Chapter 1
Ace and Alison’s wedding was perfect. They had the time of their lives, dancing and eating cake. They’ve been through hell, but they made it, they’re stronger than ever now. I envy Ace for what he has with, Alison. It seems like they got they’re happily ever after.
Now on my end, only if it were that simple. Things were going great at the wedding, but then Tammy was off towards me, all day and night, which doesn’t sit well with me. So, I finally got her alone for a few minutes to see what was up. She’s thrown out that she loves me, but we can’t be together bullshit. I tell you that woman makes me so mad that I can’t see straight, and it makes me want to strangle her. I thought everything was going good for us, and then she comes out and tells me this, at my best friend’s wedding out of all the places, her sister’s wedding too.
Tammy hasn’t been the same since we lost the baby a few weeks ago, she mentioned that she was going to go to the doctors and see what was happening with all that. I know when I found out she was pregnant, I was over the moon happy. I was going to be a daddy. I know what you must be thinking, what the hell a big bad biker, mean as shit, going to be a daddy. Well, news flash, I’m human. Club business of course, I must be tough as hell, but there’s nothing more that I want, then having Tammy carry my babies.
Tammy never told anyone she was pregnant. I know it was killing her but she said it was too early to tell everyone, she wanted to wait a week or two. So, I agreed with her. What do you want me to do? Tell her no and tell everyone that we’re going to have a baby? I didn’t want to add any stress on her. So, I kept my mouth shut.
When she called me crying, telling me that she lost the baby, it was like my whole life came crashing down. How can I feel such a loss about something that I never had a chance to lay eyes on? It killed me inside, knowing that Tammy was hurting even more than me because she was the one carrying our baby. I know that couples argue and disagree, it’s normal, and it's part of life. But you don’t just walk away from your problems. She was depressed and tried her hardest to push me away, but nothing worked, until the night of Ace’s and Alison’s wedding. What she said, it was like taking a knife, and she stabbed me right through the heart.
We were just outside near the cars, ready to leave and she’s been quiet all night. I was getting nervous about her mood. Wondering what was going on inside that head of hers.
“Tammy, baby, what’s wrong?” I ask my voice comforting. She’s shaking her head and looks up at me with tears in her eyes. What the hell?
“I can’t do this anymore, Dalton. We can’t be together. We’re no good together,” her words pierce through my heart.
“What are you talking about? We’re perfect together.”
She continues to shake her head, and it’s killing me. What is going on inside that head of hers? Does she really think, I’m going to let her walk away after everything we've been through? That is not happening, no way in hell.
“Babe, come on. I know things have been rough these last couple of weeks, but we can work on them,” I coax out trying to get her to see that I’m in this, until the end. What she says next kills me even more than losing our precious baby.
“I’m sorry, Dalton, but I can’t be with you when I cheated on you with another man. I want to be with him, not you.”
I stand there in front of her stunned, she can’t be telling the truth. Why in the fuck is she saying this to me?
“You’re shitting me, right?” I laugh nervously, and she looks up. It breaks my heart because she looks so broken that she has steady tears running down her face.
“I’m not shitting you, Dalton. It’s over!” she wipes the tears away from her eyes, and with that being said, she turns around and leaves with Annie.
My fists are balled so tight that I feel my tough skin, almost cracking from the pressure. What the hell did she just tell me? She cheated on me, no she couldn’t have. She wouldn’t do that to me, to us. I’m so lost that I don’t even hear anyone talking to me. I wave everyone off and head to my car and get in. It’s a blur all the way home like I’m in some sort of trance. When I get home the place has a few of Tammy’s things lying around. I head right to the fridge.
The words she told me at the wedding keep replaying in my head. I grab a beer from the fridge, emptying it within three chugs. Then in a fit of rage, I throw the bottle at the wall and tears spring to my eyes. I’m usually not one to fucking cry, but with all the shit that has happened in the last few weeks, it's taking a toll on me. I lost my baby, and now, I lost the love of my life. I scream out in the empty house at the top of my lungs, my screams echoing off the walls. I’ve lost everything I’ve ever cared and loved.
I chug another three beers, trying to ease the heartache, then I head upstairs to take a shower. My mind wanders to what the fuck happened today. I woke up with Tammy in my arms and everything seemed to be fine, she was a little off but nothing to be unexpected then tonight she gave me the boot. Did I fuck up somehow and she didn’t tell me? I want to yell and scream for her to tell me, what the hell I did wrong but she’s not answering any of my calls or texts. I can’t call Alison to see what the fuck is going on because it’s their wedding night. I’m so confused and pissed off right now. I don’t know if I’m coming or going at this point. I feel totally numb. My mind barely working.
Once I’m done my shower. I get out and wrap a towel around my waist. I brush my teeth. I turn off the light in the bathroom and walk into my room, I throw on a pair of boxers. I turn off the little table light that’s on my side of the bed. When my head hits my pillow, it’s so close the Tammy’s that the sweet scent of her lingers on the pillow; my eyes begin to mist a little. Hey, I might be a biker, but when that woman, who I love with everything in me ends up telling me that she cheated on me and doesn’t want me, but him. My ego took a huge hit for starters, and then she tells me it’s over between us. I can’t help but feel like this is the end of the world for me.