't understand is why you are working with a middle-aged guy, and living in his house.”
“I told you before, he pays good money and that is about the only way I'm going to have enough for tuition and rent for the next semester. And don't start by saying that you will give me the money. I don't want to hear it, and I don't want your money.”
“So, you would rather keep living with this guy and we will never get to see each other? I mean Ashley, I have needs. What do you think is going to happen if you're never around?”
Even though he wasn't saying it in the sort of way that I would think a threat would come out, that was exactly what it was. He was giving me something to think about, or he thought so anyways. The fact was that I had been thinking about it for a while. I knew what I would do without him, because that's all I've been thinking about lately. I didn't want to think about it, but I knew that whatever this was between me and him, wasn't going to last. It certainly wasn't a relationship that was going to make the long haul.
“So, what are you saying doing?”
“I think you know what I'm saying Ashley. You're going to have to make a choice.”
We were lying in bed together and I got up. I can't believe that he was talking like this, but in a way I could. Duane was always been pretty selfish and he never seen past himself. All he was worried about right now was the fact that he wasn't getting enough sex. That wasn't my problem.
“Maybe I am Duane. But I understand that it's not going to be good if you put this ultimatum on me.”
I got out of bed and started to get dressed. We had planned to stay in bed and have sex all day, but I told him that I had other things to do and that he needed to leave. Duane was not happy about it, gave me dirty looks the whole time he was getting ready, but I told myself this was his choice not mine.
But deep down, I knew that something had changed in me and Duane just wasn't enough anymore. It was a better this way.