Chapter Seventeen
The door to my father’s front door slammed shut hard behind us sending a shutter up and down my spine. Asher moved closer to me, wrapping his arms around my stomach and pressing my back against the top of him. We had barely said a word to each other on the drive back to the house.
It was a comfortable silence, one that felt anything but awkward. Asher hadn’t mentioned anything else about the gun but I had a feeling that discussion was just getting started. Once I wasn’t so worked up about everything that had just happened he would bring it up again and put me in my place about it.
Even if he was willing to let it go for the moment, I wasn’t.
“Why did you have that gun?” I turned toward him.
He put his hands on the waist of his jeans and leaned backward on the wall. “Not that again, Bella. I had the gun for reasons that don’t concern you.” He looked exasperated.
“So, let me get this straight… you’re allowed to have as many secrets as you want but I’m not tilted to have any? Is that pretty much what you’re saying?”
“Now you’re starting to understand,” Asher chuckled.
I turned away from him, not wanting to play into his games.
He moved after me, grabbing me by the wrist and swinging me around to face him. “Where you going?” He slipped his hand around my waist and pulled me closer to him.
“Away from you,” I said but made no effort to get distance from him.
“Really?” He ran his hand back and forth under one of my eyes, calling my bluff. “There are certain things I can’t talk to you about right now, Bella, for both of our own goods. Can you just try to put a little faith in me and understand that?”
I looked down at the ground, sucking my breath in. “Like I’m supposed to have faith that the cops caught the right guy?” I forced myself to look up at him when he didn’t answer after a few seconds. “You feel it, too, don’t you? Something feels… off?”
Asher let his eyes travel up and down my body slowly before he linked his hands through the outside of my coat and let it fall to the ground. “The only thing I can think about coming off right now is your clothes.” He moved his lips down my neck slowly, planting kisses all over my skin.
I let the tingling in my legs run wild, thankful that for once I didn’t have to control the heat Asher put in my body every time he was near me now that we were finally alone.
“Asher,” I moaned, turning my head further into his taste.
He pulled up and locked his eyes on mine. “I know it’s hard but the cops did their job, Bella, you have to try and take at least a little peace in that.” He took my hand in his and intertwined our fingers, pulling my hand to his chest. “You deserve, at least, that.”
I looked up at him in awe, reminded of how he was the only man I’d ever come across who could truly take my breath away, not just with his looks but with his soul. In that moment, if there was ever a part of me that doubted it or pushed it below the surface, I was positive of how in love with Asher Dawson I was.
I always had been and I always would be.
I threw my arms around his neck and latched my lips onto his, wanting to feel him in every part of my being. Asher didn’t fight me on it, pushing my legs around his waist as we continued to make out.
He wasted no time bringing me to the bedroom and throwing me down on top of my bed so hard that the headboard shook back and forth. He pulled his shirt over the top of his head and looked down at me, letting his chiseled chest rise and fall with anticipation.
“You remembered where my room was,” I whispered.
Asher smirked. “That’s what you’re thinking about right now?”
I shook my head. “No. I… I don’t know what I’m thinking.”
God, did I have to sound like such a child? It was already way too obvious I was such a nervous mess. I prided myself on being this strong and put together woman but somehow when I was around Asher I turned to a big pile of mush.
I knew what was coming and I wanted it, I wanted it bad.
I wanted to feel Asher inside of me.
He moved closer to me before climbing, first, on top of the bed and then on top of my body. His ran his hand down my chest and stopped at the base of my shirt before he pulled it down, revealing my lacy bra. “You don’t even know how amazing you are, Bella.”
I reached up, running my fingers over his flawless abs. “The feeling is mutual.” His perfectness put me at a loss for words, like no matter what I said it would never really do justice to what I was feeling inside.
Asher took my hand off him and yanked me forward so my body was against his chest. “You’re so fucking sexy.” He pushed my head into his and rolled his tongue around the inside of my mouth deeply.
I struggled to catch my breath but refused to pull back, not wanting to break contact with him for a second. I could feel him breathing inside of my mouth heavily, it felt like he was giving me life.
His hands were up my shirt, pulling back from my mouth just long enough to rip the fabric over my head and toss it onto the floor before he was smothering me with his taste again.
I wrapped my arms around his neck as I moaned loudly into his mouth.
Asher hands were around my back and unhooking my bra in seconds, no doubt thanks to experience. He took one of my breasts, smothering them in his large hands for a few seconds before he broke away from my lips and took my nipple inside of his mouth, sucking and licking it over and over again until I felt like my moist panties would melt off.
