Chapter Ten
Asher linked his hand through the back of my hair and brought my neck roughly to the side, placing his body over mine. He moved his lips to my neck, breathing heavily on me without letting me feel his touch. “I’m done playing games with you, Bella, done with the back and forth you keep forcing to go on in your mind because the truth is that every time I see you it’s hard to not rip your clothes off you.”
My heart started racing, sending compulsions in and out of my chest.
He ran his fingers over my lips, the same way he had that morning while nuzzling his head further into my body. “I know you want me just as bad as I want you, Bella, I know that you think about me… about touching me and being with me.” He opened his mouth and sucked on the arch of my neck.
I gasped, struggling to not grow wet.
“If we’re going to do this, really do this, you can play the whole hard to get mind game as much as you want, but right here, right now, in the darkness of this barn, you’re going to admit the truth, I want to hear you say it.” He slipped a hand around my waist and yanked me into his crotch.
His hard cock jammed itself into my thigh and I gasped.
It all came flooding back even more than before, his hands all over my body in the darkness of his room while he took me to places I had been dreaming about for as long as I could remember.
I wanted it again: I wanted him again.
So badly that it hurt.
I closed my eyes, concentrating on the placement of his hands, how they managed to hit the exact right places at the exact right moments. He pressed the edge of his fingertips under my shirt, rubbing the skin just above my waistline up and down.
I inhaled swiftly.
His hands felt so good; like they were made for me.
“Bella,” he said, continuing to tease me.
“I want you,” I whispered and then I thrust my center further into his hand, trying to prove my point. I felt like I might explode if I didn’t have him soon; if I didn’t feel him all over me soon.
Asher grinned, moaning into my hair softly. “I can’t hear you, Bella.”
My whole body shook in anticipation. “I want you, Asher.” I cleared my throat and moved my lips toward his. “I want you so bad it hurts.” I inhaled trying to catch my breath but it felt like I was about to pass out.
“Ugh,” he grimaced in frustration. “Louder, I want you to say it louder.”
“I want you, Asher! I want you now!” I screamed loudly, fed up with waiting.
He grumbled and then threw his lips on top of mine, pushing my body further into the wall roughly as he stuck his tongue inside of mine. His hands were in my hair, gripping me so tight that it felt like he was holding on for dear life.
I’d never been kissed like that in my entire life, so hungrily.
I gasped, jumping forward to wrap my legs around his waist.
Asher slipped his hands under my ass and pulled me closer to him, carrying my body across the barn to the stack of hay that lined the back wall. His fingers cupped my ass hard, sinking his fingertips deeply into my cheeks.
I wrapped my arms around his neck, not wanting to lose contact with his perfect body. His lips tasted like coffee and sex and his body smelled like cinnamon mixed with wood. I’d never tasted or smelled so much beauty rolled up in one person before.
I felt like I was high on the best kind of drug.
Asher dominated my mouth with his and a second later I felt his hands dip into the back of my jeans, running his hands over my butt cheeks before he gripped them hard.
I jumped in pleasure and he slammed my body down on a barrel of hay.
“Do you have any idea how long I’ve wanted sink my hands into that ass, Bella?” He pulled his shirt over his head and tossed it onto the ground, allowing his perfect stomach to shine brightly through the patch of sun coming in through the broken barn window above us.
My body shook with pleasure, so he had been checking out my ass.
“Probably not as long as I’ve wanted to feel that stomach,” I told him, surprising the both of us. I reached out, pulling him closer to me and running my fingers over his stomach eagerly.
They were just as nice as they’d been the night before.
Asher grinned and got on top of me, nibbling on my neck as he continued to grind his handsome frame into me. He opened his mouth and sucked on my neck deeply, moving his hard on up and down my body.
“Asher,” I linked my arms around his neck, moving my hips higher on him.
My petals felt like they were about to compress, ready to peel open at any moment. Something about his touch made me feel like I was going to cum on the spot; that was the effect he had on me. Once touch, one feel, and I felt hooked, ready to explode for him.
He held his body off, looking down from just over me. His eyes were filled with desire, just like mine were but he shook his head. “You need to wait, Bella, you need to control yourself.”
My lips swelled in frustration and response under him.
“Like that’s an easy task,” I mumbled.
“You think it is for me?” He leaned down and kissed me hard on the lips. “You drive me crazy, Bella, just the sight of you this morning made me hard.” He ground his body deeper into me. “I couldn’t get you out of my head all damn day.”
