After she finished crying and James finished painting her toenails—a kind term for the toddler’s finger-painting project he’d inflicted on her cute, chubby feet—they cuddled on the couch again and talked. For hours.

“Are your kids okay with us marrying?”

She sounded worried, and he could understand why. He should have reassured her days ago, but they’d been settling into their new routine, and he’d wanted to make her life in this home, as his wife, as easy and relaxing as possible. So he hadn’t mentioned biopsies or families or money or anything stressful.

But maybe she needed to talk about all those things. Maybe they both did.

If so, he was more than willing.

“My boys are fine with it.” The simple truth. “They’ve always liked you, and they want me to be happy, whatever form that might take.”

For all Mel’s struggles, she’d managed to shield their sons from the worst of her alcoholism. She’d sometimes gone years sober, especially when the kids were young. And even during relapses, her heaviest drinking had been reserved for late nights or so-called business trips, at least until the boys had both left for college. So they were as well-adjusted as could be expected, especially after years of family and individual therapy.

They were good kids, and they loved him. They’d supported the marriage.

Elizabeth raised her head from his chest. “But they know the truth, right? They know why you asked me to marry you?”

He smoothed her silky, pale hair back from her forehead. “They know exactly why I married you.”

Another simple truth, although maybe not as simple as Elizabeth believed.

She collapsed back down onto his chest, her soft warmth a welcome weight. “Good.”

“They’re happy for us. But let me be clear about something.” He ducked his head until their noses almost touched. “I neither asked for nor needed their permission. My marriage to you is the business of only two people, and we’re both here on this couch.”

“Okay.” She blinked up at him, and he wanted to kiss her. The need ached in his joints and throbbed with every beat of his heart.

But he held off, because he also wanted to prolong this moment. All of it—the embrace, the conversation—was intimate. As intimate as lovemaking, maybe, for a woman as intensely private and self-contained as Elizabeth.

Her seeming openness was a façade. He knew that now.

“I was wondering…” He sent up a silent prayer that the question wouldn’t offend her. “Why didn’t you ever marry? Before me, I mean?”

The instant rush of pride every time he thought about their marriage was probably foolish, given why she’d agreed to his proposal. But he couldn’t help it. She was beautiful, smart, talented, kind, and married to him. James Magnusson. A man of average height and average income, with an unused degree in American literature and an ever-growing belly.

A man who was pretty sure he loved the woman he’d married.

No, that didn’t quite capture it. He’d loved her for almost thirty years, without question. As a roommate, a friend, and a person he admired. But now he was falling in love with her.

So he needed to make sure they stayed married. But he was working on that, day by day. Taking down her walls and learning her, piece by piece.

Her voice was quiet when she answered his question. “My parents got divorced when I was ten, and it was…” She sighed. “It was hard on all of us, especially when Dad moved away. I kind of had to take care of my sisters and brother for a while. And at some point, I promised myself I wouldn’t get married unless I was sure, totally sure, I’d never get divorced, because I didn’t want to experience that sort of rupture ever again.”

“And you were never sure?”

Because she’d had serious boyfriends over the years, some of them clearly in love with her. Guys with sharp clothes and office jobs and vacation homes. Ones who’d sat pressed up against her in restaurant booths and played with her fingers over dessert. And though he’d been married for most of those boyfriends, he couldn’t say he’d enjoyed watching them with her.

“No. I was never sure. So I stayed single.” She gave a laugh that didn’t sound amused. “And now I’m in a marriage with an expiration date. Kind of ironic, huh?”

No. He wasn’t letting that stand. “It doesn’t have an expiration date. Not if you don’t want it to.”

She bit her lip for a moment. “Before we got married, you never asked me about my finances. About why I didn’t have any money. Weren’t you concerned I was a spendthrift or a compulsive shopper or an online gambler?”

“Once I took the time to think about it, I was pretty sure I understood the situation.” He pressed a kiss on her furrowed forehead, because he was only human. “In-home nursing for an elderly woman with advanced dementia couldn’t have been cheap.”

“Mom…” She took a shuddering breath. “Her grandmother spent years in a nursing home. The conditions there were apparently terrible. Horrifying, actually. And as Mom got older and more confused, she would get hysterical at the thought of going to one. She’d sob and scream and promise to—” When Elizabeth’s breath hitched again, he ran a soothing hand down her back. “She’d promise to kill herself if we tried to take her to a group home.”

Another stroke of her back, and her breathing evened.

“But once the dementia got worse, it wasn’t safe for her to be in her house anymore. Too many steps. Too much risk of falling or fire. And all my siblings are across the country.”

“So you took her in and paid for nursing care during working hours.”

She nodded, her hair bunching against his chest. “I made a good living at the bakery. But not good enough for that. Not after a year or so. So…” A long, painful pause. “I sold the bakery and used the money to keep Mom home.”

