20
KALINDA
I meet my contenders and their parties at the base of the waterfall. Citra and Tinley sling glares my way but stay distant. Off to the side, Pons speaks to Indah. Their closeness would draw attention if he were not her guard. What secret is he relaying to her now?
We surround a lagoon that feeds into a stream. The picturesque cascade does nothing to ward off my nerves. I fiddle with the pleats of my sparring sari, the skirt tucked between my covered legs. My competitors and I are all dressed in warrior apparel and strapped with weaponry. Natesa insisted that I bring both of my daggers and a khanda. I did not argue the added weight of the sword; I must be ready for whatever trial the sultan has prepared for us.
Sultan Kuval stands near the lagoon, Ashwin beside him. He and our guards, Opal and Rohan, are my support. Brother Shaan is still supervising the care of the refugees. Ashwin looks dashing in an all-black tunic and trousers with silver embroidery and a dark turban. I have tried to put the image of him shirtless from my thoughts, but it sneaks back in as he smiles at me from across the audience.
Gods above, don’t get distracted.
“Welcome to the trial tournament,” announces the sultan. “For the first test, each competitor will have five minutes to complete a challenge of valor. To begin, Indah will represent the water-goddess Enki, Bearer of the Seas.”
Indah steps forward with her trident, her dewy skin shimmering in the sunlight, and joins him at the base of the pool.
“Contending against nature requires valor,” the sultan continues, “a total submission to the gods, and faith in one’s god-given abilities. For Indah’s test, she will stop the flow of the waterfall.”
The Lestarians murmur, the pitch of their low voices distressed. This will be no easy feat for Indah. My insides churn like the base of the waterfall. What task does the sultan have planned for me?
Donning a steely expression, Indah steps on the placid edge of the lagoon and floats on a mist across the pond, stopping outside of the spray where the waterfall feeds into the pool. I allow myself to enjoy the tranquil sight of Indah in her element, anxious as to how she will force nature to bend to her authority.
A gong rings, and the sand timer is turned upside down. Indah’s five minutes begin.
The Aquifier holds out her trident in front of her with one arm. As she raises the weapon, the streaming water above us narrows. Her arm gradually goes up, and the waterfall shrinks. When the flow is half of when she started, Indah’s feet break the surface of the lagoon. Her arm shakes to maintain her grip on the trident. The cascading water pushes her down, but her weapon continues to hold the falls up. She submerges to her knees.
My amazement at her feat so far leads me to cheer silently. Come on, Indah. Succeed against nature. Against the sultan. Against this arduous trial. Enki, strengthen her.
Indah grasps her trident across her chest with both hands and raises it to her chin. The waterfall is nearly gone; the rock face glistens with dampness. In one last exhibit of strength, Indah jerks the trident above her head, and the remainder of the cascade seals off.
Her arms give way, and Indah plunges under the surface. The water gushes down on the lagoon in an explosion that sends us viewers back a step.
The gong sounds, signaling the end of her time.
Indah breaks the surface, the waterfall gushing around her. The audience applauds, and her party shouts her name in congratulations. Indah swims to the bank of the lagoon. Using her trident as a staff, she pushes to her feet. Sopping wet and grinning, she reminds me of a bird after a bath. I cannot help but smile. Pons hauls her against his wide chest in a hug, soaking his clothes.
“Indah advances to the next trial.” Sultan Kuval’s announcement ends the Lestarians’ celebration, quieting us all, and he goes on. “Princess Citra will now represent the land-goddess Ki, Mother of the Mountains. For her trial, Citra will sculpt a stairway into the cliff and climb it to the top.”
The crowd mumbles about the complexity of the challenge. I presumed the sultan would give his daughter a less complicated task, but building a staircase to the rise of the cliff and scaling it in five minutes will not be simple.
The princess, however, is undaunted. Citra blows Ashwin a kiss and glides to the cliff to the right of the waterfall. Her impervious arrogance astounds me. Did her father forewarn her of the challenge, or is she impossible to intimidate?
The gong sounds, and the sand timer is flipped over.
Citra throws out her hands, and a stairway forms in front of her, etched into the stone wall. She starts to walk up the cliff, building more staircases to climb. The princess pushes herself into a jog, and stairs materialize to match her swift pace.