“Me either,” I admitted, running my hands over his pecks.
“Yeah?” He moved his lips to my ear. “Where did you think about me?” He moved his hand back and forth over my breasts. “Right here, Bella?” When I just moaned in response he moved his hand over my heart and pressed down. “Or right here?”
I bit down on my lip and nodded, admitting the truth without having to say it. Of course, he was in my heart and mind. He had been every damn day since we were kids, including all the days I had been away trying to forget about him.
Asher leaned down, kissing me in satisfaction.
“And…” he trailed his fingers down, between my legs, grabbing me by the center. “And right here, right?” He took his fingers and rubbed them back and forth over my center.
I opened my legs wider in response.
“Did you feel me right here, Bella?” His knuckles traced slowly over my slit.
“Yeah… I…” I could barely breathe. “Yes!”
“Mm,” he said, continuing to move his fingers up and down in skill. “I bet you did. Look at you, you’re so wet that you started to drip right through your jeans, baby.”
“I… I did?” It came out as more of a moan than a question.
“You sure did…” he popped one of the buttons on my jeans open. “Probably been soaking yourself all day long while you thought about me, huh?” Another button slid open as he started to drag my zipper down. “You probably wanted to sneak off and touch yourself for some relief, Bella.”
I could feel myself starting to blush and prayed he would just think it was because he was making me work up a sweat. I had thought about it, excited for the moment when I got home later that I could crawl into my bed, take my clothes off, and touch myself while I thought about Asher. I couldn’t wait to relive what had happened between us the night before in my own mind.
He grinned in satisfaction at the look on my face and slid my knees down easily, stopping them at my knees. “You did, didn’t you?” He stuck his fist between my legs, pushing my thighs apart wide. “I want to hear you say it.” He ran his fist up and down my center, teasing me before opening his fingers and starting to rub me up and down over the fabric of my cotton panties.
“Asher,” I yelped. The juices flowing through my body were on the edge of discharge, whether I liked it or not. “I can’t… I can’t even think straight right now… please, just… just touch me.”
He pulled my panties to the side and looked down at my throbbing pussy. “Not until you say it, Bella.” He let his fingers linger over me, refusing to give me what I wanted until I was willing to cave in and give him what he wanted.
I guess you had to give to get.
“I thought about it,” I managed to get out.
“You thought about what?” he pushed.
“I thought about masturbating while I thought about you!” I cried.
“Fuck, Bella!” Asher groaned and thrust his fingers inside of me.
I yelped loudly, happy to finally have the contact. My body wrapped around his fingers and I pushed back on my back legs, allowing him to finger fuck me deeply as I gasped for air, completely in awe of what was happening to my body.
Asher kept his eyes on my face, watching the expression on my face as he got me off. “You like that, Bella? You like when I finger fuck the shit out of your tight pussy, baby?”
“Yes!” I moaned. “Yes! Yes! I love it!”
Asher went deeper and deeper into me, rocking my body back and forth over him as I continued to move myself up and down so the pleasure he was delivering me could flow to every nook of my body.
“I’m about to cum, Asher, I’m about to cum so much!”
He took his fingers out of me, shaking his head as he pulled my panties down and pushed them toward my jeans. “No way, Bella, you aren’t going to cum without me getting to taste every drop this time.”
My legs shivered, shaken by the sudden loss of contact. But a second later Asher placed his mouth directly over my flower and his warm tongue started rubbing up and down my cluster, inhaling every part of my juices as my wetness continued to drip down.
I’d never had anyone inhale my pussy the way Asher did, never had someone devour every part of me with such skill and meaning. My whole body was shaking like a leaf, yearning, and pleasure overflowed into my veins and bones. Asher Dawson had my body under every spell imaginable and I never wanted it to stop, I never wanted to know a world where it didn’t exist.
“Asher,” I moaned, running my hands through his dark hair. “Oh, Asher…”
He took his hand and slipped it up the front of my shirt, finding one of my hard nipples and easily digging his hand inside of my bra to start rubbing it back and forth roughly with his finger.
The combination of his tongue between my legs and his hands under my shirt was too much for my body to deal with and before I knew it I felt myself lunging forward and one final surge of pleasure came over my body before my center pushed forward and I was bursting a mouthful of my nectars into him.
Asher came up for air, licking his lips after he gave me one final kiss over my sweet spot and a devilish grin spread across his lips. He pushed down on top of me and crushed his lips on top of mine, opening my mouth wide and swirling his tongue around inside.