The agony of the decision carved deep lines beside her mouth, and everything about this fucking situation, especially how he’d left her swinging alone in the cold breeze for so long, gutted him.

“What about your siblings? Couldn’t they contribute too?”

“They didn’t have the resources I did, but they gave what they could.”

He tried to remember the date of the funeral. “She passed away…two months ago?”

At that, her back began heaving with her renewed sobs, and he wanted to sew his own mouth shut. Why had he pushed her this way the night before her fucking biopsy, for Christ’s sake?

“I’m sorry.” He hugged her tighter, waiting for the gusts of grief to pass. “I shouldn’t have asked. It was such a short time ago, and it must still hurt so—”

She lifted her head, her lips puffy with tears. “No, James. That’s the worst part. It didn’t hurt. Not really.” She hiccupped. Then, fisting her hands in his sweatshirt, she met his eyes. “When she died, I was…relieved. So relieved. I know that sounds monstrous, but I had no more money. I was out of options. And I loved her no matter what, but she deserved some peace, and I felt like I’d already lost my mom years ago.”

“No, honey, it doesn’t sound monstrous.” He rubbed her back. “It sounds human.”

More sobs, and no wonder. Between her guilt and worry and grief, he could hardly believe she’d still been functioning at all.

He held her for a long time after that. But just when he thought she’d fallen asleep, exhausted from her tears, her quiet voice drifted from his chest.

“Let’s talk about you.” She sounded hoarse but calm. “Do you like your work? Is it something you want to keep doing until retirement?”

“Yeah.” Reaching behind himself, he grabbed the fleece blanket draped over the back of the couch. Carefully, he covered them both, making sure to tuck the edges around her feet on the ottoman. “At some point in the next few years, though, I’ll probably want to go out on my own. Get my own crew and work for myself.”

She stiffened against him. “I’m delaying you. If you didn’t need to keep your current insurance—”

“I’m in no hurry. Like I just said, I enjoy my job. And I’d be a fool to open my own business without doing plenty of research and planning first.”

Maybe he’d thought about pulling the trigger next spring, but that could wait. Elizabeth was his priority, now and—if he had his way—forever.

Her frame hadn’t relaxed. “If you want to do it this year, I’ll figure out something.”

For a woman who’d sacrificed her savings, her business, and years of her life for her mom, she certainly had trouble accepting minor sacrifices made on her behalf.

And they were through with this topic. He wanted her lax and warm against him once more.

“I’m not changing anything until I’m sure you’re taken care of.” When she started to say something, he shushed her. “That’s not negotiable, so don’t waste your breath arguing.”

“Stubborn son of a gun,” she muttered, her words muffled by his sweatshirt.

“Which I guess would make you a stubborn daughter of a gun.” He snorted. “Weird how that particular idiom never took hold.”

Her smile warmed her voice. “It never took hold because, compared to men, most women are fonts of sweet reason. Also, it doesn’t rhyme.”

“Good points.” He considered the matter. “Glad we’re putting our lit degrees to good use at long last.”

She made a sort of sleepy hum.

He should let her rest. But he had one more question, and he wanted to ask it while her defenses were still down.

Lowering his head, he whispered softly into her ear. “Speaking of stubborn, why were you feeding me all this time when you barely had enough time or money to feed yourself?”

Her words were barely audible. “Because someone needed to care for you.”

He swallowed. Hard.

In mere days, she’d burrowed so deep in his heart, she’d destroy it if she left him. Either voluntarily or…not.

For the millionth time since that town hall, he sent up a prayer that her biopsy would be fine. She’d be fine. They’d navigate their new marriage without the specter of cancer haunting their every breath.

“I appreciate that, honey.” Gently, he removed the elastic from her hair. There, that should be more comfortable for her. “But who cares for you?”

She didn’t answer. So he closed his own eyes, disregarded what a night on the couch would do to his poor back, and followed her into sleep.

The Marysburg Hospital Breast Health Center let James accompany Elizabeth into the inner waiting room. Which was convenient, since he wasn’t sure he could have let go of her hand if a hospital employee had tried to separate them.

Together, they trudged through all the usual hoops. Registration for Elizabeth’s core needle biopsy. Reading and signing the informed consent document, which was—like all its brethren, in his experience—pretty horrifying.

That document confirmed the basics of what the radiologist would do to his wife. Guided by an ultrasound, the doctor would use a hollow needle to remove several tissue samples from the lump, and a pathologist would analyze those samples. Elizabeth should get the results within two to five business days.

Such dry language for such a fraught, terrifying process.

With each form, each explanation, Elizabeth’s fingers turned more icy. He chafed them, wishing to God he could do all this for her. Take the worry, take the needle, take the agonizing wait for answers, and leave her calm and content.

But he couldn’t. She had to go through this process, but she didn’t have to do it alone.

As far as he was concerned, she didn’t have to do anything alone. Not anymore. Not if she didn’t want to.

