Chapter Twelve
Scott
She said yes. Of course, I was glad she had, but I hadn’t really expected her to. Since the engagement party Friday night, I couldn’t get the image of Megan wearing that gorgeous, form-fitting dress out of my mind. So here I was, at nine o’clock on Sunday morning, staring at my phone, asking myself what the hell I was doing.
To say that I had been confused, discouraged, angry, and more than a little haunted by Megan’s revelation to me about how my father might have been, albeit indirectly, involved in her father’s suicide, was an understatement. I knew that our business was cutthroat at times. A lot of people didn’t have the gut instincts, or the balls, to make some of the business deals we made. Sure, there was often undercutting and negotiating going on behind closed doors, but it had been that way for decades and likely would be for decades to come.
I didn’t necessarily like those kind of deals, but it was the way of the industry. I always tried to deal with my clients fairly, but yes, there were times when I pursued deals that focused only on the end goal.
Would I be feeling differently about marrying Kristin if it hadn’t been for the fact that Megan was now working for her, or that I had been the one to hire her? Would I have accepted my fate a little easier if Megan hadn’t appeared?
She had looked so sexy, so sophisticated, elegant, classy—all the adjectives I could think of—to describe her the other evening. Regardless of her financial circumstances, she had walked into that party as if she owned it, head held high, a pleasant yet composed expression on her face. If she had been intimidated by the wealth and some of the snobbish conversations going on around her, she hadn’t given any indication.
What surprised me most, was her reaction when I introduced her to my dad. A slight widening of the eyes, followed by a brief frown. I had almost dreaded the introduction, hoping Megan wouldn’t fly off the handle into a fit of outrage, shouting accusations, but I should’ve known she was much too classy for something like that. Kristin probably wouldn’t have been. And that was the crux of the matter.
Megan had indicated that she wanted to quit working for Kristin, and basically, for me. But I didn’t want her to quit. I had this confusing and extremely irrational fear of losing her again. I’d never see her again. At the same time, I knew that my feelings weren’t only inappropriate, but irrational. We didn’t have a life together. I hadn’t even seen her in nearly a decade. Last but not least, she didn’t belong to me. Not even close.
That was over and above the fact that I was engaged to another woman who was carrying my baby. I had been trying so hard to convince myself that because this engagement and my upcoming marriage to Kristin was nothing more than a sham, I was allowed to experience a return of feelings I had for Megan—always had— even after all these years. My engagement and forthcoming marriage was nothing more than a lie on my part. I tried to convince myself that, eventually, I might grow to have feelings for Kristin. But she had manipulated me; literally blackmailed me into this engagement. On top of that, she had gotten my father involved.
I knew I would never be happy with Kristin. I didn’t love her. While I could put up with it for now, what would I feel six months from now, a year, or even five years down the line? The resentment would grow. Those feelings would naturally morph into a deep sense of bitterness. I would become a bitter man. God, I would become my father.
I felt bad that Megan had spent all these years struggling, financially at least. She and her mother both, while I spent money on material things like there was no tomorrow. My drinking, womanizing, my partying… it all seemed so very pathetic when compared to the life that Megan had been forced to live. And her mother, eking out a living, working hard, living simply. Still, they loved each other.
I had all the money I could want, but my world experienced very little love or affection. Megan was, for all intents and purposes, living just above the poverty level, but she was well-adjusted and obviously loved her mother a great deal, and vice versa.
And all because of my father’s selfish greed, that ambition to close one more deal, to put another notch on his belt. Had he really pulled the trigger, at least figuratively, that had destroyed Kristin’s life? No, she was right. My father hadn’t pulled the trigger. Her father had. But could I blame him?
I felt stuck, trapped between my desires to branch out on my own and build my business empire free of my father’s controlling influences, and, admittedly, my fear of failure. That fear of failure was what had kept me sitting in my CEO chair for so many years.
I needed to do something about that.
Impulsively, I had pulled my cell phone from my pocket and dialed Megan’s number. It was her day off, so I knew she would be home. I’d asked her to join me this morning for a day-trip to the wine lands, just to get away for a while; to talk to her privately, to support her, whatever it was that she wanted. I was surprised that she had taken me up on it, and only after a brief moment of hesitation.
