It was harder than I thought it would be getting free of them. Two of them actually offered to carry on as before after I got married but I had to turn them down. I’m just not that man. It was one thing to fuck three women when I wasn’t committed to any of them and they knew that going in and quite another to cheat on my wife. Pamela Sue having been the only one to actually see Nikki was pretty hip to what was going on. I didn’t tell them about the baby that was none of their business, just that we were quits. I asked if there was anything they needed from me before I walked out of their lives for good because I was pretty sure Nikki would make my life a living hell if I even looked at one of them after we got married. I had to give her that, it was only fair after all because I’d beat her ass if she tried that shit.

She let her displeasure be known by freezing me out when I got back; she didn’t talk to me for three hours and I left her alone with her snit but I wasn’t about to miss my afternoon quickie though my body had become accustomed to the round the clock sex. My cock just started rising and leaking like he knew it was time. I hadn’t seen her in about an hour or so and a check of the house showed that she wasn’t there and neither was she in her favorite spot out by the pool. I didn’t start panicking until a search of the grounds showed that she was nowhere near the house. All my vehicles were still in the garage so wherever she’d gone she’d gone on foot. I have a lot of land most of it woods the thought of her getting lost out there or falling and getting hurt scared the shit out of me. There was a lot of overgrown brush and shit out there a hundred places she could fall and break her fucking neck. I headed out on the ATV calling out for her but there was no answer. I parked when the trees thickened and headed in on foot with a searchlight. One hour later there was still no sign of Nikki, I was ready to call in my guys to set up a search party when something told me she wasn’t in here, she’d told me the woods scared her so I couldn’t see her just walking in there on her own. Changing direction, I headed back to the house and got my truck to head into town. It was a long shot but there was nowhere else to look, the nearest house was more than a mile away and she didn’t know anyone around here, maybe in her anger she’d taken off to get back at me. If that was true she was in for a world of hurt but I had to put that on hold for now, first I had to find her. I tamped down the sick feeling that threatened to overtake me, if anything had happened to her I don’t know what I would do, the fear hit me in the gut it was unlike anything I’ve ever felt before. I drove around going from fear to anger and back again.

“Where the hell are you?”

I went around the small town twice with no sign of her anywhere and my trepidation grew. On my last go around, I saw her looking in a shop window. The anger came back tenfold. I stopped on the side of the street across from the little boutique she was peering into and went after her.

I guess she saw my shadow in the window because she turned around before I could get my hands on her.

“Not one fucking word. Get in the truck!”

She was surprised and just a little scared which she should be. All the way home I didn’t say a word to her, I was too fucking pissed. If I opened my mouth I was sure I would do more damage than good. At the house I slammed out of the car and walked around to get her. She was shaking like a leaf.

I don’t know what she expected me to do to her, but as soon as the door was closed, she started to run. I caught her around her neck and brought her back.

Calm the fuck down Ashton .You can’t strangle the mother of your child for being stupid. I wanted to shake some sense into her but I couldn’t do that either. She must’ve seen the intent on my face because she finally opened her mouth to speak.

 “You can’t punish me. You’ll hurt the baby.”

“Oh there’re plenty of ways to punish your ass that wouldn’t hurt my kid. You want to tell me what the fuck you were doing?”

“I just went for a walk. What’s the big deal?”

“Nikki do not fuck with me! Look at me. I am not your father I will not put up with your bullshit do you understand? How did you get into town?”

“I just said I walked.”

“You…” I pulled my phone from my pocket and called the doctor she’d just walked more than a good hour into town and I wasn’t sure if that was safe for the kid or not. A quick consult with the doc confirmed my fears, though walking and light exercise was good for pregnancy walking of that magnitude wasn’t recommended that early in her condition. I was so pissed when I hung up the phone I was afraid to go near her.

“You’re a selfish little bitch, I don’t even want to look at you right now. Were you trying to kill the baby? Is that it? You want to have an abortion?”

“What no?”

“Yeah well that’s what it seems like to me why else would you decide to make the trek into town?”

“I didn’t know it was dangerous Jeremy I swear.”

“Save it, I don’t have time for little girls and their fucking games.”

“I told you I didn’t want you to go.”

“Are you fucking crazy? You don’t tell me what I can or cannot do. If that’s what you’re looking for, here’s what we’ll do, you can stay here until the baby’s born, leave the kid here and get the fuck out because that shit’s not gonna happen.”

Of course the tears started but I wasn’t interested, she’d picked the wrong fucker to pull that shit on. I’m not sure what the fuck went on in her home. What kind of relationship her parents played out in front of her but she had the wrong fucking idea if she thought her little ass was going to run me. That stunt she pulled with the walking into town that’s the kind of shit that would make me lose it. First off, there isn’t really anything between my place and town. Anyone could’ve come along and picked her up and no one would be the wiser because the little hard headed shit had snuck off without saying a word. I got the chills just thinking about it. I’d read in one of the many books that some women had miscarried from walking too far of a distance in their first trimester I’m not sure if she’d read the same thing but I wasn’t making any excuses for her. She needed to grow the fuck up. I left her sitting on the couch and headed out back for my exercise course, I figured it was best for all involved if I put some distance between us, it also gave me the chance to put shit in perspective. Maybe this was too much for her, I’ve been playing the heavy with her ever since she got here maybe she was just out for a good time and this whole baby thing was too much for her. If she’d headed into town to teach me a lesson she was going to be on the losing end because I don’t play games and I especially wouldn’t be fucking around with my kid’s life so I had to do some thinking on what we were dealing with here.

Fucking aside I liked Nikki in fact if I was being honest I think I might be in love with the little shit already something that I had never envisioned for myself but I’m a hard mother fucker I know me, she mess around and fuck up I could seriously hurt her. Maybe she wasn’t ready for what I needed, maybe I had to find another solution other than marriage.

“Fuck that my kid’s gonna have my name no matter what.” And he sure the fuck was going to be raised by me. I worked out my anger pushing my body hard as I came to terms with shit in my head. The reality is that I’m dealing with a young girl who was probably scared out of her fucking mind to be faced with motherhood, she had dreams that she probably now believed were no longer possible, she also had the fear of how her family was going to react to our news. Apart from all that I’m pretty sure she was accustomed to getting her way that’s how she ended up here, she probably saw me as just another old guy that she could get over on she wasn’t going to have much luck with that.

By the time I was finished, an hour had gone by. She was still lying on the couch curled up with the stupid teddy bear I’d got for the baby. I ignored her and went to take a shower. I wasn’t as angry any more but I wasn’t quite ready to forgive her either, I wasn’t even going to entertain her bullshit excuse that she did it because I went to break things off with the women. I’d explained that shit to her and that was enough if we were going to go anywhere she had to learn from now what kind of man I am I’ll be damned if I let any woman rule me what the fuck was she thinking?

I went to the kitchen to get a beer and she came in behind me.

“I’m sorry Jeremy...”

“Not good enough what you did was stupid and dangerous…”

She came around the table and wrapped her arms around me from behind.

“Please don’t leave me I didn’t mean anything by it.”

I held firm not giving an inch.

“Let’s get one thing straight Nikki, you do anything to hurt my kid there’s going to be problems, you get pissed and do stupid shit that’s just fucked. You didn’t think, you can’t make those kind of plays anymore it’s not just about you, grow the fuck up.” I left her there and went to my office. She knew better than to follow me right now at least and hopefully she’d learn to stop fucking up.

I took out her ring from my desk and looked at it, did I want to give this girl this ring? You shoulda thought of that before you fucked her asshole or at the very least worn a rubber.