CHAPTER THREE
By 5:25, Sarah’s feet were killing her and she was dreaming of a hot bath and a bottle of wine. All afternoon she had been running around the store, helping customers, searching for colors, needles, patterns. How did her mother and grandmother do this six days a week?
With only five minutes until she could lock the door and collapse on one of the couches in the middle of the room, two women came in, laughing and carrying big felted bags. “I’m sorry,” Sarah said in as polite a voice as she could manage, “the store closes in a few minutes.” Just then, the store’s phone rang and she grabbed it. “Lakeside Stitch & Knit. How may I help you?”
“Sarah, it’s Calvin.”
God. She had been so frazzled for the past few hours that she’d almost forgotten she’d asked him to call her here. Now, with her guard down, the sound of his low voice in her ear had her reaching for the counter to steady herself. Just like that, ten years fell away so fast it made her head spin.
“Hi.” She couldn’t say anything more for the moment, not until she caught her breath, not until she pulled herself back together.
“So, about tonight, that sounds great. How about we meet at the Tavern at seven thirty?”
If she left right now, she would have just enough time to shower and change and redo her hair and makeup. “Seven thirty is perfect.”
She put down the phone and was reaching for her bag when she realized she wasn’t alone. The two women she had spoken to at the door were sitting on the couches looking like they planned to settle in for the night.
“I’m sorry,” she said again, “but I really do need to close the store.” Time was already ticking down on the prep she needed to do—both with her appearance and her emotions—for her meeting with Calvin. Even though it wasn’t like they were going out on a date or anything. Tonight was simply going to be two old friends catching up, with some business tacked on to the back end.
The older woman with bright red hair nodded. “Of course you do. Our knitting night is about to begin.”
Oh no. How could she have forgotten about the Monday night knitting group? Her plans to go home to shower and change went up in smoke. “It’s been such a busy day in the store that I forgot it was Monday night.” The women just stared at her as she babbled unconvincingly. “Can I get you two anything?”
The slightly younger woman with shiny gray hair laughed. “Not to worry, we always come prepared.” The women produced four bottles of wine, along with a big plastic container full of chocolate chip cookies. Sarah’s stomach growled as she tried to get her exhausted, overwhelmed brain to remember where the glasses were.
Fortunately, the knitting group regulars were way ahead of her as they opened the small doors of the coffee table and began to pull out mismatched tumblers for the wine.
More long-buried memories came at her, joining all the others that had been scrambling into her brain all day. It had been her job, after everyone had gone, to wash out the glasses in the kitchen sink, dry them, and put them back under the coffee table. Her grandmother always told her how important her role was, that wine made people comfortable, that it let them talk about the secrets they shouldn’t be holding inside.
The Monday night knitting group had been going on for as long as her grandmother had owned the store. Olive said the group was as important to her as family—and that they’d been responsible for keeping her sane more than once over the years. As a little girl, Sarah had loved sitting on the floor, listening to the women talk, laugh, and cry. But by ten she had grown out of this—not just the knitting group, but anything to do with yarn or the store.
Sarah still remembered her last ever Monday night at Lakeside Stitch & Knit. She had been sitting next to Mrs. Gibson and only half listening to her complain about her swollen ankles to the woman next to her. Sarah swore Mrs. Gibson was always pregnant. One of her kids was in Sarah’s fifth-grade class, and Owen had five younger siblings already.
Sarah had been working on a scarf for her father in a zigzag pattern, but she kept screwing it up. Bad enough that she needed help unraveling it and then getting it back onto the needles so she could fix her mistakes. Her mother and grandmother were both busy helping other people, and she had no choice but to turn to Mrs. Gibson.
“You know,” the woman had said, “it’s no surprise you’re having trouble with this scarf. Owen told me how smart you are. You’re going to go out there and do big, important things like your daddy. You really don’t belong here with us knitters, do you?”
Sarah was pulled back to the present as she heard a throat being cleared and looked up to see the red-haired woman holding out a glass of wine. “I didn’t know Olive and Denise had hired anyone new. Wait a minute. I need to put my glasses on.” After a few moments of peering, she said, “Sarah? It’s Dorothy. Dorothy Johnson.”
Sarah suddenly realized why the woman looked so familiar. It was her hair that had thrown Sarah off, red instead of dark brown, and the fact that she seemed to have shrunk several inches in the past decade.
Dorothy introduced her to Helen, who had moved to Summer Lake five years earlier. “I would have guessed who you were eventually,” Helen said. “You really are the perfect combination of Olive and Denise.”
“I look more like my dad,” Sarah said automatically.
“I can see James in you, certainly, but if you ask me, you take after the women in your family more. I’m so sorry about his passing. We all are.”
