Sinner
She's here at the clubhouse, just seeing her made me feel better. This shit with Rowen has really shaken me; I never knew she was so into the drug scene and to find out that Mom and Dad new has only fucked me off even more. Rowen raged for hours breaking and smashing everything in my room, but I didn't give a fuck. She could break whatever the fuck she wanted, she wasn't coming out of that room until she was clean.
As I walk into the kitchen, I make myself something to eat watching Rowen is tiring. I've been sitting outside of my door all night listening to her beg cry and then smash more shit. But about twenty minutes ago the room went silent, and I slowly opened the door to see my hole room destroyed and Rowen fast asleep on the bed.
I'd picked up as much as possible without waking her up and brought in a bucket just encase she needed it. I know that last night she still had the shit in her system but now it's gonna start making its way out and that's when the withdrawal will start. I sat most of the night goggling withdrawal systems, and I know the next few days are gonna be rough on her. Mom kept calling, but I just couldn't answer. I'm pissed at my parents for not telling me and Jordan.
Sitting there last night was so hard to listen to Rowen beg for me to let her out but I love her too much to do that. She may hate me now, but she'll thank me in the long run. As I was sitting in the kitchen Cookie comes in and sits next to me
“How she doin’.”
“She's angry.”
“Yeah, I bet.”
“Fuck man I didn't fuckin’ know.”
“Brother, we never really know everything about our families” I look at him agreeing
“Where have you been,” I ask him
“Went up to see Scythe.”
“Oh yeah, how is he”
“Fuckin’ excited to get out soon.”
“I bet, you gonna be there when he gets out.”
“Fuck yes, four-fuckin' years is a long ass time to be locked up.”
“Well, I'm glad he's ok.”
“Well I'm going to get some sleep it's a long as fuckin’ ride from Indian Springs.”
“Night man.”
“Night and Sinner” I look up at him
“You’re doin’ the right thing; if I had a sister, I'd do the same shit.”
“Thanks, man I appreciate it.”
*
The rest of the day I watch Tink help Lilly, all the other Old Ladies show up and help out too. Pink and Cream streamers hang all around the clubhouse balloons are hung, and furniture is moved around to make way for tables. Long curtains are hung from the wall hiding the walls; it looks like a prom threw up and after a while, I have to step out to get some air. Having Rowen here in the clubhouse fucked up on drugs is really fuckin’ with my head “You ok” Tiny asks me as I sit on one of the bench seats
“No, not really,” I tell him honestly
“So, who was the chick” I look at him
“My sister.”
“That was your sister,” he asks surprised
“Yeah”
“No wonder she knew how to kick your ass” I smile
“Yeah”
“What's up with her.”
“Drugs” is all I say
“She in deep.”
“As far as I can tell.”
“So, what's the plan?” he asks, and I shrug.
“Honestly, I don't know, lock her up until she's clean.”
“Sinner it ain't that easy most of withdrawal is mental if she doesn’t want to get clean she's just gonna go back out there and find the first score she can get”
“Fuck man I didn't even think of that.”
“Look you need to talk to her, find out why she does it. Really pay attention to what she says after the withdrawals, but don't judge her man. That'll only push her towards the junk again, and get her out of here. This place is a madhouse, take her out to the barn it's quiet, and you can lock it up tight” I smile
“Sage advice Tiny thanks.”
“That's me man wise as fuck and hung like a horse” I laugh.
“Brother, I don't wanna think about your dick.”
“No, but ya are” I smile shaking my head as he walks off laughing (damn I love this club)
****
Tink
The night before the wedding Lilly and I had sat up most of the night talking, and it was so good. Like old times when we watched a movie and even classed it up with wine “Who would have thought we'd be in a beautiful house drinking wine getting ready for my wedding and just being happy,” she'd said, and I looked at her smiling
“I remember the first time I saw Stryker,” she tells me.
“Yeah”
“I think I fell in love with him the first time I saw him,” she says
“Really how did you know.”
“There was something about him, and I know this is going to sound stupid, but it's like when he looks at me he can see into my soul” I smile cause it's exactly how I think of Jaxson
“Tink”
“Yeah”
“Do you love Jaxson” I nod
“Love, I don’t know, but I really do like him a lot.”
“Then why don't you do anything.”
“Because he doesn't want me like that.”
“Tink he watches you all the time.”
