“You are holding onto too many thoughts, too much negativity. You must let go of all the things in this world that would bring you down. Embrace the light that surrounds your very life force.”

Teegan held the stretch, moving deeper into the movement, her body crying out resisting the change. But she was the master of her body, not the other way around. She would tell it what she required and she would allow her inner strength to grow and blossom as Siri’s words cut through her thoughts. His voice was so light, but so powerful. It was almost like some higher being whispering into her mind and bypassing her earthly ears. It was speaking directly to her soul.

She was vaguely aware that he was right beside her now watching her every move. His hands were on her lower back suddenly as she glided her body forward and deeper yet into the movement. Her muscles were screaming out for relief but he was not going to allow her any such relaxation.

After about thirty seconds she was grateful for the help. Her body began to shift and move much more freely as she leaned down farther to the ground, still keeping her feet planted firmly to root herself, to anchor her body and soul into Mother Earth.

“That’s it…” Siri’s voice was almost right beside her ear now. “Use the pain. That is just the outpouring of negativity from the world around you as it is replaced with all of the light from the universe filtering in.”

From the moment that she met Siri she was completely enchanted with him. She’d dreamt of the moment for so long that when it was actually happening she was almost frozen stiff with awe and envy. But now that she’d been working with him she had been able to focus her mind from the fact that she was totally star struck and just concentrate on his teachings. She was already learning so much from him to make all of this worthwhile.

But she would have been lying if she told herself or anyone else that she was not distracted. She knew she was capable of performing better Yoga, but her mind was very distracted.

She could not stop thinking about Cort. Every movement she was making with her body reminded her of the way he touched her, of the bliss he made her feel as he made love to her. If one could call it making love. It was raw, full of emotion, frenzied, and it made her feel in touch with a primal nature of hers that she had never really known existed.

And she ached for his hands to touch her again.

As Siri’s hands glided over her body gently to correct her positioning she thought about Cort and the way he would touch her. His hands were so strong, so safe, and so full of light. He was the kind of man that she had dreamt of meeting.

And she let him go. It was the stupidest thing she’d ever done and she hoped that she didn’t have to pay for it too long. Maybe after the retreat she would try to track him down. Perhaps the bartender that night knew him. Maybe he was a regular. That wasn’t much to go on but it was all she had.

“OK, that is all for today everybody. Please gather around the campfire in twenty minutes. We will have dinner and then we will have a group meditation.”

Teegan moved her body slowly back to her normal standing position and breathed deeply. She went back to her tent and sat down for a moment just trying to get a few quiet moments of reflection to herself. Her body felt amazing. It was relaxed and free of all tension. She felt like she’d just been reborn in some odd way. It was the thing that all yoga practitioners tried to get to, a level of awareness and attainment of the body and mind. The two needed to be strengthened to act as one and that could only be done incrementally she knew.

Today was the first step.

The way that Siri’s hands felt on the back of her body had been perfect. Because she kept imagining Cort leading her, guiding her, taking her body and mind to new heights of spiritual enlightenment.

He’d already done that last night. She smiled as she thought of the way he felt deep inside of her tight wetness. Teegan closed her eyes and imagined Cort there with her right then, just the two of them alone in the middle of nature. The sounds of the birds, the gentle breeze washing over their hard, naked bodies both primed and ready for intense lovemaking.

She could just see him standing over her, his rock hard girth only inches from her face. Oh, she wanted to taste him so badly… she had yet to taste him…

He was so large her mouth would barely be able to fit a third of his length inside but she would do her best, sucking gently and sliding his rod in and out of her aching and eagerly awaiting mouth, getting it all primed up and ready to go elsewhere.

She was getting so wet just thinking about how good it would feel, how he would taste. She could envision him grabbing the back of her head and guiding her mouth up and down on his staff, pulling out just enough to tease her lips and then shoving it back inside her warm, wet facial opening.

And then without warning he would lay her back, and enter her hard giving her no time to get ready, no time to prepare for the onslaught of his rigid purpose. It would hurt with pleasure that would eclipse the pain entirely within seconds. Her body would do what was necessary to please this beautiful man she was falling in love with.

Was that what this was? Was this what love really felt like? It was too hard to tell. Oh, so often the lines between love and extreme lust were blurred. She’d never felt lust so pure, so raw before. It was rather frightening. It was scary in the fact that it was so intense and it was scary in the fact that she was willing to let it control her mind, body, and soul. She just wanted Cort. She had to have this man.

“Are you coming?”

Teegan was confused for a moment. The voice asking the question was not Cort’s, but she was so close to coming. She knew that just a bit more was all she needed…

“Hey, Teegan?”

The voice came from above this time. It was a woman’s voice. Teegan broke from her wet daydream to see Angela Watson was standing over her.

“What?” Teegan asked.

“Are you coming? The group is forming. That food smells good!”

Teegan looked over at the fire that had been started and the hot dogs that were being roasted.

“Oh, yeah. I’m on my way,” Teegan replied.

She stood up, her legs feeling like jelly and sauntered over to join the group. She felt a bit embarrassed right then, but Angela did not seem to know what Teegan had just been thinking about. It should have been obvious on her face, but apparently Angela was pretty clueless.

Teegan took a few deep breaths and tried to settle herself down. She was not sure she could take two more days of not knowing if Cort had called her or not. She desperately wanted to be here, she was having the time of her life. It was everything she’d ever hoped it would be.

But right now all she could think about was Cort.

She had to have that man. He’d become everything to her.

And that was terrifying.