Halfway up, Citra throws out her hand to create another staircase, but nothing appears. She skids to a stop on the edge of the last stair, her arms windmilling. Sultan Kuval freezes, and the people gasp. I press down on my pounding heart while Citra continues to teeter. As she falls forward, she carves another staircase before her and lands on it. The audience releases a collective breath.
The sand timer is nearly out. Citra has done well so far, but I would not be sad if she failed her timed test and was eliminated.
Before catching her breath, Citra stares up the cliff, searching for the summit. She pulls herself up and doubles her speed, carving steps beneath her as she sprints upward. More zigzagged staircases guide her to the top. She sets foot in the palace garden high above as the gong sounds.
Applause fills the basin. Citra leaps down the wall from switchback to switchback until she lands on the ground. She strides over to Ashwin, her hips twitching, and offers him an orchid she picked while in the garden above. He accepts her gift with a bow.
A girl darts away from the viewers and slams her arms around Citra in a hug. I recognize her from the declaration ceremony as Citra’s younger sister Tevy.
“Princess Citra advances to the next trial,” Sultan Kuval declares, puffing out his chest.
Indah slow claps beside me. “What a surprise,” she drawls.
“What do you mean?” I question.
“Who do you think stands to gain the most from a union with Tarachand?”
“Every sovereign stands to gain something.”
“But only one shares the largest border with the empire. Should that border close to refugees . . .”
I wish Ashwin were near enough to hear, but he is still raining praise on Citra. “The sultan said the border will remain open,” I say.
“Things change. Do you have a friend by the name of Brac?”
A thread of worry spools at the back of my throat. “Yes. Why?”
“Pons heard something on the wind before the trial started. He said the sultan intercepted a letter that arrived for you this morning. Brac and his mother have been held up at the border and cannot get through. Sultan Kuval has barricaded all roadways leading into Janardan.”
“Are you certain?” I glance at the sultan. He beams proudly at his daughter.
Indah follows my gaze, and her brows crimp downward. “My informants are trustworthy. And so am I.”
She could be endearing herself to me to get the Zhaleh, but she profits nothing from this lie. Matching her stare, I sense her certainty. Brac and Mathura are not coming.
“Your friends are camped near the border checkpoint,” Indah says in a hushed tone. “They’re safer there than in the encampments, but it does make one wonder about the sultan’s intentions to honor his word . . .”
She saunters off, casual in her decimation of the fragile treaty between Tarachand and Janardan. What does the sultan gain by stranding our people at the borders? I cannot conceive what he ultimately wants or what he will do if Citra does not win the tournament.
Ashwin meets my gaze across the crowd and frowns. He can tell I am upset. I wipe the concern from my face and resolve to speak to him later. I must concentrate on the trial now.
“Tinley will now represent Anu, God of Storms,” decrees Sultan Kuval.
Tinley goes to his side, and the crowd hushes. Overhead, black clouds rush across the sky. A gust rustles the long reeds near the lagoon and plucks loose petals from the wild orchids. Two people come into view high on the cliff, Galers manipulating the wind. A crash of thunder startles everyone, and then a lightning bolt sends me ducking.
The sultan shouts over the blustery weather. “Tinley will now disperse the storm. Turn the sand timer!”
A lightning bolt illuminates Tinley’s determined face. She places two fingers in her mouth and whistles. Another crash of thunder sends spectators dashing to the bottom of the cliff and under an overhang that provides shelter. The dark clouds unleash a steady stream of raindrops. I cram under the overhang with the others. Ashwin squeezes through the crowd to my side.
“This is madness,” he remarks.
A screech barrels across the sky, and Tinley’s falcon, Bya, swoops down. Tinley jumps on Bya’s back, landing in her woven saddle. The mahati flaps its fire-colored wings, and they pitch upward, speeding into the storm.
“That’s madness,” I reply.
The great bird and her rider streak across the dreary sky, dodging lightning bolts. Bya fights to stay upright, but the strong gales knock the mahati around like a dancing leaf. Tinley, her hair white as the August moon, shoots a bolt into the storm with her crossbow. A patch of blue opens where the bolt disappears.
The audience sounds its awe; I cannot tear my gaze away.
Tinley fires three more bolts, and the sky around her opens farther. Her falcon swings around, leaving a circle of clear blue. As Tinley arms her crossbow to shoot again, the gaps in the clouds collapse to a gray wall. In seconds, her progress is reversed.