I ran my hands up and down the back of his head, letting his mouth get lost even more in the thickness of my breasts as he flicked his tongue back and forth over my nipples.
He grunted loudly, sucking like a child begging for milk. After a few more minutes of torture, he unlatched his mouth and moved over to the other side, not wanting to leave one nipple out while he had given the other so much attention.
Only this time instead of just sucking, he bit down on the point.
I yelped out in shock. “Oh!”
Asher grinned into my skin and bit down harder.
“Asher!” I screamed out.
He chuckled and pulled his head up. “What?”
“Oh, really the whole innocent thing?” I struggled to catch my breath.
He shook his head. “Na, you got that down enough for the both of us.”
I blushed and he grinned wider. “Point proven.” He unzipped his pants and let his huge cock pop out. “See what you did?” He raised his eyebrows and gestured downward.
I nodded shyly, satisfied.
“Yeah?” He titled his head to the side. “It’s your job to take care of it now, you know that, don’t you?” He moved his hands up and down his hard shaft a few times.
I nodded again and bit down on my lip.
“Take off your pants, Bella, now.” He let his eyes drift down to the top of my jeans in anticipation. “I want to see how much that pretty pussy of yours has already started to drip through your panties.”
I gasped in shock. He was so raunchy in his words, saying whatever popped into his mind without a second thought. It was so fucking hot it made me feel like I was going to cum on the spot.
“Now,” he told me forcefully.
I took a deep breath and forced myself not to burst as I unbuttoned the top of my jeans and slowly slid them down to my ankles. I had felt the liquid from between my legs start to drip through the fabric of my pink lace undies long ago but I wasn’t going to say anything, Asher would be able to see the truth quickly without me opening up my mouth.
He pulled my pants off the bottom of my legs and tossed them onto the floor next to my shirt. He moved his fingers up and down the bottom half of my leg and pulled them apart roughly. “Spread your legs apart, Bella.”
I obeyed, slowly opening them to reveal the slit of my panties.
He shook his head. “Wider.”
I listened, slowly opening my legs all the way across the bed.
He licked his lips when he saw the wetness of my juices and shook his head back and forth. “Fuck, Bella, you just can’t seem to control yourself around me, can you?”
I shook my head back and forth. If only he knew how close I was to cumming all over my bed at just the sight of him. It was literally taking every ounce of my concentration to not release all over my sheets.
“Say it,” he said. “Tell me.”
“I can’t control myself around you, Asher.”
He let out a small groan. “Tell me how wet I make you, Bella.”
“Just the thought of you, Asher… just the thought of you makes me so wet.” I inhaled deeply at the end of the sentence, desperate to not lose the little control I had left over my body.
He moved his hand fiercely over his hard pipe again and again as he looked my body up and down, taking in every inch of me. “I want you to stick your hands inside of your panties, Bella.”
My eyes grew wide.
“Do it, Bella, put your hands inside of your panties and tell me how wet you are right now.” He reached down and took my hand in his, moving it toward the top of the lace and then pushing it downward. “Come on, Bella, touch your tight little pussy and tell me how wet I made you.”
I allowed him to guide my fingers down to my center and ran the edge of my fingertips back and forth over my sopping wet slit. My wetness ran so deep that I could feel the wetness soaking the skin of my fingers and I let out a long satisfied moan.
Asher smirked in satisfaction and kept his hand on top of mine, slowing rubbing it back and forth over my pussy for a few seconds before he picked up the pace, going faster and faster while my legs trembled under his gaze. “Yeah, just like that, you like touching yourself while I watch you, don’t you, Bella?” His eyes burned into me as his touch deepened.
I felt like my body was going to explode. “Yes! Yes, I love it.”
He rotated my fingers around furiously, faster and faster. “Louder.”
“I LOVE IT!” I screamed.
Asher pulled his hand away and stopped right before I came, somehow knowing right before I was at the point of no return. He pulled my hands out from between my legs and pulled my panties down slowly, bringing them to his lips briefly before he dropped them on the floor.
I had thought my heart couldn’t beat any faster but the thought of what was coming next proved me wrong. This was it; the moment I had been waiting for since I was old enough to imagine what sex would be like. And, somehow, it was going to be with the man I had always dreamed about it happening with.
Asher moved his body on top of mine and pushed my legs apart slowly, tracing his fingers up and down the tops of my thighs. He leaned down, tracing kisses up and down my stomach slowly before stopping to look up at me again. “Are you sure you’re ready?” he whispered.
