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In the end, I was happy I’d let ma talk me into staying. It turned out to be just what Mouth needed. She was relaxed and happy throwing around barbs and making everybody nuts with her mobster trivia bullshit. Only her dad, uncle and poppy knew what or whom the hell she was talking about when she kept throwing out names of known mob heads some of them long dead. Thank fuck ma didn’t have a clue.

By the time everyone left, I was ready to shoot myself in the fucking head. Poppy had set up the meet for the next day for which I was grateful even though I wasn’t looking forward to that shit. But at least this way I could get it over and done with. “Time for bed you, you’ve been going all day.” I hustled her ass into the shower. Maybe I can steal a fuck in there since my house seems to be constantly full of unwanted guests.

She wasn’t giving me any shit so I knew she had to be tired. In the bathroom I made sure the water was perfect before stripping her and taking her in with me. “You plan on helping out here at all?” Her lazy ass just stood propped against my chest while I washed her. She just sighed and cuddled closer to me under the spray of water.

I don’t know what this fucking nut did to me, but every once in a while I’d get hit with a feeling of the sappiest shit imaginable; like now. I wrapped my arms around her as the water sprayed down on us. My hands covered her still flat tummy and my face went into her neck.

“Do you have any idea how much I love you baby?” Geez, what the fuck? No doubt she’ll have my balls for being an ass. To my surprise she turned in my arms and wrapped hers around my middle with her head on my chest. Fucking done!

“I love you too mob boy.” Geez, talk about weak. It’s a good thing I’m getting out of the game. Fucking around with this one, I’ll be soft in two years tops. And if she has my daughter I know I’m fucked. I reached for the soap and her fancy sponge and rubbed the two together until a nice foam gathered.

I washed her back and paid special attention to the crack of her ass. “Get outta there, Don Freaky.”

“You calling me a freak? I’m just trying to get my woman clean here.” She smiled against my chest and my breath hitched when she looked up at me with those eyes that always get me in the gut.

“Thank you Shane.”

“For?” I pushed the wet hair back on her head and kissed her cute little nose.

‘Taking care of me earlier.” Fuck, shit, she remembered. I held her tighter and tried to get as close as possible. “Always.”

Her hand came down between us and went around my dick and my brows went up. She soaped my cock until I was hard as iron, taking her time, cleaning the tip and turning my shit this way and that like she’d never seen it before. She took even longer rinsing my shit off and I knew she was teasing me on purpose. I was ready to throw her ass against the wall and fuck the pink off her pussy, but she had other ideas.

When she got to her knees and took me into her mouth I fell for her all over again. She looked up at me and licked my cock slit, leaving a string of pre-cum hanging from her lips to my cock. She laughed in her throat as she went back for more. That laugh was the sexiest fucking thing I’ve ever heard.

I held her head between my hands as she took me deeper into her mouth. Then she started fucking her mouth on my cock and I planted my feet, grabbed her head tighter, threw mine back and face fucked my pregnant woman.

She grabbed her wet hair in one hand and pushed it over her shoulder out of the way while sucking the shit outta my cock. I tried pulling her up so I could get at her but she seemed intent on sucking the veins out my nuts.

“Baby you gotta stop. I don’t want my kid drinking that shit.” She pulled off my cock and looked up at me with such heat my toes curled into the hard marble floor. My hands trembled like a bitch when I reached for her. I locked off the water and stepped out of the stall with her in my arms.

I did a quick dry off on both of us and took her to our bed. I laid her there before covering her naked body with mine. Even though we’d just left the shower, her body was already hot to my touch. Her heat seeped into me and her essence wrapped around my heart as I lowered my head to hers for a kiss. I forgot everything else and prepared to get lost in my woman.

“How’d you get so special Arianna?” I think ma spiked the fucking marinara because sure as fuck I sound like a bitch on the rag. Thankfully she seemed to be suffering from some outta body shit too because she wasn’t calling me on none of my shit. Knowing her she was probably saving it up to fuck with me at some later date.