A thunderclap rattles straight to my feet. I shield my face from the lashing wind. Two soldiers hold down the hourglass timer. The sand is nearly half gone.
Thunder rages after Bya, but the falcon’s wings slice through the gray. As Tinley and Bya drag a ribbon of blue across the stormy abyss, a lightning bolt strikes. Bya dips, and Tinley slides out of her saddle. The crowd gasps. I lay my hand over my mouth in alarm. Gripping the mahati’s neck, Tinley struggles back into her seat and steers Bya directly into the storm.
With her feet planted in her saddle, Tinley stands and releases bolt after bolt into the massive thunderhead. The bolts bring along with them a flash of cleansing winds. The zipping gusts sweep across the sky, dicing up the storm and opening the firmament to mellow blue.
Bya banks right and then flaps her wings, pushing away more of the perilous clouds. The sand timer is nearly finished. They’re going to make it.
Tinley stands in the saddle with her crossbow armed. She and Bya streak upward into the last thunderhead, and a lightning bolt strikes down. An earsplitting scream fills the sky.
The falcon is falling. Twisting. Turning end over end for the land. Tinley holds on to Bya’s back, trying to rouse her. But the great falcon is in a free fall.
The spectators go still. Sultan Kuval’s mouth opens in shock, stunned by the sight of this mighty bird spiraling to her doom.
“Do something!” Ashwin shouts.
Opal and Rohan run into the field and stretch out an airstream between them. The swirling vortex smacks my face with brisk gusts. The two position themselves under Bya and throw up their wind. Like an invisible net, the swelling current catches the falcon and slows her fall. Opal and Rohan dig their heels into the ground and slowly lower their arms, bringing the bird and her frightened rider to safety.
Bya lands in a heap of fiery feathers. Her outstretched wing tip splashes in the lagoon.
Tinley hops off the falcon and peers into her glassy eyes. “Bya!”
The falcon does not respond; her wing smokes where the lightning struck. Indah rushes in and lifts a whip of water from the lagoon. She tosses the airborne stream at the falcon’s wing, dousing the last of the embers. The Paljorians cry mournful sobs that bruise the soul.
Tinley wraps her arms around the falcon’s neck, burying her teary face in Bya’s feathers. The sky has returned to blue, mockingly so. No thundercloud or lightning can be seen on any horizon.
Indah slides her healing hands over the bird’s injured wing. “Water bless the sky. Sea reflect the clouds. Blue of the sky shine in the heart of the sea.”
She repeats the healing prayer, and each time she finishes, my despair grows.
Ashwin goes to Tinley and touches her back. She cries with her face in her hands. He turns her around and enfolds her in his arms. She lays her face against his chest, sobbing so hard her hair shakes like wheat stalks rippling in a breeze. Ashwin seeks me out with wet eyes and holds Tinley tighter.
Overhead, a rain cloud gathers and pours lightly over them, a patch of misery in an otherwise cheerful sky. Finally, Indah stops her strings of prayers and steps back from the falcon’s injured wing.
Citra shields Tevy’s face from the devastation, gripping her sister against her. A silent tear runs down Citra’s cheek. She brushes it away before anyone else sees.
Sultan Kuval saunters over to me and slicks down his white mustache. “Tinley failed to complete her trial,” he says.
“Have you a heart?” I hiss. “She’s lost her best friend.”
“She has also lost the tournament. Should you fail as well, Citra and Indah will move ahead to the duel, and your people will be one day closer to better living conditions and remedial care.”
His bribe sets my teeth on edge. “I won’t fail my trial on purpose.”
“I didn’t imply you should. I’m merely providing you consolation for when you do fail.” He strolls away pompously, his hands tucked behind his back.
I glare past him at bamboo-woven riverboats drifting upstream into the lagoon. The bows and sterns of the long, narrow vessels curve out of the water with a regal rise. Gold leaf covers the sides of the first canoe, the imperial boat.
Sultan Kuval lifts his voice. “We’ll now adjourn to the riverboats for Kindred Kalinda’s trial.”
One by one the audience members flock to the water’s edge. Citra parts from her sister, leaving Tevy to return to the palace with her eunuch guards. The Paljorians stay with their competitor. Tinley pulls away from Ashwin and clings to Bya, weeping into her side.
