Chapter 2

Roxanne

“Just break one rule…”

“I wouldn’t be surprised if you have to hold this one down,” Ms. Madden informs me sharply as we traipse over the expansive Berringer grounds. “He hates the cameras. He doesn’t want to be here.”

I remember. “Sometimes I need to escape from everything, too,” he told me once.

Not that he remembers. Not that it matters. He’s one of the billionaire bachelors. He’s one of the richest hunks in the world. So he gave me a key once. He was probably drunk; it was five years ago on a boat filled with hundreds of people, and there are thirty people here now, all wearing matching shirts. I certainly blend in with the rest of them. He’ll never realize we met once.

All around me, people churn, murmuring, yelling, exchanging money and cameras and headpieces and boxes and forms. This isn’t the first day of shooting, but it feels like it. Everything is still clogged up and hectic.

“I have no idea why he said yes,” Ms. Madden goes on, “but he did, and he’s trending on Twitter, so we have to take him. Even if he is…” Ms. Madden glowers in the direction of our new star, sprawled in my makeup chair, white linen shirt fully unbuttoned in the bright midday sun. Is he tanning? Right now? “Weird,” she finishes. “Can you go give him abs?”

“Go give him abs?” I hiss. She can’t be serious. His torso already looks like the sculpture of David.

“Just contour and highlight,” she suggests. “You can never have too much of a good thing. We’re going to roll soon, so don’t let him wander. Thank you, Roxy!”

Ms. Madden marches off, embroiled in a constant state of light PMS.

I trudge across the green so meticulously fertilized that it’s almost some neon emerald shade, and slow to a stop at my makeup chair. I settle back on my hip and take stock of this year’s billionaire bachelor. Heir to a banking fortune. The man who inspired me to beg Candace Madden for real work and a sizable loan. The man who met me at rock bottom.

Blake Berringer. Oh, excuse me, Sir Blake Berringer. So suave and cultured. Oh, I see someone with a camera. I’m going to go put them in the hospital.

He doesn’t notice me yet, so I let my eyes take the scenic route to his face, trailing from his long, powerful legs, draped in sheer white linen pants, to the beautifully etched torso and broad chest. How is it possible that he actually got bigger since the last time I saw him?

My eyes tip over his chin and fall along his plush lips, the bump in his nose that he never got fixed, those regal cheekbones, the hair he let get thick and loose…

“If you’re just going to stand there and do nothing, I think you should clock out,” Blake suddenly advises me, and I jump, my eyes flicking to his.

His are still closed. “I wasn’t doing nothing,” I lie.

“I can hear you, clear as day, doing nothing. At least grab me a drink.”

I bristle and square my shoulders, taking a deep, seething breath. I have to take control of this conversation. He’s not going to talk to me like I’m one of his servants. I didn’t claw my way out of a goddamn homeless shelter so this privileged Adonis could tell me to get him a drink. I don’t care how many third world hospitals he’s financed. I’m not some lackey. I’m a passionate, driven cosmetologist slash rock star.

“I’m Roxanne,” I introduce myself firmly. “I’m the cosmetologist. I’ve been sent to give you abs.”

Now his eyes crack open and squint up at me. “Excuse me?” he demands.

“Abs,” I repeat, extracting my palette and preparing to make the magic happen. “I guess she wants to get a shot of your chest. Serves you right, sunbathing on the set.”

“Meditating,” Blake corrects me. He sits up straighter and watches me too closely. “I was meditating.”

I gesture at the Hollywood-born bedlam around us, uncomfortable with being his focal point. “Here?”

“Can you think of anywhere better?” He extends his hand to me and I glance down at it. His fingers are long and graceful. I remember them. I remember how warmth seemed to spread from my old bruises. “Blake, by the way.”

I shake my head with a little grin and take his hand, giving it a quick shake, praying that it doesn’t get all warm and tingly again. I pull it back before anything crazy happens. “I know who you are,” I remind him, turning to prep my palette.

“I assure you, you don’t,” Blake promises me. I look at him more closely, and he cocks his head with a grin. “Now, how about that drink?”

“No, no, no,” Ms. Madden chides, swooping in from out of nowhere like the Wicked Witch of the West. “You know the golden rules of My Billionaire Bachelor, sweetheart,” she chirps in a sing-song tone to Blake. Then she swivels and jabs a manicured fingernail into my chest like it’s a dagger. “The rules, Roxy,” she commands me. “What are they?”

“Um…” I rack my brain for the stupid show rules. I’ve worked for her for three straight seasons now, and it’s hard to keep all her random demands straight. I spent a year as her maid before she financed my cosmetology certification: never open this door, always let the machine answer this phone, stack the plates like this, not that. We spent last season in Maui: don’t go down to the beach after sunset, and no one is allowed to get food from local venders. The first season, no one was allowed to wear green. It was never explained, though I think it had something to do with special effects. We were also in Ireland, but that’s probably a coincidence.