It was hard to hear her father’s name on a stranger’s lips, harder still to be reminded that he was gone.
“Thanks. Please don’t hesitate to let me know if there’s anything else I can help you with,” she said before moving to the door to welcome in more Monday night knitting group members.
She didn’t recognize many people—obviously, a lot of new people had moved to the lake in the ten years she’d been gone. But when Rosalind Bouchard walked in, Sarah couldn’t help but do a double take. After all, it wasn’t every day that she met a reality-TV star. Ex-star, actually, given that Rosalind’s retirement had recently been all over the press, along with her new anti-online-bullying foundation—and, of course, her relationship with Drake Sullivan, who had been one of New York City’s most eligible bachelors. Sarah’s mother and grandmother had repeatedly told Sarah how lovely Rosa was and that they hoped the two women would get a chance to connect one day soon.
“Hi, I’m Sarah.” Sarah didn’t want to do anything to make Rosalind feel uncomfortable, and since she was feeling more than a little tongue-tied, she decided to keep it simple. “My mother and grandmother can’t be here tonight, so let me know if you need anything.”
“Finally, we meet! Olive and Denise are so wonderful. And you look just like both of them. I would have recognized the family resemblance if you hadn’t told me who you are. I’m Rosa.”
Her smile was so wide as she stuck out her hand that Sarah couldn’t help but smile back while they shook, even though she was stunned by Rosa’s proclamation of just how much she thought Sarah looked like the other women in her family. What did Rosa see that Sarah was missing?
“I swear this store has been the ultimate haven for me,” Rosa went on. “There have been more times than I can keep track of when I would have been utterly lost if I couldn’t come here and get out of my head and recharge. Plus,” she added with a laugh, “it helps that your grandmother has a zero-nonsense meter. If she so much as suspects that I’m about to spin off on something that shouldn’t be worth any of my mental or emotional energy, she’s already there shutting it down.”
How right her mother and grandmother had been about Rosa being sweet and easy to talk to. Sarah said, “They adore you too.”
Rosa’s grin grew even bigger hearing that. “I’m going to stop talking your ear off for now, but I hope we’ll get a chance to talk more later.”
Sarah hadn’t thought she’d have a chance to make new friends in town, not when she was going to be here for only a couple of weeks max. Then again, this whole day had been pretty surprising so far…
Fifteen minutes after six, the wine was flowing with nary a needle in motion when one final woman pushed in through the door. “Sorry I’m late.”
“Brownies will make it all better,” Rosa said. “You do have brownies, don’t you?”
“Why do you think I’m late?” the latecomer replied with a laugh, but to Sarah’s ears it sounded forced. She put her tray on the table, then looked up in surprise. “Oh. Sarah. I didn’t expect you to be here.”
Sarah hadn’t seen her old friend in years. Now, as she took a good look at Catherine, she almost didn’t recognize her with so many extra pounds on her once fit frame.
“Catherine, how are you?”
“Apart from divorcing my rat bastard husband, I’m all right.”
The women all around them still chatted as if everything were perfectly normal. Sarah scrambled to find an appropriate response, but really, there wasn’t one. Catherine shrugged, a show of nonchalance that Sarah didn’t buy.
“Welcome home,” Catherine said before sitting down on a couch in the opposite corner.
Sarah hadn’t even known her friend had been married. Then again, she hadn’t gone to any of their high school reunions or registered as part of their class on any social-networking sites.
Dorothy tapped her wineglass several times with a knitting needle. “Everyone,” she said authoritatively, “please say hello to Sarah, Denise’s daughter.” The woman’s eyes twinkled. “Even if you already know each other from her years growing up here, be sure to tell her something unique and memorable about yourself.”
Sarah looked up from her spot behind the register. She had hoped to be able to sit there and fade into the background while the knitting group did their thing. But when Dorothy scooted over on the couch and patted the seat beside her, she knew she was cornered and cornered good.
“Sarah and I have already met,” Helen said, “but just to be sure you don’t forget me, you should know that I have never so much as stuck a toe into the lake and never plan to.”
Sarah was stunned by this admission. “Why not?”
“I had an unfortunate incident with a swimming pool when I was a child.”
“But swimming in the lake is incredible.” From the time Sarah could walk, she’d loved to run off the end of her parents’ dock and cannonball into the water, whether eighty degrees at the height of summer or somewhere in the sixties in the late spring and early fall. She was surprised by a fierce—and sudden—urge to run out of the store, strip off her clothes, and go running off a dock, any dock, just so she could experience that glorious moment when she hit the water.
“I’m sure it is,” Helen said regretfully before turning the floor over to the middle-aged woman sitting next to her. “Your turn, Angie.”