She pulled my head back down to hers and deepened our kiss. I reached between us and felt her pussy teasingly while our tongues played in her mouth. When her wet slit opened around my fingers I left her mouth and slid down her body to her tits. I chewed on her flesh until her nipples hardened against my tongue and she dug her nails into me.

“Shane!” She moved her legs restlessly beneath mine and I drove my fingers into her harder until she tightened and came in my hand. I licked my way down her middle until my head laid between her thighs. Pulling my fingers out of her, I licked them clean as I held her eyes with mine. I fed her my tongue so she could taste herself before heading back to paradise. I’m a fucking gangster poet.

I rubbed my nose over her pussy and inhaled. My tongue came out and tasted her sweetness and her body jerked. I did it again until her juice escaped onto my tongue that kept teasing at her portal. I pulled out and opened her up with my fingers. She was so fucking small it was a wonder she could take me. She tugged on my hair as if to say ‘get to it’, and I gave her my mouth again.

The more I licked the wilder she moved, her soft cries music to my ears. I ate her out until she filled my mouth and her body lifted off the bed. I licked her one last time and kissed her clit before sliding up her body and gliding my long thick length into her.

I’d wanted to pound into her earlier, but now that I’ve got her spread out beneath me the need to show tenderness took precedence. I fucked into her nice and slow with her ass in my hands and her legs spread over my arms. We both looked down at where we were joined at the same time and the sight of my cock surging into her tight little pussy made my heart and gut seize.

“What’re you doing to me Mouth?” She’s gonna make me weak. I kept seeing her crying and broken and it was fucking with my head and my heart. Add the fact that she’s got the sweetest pussy in the known world and I really never stood a chance.

I took my time making love to her, feeling her smooth silk walls wrap tight around my cock that was still too big for her little pussy, but as with everything else she took that shit and owned it. Her body swallowed my cock and spit that shit out before sucking me back in; enough of this shit.

“How’s the baby?” I placed my hand over her tummy while moving into her.

“She’s fine.” She said that shit to fuck with me but I let it slide. I stroked her hard in retaliation though and she wrapped her legs around me and bit my lip. I laughed and rolled with her letting her take the lead. A deal’s a deal, even though ma had fucked up my shit.

“Now that you’ve got me at your mercy what’re you gonna do to me?” Her eyes lit the fuck up and she showed me. Rocking her hips back and forth while holding my eyes with hers. She had that damn bottom lip caught between her teeth and I pulled it out with my thumb.

“Kiss me.” There was some strange shit going on in my bed. She lowered her head and our lips met. I held her hips as our tongues mated and let her take me. I sucked on her nipples while she rode my cock to bring her off quick and she juiced all over my shit.

I let her cum twice more before lifting her off of me and putting her on her hands and knees. I slammed my cock into her hard enough to shake her body and almost gave myself a heart attack when she cried out. She pushed her ass back hard and fucked herself on my cock so I knew I hadn’t hurt her like I’d feared.

“Can you take me rough baby?” I held my shit back until she nodded her head and looked back over her shoulder at me with lust filled eyes. That was all the okay I needed to let my shit loose. I battered her tight pussy while tugging on her nipple with one hand and holding her hip in place with the other.

I moved the hand from her hip to her tummy where I could feel the impression of my dick under her skin as I pulled her on and off my cock. That hand made its way down to her clit and that was all it took to have her squeezing my shit like a vise, which set me off. I pounded out what felt like a pint of jizz in her snatch while she screamed and shook on my cock.

I dropped like a fucking stone on the bed next to her and dragged her into my arms. Lights out! She’d sapped all my damn energy again.

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I know mob boy is watching me like he expects me to flake out on him again. I don’t remember what happened before I woke up with a headache and him wrapped around me like a shield, but I remember my mother. At least it’s keeping him off my ass about the other thing.

I snuggled in closer to his warmth and fought back the nausea at the memories going through my head. The blood, the horror, the screams… ‘Mommy’. My heart hurt and my breath caught in my lungs as I tried to stifle the tears and moans of remembered pain.

