Chapter Twenty-Four
Havenwood,
May 3, 1815
“Mr. Tallobys,” Sophie said when she came into the parlor where he was waiting. His timing was impeccable. The Mercers were out making a call, and for once she had the house to herself. This meant Mrs. Mercer would not be coming in to monitor her conversation or drive away her visitor with her inane conversation. She smiled, because she was genuinely pleased to see someone from their circle in London. She crossed the room to give her hand to Mr. Tallboys. “How pleasant to see you.”
He stood and bowed to her. He held a bouquet of roses in his hands. “Mrs. Evans.” Having bent over her hand, he looked her up and down. Doubtless he thought her black clothes drab indeed. She was thinner now than she had been in London, while Tallboys was as hale and handsome as ever. “You’re well, I hope, ma’am.”
“Yes, thank you.”
“Here.” He held out the roses with an awkward grin.
Sophie took them and breathed in the fragrance. The blood red blooms were just beginning to open. “They’re lovely, Mr. Tallboys. How kind of you to think of me.” Mrs. Mercer would certainly have a thing or two to say about this. Let her, she thought with a surprisingly vicious satisfaction. She would leave the flowers here for anyone to see and admire. She called for a servant to put them in water. When she was done with her instructions, she seated herself on a chair near the fire, legs crossed at her ankles. She was aware that Tallboys’s gaze had followed her the entire time. She gestured. “Do sit, Mr. Tallboys. Please.”
“Thank you.” He tugged on his coat and did sit. On a chair nearer to her than his last. His lovely brown eyes stayed on her. They were the color of cognac, she thought idly. “Allow me to tell you how sorry I was to hear of your brother. His loss was tragic.”
“You are very kind to say so.” She glanced toward the door. A maid brought in the roses, now in a crystal vase, and set them on a side table. “Thank you, Susan,” she told the maid, and Tallboys beamed. She went to the roses and rearranged the blooms, leaning over to breathe in their scent again. “They’re really lovely.”
Tallboys, naturally, stood when she got up to smell the roses. He seemed ill at ease to her. Charles came in with tea, and they were quiet while the servant set the table for them. Sophie poured the tea while Tallboys selected a cucumber sandwich and put it on a plate.
“How is everyone in London?” she asked. She wanted to ask about Banallt but didn’t know how to bring the subject around to him without seeming overly interested in the answer. He’d written her four times. All four letters remained unopened, tucked away in a box. She hadn’t wanted to know anything. She didn’t want the regret or the hurt or longing or any of the other emotions that would come with her reading his letters. News and gossip reached Duke’s Head whether she read his letters or not. Drake had been sentenced to hang for the murder of her brother. Miss George and her family had left London, because of an illness in the family, an elderly relative they said, at whose side they must be. Banallt was rumored to be having an affair with, well, any number of ladies. A certain Mrs. P—had been mentioned more than once. Mrs. Llewellyn had written once. That letter, too, remained unopened. She did write to Miss Llewellyn, though. She’d loved John, too, after all.
Until Tallboys, she hadn’t wanted anything to do with reminders of London, but now that he was here, she found herself anxious to know more.
“Ah. Well.” He bobbed his head. “London. A very great city.” She smiled encouragingly. “We’re getting on well enough, I think. These are excellent,” Tallboys said of his sandwich. “My compliments to the cook.”
“Thank you. I’ll be sure to tell her. What of Napoleon? Will there be war, Mr. Tallboys? Is there any news you are able to share?” He wore his hair longer now. Nowhere near as long as Banallt’s, but he no longer had the close-cut head she recalled. There was a touch of red in his hair.
“None that would settle your mind, Mrs. Evans.” He crossed one leg over the other and eyed the cucumber sandwiches. Sophie passed him the plate. “Thank you. We miss you dreadfully at Charlotte Row,” he said. “Without you there to keep us shipshape, we’ve gotten all out of sorts with one another. Vedaelin snaps at the least little thing, and nothing’s where we expect to find it. Banallt says we’re going to have to hire two secretaries to do the work of one Mrs. Evans.”
Sophie made sure she didn’t react, and then realized that no reaction would seem peculiar to him, and indeed, Tallboys was watching her thoughtfully. “I should have thought to hire myself out,” she said. She could use the money.
“And of course, we are without your brother’s fine mind. That is a great loss for us. We miss his voice in the House.”
Her heart contracted. “You’re kind to say so.”
“Not just kind. It’s true.” Tallboys leaned forward to squeeze her hand. “He’s greatly missed, Mrs. Evans.”
“Thank you.” She pressed his hand in return.
