CHAPTER 23

DARCY

 

“Has it been three minutes yet?” My foot is bouncing on the floor at a rapid speed as I ask for the second time. Adam places his hand on my knee to stop it.

“Calm down.” He tells me softly.

“Oh god, Adam. What if I am pregnant? What will we do?”

“First, let’s see if you are.”

“Okay.” I breathe in deep, preparing myself, “On, three, two, one…

“Just open it already!” Adam says with a smile. He kisses my lips as I pull of the lid. We both look down at the same time. The blue letters that spell the pregnant are a big giveaway.

“Oh my God, Adam. I’m pregnant.”

“Are you sure?” I look at him confused. “No, I mean are they 100% accurate?”

“Nothing’s hundred per cent.”

“Okay. Stay put I’ll be twenty minutes.”

“Where are you going?” He stands from the bed, kisses me and runs down the stairs. Within minutes I hear the roar of the engine in his truck start up and then it fades into the distance.

Fuck! I bloody knew it. I lie back on the bed and my head spins. I wonder what my Dad would say about this... I try not to think of him, every time I think of him, I cry, and I really don’t want to cry anymore. My hands go to my abdomen, I lay them on top as I lie on the bed, just knowing there could be a baby, a tiny baby…

A tear pricks my eye and slides down across my temple, I’ve been a big ball of emotion - I’ve tried to keep busy but it doesn’t do any good. I’ve tried to shut them down so I don’t have to think but that’s just worse than pretending.

By the time I’m done with my musings - Adam’s back with another three tests. “Ad, are you kidding, why did you buy three?”

“What? So, we can be sure.” he rips the boxes open and passes the tests to me. “Now go pee again.” He ushers me into the bathroom with the three tests and I close the door behind me. I can’t pee, I run the tap to see if it’ll help and I drink some water from the tap... after a few minutes, it starts to trickle slowly... I wait until it comes faster and then one by one I place the test in the flow. Once I’m done, I wipe then flush and stick all the caps on the tests.

I hand them to Adam. “Here, I can’t sit here for another three minutes waiting, I’m going to get dressed. I dress in record time, sods law - then sit with Adam to repeat the process all over again.

He removes the caps, one says ‘positive’, another has two blue lines and another says ‘pregnant’. I think that’s a sure bet. I glance at Adam, he’s staring at the tests, his eyes flitting through them all. “Darcy, I think it’s safe to say you’re pregnant.” I nod silently. “Darce, are you okay?”

I nod again. “I think I’m going to be sick.” I run into the toilet for the second time today but I think this is nerves not the baby. Adam holds back my hair and waits for me to finish. He passes me some tissue to wipe my mouth before I’m up again and throwing some water on my face. He leads back to the bed and sits me down.

“I know you’re worried so am I. But once the funeral is out of the way we can start looking forward.”

“How Adam. My Dad is dead. How do I tell my Mum I’m going to have a baby? I have the garage to run too. My life is such a mess.”

“Is that how you see us - a mess? Because I don’t. I see two people getting over obstacles, trying their hardest to make it work. I see two people who love each other and will help each other when times are hard... like now. You may think your life is hard at the minute because things keep kicking you back down, but as long as I’m here you’re not going to be down for long because I promise to lift you back up. You and this little one, are never going to want for anything again.” He holds my face gently, his eyes entrancing me.

“I love you Darcy. You’re my Infinity.”

The tear that works its way from eye doesn’t have chance to go anywhere because Adam catches it with his thumb and wipes it away. He gazes into my eyes, the type of gaze you could get lost in, beholden to him, seeing right into my soul - my heart. He knows everything I want and need. “Don’t cry. I can’t bear to watch you cry anymore.” Every word etches itself onto my heart until it’s engraved there, never to be erased.

He leans forward and kisses me, softly at first but then he delves deeper, trying to show me that our love will stand the test of time and I believe him. “I love you Adam with all my heart, I can’t imagine not being with you ever. You’ve made my whole world brighter.” My gaze raises until I’m looking up.

“If you’re looking for a word better than Infinity, it’s not going to happen, there’s nothing bigger than that. So, I win.”  He smiles.

“Yeah, well you may think that buster but it’s two against one now.”

He smiles wide, bends down and lifts my shirt, then kisses my belly. He places his ear against it and wraps his arms around my waist. “Are you happy?”

“Yes.”

“Well, apart from the obvious but I mean are you happy with me?”

“Adam?” He looks upwards at me, “I love you Infinity plus Infinity.” He smiles again his whole face lighting up and I know with the funeral coming up and a baby on the way - I know I’ll get through it because I have Adam.

Because together we’re stronger.