“Yeah, he may stare, but when I made a move, he pushed me away.”
“You made a move on him,” she asks me
“Yeah, I kissed him and everything, and he told me he couldn't and the next thing I know he's outside, and Summer's giving him a blowjob, and he's calling her baby” she grabs my hand
“Shit Tink why didn't you say anything.”
“Um let me see because I was totally humiliated and rejected for a whore” she has that look of pity on her face and I cringe, this is why I didn't tell her if the rejection from Jaxson was bad enough, I sure as hell don't want pity
“It's fine Lilly honestly, I've come to terms with the fact that Jaxson doesn't want me.”
“Damn Tink, I don't think I wouldn't be that gracious, I think I would have kicked his ass” I laugh
“yeah”
“Fuck yes, turning me down for a club-whore fuck that”
“You know I caught him a few times fucking Summer.”
“Just Summer or the other whores to.”
“The whores the strippers anyone but me.”
“I made him feel bad when he found you at you knows house.”
“When?”
“When he thought that you two slept together, I rubbed it in telling him he deserved it”
“What did he say?”
“Nothing much.”
“Well it's fine, I've come to terms with it, I'm off men for now anyway plus the twins have a new girlfriend.”
“Tink don't give up on love the right man is out there you'll see” I smile at her again.
“Lilly I'm just happy being here with you Stryker and Tiny what more could I want”
“Are you sure, I could go and kick his ass for you” I laugh harder
“No, I'm good, so the honeymoon, are you looking forward to it.”
“Yeah, a whole month in the Bahamas who wouldn't be.”
“Do you know where you’re staying.”
“No Stryker's keeping it a secret, but Tink I'm so excited to be marrying him. Spending the rest of my life with him, I'm even thinking about kids” I look at her in shock.
“Kids,” I say, and she nods
“The thought of being pregnant with Stryker and my baby Tink, god I can't wait.”
“Kids, wow Lilly I don't know what to say” she smiles.
“Whenever I see Niya and Logan, I want that you know, I want to be a Mom and have Stryker’s baby to have a little him and me, god I want that so much.”
“Are you thinking about getting your bar out” she nods.
“I am.”
“Wow that's a huge step, don't you just want it to be you and Stryker for a while before you have kids.”
“No, after we get back from the honeymoon I'm having it taken out.”
“Shit,” I say, but she just laughs
“Have I shocked you,” she asks me
“A little but I'm happy for you, and whatever you decide I'll be there for you and Stryker.”
“Thank you Tink so much” tears prick my eyes, and I look at her
“It's you I should be thanking Lilly.”
“Me,” she says
“Yeah, you saved me.”
“I saved you.”
“The life I had before you came along wasn't all that good but you, you brought me to life. And I will love you for that for the rest of my life, no matter how many arguments we have or if I ever get pissed at you, I'll always love you for saving me.”
“Tink,” she says pulling me in for a hug “Tink.”
“Yeah”
“Will you ever tell me about what happened”
“Maybe one day.”
“Well, I'll be here when you’re ready.”
“Deal,” I tell her
*
The sun shines through my window, and I watch as the ray of light fills my room, I can hear people downstairs, and I know the girls are here to help Lilly and me get dressed. Today is the day Lilly gets married, and I'm nervous but excited I can't imagine how she would be feeling “TINK” is screamed as I walk into the kitchen Lilly Chelsea Niya Zoey and Maggie holding Logan are all sitting at the table.
“Good morning,” I say to everyone “Excited,” I ask Lilly, and she smiles
“I'm so nervous.”
“Why are you having second thoughts.”
“God no I'm scared something will happen” I smile at her.
“Lilly nothing is going to happen, and by the end of the day you’re going to be Mrs. Lilly Adams” everyone smiles but I laugh, and everyone looks at me
“Oh, come on that's funny,” I tell them.
“What?” Niya asks
“Mrs. Adams” I laugh rolling my eyes
“Hello if her name were Morticia it would be funny as shit” Maggie starts laughing
“Morticia Adams and Stryker as Gomez” we all laugh hard, but Lilly just rolls her eyes
“Very funny,” she says
“Come on Lil that was funny you do look like her a bit “she frowns.
“I do not” I laugh again.
“You’re too easy Lil,” I tell her.
“Very funny,” she says smirking giving me the finger