He sat back again, tea in hand. “The Duke of Portland held a masquerade ball t’other day. You never saw so many Roman centurions in your life.”
She smiled, glad to be diverted. “That must have been quite a sight.”
“There was a deluge of Athenas and shepardesses as well.” He sipped from his tea. “This will amuse you.” He grinned at her. “Mrs. Peters continues her pursuit of Banallt, and I’m sure it won’t surprise you to know—”
Sophie jumped to her feet. Tallboys stood, too. “Oh good heavens,” she said with a sharp gesture. “Do sit down. It’s just, I must pace. It is a habit of mine, I’m afraid. I’m rarely still.” What had she expected? That he would tell her Banallt was pining away for love of her? Tallboys slowly sat and picked up his tea again. “I’m sorry,” she said. “You were telling me about the Duke of Portland’s masquerade.”
“Yes.” He frowned. Then put down his cup and rose. “Perhaps, Mrs. Evans, it would be best if I brought myself up to the mark rather than drag matters out indefinitely.”
“What do you mean?”
“I’m sure you must suspect why I’ve called.” He clasped his hands behind his back. “I know you’ve been overcome with grief, but I cannot stop myself wondering if you love me as violently as I love you. Mrs. Evans, will you marry me? I understand if you cannot discuss the subject just now. You’ve only to tell me so. We will leave the matter for another time.”
“Mr. Tallboys.” She stopped pacing. Marrying was the perfect solution to her increasingly intolerable situation here. And if she must marry someone, why not Reginald Tallboys? He was a decent man. He would be faithful to his marriage vows. Even Banallt thought Tallboys would make her happy. They would be comfortable together. Something in her chest broke. It’s not that he wasn’t handsome. He was. His eyes were lovely, and she liked the red in his hair. They would get on well. She wasn’t as numb as she’d been when John first passed away, yet she’d felt no spark of anything when she first saw him. No giddiness. No pounding heart. Until he mentioned Banallt. “I—”
“Is there any chance you might say yes?”
She stared at him. “I—” She ought to say yes. The word actually came to the tip of her tongue. “I don’t know. It’s very sudden, your coming here, and I’ve…not been myself since my brother died.”
“Banallt—”
“Never mind Banallt,” she said. “Banallt does not signify.” She drew a deep breath through her nose, well aware that her voice trembled. “I had rather not talk about Lord Banallt, if you please!”
Tallboys fell silent and fiddled with his trouser leg. “Forgive me, Mrs. Evans, but I only meant to say that Banallt told me once I ought not give up on my hopes for you.”
Her emotions clamored in her chest so that she hardly knew what she felt. “Did he tell you to come here?” Was that why Banallt wasn’t here? Because he’d sent Tallboys instead? “Was this his idea?”
“No!” His cheeks flushed. “Not in the least.”
“He’s interfering.” She was close to tears, and she could not stop the tumult in her. “I won’t have any man interfere in my life. Particularly him. Let him chase Mrs. Peters.” Her voice rose and she couldn’t make herself stop. “I hope he catches her. They deserve each other.”
“Mrs. Evans.” Tallboys looked uncomfortable. “You seem to have misunderstood me. This is why one ought never gossip. I only meant to amuse you. Mrs. Peters is making a fool of herself over Banallt. Not t’other way round. It’s plain to everyone but her he has no interest in her. It’s his cousin’s daughter everyone expects him to marry. It’s all but announced from what I hear.”
“Miss Llewellyn, you mean?”
“Yes. Miss Fidelia Llewellyn.”
She sat down hard and held her head in her hands. Her heart crashed to her toes.
Banallt was going to marry Fidelia.
Of course. Of course he was. Why would he not? He must marry. A man like him must. Their affair was over. She had declined him and then sent him away, and she had ignored all his letters. He knew nothing of her life here. He was free to pursue any woman he wanted.
“Mrs. Evans?”
She lifted her head. “John was in love with her,” she said brokenly. “And Miss Llewellyn was in love with John. And I was—” She scrabbled in her pocket for a handkerchief but didn’t find it before Tallboys handed over his. “He was so desperately in love with her,” she whispered.
“I never meant to distress you,” he said. “Forgive me. I had no idea. None at all.”
“You haven’t.” She squeezed his handkerchief. “We would have heard the news here eventually.” Somehow she managed to get control of herself. “There is Castle Darmead, you see. Not even two miles from here. Owned by the earls of Banallt, so everyone in Duke’s Head pays especial attention to him. The earl’s father was married here. No doubt we will have a celebration of our own when the news is official.”
“And what of you, Mrs. Evans?” Tallboys asked. “Will you remarry?” He took a step forward. “Will you marry me?”