Chapter 6
Watching her sleep had become something of a pastime in the last few hours. He could barely sleep and he was wired like somebody that had too many energy drinks. He was still wearing the cowboy hat and her hand on his chest made him realize that he was alive for the first time in his life. He never wanted this to end. He wanted to capture this for all time. Mitchell knew that this had all started as a way to stop her from doing something that she was going to regret later on. If he didn’t bite the bullet, then somebody that wasn’t all that nice would take advantage of her innocent nature.
He couldn’t believe that their time together giving each other physical relief had led to the spilling of the light through the curtains. That was only one night and he was not lying when he said that he was going to make the most of this weekend.
“Penny for your thoughts.” Lynn had woken up and looked up to see that he was already awake and staring at the ceiling. Her hand lingered on his chest, feeling the warmth and temperament of his heart beating against her fingertips. “I know that a lot of girls feel that their first time lacked any kind of passion or romance. I also know that what we did last night put a smile on both of our faces. You’re everything that I wanted for my first time and more. Every time that you moved against me it was like lightning was striking between my legs. I’m a little hoarse from screaming all night long. It’s a wonder that somebody didn’t call the cops to say that somebody was being killed in here.” “I know that this was an arrangement and one that he had fulfilled to the best of his ability. He had gone above and beyond to show me that a man could be compassionate and wasn’t just after one thing. It might’ve been wrong of me to make that proclamation in front of the entire town, but it all worked out the way that it should have. My first time was something that was memorable and there is nothing and nobody that could take that away from me.”
“I was thinking that it’s such a beautiful day that we should probably take advantage of it. I have this special spot that I would like to share with you. It’s somewhere that I have never taken any girlfriend. I just never thought that I could share this with them. I believe that you might be the exception and I would like to test that theory. I suggest that we get something to eat and the hike is a bit of an arduous climb. I hope that you have some good hiking boots.” All they really wanted to do was wallow in depravity for the rest of the weekend. He wanted to tame her desire over and over again. His intention was to utilize every room in this house until they were spent an exhausted.
“I don’t know what he expects me to say to a proposal like that. I secretly enjoy nature and not that many people know that about me. It only shows that we have a lot more in common than we give each other credit for. It might be that not only do we have a physical bond, but there is something of a spiritual one. Losing my virginity made me a woman, but finding a man like him is priceless. I can’t imagine giving my innocence to anybody else. I can now see that I have been making Helens Life miserable and maybe it was that sexual frustration that was making me lash out for no good reason.” She squeezed his hand and smiled dreamily like that of a woman obsessed with being in love. “It would be my honor to share in your childhood memory. I don’t think that I could have said no even if I wanted to.” They were barely able to tear away from each other. They managed to take a shower separately. If they had done anything like that together they would probably never make it to his secret spot.
When she was done with her shower, she breezed by him dropping the towel to let him see her curvaceous curves as she ran down the stairs giggling like a maniac.
“I heard what you said to him.” Helen had decided at the last second that it was wrong to leave things up in the air like that. She’d come back to find them in bed together. She stood in the hallway and listened to them exchange words of passion and love. She knew that it was not an act. Lynn had found the one that made those butterflies in her stomach. “You have my blessing and maybe what happened was supposed to happen. It doesn’t make me feel any better about how I acted or what I said. I can only apologize and hope that you will take it at face value.” Helen had her metaphorical hat in her hand and was waiting to hear any kind of backlash or venom spewing from Lynn’s lips
Instead of saying anything, Lynn decided that actions spoke louder than words. She was still naked, but she felt compelled to wrap her arms around Helen. They shared a moment and Lynn decided that it was time to clear the air. “I know that it doesn’t seem logical, but I think I blamed you for what happened to my parents. I let my anger for them leaving me fester into something that was ugly. I turned that anger onto the only person that I could. I do forgive you for what you said and it wasn’t like I was innocent in all of this.” “I never thought that this day would come and losing my inhibitions opened my heart and let me see that the true enemy was myself. A lot what happened to my mother and father defined me and that was a power over me that I wasn’t going to allow any longer. Helen didn’t deserve my abuse of words and the way that I acted. It was a wonder that she didn’t have any more gray hairs from the antics that I had perpetrated to get her attention.”
“I have to say that I was a little surprised to see you with him. He didn’t seem all that trustworthy and some of my girlfriends talk about him like he’s the devil in disguise. I see the way that you both look at each other and I know that this is the genuine article. I think that it would be best that I do leave. I still have those tickets to the cruise and maybe I’ll miss out on a couple of days, but I feel a whole lot better leaving you alone.” Helen felt that they had turned a corner. “I know this is none of my business, but how exactly did you get together? I only ask, because I know that you put it out there for anybody to hear that you wanted to sell your virginity to the highest bidder. Tell me that this wasn’t the cause of that.” It really shouldn’t matter, but Helen feared that maybe that Lynn had jumped into something that was destined to fail.