“I have four little monsters at home,” Angie said with a smile, “and were it not for the fact that I knew I was going to be able to escape to this group after a weekend when none of them would stop screaming, I might very well have had an unfortunate incident of my own in the lake. On purpose.”
Everyone laughed, but Sarah struggled with the right response. It had been years since she’d known the comfort of being around other women. At work, she was primarily surrounded by men, and given her rule about no emotional entanglements in the office, Sarah spent the bulk of her time with people who were pretty much just professional acquaintances.
“Sarah and I just met at the door,” Rosa said when everyone turned to let her introduce herself. “And I know I promised not to talk your ear off anymore,” she said with a smile, “but I just have to say again that, in so many ways, your family’s store saved me.” Her smile faltered slightly. “I was trying so hard to figure out how to deal with the mess my life had become—” Everyone scowled as they silently recalled the nude photo scandal, when pictures of her had been illegally taken and given to the press. “I was so confused, so conflicted, when the next thing I knew, here I was, standing in your amazing store, being told in no uncertain terms by your grandmother and mother that I didn’t have to hide anymore. That I could start fresh and hold my head high. No matter what anyone else said.”
“Rosa did the embroidery on my top,” Helen said, holding out her wrists so that they could see the gorgeous needlework around her cuffs. “I took her class and tried to do it myself, but I get so much pleasure from looking at her artistry every time I look down at my shirt.”
“Wow.” Sarah looked back at Rosa, even more impressed now than she’d already been. Few people she knew had been able to reinvent themselves the way this woman had. “Did you work from a pattern?”
Looking a little embarrassed by all the praise, Rosa shook her head. “I’d much rather just stitch the pictures I see in my head. Anyway,” she said, clearly wanting to turn the spotlight away from herself, “I think you’re next, Catherine.”
“Sarah and I go way back.” Catherine had been smiling at Rosa, but her smile dropped as she turned to Sarah. “She doesn’t need me to bore her with stories about how things have gone since high school.”
Before Sarah could protest that she was, in fact, interested, another woman said, “I’m Christie Hayden.” She had golden hair, startlingly green eyes—and a sparkling diamond engagement ring on her finger. “I help run the inn on the lake, and it is such a pleasure to meet you. I completely adore your mother and grandmother.”
It took Sarah a few moments to put together the ring on Christie’s finger with the information that she worked at the inn. “Oh my gosh, you’re Wesley’s fiancée!” Sarah impulsively threw her arms around Christie before she could overthink the action. “You know our grandmothers are sisters, don’t you?”
“I do,” Christie said with a big smile. “It’s really great to finally meet more of his family. He always has such fun stories about the mischief you two got up to when you were little kids.”
Sarah hadn’t thought about those childhood days in a long time, but Wesley was right—they’d had a great time as little kids running wild around the lake. Before she’d decided to take everything much more seriously. Before she’d decided she couldn’t stay here. “I was so happy for him when he let me know he was engaged. I’ll make sure to go by to congratulate him in person while I’m in town.”
“And what about you, Sarah?” Dorothy asked. “What brings you back to town?”
Sarah froze. She didn’t want to lie to these women, but she needed to sit down and talk about her project with Calvin first. He would know the best way to present her building plans to the townspeople. Perhaps if she’d come back to town more since high school, it wouldn’t seem so strange that she was here now, but the constant demands of her job had always come first.
“Autumn at the lake is always so peaceful, so quiet. This seemed like a good place to focus on a big project at work.”
“Quiet?” Dorothy laughed. “Summer Lake is a hotbed of excitement and intrigue.”
“Especially now that hunks like Smith Sullivan and the rest of his family have been spending more and more time here,” Helen added with a twinkle in her eyes. “I sure am happy to see William’s kids—and you too, Rosa—rally around him the way they have been. He’s been too lonely for too many years.”
“I’ve really enjoyed getting to know Drake’s father better during the past few months,” Rosa said with a smile. Then added with a good-natured wink, “And you’re right that the hunkiness of the Sullivan men doesn’t hurt a girl one bit.”
When everyone laughed, Sarah hoped their attention had permanently headed in another direction. At least until Catherine said, “Sarah, you still haven’t told us something unique about yourself.”
Another rush of blood moved into her cheeks. Before she knew the words were coming, she admitted, “I don’t remember how to knit.”
“Nonsense,” Dorothy said as she reached into her canvas bag for some large needles and soft blue yarn, so much like the skein Sarah had been admiring earlier that morning. “It’s like riding a bicycle. You never forget how to knit, no matter how long it’s been. Take these.”
Keeping her hands firmly in her lap, Sarah said, “Thanks, but you don’t need to give me your—”
“Take them.”