I never let myself think about that night, it’s too hard. In fact I haven’t thought of it in years. It’s as if I’d had to put it out of my head to move on. I thought of the child in my womb and felt a different kind of fear. What if I mess this up? I got a sudden chill and fought hard not to wake him with the sudden shakes that overtook me. What the hell am I doing? I didn’t come here for this. Didn’t expect that I’d meet someone who could turn my life upside down with just one look.

There was never any room in my life or heart for love and family, no one except the two men who’d always been there for me, and an aunt that I hadn’t seen in way too long. But this love I now felt for Shane was unlike anything I could’ve imagined. The way it just completely took me over, the way he was now a part of me as if he’d been there all along. And now there’s a baby. Fear crept into my heart and into my lungs, choking off my air.

I fought back before the fear could take root and told myself that Shane would be there. He can do anything. He’ll see that I don’t damage the kid too much. I knew somehow that as long as he was with me, nothing would ever go wrong. The more time we spent together, the more I was learning to let go.

I no longer felt that I had to do everything on my own, that I had to protect myself, and my loved ones every second of every day. And though that in itself was a bit scary as well, it was getting easier to accept that he was the real deal. He’s the first person I’d ever trusted to keep me safe, me, and my heart.

I kissed his chest and he hugged me closer in his sleep. Now here in the dark with no eyes on me I can let my guard down and acknowledge that other fear that had resurfaced with the memories. Something cold and hard that had lived inside me since I was a child opened up and I let myself remember her face, her scent as she hugged me to her warmth the way she used to.

I don’t know how I’ve been able to block it for so long, because each time I look in the mirror I see her. Then I thought of dad and what that must’ve done to him all these years. I know Shane thinks that dad and uncle Al had let me run wild, he blames them for what I am. But I know they only did it because they knew it was the only way I could cope.

Until him, I never had any other direction in life. My whole life was about eliminating any threat to me, or my family. Now he’s become part of mine and no matter what he says I’m going to protect him too. It helped in the beginning that we shared some of the same enemies, but now he’s on this going legit kick and whether he knows it or not, that shit is going to be trouble. Didn’t the other families put a hit out on dad for trying the same thing?

Speaking of which, I hadn’t really had time to deal with the fact that my dad was back from the dead. Shane refuses to leave me alone with him or my uncle and we haven’t really had time to talk. I could sneak out and meet them somewhere but somehow I see that as a betrayal. I’ll bring him around eventually I have no doubt, but in the meantime I have to tread carefully lest I alienate them farther. He doesn’t even realize he’s jealous of them and our relationship. At least he no longer fears them spiriting me away from right under his nose.

And then there’s the baby. I try not to think of the little one, not until I’ve taken care of all the mess in our lives. It’s not that I don’t want him or her. My hand went to my tummy again. It’s just that that’s the way I’ve always worked. I like to compartmentalize everything and deal with shit in tiers. The baby isn’t part of this, will never be part of it. So therefore now was not the time to think of it. After the wedding and we’ve settled down to a life of boredom then I’ll deal.

I felt a panic attack coming at the thought of what it was I was supposed to do here as a wife and mother. Shane seems sure that I can do it. When he’s not bossing me around he’s reassuring me that we’ll be fine. Somehow it’s not that easy for me to accept. In my life there’s always some asshole that needs to be dealt with. I don’t know where he gets the idea that just because he’s decided to go legit that everyone else will just fall in line.

It’s not a problem though. I’ll just keep my eyes and ears open and deal with shit as it comes. “Mouth.” Shit I jumped at his voice coming out of the dark, and the rumble under my cheek that laid on his chest. “Go to sleep. What’re you thinking about?” I felt his eyes on me in the dark and hid my grin.

“Nothing, I’m sleeping here.” I wasn’t in the mood for another one of his lectures. He rolled over taking me with him until I was under him. In the moonlight his eyes looked sleepy and hot as they studied mine. It was as natural as breathing to reach for him and pull his head down to mine.

This time when he slipped into me there was no soft finesse. As soon as my body adjusted to being pierced by his he pounded me into the mattress, just what I needed. It was quick, fast and thorough. “Take your ass to sleep.” I was out before he rolled away from me and hauled me back into his arms. I don’t remember a damn thing until I woke the next day.