I was literally having the best dream ever. Of course, it involved me and Jace, we were naked and doing the horizontal mambo. Then, very rudely and abruptly, I am torn from said dream and woken by a very angry Jace. Confused and worried, I initially think something is wrong with one of the babies.
“Jace? What’s wrong, baby?”
“You tell me.”
His reply, though ominous alerts me to the fact it is something else entirely. I sit up and look him over to make sure he is ok. When I do not see any visible signs of injury or sickness, I look up at his face with genuine confusion and I ask him.
“I don’t know Jace. You obviously have me at a disadvantage, so why don’t you tell me what it is I did this time.” I’m not sure where the anger is coming from, but I suddenly feel upset, frustrated, and tired. I thought we had been making progress lately. Now it seems all that has been happening is I have fallen deeper, and it seems to have been in vain. So, yea. I am pissed. I almost give him a piece of my mind and then I glimpse the papers he is holding in his hand. Immediately, I know what it is, and the fear grabs ahold of me. Not fear of Jace. I know he would never hurt me. But fear that maybe this will be the last straw.
“Jace. Let me explain. It’s not what you think. I was going to……”
“Shut the hell up. I cannot even deal with you right now. I mean, seriously Penelope? You have been here for almost two weeks and you didn’t think to tell me your carrying my baby. I thought we were making progress towards making things right, and now I find out you have been essentially lying to me. What? You still trying to decide if you are keeping my kid? Or have you decided to keep me out of the kid’s life? I can’t fucking believe you.”
“Jace please…. of course, I was going to tell you. I just…….”
“Save it. I can’t believe anything that comes out of your mouth. You know what, I am so pissed I could fucking spit nails. Maybe you should go Penelope. I just…I can’t.”
Oh no he is not kicking me out of a house that is not his. I understand he is upset and I know I was wrong. It does not matter how well intentioned my reasons are, but I will not let him brush me off and act like I am nothing to him. Like, we are nothing to each other. I know I walked away, but I am here to try and fix us. I get up out the bed, and face off with my stubborn, beautiful man hoping that at the end of it, we can salvage our destiny.
“Enough with the goddamn ‘Penelope’, Jason Henry Crawford. I have dealt with your attitude, cold shoulder, and the full name treatment, because I know I deserve it. And even now with this news, I know you have every right to be upset. But did it occur to you, you big…. big JERK, that I could be waiting because I did not want to overwhelm you with everything you had going on.” I say, as I first point my finger at his chest and then my hands start flying around in wave movements.
“If I didn’t plan on telling you and raising this baby with you, why would I have come back? I could have stayed at school, finished my goals, and you would have been none the wiser. Until, I decided to tell you. But I didn’t. Now we are going to talk about this like mature adults and you are going to stop being such a big baby.” Geesh. Men.
I look over at him and see his breathing is heavy, also I see the tic in his jaw flexing consistently. I start thinking I have gone too far, when he starts stalking towards me.
“Did you just call me a baby? A baby. Really! Babe, you and I both know, I am all man. Or did you forget…. Penny? Huh. Did you forget how full you were when I was buried deep inside you, while I was taking that sweet cherry from you and making you my woman. Giving you my son? Did you forget how much you begged me to fuck you harder. Should I remind you baby? Is that what you have been missing? Fuck. I think, no I know that’s what I need. To bury myself in all your tight heat and make you remember. What do you think baby?” He taunts as much as he demands an answer from me.
Shit. I am so glad I am not wearing any panties right now because they would be no good. He has the dirtiest mouth I have ever heard. And no lie, it makes me want him even more. I can feel the sweat forming on my upper lip as I try to find the words to tell him this is not a good idea. But he continues to stalk towards me, until I am finally backed up to the bed.
Standing close enough to bend down and kiss me, he runs his hands up my waist as he lets his fingers slowly trace over my stomach, my sternum, and the side of my breast. The moan is out of my mouth before I can do or say anything. He raises the jersey I am wearing over my head. I am so far gone, I didn’t know he had grabbed the shirt and I am wearing nothing under the shirt. There is nothing blocking me from him right now and I feel equally happy and unsure about that.
Not breaking a sweat, he looks at me and lowers his head. He swipes his fingers across my already sensitive nipples, repeatedly. He leans down to my ear and says, “You remember yet?”