I bit down on my lip and nodded.
“I need to hear you say it, Bella.”
“I want you, Asher. I want to feel you inside of me.”
Asher growled and crushed his lips on top of mine, kissing me deeper than he ever had before. A few seconds later he pulled back and let his heavy breathing get lost in my hair as he tried his best to control himself. “I’m sorry, Bella, I’m trying to go slow… it’s just the thought of fucking you is pushing me over the edge.”
I ran my hands through his dark hair and tried not to show how happy his words made me. It might have been the 16-year-old girl inside of me but knowing he wanted me just as bad as I wanted him was thrilling to me. “It’s okay, I… I’m ready.”
“Yeah?” For the first time, the controlling look was gone from his eyes.
The fact that he was trying to make sure I was okay when his body was screaming for dominance was touching to me and it only aided in my want to feel his body on top of mine. “Yes,” I told him sternly. “I want you in every way possible, Asher.”
Asher’s eyes lit up, even in the darkness of the room it was evident. He inched my legs further apart and pulled his body off of mine a few inches while he rubbed the tip of his cock back and forth over my slit. He glanced back up at me one more time for confirmation and then slowly inserted the tip of his huge cock into my most personal areas.
A surge of pain shot through my entire body and I let out a small yelp.
Asher froze, trying not to put too much in and pushed the hair out of my eyes. “I’m sorry… I… oh fuck, Bella, you’re so fucking tight.” He pushed my legs further apart and kept going, shoving more and more of his cock inside of my inch by inch.
My body felt like it was floating on a cloud, shaking back and forth at the shock of having something so big inside of me. I gasped slowly, each time he inserted more and more of himself inside of me the pain would surge through me until he stopped. I could feel my walls stretching further and further around him, going further than they ever had before.
I placed my hand on his chest, desperate for something to hold on to. “Oh my God! You’re so big, Asher.” I shook my head back and forth violently, letting the sweat drip down my cheeks freely. “You’re fucking huge!” I sprung my head back onto the pillow, desperate to not break.
“Bella,” he moaned, looking down at his cock. “I need to keep going.”
I glanced down in shock. His cock was only halfway inside of me. How was that possible? It felt like a hammer was stretching my pussy apart and he was only halfway inserted inside of me! Holy crap!
I nodded. “Okay, go… go ahead.” I tried to brace myself.
Asher looked relieved and then pushed more of himself inside of me. He stopped a few more times and then kept pushing more and more inside of me, bit by bit. “Holy shit, I’m almost… I’m almost completely in there, baby.”
I risked the look down and realized he was right. I had no idea how my body was even able to take so much. “You’re… you’re stretching me out so much, Asher.”
Asher shook his head. “It only feels that way.” He moved his body back and forth a few inches. “I need… I need to move while I’m inside of you, Bella. Please, baby, you have no idea how crazy this is making me.”
I tried to move my legs further apart but they were clamped up in shock. “I… okay but slow at first, okay? I’m… try not to break my pussy apart on the first try.”
Asher groaned loudly and grinned. “You say it like that’s an easy task.”
I felt a deep blush creep into my cheeks.
“And that only makes it harder,” he said huskily. He took his cock out of me a few beats and then pushed it back inside my pussy slowly, working the tip in and out as he looked into my eyes. “Fuck, Bella.”
I flinched slightly, taking the brief pain as much as I could. It only lasted a few seconds before I felt Asher starting to loosen the bounds of my wall fully and before I knew it the pain was replaced with pleasure.
Asher panted heavily, linking his hands through my fingers and pushing them down on the sheets so he was in control of them while he kissed me passionately. He pumped his cock into me over and over again, slowly at first and then faster and faster while we both gasped for air.
I had never felt the kind of pleasure Asher gave me, never known my body was capable of such things and before long I was releasing my cum all over his growing cock.
Asher let out a sigh of relief. “Thank fucking God! I didn’t know how much longer I could control myself!” And then he let his load loose inside of my pink walls, panting in satisfaction after he was done and slowly climbing off of me.
Both of us sat in my bed for a few minutes, catching our breath and staring at the ceiling. I pulled my head up, resting it on my hand to look over at him.
Asher tilted his head to the side. “You okay?”
“Are you joking?” Of course, I was okay, I was better than okay. I had never known such pleasure in my entire life. All I could think about was how I wanted that feeling to last forever. I grinned and pulled his face toward mine. “Let’s do it again.”