As the evening wound down, and the diner became empty, the wait staff began to clean up, closing off one section after another. Renee and Alicia left at ten, leaving only Stella and Tara to finish cleaning. Stella giggled as Tara, a woman in her mid-forties and recently divorced, described in intimate detail what she would do with Gabriel, or one of the other three men who had taken her fancy, if given a chance.
Buy 12:15 the dining room was clean and Stella waved bye as Tara, as the night manager, locked the door behind her so she could finish counting out the register. She plopped down in her little car and thought a moment before pulling out her cell and dialing. Between Tara babbling on about adding the bikers to her list of sexual conquests and the fact it had been more than two weeks since she’d felt a man between her legs, she was in the mood for some loving. And if not that, at least a good sweaty tumble.
You’ve reached Daniels Construction. I can’t answer the phone right now, but leave a message and I’ll call you right back.
“Tony, it’s Stella. I was wondering if you had plans tonight. If you get his message in the next fifteen minutes, give me a call, okay?”
She hung up the phone and tossed it in the passenger seat, keeping it handy in case he called back. He was a decent friend, eleven years older than her twenty-eight years, and always good for a round of slap and tickle. It was a friendship based mostly on sex, but it worked for both of them. Sometimes they would go to a movie, or have dinner, but often it was just a call to have an itch scratched, like tonight. Since she’d given him no notice he was probably already balls deep in some other chick. Tony was a good looking guy and she knew he bedded other women, and she again felt the creeping regret.
She knew she shouldn’t be disappointed, but she was. She didn’t expect to him sit by the phone and wait for her call, but it would be nice to have someone she could depend on. Not just for sex, but for companionship, as well. She’d dated some after Gabriel left, but it was hard with a kid. A lot of guys weren’t willing to share, and even though a few of them were nice enough and she was attracted to them, they couldn’t handle that Katrina was first in her life.
Then she’d met Tony. He’d picked her up one night, hadn’t pressured her, seemed to understand he would never be first in her life, and had accepted that role. He was kind, and a giving and gentle lover, but though she tried, she couldn’t find a spark for him to take it to the next level. Sometimes she saw a bit of sadness, and some longing, in his eyes, but he never asked her for more than she could give.
She snorted. It wasn’t the first time he hadn’t been able to make it on short notice, and it won’t be the last. She’d done the same to him, so it wasn’t like she could complain. The difference was, when she couldn’t make it, it was because her date for the evening was a three year old little girl with coal black hair worn long, huge brown eyes, and a smile that could melt the coldest heart.
Traffic was light and she made good time, pulling into her Grammy’s drive a bit after 12:30. Connie Hayes, her paternal grandmother, still lived in the same house she and her husband had bought in 1975. It was the only house Stella knew. Built in the 1950s, the red brick house was in a neighborhood of similar homes that was experiencing a renaissance of sorts as young families were buying up the older houses and renovating them. There was a young couple with a son only a year older than Katrina living next door, and Hunter and Katrina was best buddies.
Connie’s house was neat, and well kept, but showing its age. The darkness hid the tired paint and weed-filled yard. It wasn’t one of the jewels in the neighborhood, but it wasn’t the worst looking house either. Stella stopped behind Connie’s Buick and switch her car off, but left the parking lights on to give her a bit of light to see by. She unlocked the kitchen door with her key and slipped inside.
“Hey, Grammy,” she murmured as the slender grey haired woman greeted her with a hug. “How was she tonight?”
“Fine, as always,” Connie said softly, her English accent almost entirely erased by her time spent in America. “She went right down at nine.”
Stella smiled. “She’d a good kid.”
“Like her mother.” Connie looked at her a moment. “What’s wrong?”
“Nothing, why?”
“You have that look about you. Did something happen at work?”
Stella smiled. She couldn’t hide a thing from Connie. “No. Just tired and looking forward to a day off. I’ll be fine in the morning.”
Connie looked at her granddaughter. She wouldn’t be more proud of her had she been the queen of her native England. She’d been handed a tough lot in life, but she hadn’t become bitter and had dug in to make the best of it. She wished Henry and Thomas, her husband and son, had lived long enough to see Katrina.
“Okay,” she replied, though she didn’t believe it for a moment. She knew when Stella was ready to talk, she would come to her. “You know if you ever need to talk…”
“I know, Grammy. Nothing to worry about,” Stella said, giving the older woman a hug. “Let me go get Katrina and I’ll get out of here so you can go to bed.”