I would pick her up in an hour.
Now, as I sat here, staring at my desk, I realized that my invitation to her was risky. Extremely risky. Someone might see us. My face was familiar at many of those vineyards. I had no idea whether my father ever ventured there, but I knew that somehow, in some way, gossip traveled hot and fast.
Hell, for all I knew, Kristin had her own way of keeping tabs on me. She was spending the weekend at her family’s vacation house down near San Diego, “recuperating” from the engagement party. It’d been the first time in weeks that I had my house to myself. So quiet, so calm, peaceful, the way it used to be.
It wasn’t only the concern that somehow my day trip with Megan would be discovered by someone who would report the incident to either Kristin or my father. I had to think about my very real concern that I wouldn’t be able to control my urges for her. And that’s what surprised me the most. I had always liked her in high school, no doubt about it. I had never made a move on Megan back then, not really. I knew she liked me, but my insecurities had pushed their way to the forefront of my sexual attraction toward her. What if she rebuffed me? What if any move I made on her ruined our friendship?
What was the difference between then and now? Now, perhaps, driven by my current circumstances, I found myself even more attracted to Megan than ever before. Call me shallow, but there it was. I couldn’t help but compare Megan to Kristin every time I saw one or the other. Yes, I was engaged to Kristin, but my feelings—they were for Megan.
If I had at all misread Megan’s expressions, her subtle looks, her eyes seeking me out not only at home, but on the yacht the other weekend, things could go quite badly.
Oh well, nothing ventured, nothing gained.
***
I couldn’t remember when I’d had a nicer day nor in better company. After leaving the office I’d quickly gone home and changed, opting for blue jeans, tennis shoes, and a simple t-shirt and baseball cap. When I pulled up in front of Megan’s apartment building, she was standing outside, wearing much the same. I couldn’t help but smile. This was what it was supposed to feel like! This sense of enthusiasm, of pleasure, of simple joy doing something with someone you cared about. No pressure, no expectations. As she climbed into the car and offered a smile, I couldn’t help but remember how much fun we’d had in high school, just hanging out.
The afternoon passed into a blur of strolling, snacking on crackers and cheese, sipping wine. Now, as the sun slowly descended toward the west, I glanced at the B&B in the corner of the wine estate. Should I?
Again, nothing lost, and nothing gained. My emotions exploded, filling me with a sense of calm. I felt an overwhelming surge of attraction, an intense desire for this woman beside me. Her hair smelled like lavender and mint. Her skin glowed, makeup free. She was au natural.
“It’s getting late, Scott,” she said. “Don’t you think we’d better be heading back pretty soon?”
I glanced down at her and raised an eyebrow. “Have you enjoyed the day as much as I have, Megan?”
She laughed softly. “Probably more. I can’t remember the last time I just puttered a day away, and in such handsome company.”
I looked at her, then glanced toward the B&B. She followed my gaze. I was delighted to see the flash of color in her cheeks. “Would you like to spend a little more time here?” I asked softly.
For a second, her eyes widened and she glanced at me. She hesitated, nibbled on her lip a second, and then glanced from the B&B and back up to me. I held out my hand, and she took it. There was no mistaking the look in her eyes. I hadn’t misread. A flush of color appeared in her cheeks again, and I gave her hand a squeeze.
In less than fifteen minutes we stood in a quaint, simply decorated yet comfortable room toward the back of the B&B, the only customers for the moment. I closed the door softly behind me, watching as Megan stood in the middle of the room, taking in the décor. Then she turned to me. Without a word, she slowly pulled the t-shirt over her head.
I couldn’t take my eyes off her. Without hesitation, she reached for the small clip at the front center of her bra and unhooked it. Her pert, perfectly formed breasts, freed from the constraints of her bra, beckoned. I felt my dick surge to life. Instantly. I felt her hand on my shoulder, and then we met, chest to chest. Her breasts squished against my chest as I gazed down at her. She looked down at me, mouth slightly open.