“See how good you taste?” he asked, pulling away and looking down at me.
I moaned loudly, letting my body come down from the build up. I had never been so satisfied in my entire life, never known what it felt like to be brought to that level of lust and satisfaction before.
Asher jumped off me, pulling me forward by my hands and unbuttoning his jeans so that his cock was springing straight out in my line of vision. He moved my hand to the top of it and started moving it up and down his huge shaft.
I had just seen it last night so, of course, I knew it was huge. Still, seeing it hard and thick glistening in the sun startled me a little bit. I’d heard girls in school talking about guys with huge cocks before but I’d never seen one myself, never had the knowledge of how powerful and sexy it really was.
I tried not to be intimidated, but it was a task.
Asher chuckled. “Still scared, huh?”
“No,” I lied, continuing to rub it up and down.
“Are you sure about that?” He pushed a piece of my hair behind my ear.
I looked up and him and bit my lip. “Okay, maybe a little.”
He titled my head up to meet his eyes. “Do you even know how crazy you make me?” He ran his hand back and forth over my lips, the same way he had earlier. “Especially when you bite your lip like that.”
I felt myself flush and then looked down. I hated how nervous he still made me, hated the way he was able to make me blush with a simple glance. I didn’t want to make a fool of myself in front of him and I felt like I constantly was.
Especially in sexual situations.
“You don’t, do you?” He shook his head. “You still don’t get it.”
“Get what?”
He titled his head to the side. “Everything.” He leaned down and kissed me softly at first and then let it turn rough and dominating. When he pulled back up the tenderness was gone from his gaze, replaced with starvation and control. “Spit on your hand and get my cock nice and wet, Bella.”
I obeyed, lathering up my hand with my spit and starting to move it up and down him. I’d never done anything like this before, never been so quickly to obey someone’s every desire without a second thought. But Asher brought that out of me, as much as I tried to deny it, I trusted him.
And along with that trust came a desire to please him.
“Lick me up and down, Bella.” Asher looked down at me, enjoying himself.
I opened my mouth and stuck my tongue out wide, slowly lathering him up and down and kissing the tip of his cock every time I passed by it. I wanted to kiss his cock all night, claim it as mine and no one else’s.
Asher inhaled deeply, closing his eyes and leaning back on his heels.
I loved how much I was turning him on, loved that I was completely and total hepatizing him with my skills the way he had done to me. I wanted to keep going, I wanted to push him over the edge before I really even got started, just like he had to me.
I moved my head under him and started massaging his balls with my fingers while I continued to lick up and down his shaft. I could feel him jerking in my hand in pleasure and I knew my plan was working. I moved his balls back and forth in my hands a few more times before I stuck my tongue down and started to lather them up and down.
“Bella!” Asher gasped loudly. “Fuck, Bella!”
I moaned deeply as I continued to lick.
“Uh huh,” Asher groaned. “Yeah, lick my balls, Bella.”
I moaned even louder, going faster and faster up and down.
“Bella…” he trailed off, getting off on the feeling. “Bella… you want to suck my balls, I know you do.” He took me by the back of my head and pushed me deeper into him. “You want to take my balls in that big mouth of yours, don’t you?”
I opened my mouth and started to move closer but Asher stopped me, pulling my head back. “No, say it, Bella. I want to hear you say how bad you want to take my balls in that big mouth of yours.”
I looked up at him. “I want to stick your balls in my big mouth, Asher.”
“Ugh, I knew it.” He panted and then moved my mouth back over his mouth. “Do it, then, Bella. Suck on my balls like the bad girl you are.” He kept his hand on the back of my head but waited for me to start sucking, wanting the final inch to be my doing.
I opened my mouth and shoved them in my mouth while I rolled my tongue back and forth over them. I had never sucked on balls before in my life. This kid I had been talking to in college would always try to make me but I had always refused, thinking it was too far out of my comfort zone.
But with Asher, nothing seemed out of my comfort zone.
I attacked them the same way I would a cock; slowly at first and then faster and faster until the only way I would stop was if I absolutely had to. I didn’t want to come up for air until it was the only option left. The longer I could let Asher get off the better.
“Oh! My! God!” Asher yelled, moving my head back and forth now. “Yes! Bella! Yes!” He thrust me into him faster and faster before taking my head back and shoving his cock into my mouth full force.
He didn’t start off slow, full on face fucking me right away.