“Okay, we’re not allowed to drink,” I begin, stalling. Just as I say the words, one of the gophers ducks around me and passes a shot glass of clear liquor to Blake, one inch crusted with salt and a wedge of lime on its rim. Ms. Madden opens her mouth, but before she can get a word out, Blake nods at the gopher and the shot is enthusiastically chugged.

Blake winces and beams up at her, victorious.

Ms. Madden shakes her head at him, then swivels back to me, counting the rules on her prematurely wrinkled fingers. “No wandering the grounds after dark. Don’t take any souvenirs from the property. I don’t even want to find a dead flower in anyone’s suitcase. No drinking on the job or the property, please. We have enough idiocy without alcohol. And don’t flirt with this one.” She claps a hand on my shoulder and pats it twice, then gives me an unnecessarily brutal squeeze. “Jenny!” she calls out randomly, taking off as quickly as she swooped in.

A girl scampers from the crew to join with her as she walks, scribbling in a small notepad. Jenny must be her new assistant. Ms. Madden tears through assistants like toilet paper.

“Does she always say ‘no flirting’?” Blake wonders.

“Roxy! Abs! We’re rolling at three!” Ms. Madden’s voice splits the crowd.

I twist to face Blake fully and command him to stand with my hands. He rolls his eyes slightly, but follows my semaphore and stands.

I kneel at his crotch, just beneath his abdomen.

Don’t be dirty. This is where I’m going to work. Please. This guy is one of the stupid billionaire bachelors. No way.

“Yes, she always says to not flirt,” I tell Blake, even though she has never told me not to flirt with a bachelor. Why would she ever need to tell me not to flirt with one? But that’s none of his business. He doesn’t need to know that Ms. Madden felt the need to single him out to me.

“That doesn’t seem a little fascist to you?” Blake wondered aloud. “Controlling whether or not you can flirt?”

“She doesn’t control whether or not I flirt,” I inform him. “I do.”

This sociopolitical, philosophical conversation is great, but this is my job, and we’re rolling soon. I start shading outside the taut line of his already defined oblique.

Blake gasps lightly and then laughs a soft, breathless laugh.

“What is it?” I ask, not stopping. “Ticklish?”

“Not ticklish,” he clarifies. Gooseflesh pricks along his skin, right beneath my fingertips, and I pause. My eyes flick up to him and he glances down at me. I know it’s crazy, but when he looks at me, another world opens up.

“Still feeling lost?” he wonders.

I force my eyes back down and continue shading.

“You remember,” I murmur. “How impressive.”

He’s one of the billionaire bachelors. Never gonna happen. He’s not even a regular guy. He’s a celebrity. A hero.

“I thought it might be you. You know,” Blake says to me, using a soft, husky whisper, as if we share a secret now, “the Japanese call this pressure point ‘the rushing door.’” His finger skates along the hollow outside his oblique, where I’m currently shading. “It is frequently used by lovers.”

“Fascinating,” I say, still shading his ‘rushing door.’

The crotch of his white linen pants stirs, and I force myself to focus on the oblique. Focus on the oblique.

His erection brushes the underside of my right hand, the one holding the palette. The blush thunders up into my cheeks so hard that I can physically hear it. Neither of us say anything for several beats, but my chest is rising and falling quickly, and I know he can see that.

I force my eyes to his abdomen, even though I can still feel his broad cock. I feel kind of dizzy being this close to it, like he’s giving off some sort of magnetic pulse, throwing my entire brain into disarray. I can’t focus. I can’t.

“Just meditate,” I command, brushing his ‘rushing door’ as quickly as I can. But that only seems to make matters worse. I see the way his abdominals flinch beneath his skin, delighted, exhilarated by the touch. He’s so hard by the time I finish.

“I like the new color,” Blake comments idly, fingers scooping down into my hair and fingering a solitary lock. I blink up at him, feeling naked. “Mm,” he murmurs, a deep rumble mostly expressed in his chest. “Very sexy.”

I gasp and drive myself off my knees, ashamed and amazed at how quickly the world just disappeared from around us, how quickly it seemed like we were alone, on our knees at the foot of a bed—but we aren’t. We stand next to my trailer, and people are all around us. People with recording devices are all around us. We don’t even know each other. He’s the star of the show. Anyone could look over here at any moment. This is the only job I have. What was I thinking? That I was just going to jack him off right here?

What is wrong with you?!

“Take a walk,” I snap at him. My heart hammers in my chest. This guy—this spoiled Billionaire Bachelor #6—is sexually harassing me with his throbbing hard-on! I don’t want to see his thick cock come to life for me. I don’t, damn it!

“Deal. Meet me in the hedge maze.”

And, with that, he turns on his heel and marches away, dividing a small cluster of milling camera people and striding completely across the property.

“Wh-where is he going?” Ms. Madden splutters loudly. She yells it to me through about twenty people. “Where is he going, Roxanne?”

“I don’t know,” I call back to her. I know exactly where he’s going. The fucking hedge maze.

“I don’t have all goddamn day, I’m melting out here,” Ms. Madden barks at me. “Go get him. We’re about to roll. Come on, people! Get it together.”

“Um, um, yes, ma’am,” I say, sprinting toward his mansion after him.