Oh God. I lick my lips without thinking and it’s like a switch is flicked in him. He slams his mouth on mine and begins to ravish me. I should insist we stop and talk, but I have missed him, and I wrap my hands around his neck to fold myself into him.
One of his hands is at the back of my head and is maneuvering it to where he wants it. The other one is around my back, where he is lining my wet, hot pussy with his massive cock. Immediately, I am up in flames and try to climb his body to fit us together, even with his bottoms on. I need to feel the completion that only he can give me.
As frantic as I am, he appears to be more so. Faster than I can comprehend, he flips me to be against the wall. I am desperate at this point to feel his skin against mine. Taking ahold of the sides of his shirt, I rip it off. Not giving me a chance to explore his body the way I want; he flips me around placing my front to the wall and that is when I know. This will not be a joining of love. Instead, it is angry sex and it is going to be hot as fuck.
“Fuck Penny. I may be, fucking mad at you, but it doesn’t stop me from wanting you like a fiend. I cannot give you the lovey-dovey shit, right now. I am too pissed. It means, you are going to have to take this. Ok baby? Can you be my good girl and just take what I give you?”
Without hesitation, I say “yes.” It is better than nothing and somehow, I know at the other end there is forgiveness and a future.
“Yes. Jace. Please. I need you to fill me. Fuck me. Remind me.”
“Fuck. Penny you must stop talking like that before I lose control. I am barely holding on as it is.” I hear as he pulls his belt buckle apart.
I am leaking down my thigh as I am waiting on him. With the amount of time he is taking, I have it in right mind to start working on myself. Before I can act, he wraps his hand around my throat and says, “Stick that ass out baby. I’m coming in.”
With those words, he uses his legs to kick mine further apart and without preamble he plunges into my pussy. I need to raise up on my toes to accommodate him and the pleasure pain is intense from the angle of penetration.
“Jace, too deep. Uhm…. please…..oh God. Been too long…. I can’t hold off…….”
He moves in and out, almost in a punishing pace and I can feel the liquid running down my legs. The feel of my own arousal has me going crazy and I start impaling myself on him. It hurts in a good way and I need more. He hits the rough spot inside of me and I can see fireworks blasting off in my head. Shit. Even after our one night, I didn’t know it could be like this.
“Jace. I’m so sorry. I love you so much. I love you.” His hand gets tighter around my throat as he continues his rhythm and I take it, because as much as it hurts, it also feels fucking good.
“Fuck Penny. Who the fuck has pussy this good. Fucking golden pussy. My pussy. Stick that ass out baby. Smack. You going to run from me again? Huh baby?” Oh God.
The smack on my ass makes my need to cum ten times worse. Oh God. I want to come so bad, but I don’t want this to be over.
“No. I swear. No more running. Don’t stop. Don’t stop. Right there Jace. Shit babe. You feel good filling me inside.” I squeeze my pussy muscles making it tighter for him and I can feel the twitch of his dick inside me.
Smack.
“You going to keep anymore secrets from me? Do you know you belong to me Penny? And have since the first moment I laid eyes on you last year. You have kept my pussy from me long enough. We are done with this shit. Do you understand?” That last smack and his forceful words put me over the edge.
“Yesssssssssss. Jaaaaaaacccee. Yes. Yes. Yes. Ahhhhhhhh.”
As I go over with no clitoral stimulation, he comes right behind me.
“Fuck Penny. Arrggggggggghhhhhh! I love you too baby.” I feel his wet heat spilling inside me and combined with his declaration of love, a second smaller orgasm ignites inside me.
Finally, we slide to the floor sated and happy. I fall into his body and drift off. At some point, he picks me up and puts me in the bed. Rolling over, I realize i am laying on his bare chest.
Sitting up a bit, I lean over and kiss the man I love more than anything in the world and smile. I know we just crossed the valley and I am so fucking happy. When I move my mouth further over his chest, that is when I see it. A tattoo I know he didn’t have a few days ago and not only is it a surprise and beautiful; but it is my name, surrounded by a heart and flowers. Tears start building in my eyes and I give a silent prayer to fate for leading me to him. Someone who will love and support me unconditionally. And be a great dad to our baby.
Speaking of babies, this is the first night they have yet to wake up. Well, thank God for small blessings. With that thought, I lay on my man’s chest and go back to sleep, while laying across his heart and listening to it beat. Just for me.