And he made sure she knew it. “Do you want me in the room with you during the biopsy? The form said it’s okay if I come. But if you’d prefer that I wait out here instead, that’s fine too.”

He’d honor her wishes. Even if the thought of her going to the procedure alone made him want to howl.

“I want you with me.” No hesitation, and those deep-set blue eyes were beseeching. “Please, James.”

God, she wrung his heart to pieces sometimes.

He pressed a kiss against her furrowed brow. “You don’t need to say please, honey. If you want me, of course I’ll be there.”

The next few minutes were a blur of exchanging her sweater and bra for a gown, getting her vitals taken, and walking to the ultrasound room. And then she was lying on the back on the bed, naked from the waist up, and for the first time in his life, he wasn’t even tempted to look at a beautiful woman’s bare breasts.

Instead, he maintained eye contact with a pale, trembling Elizabeth. Smiled at her as the ultrasound tech located the lump, marked it with a pen, and cleansed the area. Held her cold hand when the tech covered the surrounding bare skin with sterile drapes and then retreated to the ultrasound machine.

“I want you to look,” Elizabeth suddenly told him.

His heart seized. “I don’t know whether—”

“I’ll want to know what happened, but I can’t watch. I need you to do it for me.” Her voice wavered. “Please, James.”

“Okay.” He squeezed her hand and steeled himself. “Okay.”

The radiologist glanced up from where she was spreading some sort of clear gel over the uncovered part of Elizabeth’s breast. “I’ll also describe what I’m doing, which might help. Unless you’d prefer I didn’t.”

“Please do.” Elizabeth nodded. “I want to know.”

So they listened and he watched as the radiologist located the lump with the ultrasound, numbed the area with shots of local anesthesia—a process that looked remarkably violent for something meant to help ease pain—and waited for the medication to take effect.

When the doctor made a small incision and inserted the biopsy needle, he wanted to look away, but he didn’t. His wife needed him, and he wouldn’t fail her.

The radiologist seemed perfectly calm. “Clicking sound in three, two, one…”

Elizabeth still flinched, and so did he. On the ultrasound screen, around the tech’s head, he could see that damn needle grab the sample, and then the radiologist transferred the scrap of flesh to a bottle of clear liquid.

He had to clear his throat a couple times. “How…how bad was that?”

“Not bad at all,” Elizabeth said, and it sounded like the truth. “The anesthesia felt like a bee sting, but this is just tugging and pressure, not pain.”

Three more samples. Four. Five.

Then the radiologist looked up again. “I’m about to insert that titanium clip you heard about. It’ll help mark the spot for future mammograms or if you need surgery.”

After the clip’s insertion and a few minutes of pressure on the area, they were almost done.

“One more mammogram to document the location of the clip, and then we’ll bandage you. No stitches necessary.” The doctor smiled at Elizabeth. “You did great.”

He helped Elizabeth sit up, and after the mammogram and bandaging, a young nurse produced a list of post-procedure instructions and handed it to him.

She held up a blue square, making eye contact with Elizabeth. “First of all, you’ll want to put this cold pack inside your bra right away. It’ll help with the tenderness and bruising.” Passing him the pack, she continued running down the list of instructions, her voice gentle. “Please keep the bandage in place for forty-eight hours. No strenuous activity for the first twenty-four. We suggest wearing a soft, supportive bra and continuing to use cold packs as needed. Acetaminophen for pain relief. No aspirin or ibuprofen for a couple of days.”

She turned to him. “The paper I gave you lists a number to call if you have questions or concerns. If anything seems odd or worrisome, just use it. We’re here to help. And we’ll contact you later today and tomorrow no matter what, just to be sure the recovery is going well. Within two to five business days, you should have the results from the pathologist.” She paused. “Questions?”

“I think we’re good.” Elizabeth stood. “Thank you.”

When the nurse was gone, Elizabeth headed for the dressing booths. He halted next to the curtain, expecting her to drop his hand at that point, but she didn’t. Instead, she pulled him inside. So he helped her put on her bra and tuck the cold pack inside. Tugged the sweater carefully over her head, attempting not to jar her.

Then they were in the parking lot and headed home. The procedure itself had taken thirty minutes, tops, but the various steps before and after had eaten up over two hours.

“I don’t know why I’m so tired.” She sagged against the back of her seat, her eyelids heavy. “I did nothing but lie there.”

He knew why. “Just sleep, honey. We’ll be home soon.”

At the stop sign marking the exit from the hospital onto the county road, he brought the car to a gentle halt. Then he took another quick glance over at his wife.

Already asleep. Good. He smoothed her pale hair back from her peaceful face before checking both directions for traffic.

“You,” she said quietly.

Not asleep, then. Did she need pain medication?

He pulled out slowly. “Me what?”

Her eyes were still closed. “Last night, you asked who cared for me.”

He couldn’t respond, not with his throat so thick.

“You.” She reached for him with a seeking hand, and he laced their fingers together. “You care for me.”