“I don’t think that I have to justify that with a response. Seeing that we are being honest, I guess I don’t have to hide things from you. All I’m going to say is that I’ve found my happiness and I’m going to hold onto it like grim death. He is the man that I’m supposed to be with for the rest of my life. I hope that he feels the same way. I’m going to have to ask him straight up. We may have fallen into bed under less than ordinary circumstances, but I feel that what we have together cannot be broken.” Lynn did not mention the $1.5 million and felt that it was in pretty poor taste. “I don’t wanna see the judgment in her eyes and the best way to avoid that is to keep things close to my vest. She doesn’t need to know all the gory details and I feel slightly ashamed that I had to resort to those measures to find the one thing that has been lacking in my life.”
Helen could sense that she was leaving something out, but this was her life to lead in any way that she saw fit. “You may not be mine, but I feel like you’re the daughter that I never had. You know that I can’t have children and for your mother to trust me with your care was not only unexpected but quite a welcome surprise. I just don’t want you to make a mistake. The one thing that you did say that had a ring of truth to it was that it was your life. Whether this is a mistake you make or not, you either own it or you get swallowed up by it. That’s not what you said, but it was pretty much the meaning. I want you know that I have been always proud of you and I only want the best for you. I consider us family and I hope that you feel the same way.” Helen had seen a real change in Lynn’s attitude. She was no longer caustic or showing any signs of mistrust.
“I may have rebelled against you, but I always thought of you as a role model. I want to consider you part of my family, but there’s no way that I can call you mother. That might change in the future, but for now I’d rather just continue to call you Helen. It’s not a sign of disrespect and I don’t want you to take it like that. I care for you deeply and love you more than I could ever say. You took me in when I was at the lowest point in my life and for that I can never repay you.” “I wasn’t expecting any of this. Having a good man in my life has taught me a valuable lesson. It gave me a perspective that showed me that Helen was only doing her best. It was all that I could hope for under the circumstances. I might have gone a little overboard, but I thank god that I didn’t have to essentially go through with it. I will gladly give the money back, but I get the feeling like he’s not going to let that happen.” They shared a moment and when they heard the shower turn off upstairs they knew that it was time to say goodbye.
“I will always be there for you, but I think that part of the problem was that I had never taken the time to smell the roses. You made me see that I was alive, but I really wasn’t living.” Helen knew that she would be back, but for now she needed to do this for herself. The taxi had been idling at the curve and for some reason she didn’t pay the fare and told them to wait. She dragged her one suitcase back to the taxi and heaved it into the trunk with the help of the driver. She took one last glance and saw Lynn touching her heart and she did the same as a form of saying I love you without having to say the words.
She felt like she was a victim of the night and seeing everything in the cold light of day was another matter altogether. She had woken up with that feeling that things had shifted. The proposal to join him on a family quest was not something that she was prepared for. She rummaged into the closet and found the necessary hiking birds.
She realized that she was wearing only a blanket that Helen had thrown over her to cover her shame. She raced upstairs to find the dripping presence of Mitchell standing there with his member swinging between his legs. “Don’t even think about it. If we continue looking at each other this way we’re never going to get out of the house. I don’t think either one of us would be complaining about that. I do feel that I need to show you this and maybe it’ll give you a better idea of who I am.” Mitchell put on the pair of pants that he had worn here last night. The room smelled like sex and the way that the sheets were torn asunder only showed just what kind of sexual acrobatics they had gotten into last night.
They were both staring at the bed and knew that it wouldn’t take much convincing to jump back between the sheets. In a moment of strength, Mitchell was able to turn her away from a possible repeat performance. “We can always come back to that later. Don’t look at it and it won’t have that power over you.” Mitchell heard the sigh of regret coming from Lynn’s lips. He kissed the back of her neck to see that her legs almost buckled out from underneath her.
They had breakfast and they continue to stare at each other like they were ready to throw the dishes to the floor in their haste to get to one another. They had a medley of fresh fruits and fried eggs over easy. They finally cleared the dishes and then got ready before leaving the house hand in hand. He lifted her into his truck and felt that this was better than anything that had even remotely made him happy. He wanted this intimacy to continue and he was ready to share a painful memory. The only way to get closure was to see it up close and personal.
“I know that what you did to announce your virginity to the neighborhood was a very poignant moment in your life. I want to show you the reason why I have never settled down. I wish that I could say that it was because I was looking for the right one. There’s no denying that I was engaged, but it never worked because I couldn’t be completely truthful with her. I think deep down I knew that I wasn’t in love and that there was no way that I could open up that wound.”