CHAPTER 24

 

 

Seth’s muscles burned from the exertion. His breath came in fast pants as his footsteps fell on the hard sand of the surf. He didn’t know how long he’d been running for; all he knew was that he needed to clear his head.

He already knew he had a made a fucked up situation even worse by running out, but it was no use going back if he didn’t know how to fix it. He was so far down the beach he might as well keep going until he reached Garret’s place.

Hopefully his newly married friend would have some advice that would make him think straight. His mind travelled back to the wedding. He had taken Fawn as his date, and even though the press had followed them and she had an entourage of bodyguards accompany Dom, it had been magical. Fawn had worn a flowing sky blue dress that had brought out her eyes. She had slipped a tear during the ceremony while clutching his hand. They had spent the night drinking champagne and dancing into the early morning hours until they went home and made love on the beach.

He still couldn’t believe Garret was married; but Seth knew Garret had found the right woman in Skye.

And now Fawn was pregnant.

Shit! A baby? He had just asked Fawn to move in with him, what was he going to do with a baby?

He pushed himself even harder and ran faster even though he knew he couldn’t run from the truth. He’d need to face it sooner or later.

As Garret’s place came into view Seth could only hope he would talk some sense in him.

“Seth?” Garret called standing up from the table on his deck where he was having coffee.

“Hey!” Seth panted as he stepped onto the deck. He bent over resting his hands on his knees trying to catch his breath.

“What are you doing here, this early?” Garret asked sitting down again. “Isn’t Fawn over at your place? The show was last night wasn’t it?”

“Yes and yes.” Seth said stretching before sitting down next to Garret, sweat sparkling on his forehead. “Where’s Skye?” Seth asked.

“Still sleeping. Long night if you know what I mean.” He winked at Garret as he spoke.

Seth nodded not saying a word.

Garret watched him for a while, knowing he’d talk when he was ready.

They sat in companionable silence until Seth had caught his breath and he turned to Garret. “She’s pregnant.”

“What?” Garret said shocked. “Skye’s pregnant?”

“No, Fawn. She’s…”

“Yeah, I heard you. When did you find out?” Garret asked leaning forward.

Seth checked his watch on his arm. “About twenty minutes ago, then I berated her before cursing and running out.”

“Shit!” Garret said shaking his head. “Are you sure she’s pregnant?”

“Well she’s missed her period and she’s been barfing all morning.”

“What are you going to do?”

“I don’t know man, I just asked her to move in with me last night. And now this.”

Garret watched Seth for a moment before speaking. “I’m just going to ask you one question Seth.”

“What?” Seth barked.

“Do you love her?”

“Of course I love her, why else would I ask her to move in with me?” Seth said irritably.

“Right so you love her enough to move in with her but not enough to have a baby with her?”

“Well if you say it like that you make me sound like a dipshit.”

“Seth, love isn’t conditional. You can’t just love someone when everything is going well and the sun is shining. You’ve gotta love them when the sky is dark and pouring as well.”

Seth looked at his friend through new eyes. “That’s deep, but it kinda makes sense.”

Garret laughed. “Seth forget about the baby and ask yourself this. Would you still love Fawn if she was ill, if she was fat, if she wasn’t famous? How would you feel if she left you and had another man’s child?”

Garret’s words sobered Seth instantly. “Of course I’ll still love her and I’ll kick his ass!”

“Well then it’s simple. The pregnancy is just unexpected. You didn’t expect Fawn to come into your life and look how well that’s going?”

Seth frowned for a moment before Garret’s words made sense. “I’ve got to go.”

Before Garret could say another word Seth started walking home.

Garret’s words spinned around and around in his mind. He didn’t want to lose Fawn, he couldn’t. It didn’t matter what came across their path, he would always love her. Even when the press dissected his financial status and past, even when he was whirling from the news of a baby, his heart was still filled with love for her.

He couldn’t imagine seeing her with another man, or having his child. She was his, so was this baby.