She had no choice but to respond to the firm note in the woman’s voice. “Okay.”
“I can show you how to cast on if you want,” Christie offered, deftly winding the yarn around the needles. “Any idea what you’d like to make?”
Sarah began to shake her head, but then she realized that if she had to sit here all night, she might as well start something she might use when she was done with it. “A shawl.” The one she’d been wearing in her earlier vision. A vision that had starred the very man she was going to be seeing tonight.
“Good idea. With the size of these circular needles and the gauge of the yarn, it should knit up really quick and look great. How about a simple triangle pattern? You’ll only have to do a yarn over at the beginning and end of every other row, with all the other rows being a simple knit stitch.”
After Christie showed her how to do the alternating rows, Sarah softly said, “You don’t know how much I wish you’d been here this afternoon when I took over the store for my grandmother. You would have been so much more helpful than I was at answering customers’ questions.”
“I’m sure you did great,” Christie said kindly, “but definitely call me next time you need help. I can run over from the inn.”
“And if I’m around, I’m always happy to help too,” Rosa offered.
They were both so sweet to offer. But Sarah had learned her lesson this afternoon. There wasn’t going to be a next time for her at the store. From here on out, she was going to focus on her real job and leave the yarn to people who knew what to do with it.
For the next hour or so, while the women in the group tackled their works in progress and talked about people she didn’t know anymore, she worked diligently on a shawl she’d never planned on making. Though she wasn’t a real member of the knitting group, it was surprisingly nice to be in a room with a group of women relaxing together.
Until Calvin’s name came up in conversation.
“I hear things didn’t work out with the woman from Albany,” Dorothy said.
Sarah’s heart started pounding hard beneath her breastbone. Sarah and Calvin had broken up so long ago that it shouldn’t matter to her if he had recently been involved with someone. Then again, nothing had made sense from the moment she’d crossed into the Adirondacks earlier that day.
“I don’t think she was too gung-ho about having a ten-year-old girl around all the time,” Helen put in.
“Then I say, good riddance. Besides—” Dorothy made an invisible ring around her mouth with her fingers. “—she wore too much lipstick. That boy is a saint. Raising his sister, holding his family together after what happened.” Calvin had been eighteen years old when his mother died giving birth to Jordan, and his father had shot himself one month later. From that moment on, Calvin had been solely responsible for things like getting his sister to bed on time and taking her to the doctor for shots. “He deserves better.”
Catherine singled out Sarah again. “Didn’t you and Calvin go out for a while?”
Why did she have to say that? Especially when she knew darn well that Sarah and Calvin had been an item. A really serious one. There was no way to get out of it in front of everyone, so Sarah nodded and forced another smile. “We did.”
Helen’s mouth made an O of surprise. “How could you ever have let a man like that get away?”
“Calvin is great,” Sarah said slowly, “but we were just kids.”
“So, do you have a new man in your life?” Dorothy clearly didn’t believe in bothering with subtlety.
“No.” She had a lot going on at work right now and didn’t have time to focus on a relationship too. She hadn’t actually had time to focus on one since heading off to college.
Dorothy shook her head. “You girls all wait too long nowadays to look for a husband. If you ask me, you should take a page from Christie’s book and find a nice young man to marry.”
Glancing up at the clock, Sarah saw that it was almost seven thirty. On the one hand, she was dying to get out of the shop—and away from the knitting group. On the other, she was downright nervous about finally seeing Calvin again.
Sarah put her knitting on the table and said to no one in particular, “I need to close up the register, if anyone has a last-minute purchase.”
Dorothy and Helen and the others started putting their needles and yarn away in their bags. As Angie waved good-bye, she joked, “Back to the monsters.” Catherine disappeared before Sarah could say good night. Only Christie hung back in the empty store, picking up the wineglasses and heading into the bathroom to wash them out in the sink.
“They also hit me with twenty questions when I first started coming to the group,” Christie said, empathy behind her words. “Why did I leave sunny California? How did I find Summer Lake? Why wasn’t I married with a stroller full of kids? And then they proceeded to list the attributes of every unattached male below retirement age…and a good dozen above it.”
Sarah couldn’t help but laugh at Christie’s account of the trials and tribulations of being a newcomer in a small town. She was right. Sarah shouldn’t take their questions and comments as a personal attack.
And she shouldn’t be worried about meeting with Calvin either. Just as she had said to Helen, they’d been kids—a couple of high school sweethearts who’d gone their separate ways after graduation.
She and Calvin would talk about what they had been up to for the past ten years, maybe laugh over old times, and then she’d run her plans for the condos by him.
No big deal. It would go fine.