I walk toward them. Bya is even bigger up close, her fiery feathers breathtaking. My heart wrenches hard. I cannot believe this guardian of the sky is gone. I stop beside Ashwin and Tinley, press my palms together in prayer, and dip my chin.
“May Anu welcome Bya to the Beyond, and may she find peace and contentment flying the forever skies.”
Tinley’s swollen eyes take me in with reserve. I bow in farewell, and Ashwin and I leave her and her people to mourn.
Ashwin helps me board a riverboat beside Rohan and Opal. As our boatman paddles us out of the lagoon and down the narrow waterway, I stare at Tinley clutching Bya.
If she can fall this far, I can too.
Our boats slide down the stream, out from under the low-hanging trees and into Iresh. We glide past bamboo huts and those people along the water’s edge. They wave when they see Sultan Kuval and Princess Citra. Soon their cheers draw a large crowd, until the muddy banks are packed shoulder to shoulder. Some run alongside us, matching the speed of the parading vessels.
The waterway widens and empties into the River Ninsar. Spectators gather along the waterfront between rows and rows of bobbing fishing boats. Our vessel drifts into an open slip, and Rohan jumps off to tie the line. Ashwin and I follow Sultan Kuval to the end of a dock. There a gong and sand timer wait. Bhuta guards are stationed along the riverside, and a dinghy is tied to the end of the pier. Out farther in the river, a barge is buoyed. I swap a questioning glance with Ashwin—What are we doing here?
“We’ve come to our final trial of valor for the day,” says the sultan. “Kindred Kalinda will now represent the fire-god Enlil, Keeper of the Flame.”
I join the sultan’s side, my back to the river.
“Due to the dangerous nature of the kindred’s powers, her trial will be held here. At the sound of the gong, we will release a burning arrow to light the barge in the middle of the river on fire. She will have five minutes to row out to the barge and extinguish the flames. The boat is tied to buoys that are anchored to the riverbed to ensure it does not drift away. Aquifiers are on standby should there be any danger of the fire spreading to shore.”
Thorny fear rakes at my belly. They want me to tame nature-fire. I coaxed an ember into a flame once, but that hardly qualifies me as a master Burner.
Ashwin comes to my side. “Kalinda, you don’t have to do this.”
“True, Prince Ashwin,” the sultan says loudly. “The kindred may concede.”
The onlookers whisper to each other. They must think I am a monster and a coward.
“I’ll go.”
I lay down my khanda, climb into the moored dinghy, and pick up the oar. The sultan gestures toward shore, and a guard there lifts a bow. Another soldier lights the pointed end of the arrow on fire. With the tip burning, the arrow flies out over the water and strikes the flat-topped barge. Flames overtake the boat, and trepidation blazes through me.
Ashwin leans over me from the dock above. “Have you lost all sense?”
“This is why you brought me here, isn’t it? This is the trial tournament.”
“Gods, Kalinda,” he says, terror shaking his voice. “I’ll give you your freedom. Just don’t do this.”
“I’m not doing this for my freedom. I’m doing this for the empire.”
The second I utter the words, they are true. I am kindred to the Tarachand throne, and our people must come first. Before my needs, and even before Ashwin’s. Everyone I love has been affected by the empire’s divide. Brac and Mathura are stranded at the border, and Deven and Yatin are imprisoned. Deven predicted this moment was coming long before I did. He saw what I must do to free us. I can play the sultan’s game. I can face fire for Deven and the others I love. I can set aside my fear for my people. I can—I must—fight for peace.
The gong sounds, ringing down on me.
Ashwin says the Prayer of Protection. “Let the sky lead you, the land ground you, the fire cleanse you, and the water feed you.” He unties the dinghy from the dock and tosses me the line. As I paddle out, he stays crouched on the dock, his troubled gaze watching me go.
Spectators observe me from the waterfront, drawn from their huts by the smoke and light of the fire. A few boat lengths later, the heat of the inferno hits me. I stop rowing and slip over the side of the dinghy into the cool river. The small boat bobs away. I swim the final distance to the barge and hoist myself up on deck.
Flames flicker over everything, slithering tongues of yellow, orange, and red. A burning segment of the wheelhouse breaks off and splashes in the water. The fire hisses like a disturbed den of vipers and then extinguishes to smoke. I am tempted to jump back into the water, but the memory of Brac’s last lesson stops me.
