11
I’m sitting outside a coffee shop, it’s not my usual place to go but hell the phone call from Destiny has me wondering what the hell is going on. She sounded worried and nervous on the phone, telling me she has to talk to me and then she asks me to meet her here. So, when I got her call, I left work and headed here. I’ve been here for about ten minutes now, and I’ve had two coffees so far, I’m wired. My leg is jumping up and down on its own. I look at my phone to check the time, she should have been here a little while ago.
My head snaps up to look around, and I notice Destiny walking up. She has a little smile on her face and takes a seat in front of me. “Sorry, I’m late. My stomach wasn’t feeling too well,” she mentions, and I nod. Nothing gets to me more than having to wait for someone. I can’t fault her though because she wasn't feeling well. It’s just pissing me off that all the people in here have nothing better to do then fucking watch me like a hawk.
“How have you been?” she asks, bringing her hands together on the table. Another sign that she’s nervous. What the fuck is wrong with her? She in some sort of trouble?
“I’ve been good. So, what was it that you wanted to talk about?” I ask. My phone chimes and I look down and smile seeing it’s Tammy that texts me.
I’m just about to reply to Tammy, but Destiny stops me.
“Viper, I’m pregnant,” she blurts out. I stare at her and my stomach sinks. The color from my face drains.
“Wh…What?” I stutter out. She gives a little shy smile.
“I’m pregnant,” she has a huge smile on her face now.
The only thing that I keep thinking about is Tammy and this news destroying her. What the fuck am I going to do? Is the baby even mine? What in the hell, she’s supposed to be on birth control, how in the fuck did this happen?
“Is the baby mine?” I ask, and she nods her head. I close my eyes and take a deep breath.
“I thought you were on birth control. All the girls at the club are on some type of birth control, Destiny,” my voice low. I don’t want all the fuckers in here knowing my business. She drops her head, and he shoulders move a little up and down. She lifts her head and looks at me, with tears brimming her eyes.
“I was on birth control, but I had a cold a while back remember the morning you woke up, and we used no condom. The meds I was taking interfered with the pill, I was taking,” she says. She takes a deep breath in before continuing. “I have an appointment with the doctor next week, and I would like it if you could to be there,” she says.
I drop my head and look at my phone. Tammy’s text staring back at me.
“I’ll be there,” my voice uneven from the overwhelming feeling of me being a father. I clear my throat and get up from my seat, pushing the chair in.
“Just text me the directions and time,” I say. Destiny gets up and pushes her chair in.
“I’ll send you all the information tomorrow,” she replies.
“Well, I better get going.” With that, being said I turn around and leave without saying another word to Destiny. I feel utterly lost. I’m going to be a dad, with a woman who isn’t Tammy. Oh fuck, what the hell did I do?
I hop on my bike and start her up. I’m dreading on telling Tammy, this news it’s going to crush her. These past three weeks have been amazing, and now I’m going to ruin the one thing that matters most to me, and there’s not a fucking thing I can do about it. I just hope that when Tammy finds out, she has it within her to forgive me, for royally fucking up.
I never really had a father in my life, he left my mother when I was a baby. Telling her, he wasn’t cut out to be a dad. I remember all the times where I wished he would come back, but nothing worked. He never tried to contact us, to see how I turned out. My mother never heard from him again after he left. I won’t turn out like my father. I’ll be there for my kid, there’s no doubt. I just hope Tammy understands.
I’m so fucking nervous on telling Viper about me being pregnant. All morning I was dry heaving in the toilet. I just hope he doesn’t flip out and tell me to go fuck myself. I know him and Tammy have been together for the past three weeks, but I can give him the family he wants. She can’t. What good is she, if she can’t give him a child he wants? My stomach is in knots as I make my way to the coffee shop. I knew that when I told him the news it had to be in public, not that he would flip and hit me, no, he would never do that. I just thought there would be less yelling if it was done where other people were. Viper has a temper, and I didn’t want him to explode finding out. I know he’ll be there for the baby. I know that much, but I want us to be a family, me, the baby and him. There’s no room for Tammy in that equation.
I was surprised at how well he took the news. He didn’t yell, but he didn’t do much of anything. He told me he’ll be at the appointment and I wanted to fist pump when he said so. I can’t wait for him to see the little bean on the screen. He’ll fall in love with him or her, and he’ll leave Tammy for good and be with me, where he’s supposed to be.