He allowed his mind to roam over the idea of a baby. His mother would be ecstatic with joy over her first grandchild. Fawn would be swelling with his child in her belly. A child they had made. He thought back to the uncountable times they had made love, unconsciously trying to pin eight weeks ago. They were in Los Angeles at the time. They had made love on every surface in Fawn’s house. His heart skipped a beat as he remembered making love in her pool. How she had writhed against him before crying out his name in pleasure.

How could he let her go, or the baby they made?

If it was a girl he could watch her grow into her mother’s daughter with blue eyes and black hair, or if he was lucky blonde hair.

If it was a boy he could teach him so many things. He’d like to think he’d be a cool dad.

As a smile involuntarily spread across his face, the idea of a baby started growing on him.

He would make the spare bedroom facing the ocean the baby’s room. He would need to make a point of seeing his parents more often, as his child would be the sole heir to their hotel empire.

As his house started coming into view, Seth checked his watch. He’d run to Garret’s place in less than thirty minutes and had spent more than an hour and a half walking back.

His mind was calm about what he was about to do as walked into the house. He was going to make sure he was never going to lose Fawn again.

 

 

“Fawn.” He called walking into the house.

She didn’t answer, so Seth started searching room by room. He found her in their bedroom, sitting on the bed staring out the window her suitcase packed beside her.

“Here you are.” He said sitting down next to her.

“I…”

“Don’t. Please let me talk first.” Seth pleaded as he moved in front of her and kneeled. “My reaction this morning was horrible. I deserve your anger and more for the way I acted. I’m going to admit, I was shocked.” Fawn watched him with wide blue eyes and trembling lips. “After taking a very long walk I know I was wrong. Can you ever forgive me?”

Fawn nodded and bit her lip. “Seth…”

“I’m not done yet.” Seth said smiling and pulled a piece of string from his pocket. “I picked this up on the beach, I know it’s not much but I’d like you to hear what I have to say. I love you, I’ve never loved someone the way I love you. I love your little quirks and habits like the way you light a scented candle before sitting down in the living room. The way you always leave the kettle empty and even the way you hog all the blankets. I don’t want to lose you, and that’s why I asked you to move in with me. But I missed one major thing when I asked you. You’re not mine, you can still leave me whenever you want, there is no commitment between us?”

Fawn nodded with wide eyes.

“I want more Fawn. I want to know you’re mine. I want to know you’re going to be there for years to come. I want you and I want to share a life with you. Regardless if you’re pregnant or not. If you are I’ll do anything to make the pregnancy easier for you, once the baby is here I’ll do night runs, I’ll change diapers, I’ll even start buying food for the house so we don’t have to run to the store every time we feel like cooking. I’d love to travel the world with you and a spend a little more time as just the two of us. Regardless Fawn... I want you to marry me.”

Fawn gasped at his words. “Seth, are you in shock? You do realize you just asked me to marry you? Mr. Commitment-phobia.”

Seth laughed as he held out the piece of string. “I know what I asked you. I asked you to spend your life with me. To let me be the only man in your heart and your bed. To carry our children either now or in future. Please Fawn, say yes.”

Fawn smiled as she held out her hand. “Yes, Seth. I’ll marry you.”

Seth carefully tied the piece of string around her finger before pulling her against him. “I love you.”

“I love you too.” Fawn said into his chest before pulling back.

“I need to get you to a doctor. You’ll probably need to start taking it easier, taking vitamins and ease down on the sex.”

Fawn giggled at his words before speaking. “No need.”

“What do you mean?” Seth asked confused.

“We don’t have to ease off the sex; I’ve already been to the doctor. He did the test and thorough check up. He says I missed my period due to stress.”

“You’re not pregnant?” Seth asked neutrally.

Fawn’s eyes twinkled with happiness. “Nope.”

Seth breathed a huge sigh of relief before smiling. “Great! I was wondering how we were going to take a baby on our honeymoon.”

Fawn laughed. “No baby for the honeymoon, although we could start practicing then.”

Seth kissed her deeply, his hands cupping her rear before whispering into her ear. “How about we start practicing now?”

 

 

 

 

 

 

~THE END~