“I’ve struggled to keep my hands off of you,” I whispered. “I know this isn’t… I don’t—”
She nodded. “For once in my life, I’m throwing caution to the wind,” she said, leaning closer.
To hell with it. Her tug on my emotions and body were undeniable. I couldn’t help myself and might not have been able to stop myself now if she changed her mind. I lowered my head and brushed my lips against hers. This was no chaste kiss. Hell no. Almost in desperation, we let our doubts go, felt the emotion surge between us, and completely let go. I would deal with my guilt later.
Now, I just enjoyed the deeply sensuous kiss as her lips parted and her tongue gently traced along the contours of my lips. I allowed her access, tongues swirling around the other, my dick hardening, my blood pounding in my ears. I hadn’t had sex since Kristin moved in. I hadn’t slept with her, using her early pregnancy as an excuse. I was horny, and that was putting it lightly. As our tongues tangled, I felt the thrill of my pulsing cock in every nerve in my body. My hands cupped her breasts, tweaked her nipples until they grew into hard little nubs. I ached for her touch.
I took a step backward, my back pressed against the door. Her hands were everywhere: stroking my back, tugging at my shirt, my zipper… everywhere followed by a trail of heat. My hands were doing the same. Our breathing grew heavy. Small, desperate noises escaped from her throat as I ravished her mouth with my tongue while my fingers plied her taut nipples.
With a heavy groan, I bent slightly and lifted her into my arms, aiming for the bed. I settled her gently on the quilt, every sense alive, and hot and pulsing. She lay beneath me, a smile on her lips as I divested her of her jeans. Both of us kicked off our shoes, thumping dully onto the hardwood floor at the end of the bed. She impatiently shoved my jeans down past my hips and I helped, hesitating only long enough to tug the wallet from my back pocket.
Balancing myself on my elbows, I opened the wallet and pulled the condom packet from the money slot, looking down at her with a raised eyebrow. Mouth open, chest heaving, nipples thick and dark aiming toward me, she nodded.
We lay naked on the bed, our hands impatiently exploring every inch of skin. In seconds, she was hot and wet, my fingers sliding easily along her slit, eliciting low-throated moans. The only words racing through my brain. Hot. Wet. Ready. Delicious sensations as her hand grasped my hard, velvety, warm erection for only a moment before my fingers once again dipped down into that cleft between her legs, my fingers working their magic within her depths, only to slowly slide out and trace a circular pattern around her nub before repeating the process. Soon, she lifted her hips in desperation and I obliged, first with my fingers as she spread her knees wider apart, then, with her tugging on my hips, finally nestling between her uplifted knees. I tore open the condom wrapper with my teeth and rolled it on with the swiftness of experience.
I gazed down at her flushed features, my voice thick and heavy. “You sure?”
“Yes!” she gasped, hands cupping my ass now.
I didn’t hesitate. I surged inside, filling her with my engorged dick, buried to the hilt. I paused only a moment, relishing in her tightness surrounding me, and then, my nerves on fire, the blood pulsing through my length, I thrusted upward. She matched me stroke for stroke.
Our lovemaking was frantic, hurried, and deep. She pulled me closer, surged her hips upward with every thrust, trying to pull me deeper and deeper inside. I braced my weight now on my hands on either side of her shoulders, looking down to where we were joined, watching our hips meet, pause and then pull apart. I glanced away, saw her breasts bouncing with our rhythm, and surged deeper.
In a matter of seconds, her face flushed deeply, she closed her eyes and threw her head back, and I did the same as I felt my climax burgeoning. She gave a low mewl and then I felt her inner muscles contracting against my dick, and only then did I let myself go.
I’d never felt such a powerful orgasm, and the sensations continued to pulse through me as I felt the hot surge of liquid pulsating along my dick and then the release.
I rode the waves of my climax, amazed at how powerful and quickly I had reached the moment. Ever so slowly, the pulsations ebbed and I collapsed down onto her, still nestled deep inside, her own rhythmic contractions slowly ebbing.
Only then, gasping for breath, my heart pounding, did I feel Megan suddenly stiffen beneath me.
The moment was over. Now we had to face the repercussions of our deed.