Stella moved quietly into the back of the house to her father’s old room. Katrina was piled sideways against the pillows, as usual, her stuffed bear, Ted, gripped tightly in her little arm. Seeing how Katrina slept never failed to bring a smile to Stella’s face. The girl could be found anywhere in the bed, though rarely with her head on the pillows and her feet at the foot of the bed. Most common was the position she was in now, sideways, pillows on one side, Theodore E. Bear tucked in tight on the other.
Stella reached down and picked Katrina up, cradling her head so it wouldn’t flop around like a rag doll, and tucked her into her shoulder. Katrina didn’t wake as Stella waved bye to Connie and snuck out the door, her path lit only by the parking lights of her car. She tucked Katrina into the car seat, snapped her in, and then drove the twenty minutes to her apartment before reversing the procedure.
After a year, Katrina was so used to being handled in her sleep she rarely woke, and if she did, she normally went right back. Stella pushed the hair out of Katrina’s face, kissed her softly on the forehead, then retired to her room. She hadn’t lied to Connie; she was tired and looking forward to a day off, but there was more to it than that. She was feeling the weight of being a single parent again and wondered if she would ever find someone. Seeing Gabriel had reminded her how she once felt, before he broke her heart.
With a sigh she stripped out of her clothes, adding them to the hamper for washing, before putting on her favorite sleep shirt, the one that said I’m off to Club Bed, featuring DJ Pillow and MC Blanky, cleaned her face and brushed her teeth.
It was after one when she tumbled into bed, and she knew Katrina would probably be up by seven demanding breakfast. She tried to sleep, but the ache between her legs wouldn’t let her relax. Finally, growling in frustration, she opened the bottom drawer of her nightstand and searched under her underwear until she found her toyfriend. Since Tony wasn’t here, this would have to do.
She slipped out of her shirt and lay back, allowing her mind to wander as the softly buzzing toy caressed her in all the right ways. Her finger softly circled her nipple, the point becoming firm under her gentle touch. Unbidden, an image of Gabriel popped into her mind, standing before her in this very room, the room they shared when they were together, but it wasn’t the Gabriel of four years ago; it was the Gabriel of now, filled out and with a confidence he never had before.
She shoved the image aside, thinking of Tony, but as his lips found hers, it was suddenly Gabriel again, his lips so warm and inviting. He’d always known how to please her, the caress of his lips electrifying as he kissed down her body, his breath hot on her skin. She gripped her breast, the buzzing toy sliding in her wetness, touching her most sensitive place, her mouth opening slightly in pleasure as her breathing sped up, his tongue destroying her as he licked, each touch to her clit sending searing pleasure dancing through her body. She gripped his head, pulling him in tighter, pressing the toy harder into her in response. She began to thrust her hips, her passions taking over, Gabriel’s cock thrusting into her hard and fast, his grunts of passion twisting her up.
She plunged the vibrator into her, the sudden change making her gasp as she crushed her eyes closed, the feel of Gabriel’s cock hammering into her, his sudden cry as he came, his hips still driving into her furiously. He rolled her over, taking her from behind, his sweat dripping onto her back as he took her, muttering of his love and how she could please him like no other woman.
He came again as he roared his ecstasy to the world, his orgasm tipping her over the edge. She plunged into her rapture, the toy stroking and plunging, driving her climax on, until with a shuddering grunt she pulled it from within her, dropped it on the bed, and rolled onto her side, her hand gripping the linens as she waited for her orgasm to release her.
She sighed out of her climax, awash in feelings she didn’t understand. Relief her need had been satisfied, but disappointed it had been thoughts of Gabriel that had gotten her there. She was over him, or at least she thought she was, and hadn’t thought of him in a long time, maybe as much as a year.
She blew out a long cleansing breath and then patted around on the bed until she found the buzzing toy. She switched it off and stretched languorously as she smiled. It annoyed her his sudden appearance in the diner made her fantasies return to him. It was probably Tara prattling on about what she would do to him if she caught him alone that had wound her tight. She smiled and stretched again and decided it didn’t matter. It had done the job and she felt warm and relaxed. She just wished Tony was here. He was always good for a nice long cuddle after a good romp.
With a sigh she redressed and carried her friend into the bath for a quick cleanup before returning it to the box in the bottom of her drawer. As she settled in, she could feel sleep tugging at her, but once again she remembered the feeling in her car, the encroaching loneliness and the desire to have someone in her life, someone to cuddle with, someone to love her and Katrina.
She closed her eyes, pushing the thoughts away. This wasn’t the first time she felt the loneliness. Late at night, as she was sliding into sleep was the worst time, when she most keenly felt something was missing. But she would get over it. She always did. Tomorrow would be another day, and once she was wrist deep in flour and sugar at the bakery, she would forget all about how she felt now.