You have nothing to fear. You are fire, and fire is you.
All fire starts with a spark. A tiny ember like the one I cajoled to life in the temple ruins. I brought fire life—maybe I can take it.
I push to my feet, heat singeing my face and hands. I close my eyes and search for my inner star. A single, perfect light in a velvet night. Brighter, bigger, hotter than nature’s flame.
Summoning my soul-fire to protect me, I open my eyes and stretch out my hand. My fingertips touch the yellow rim of the fire. Instead of pulling back, I pull the heat in. The flame unravels from the blaze and twists around my finger, dancing like a child around a campfire. I watch the flame coil down and link together on my hand like a ring. Fear eludes me. We are made of the same essence. I am fire, and fire is me.
The flames spread at my back, blocking my way to the water.
Don’t panic. They’re friends too.
No, not friends. Servants.
I am the greater fire.
Water douses the flame, wind feeds the flame, land cups the flame, and I . . . I rule the flame.
I step forward, and the flames part in front of me, revealing a charred path. Smoke billows away, clearing a place for me to breathe. I enter the sea of fire.
Warmth slams my face and rises through my feet. My inner star shrinks from the wildness of nature’s inferno, but my powers protect me like a shield. Another step, and more fire parts. I take one footstep at a time, charming the flames as I would a cobra.
Shh . . . I’m welcome here. We’re the same.
At the center of the barge, the blaze surrounds me and shoots over my head like a halo. I cannot see the shore. Within the firestorm, where life ends and new life begins, the veins on my arms glow so brightly I am flame.
The fire forms into serpents, wingless dragons made of luminous tendrils. Their beauty transfixes me. I do not wish to part with this humming power, this reflection of my soul. But I must nearly be out of time.
I stroke a fingertip down a fiery dragon’s long, scaly back. When I reach the tail, I pull my hand away and blow on the thread of flame ringing my finger. Rest, dear one. The flame vanishes to smoke. Now for the others.
I throw out my arms and the fire curls away, receding out of reach. I pursue the heat and exile more flames. They shrivel to a dusting of ash and embers.
Working in a circle, I shrink more flames, banishing them to cinder. As I blow out the last flare, on the far side of the barge, the blaze has nibbled down the taut ropes that connect the boat to the anchored buoys. The fire has nearly bitten its way through.
I hurry over to extinguish the burning ropes, and two things happen at once.
The gong rings, a muted bell of failure.
And the nearest rope snaps.
Instead of swinging back at the barge, the burning rope launches for land. Onlookers along the waterfront dart away from the blistering whip lashing the sky. The rope strikes several boats tied along shore, and the fire leaps onto the vessels. The Aquifiers on standby summon streams of water from the river and throw geysers at the early flames, but the blaze jumps from one wooden watercraft to the next, chewing up canvas sails. Within seconds, smoke hazes the breadth of the city dock.
The rope on the other side of the barge is still on fire. As I run for it, I trip on a burned hole in the deck and fall. The second rope snaps, flinging back at me. I duck, and it lands in the water. With my hands and face deep in ashes, the barge beneath me groans. The side where the ropes broke dips into the river. Water rushes up on deck, gushing my way. I search the surface for the dinghy, but it has drifted downriver. The fire-damaged deck beneath me begins to lift as the other half of the barge tips downward into the water.
Pushing to my feet, I scramble across the slanted deck. The creaking and groaning mount to a roar. As the floor buckles, I reach the bow and leap into the river. I submerge in the dark cold. Water becomes my sky and my land. A portion of the barge lands with me. I try to swim out of its path, but a fragment of broken wood tangles in my hair and drags me downward. The barge sinks nearby, sliding past me with deadly grace.
I cannot reach my hair to detangle my braid. I kick for the surface, but the debris is locked against my head, towing me under.
My lungs burn for air. I fight to wrench free . . . Darkness turns me inside out, filling my sight. I open my mouth to gasp, and water fills me.
As I choke, a hazy light materializes before me. A young woman floats closer from the deep, her white robe trimmed with pure light. I recognize her sweet face.
Jaya.
My best friend reaches for me, but I have no strength to gather her in a hug. Her arm passes around me, and she tugs my hair free.
“Swim, Kali,” she says.
I paw through the water weighing me down. Jaya drifts away, fading into the deep. I strain to see her vanishing light.
