I crossed a line I never should have crossed.  I let my dick do the thinking and those thoughts of Charley’s naked body just wouldn’t get out of my head.  I had become the cliche perverted older man trying to seduce his daughter’s friends—not just any friend, but her best friend in the whole world.  Charley was forbidden fruit.  I would have taken her right there on the couch if Madison’s text message hadn’t interrupted us.  If Charley had agreed to spend the night, I still wouldn’t have let common sense prevail.  When I felt her pull away, it suddenly hit me in the face like a brick.  I couldn’t do what I wanted to do, regardless of how beautiful she was or how much I wanted her.  I just had to let it go.  I had to forget her delicious curves, forget the kiss that nearly set me on fire, and forget how badly I craved her virgin pussy.  It wasn’t fair to take something so precious from her when I had nothing to offer except my lust.

“Okay, Dad.  That’s it.”  Madison walked back into the house with a smile on her face.  “I checked the oil and made sure all the fluids are topped off.”

“That’s my girl.”  I smiled and walked over to her.  “Be careful on the road.  Do you need any money or anything?”

“Of course!”  Her face lit up.  “I could always use some spending money.”

“Yeah.”  I chuckled and opened my wallet.  “This is for emergencies.  Use your debit card for anything you need at school.  I put enough money in your account for you to buy gas and groceries for the semester.”

“Thank you, Dad!”  She leaned in for a hug and then waved goodbye after she pocketed the money.

I walked to the door and watched her leave.  It always stung my heart to see her go.  I felt a twinge of worry in my stomach when I thought about Charley failing out of college.  I hoped Madison would never go down that path.  She only had two years of college left and she would be able to find a good job.  I had slaved away when I was her age, saving every penny I could to give her a good life.  Even without a college education, I had managed to get a decent job with the power company that transitioned into a desk job after ten years of climbing the poles.  Her business degree would give her opportunities I never had.  I walked back into the house and fixed a glass of sweet tea.  It was strange hearing the silence of the house knowing Madison wasn’t going to come bursting through the door like a whirlwind with an emergency or a load of shopping.  The first days after she left were always the hardest.

***

A WEEK OF WORK PASSED and as hard as I tried, I just couldn’t get Charley out of my head.  Everything about it was so wrong, yet my thoughts wouldn’t give me a hint of peace.  She even showed up in my dreams, ready to continue what we started on the couch.  When Friday night rolled around and I walked into the house, I went straight to the liquor cabinet.  I wasn’t much of a drinker, but there were times when the situation called for it.  I poured some Jim Beam into a highball glass and sat down in my chair with my laptop.  I was long overdue for some personal satisfaction and the one benefit of having the house to myself was not worrying about anyone walking in on me while I looked at some filthy porn.  I was in the mood for something raunchy, so I loaded up a couple of my favorite sites and started scrolling.

I need a filthy little slut that looks nothing like Charley.

Blue eyes reminded me of Charley.  Brown hair reminded me of Charley.  Tits that were close to her size reminded me of Charley.  Heart shaped asses reminded me of Charley.  I growled angrily and sipped my bourbon as I kept scrolling.  There had to be something I could use to fulfill my lust and jack off.  I finally found a video that was labeled MILF and started it up.  The woman was certainly hot and after I watched her touching her pussy for a little bit before the guy arrived, I felt my cock getting hard.  My penis wasn’t throbbing so bad it hurt like it had when Charley had touched it, but my dick was coming to life.  I unbuttoned my pants and pushed them down, along with my boxers.  A couple of strokes got my cock hard in my hand and the video rolled on as I moved my hand up and down the shaft.  The man finally arrived in the pornography and the woman immediately wrapped her lips around his cock.

“Yeah...”  I muttered.  “Suck my cock.”

I tried to imagine the woman in the video’s lips wrapped around me but after a few long strokes up my length, the lips turned to Charley’s smoldering lips.  I imagined the passion I felt from the kiss moving towards my cock with the same enthusiasm.  The porn was a waste.  My dick just didn’t want anything but Charley.  I decided getting off was more valuable than my mental integrity so I just went with it.  I imagined her exploring my cock with her tongue, caressing my balls and working furiously to make me cum.  In my head, I watched every inch of my cock disappear into her throat and felt her hot tongue moving against the bottom.  My cock started to throb and pulsate in my hand.  It had been a really long time since I jacked off and my body was quickly building to a release.  Each stroke of my hand was Charley’s lips moving up and down the shaft, begging with her tongue for me to unload my cum in her throat.

“I want to fuck you...”  I moaned as I pictured the mound of her pussy that had been bent over in front of me while she changed.

I could have let myself finish in her mouth, but my mind was racing with the thoughts of her virgin pussy around my cock.  I pictured us in bed together, our naked bodies moving against each other as I slid between her legs.  I had never been with a virgin before, so I could only imagine how tight she would be.  I was young when I knocked up Madison’s mother, but she was definitely no virgin.  The women I had dated off and on since then had all been closer to my age, so they had given their cherry to someone long before they met me.  It was rare for a girl to escape high school without having sex and making it through even a semester of college was a miracle.  I pictured myself sliding into her pussy, squeezing my cock to try and simulate the tightness.  I imagined her cherry popping on my cock, spreading her pussy wide enough to accommodate my girth.  The imagery intensified as I kept pumping my cock and I reached for the towel because I could feel my balls tingling with an urgent need to ejaculate.

“I’m gonna cum inside you...”  I growled as I started pumping my cock harder.

The fantasy was hardly reality, but it was the best I had.  My hand started moving up and down my shaft so fast I was twisting in my chair, feeling the sensations sweep over my body.  My head fell back against the chair and then I felt the first stream of cum rising up my shaft.  I wrapped the towel around it and started to catch the milky white cum as it exploded from the head of my dick.  My abdominal muscles rolled forward against the orgasm and I stroked it faster as more cum continued to shoot into the towel.  The second my manhood was emptied onto the towel, I felt an enormous sense of relief come over me.  My head spun a little bit from the mixture of my ejaculation and the bourbon.  I closed my eyes and felt my cock returning to normal size as the last remnants of my cum oozed out of it.  I wiped with the towel until it was completely dry and closed my web browser.

Simulated bliss.  That is what my life has become.