By the time my mouth wrapped around him he was too worked up to take it slow. He didn’t want to go slow anymore, he wanted to show me just how in control he was and it worked.
He thrust his cock so far back that I could feel it in the start of my throat, pulling it out only after he had pushed it so far back that I felt like I was going to throw up.
“Bella,” he moaned as he moved my head back and forth over and over again. “I want you so bad. I want to feel your tight pussy around my cock.” He said it angrily and desperately; like if he didn’t feel himself inside of me soon he was going to combust into a million little pieces and never be fully put back together.
My heart took off in a million directions.
I wanted to feel him inside of me, I wanted to have every part of him and I wanted him to have every part of me. When I was younger I’d dreamed about Asher being the man to take my virginity. I’d dreamed about the day when I could give him the gift that I’d never wanted to give to anyone else but him.
And it occurred to me, in that brief moment, that it was the reason why I hadn’t had sex with anyone in the entire five years that I had been away. I had always told myself I was just waiting for the right person, that no one put in enough effort to deserve that from me but I realized how much I had been fooling myself. I hadn’t been waiting for the right person.
I had been waiting for Asher.
That whole time I’d been waiting to come back and give myself to him.
I pulled my mouth off him and looked up at him. “I want that, too, Asher. I want you inside of me.” I shook my head back and forth, meeting his eyes. “I want all of you.”
Asher pulled me toward him, kissing me deeply. “I was hoping you would say that.” He pushed me down roughly on the hay and then fell on top of me, panting. “I’m going to fuck you so hard you won't know what to do with yourself.”
“Well, not too hard the first time,” I told him, still gasping.
Asher grinned. “You aren’t going to be able to walk for a week, Bella.” He took his hard cock and started slapping it roughly back and forth over my pussy. “Sorry, I know no limits when it comes to you.”
“Yeah, but, maybe wait.”
“For what?” He rubbed his tip roughly.
“Until you break me in.”
“You’ll be fine,” he said, growing impatient.
“Asher,” I said, warning him. “I’ve never had any cock inside of me before, let alone one the size of yours!” I opened my legs widely and made eye contact with him. “I need you to be gentle the first time.”
Asher looked startled. “What do you mean you’ve never had a cock inside of you before?” He jumped back when he saw the look on my face. “You’re not… you’re a virgin?”
I sat up on the hay. “God, you say it like it’s a bad thing.”
He shook his head. “But… you’re 23.”
“I know how old I am,” I said slowly. “It’s no big deal.”
“Of course, it’s a big deal, Bella.” He sighed and picked his pants up off the ground, slipping into them. “Why the hell didn’t you tell me this before?” He grabbed his shirt and slipped it over his head quickly.
What was he doing? Why was he putting his clothes on?
Clothes were supposed to be coming off, not put on.
“I don’t know,” I said. “It… it never came up.”
He raised his eyebrows at me.
“Oh, God, not like that,” I said, stuttering now. “Clearly THAT came up.”
“Pull your pants up, Bella,” he told me, suddenly he was having trouble looking at me. He ran his hands back and forth over his face. “God, you’re a virgin, I didn’t think… I mean; I just assumed…”
“Asher,” I said slowly, still trying to understand what the problem was. “I don’t understand why you’re making a big deal about this.” I stood up, moving toward him. “It’s okay, I’m ready, really. I want my first time to be here and now with you.”
Asher tilted his head to the side and leaned down, pulling my pants back up to my waist. “No, you don’t, Bella, trust me, you don’t.” He tried to zip up the top of my pants but only got halfway before I pushed him away.
“Don’t,” I snapped, finishing it myself. “Are you kidding? You were all too willing to jump my bones when you thought I’d been with other people but when you find out I’m a virgin suddenly you don’t want me anymore?” I popped the buttons closed on my jeans. “What? If someone isn’t experienced enough for you then you just kick them to the curb?”
A hurt look came across his face. “Is that what you think, Bella? Really? That it was easy for me to stop? It took every ounce of self-control I had to stop myself from taking you right here and now.” He gestured toward where I had been lying seconds earlier. “But I had to because it was the right thing to do! I’m trying… I’m trying to do things differently here.”
I laughed sarcastically. “Yeah, and how’s that working out for you?” I pushed past him and ran out of the side doors.
“Bella! Wait!”
I could hear him calling after me but I kept going as fast as my legs would carry me, not stopping until I reached the house and had the door slammed safely shut and locked after me.
Only then did I give in and start crying.