She is leaving me. She is breaking my heart all over again.
I open my mouth to call to her, and a powerful current charges at me, dragging me away from Jaya’s glow. I break the surface, and arms grasp me. A hand cups my forehead.
“Blood is water, and water is mine.”
The water in my mouth and nose clears out, like raindrops wicked away by a beam of sunlight. I collapse forward, coughing. Indah holds me upright, both of us hovering over the river.
“Gather your strength,” she says. “They need help onshore.”
Indah floats us toward land on her mist. Smoke obscures the shoreline, and flames flash like glowing spikes. The fire runs the entire length of the city’s waterfront.
We reach the muddy riverbank down from the dock, and Indah lets me go. I fall hard on my bottom, my legs and arms waterlogged. Indistinct shouts surround me. All of my senses are muddled.
Slowly, I comprehend Citra and a group of Tremblers are heaving dirt upon the flames and sinking the burning boats. Indah joins the Aquifiers dousing the blaze. Everyone rushes to stop the fire from spreading inland. I used most of my powers to extinguish the barge. But I grab what is left, don it like armor, and walk to the blazing boats.
A flame leaps at me. I throw my hand up, and it curls away like a disobedient dog’s tail. I focus on the next flame, and the next, but I might as well be trying to catch fleas. This fire has more fuel than the contained barge fire; it is nearly impossible to get in front of.
My hands shake. I sink to my knees, preserving the strength to stand, and shrivel more flames. Several more return in its place. I cannot win this. My soul-fire is shrinking and weakening my shield. Heat breaks through, drying my lips. Smoke chokes me. I am drowning again, this time on flame’s breath.
A breeze encases me, and I inhale sharply. Rohan stands at my side, summoning a clean wind that flows around us.
Indah comes into sight beside us, with Pons. She throws water, hissing flames to embers, while Rohan and Pons maintain breathable air. I collect the last of my soul-fire and command the fiery destruction to bow to me. The flames dip, kneeling at my feet. Citra crosses to us and stamps out the last of the blaze with a mudslide.
Rohan pushes away the smoky air with a slingshot of wind, and my eyes clear of the burning sensation.
Indah looks up at Pons and grins. “You have soot on your face.” She taps his nose, and he grins at her.
Rohan stamps out cinders beneath his feet. I taste ash in my mouth and feel gritty soot inside my ears. Citra rests on a pile of rubble. Her usually flawless hair lies limp around her dirty face.
Opal’s wing flyer swoops down from overhead. Before the craft comes to a full stop, Ashwin jumps off and runs to me. I meet him halfway, and he grabs me against him.
“I saw you on the barge.” His voice is muffled, his mouth pressed to the side of my head. “You walked into fire.”
“I guess I did,” I reply, just as amazed at myself. “Are you all right?”
“I’m fine.” He leans away, and his shock evolves to marvel. “When you vanished into the fire, I panicked. Then I saw you inside it, shining like a star.”
“I’m glad you aren’t hurt either.”
Sultan Kuval marches up the shoreline, a fleet of soldiers at his heels. Citra clambers to her feet. “Kindred Kalinda!” the sultan shouts. “You are an abomination. Look what you did!”
More smoke clears, exposing the wreckage around me: the ruined boats and dock, half sunken and charred beyond repair. The reality of the sultan’s blame silences any defense of my actions. Everywhere I go, I leave a trail of ashes.
“Disqualify her, Father,” Citra demands. He would not guess that moments ago we were battling alongside each other to put out the fire. “She didn’t pass her test.”
“She did.” Ashwin wraps his arm around me, and I lean into him. Let them see us united. “Kalinda’s trial was to extinguish the barge fire. No one mentioned the buoy ropes.”
Sultan Kuval roars. “This would not have happened if Kalinda weren’t a—”
“I do hope you’re going to say the aftermath of the fire would have been worse without the kindred’s aid,” Ashwin warns. “Anything else would be disrespectful, and after showing great valor by risking her life twice today—once to pass the perilous trial you forced upon her and again to save your city—she deserves your appreciation. Or if you cannot muster gratitude, at the very least you can manage silence.”
Sultan Kuval sucks his bared teeth, and Citra’s mouth falls open. Before they can utter another vile word, Ashwin pulls me closer, and we walk away.