When I flee Thomas’s building, I don't go home. He would've come looking for me there, and I don't have what it takes to face him. Instead, I go straight to Lisa’s place. He tries to phone me twice before I switch off my phone. I want nothing to do with him.

I press the buzzer to Lisa’s apartment until she answers in a sleepy voice.

"It’s me," I say. She buzzes me up right away. I'm crying. I climb the stairs to her door. When she opens, she jolts.

"What happened?" she asks.

I walk into the apartment and collapses on the couch. My cheeks are stained with tears, my makeup is probably leaving streaks down my face, and I shiver with cold even though it's a warm night.

"You were right," I say, talking through my tears. "It's all just a mask."

Lisa sits down next to me and puts her arm around my shoulders. "Tell me what happened," she says.

I do. I tell her everything, from the moment we arrived at his penthouse and Jessica was there, until I left.

"He's the crown prince of a country or something, and he’s leaving. Like, soon. He never told me."

Lisa shakes her head, frowning. "This doesn’t make sense," she says. "I don’t understand."

I shake my head, too. "I know. It’s so confusing. But he lied to me. About everything. And the women. God, he must've had so many. I was such a fool thinking he was different than the rest of them. You were right. I hadn’t known him at all."

Lisa rubs my back and makes shushing sounds, trying to comfort me. There's nothing to be done, though. There's no way to heal a broken heart or to reverse betrayal.

"I came here because I was scared he would come looking for me," I say.

Lisa nods. "You know you’re welcome here, anytime."

I hug her. "This is such a mess."

We sit in silence for a while, and my crying stops. I feel ridiculously worn out. I'm suddenly so tired.

"A crown prince, huh?" Lisa says after a while. "Does that even add up?"

I nod. "His name is Thomas Silber. It adds up. I’d read up on their royal family when I’d gone to Germany."

"That’s crazy," Lisa says. "And he didn’t tell you anything?"

I shake my head. "Nothing," I say.

Lisa nods. "Why don’t you come to bed," she says. "It’s been rough, and it’s late. Tomorrow, everything might look different."

I nod and get up, even though I don't believe it'll look any better in the light of day. I follow Lisa to her bedroom and get into the other side of her double bed. She switches off the light. In the dark, she says, "You really loved him, didn’t you?"

I nod, even though she can't see me. "I did," I whisper. I’d loved him a little too much.

When I wake up the next morning, I don't feel any better. In fact, I feel worse. I feel like a dark cloud hangs over me. I don't want to get out of bed.

Lisa already left for work. Instead of getting up, getting food, or doing anything at all, I turn around and go back to sleep. It's the best escape there is.

When I wake up again, it's past noon, and I have to go to the bathroom. When I sit down on the couch, my phone lies on the coffee table where I put it before, still off. I switch it on. My stomach knots into a fist of nerves. I'm terrified about what I'll find. Has he sent me a million texts? Has he tried to call me all night?

One missed call flashes on my screen and nothing else. Thomas had only tried once after I had switched off my phone before giving up.

What did that say about how he feels about me? I was nervous about getting a lot of messages from him because I’d been scared about what it would do to me, emotionally. I'm angry now, because he hadn’t sent me anything. He hadn’t even tried. Maybe that Jessica had been right. Maybe he had planned on leaving me to go back to Elanda, after all.

Why wouldn’t he have told me that? I don't understand what he’d been trying to do. I don't want to believe that sex was all he was after. He hadn’t known I was a virgin, and he had carried on spending time with me and sleeping with me after he’d gotten it the first time. He hadn’t left me, then. I don't understand why he’d done that, now.

I switch on the television, desperate for a distraction. The rest of the day, I watch series reruns and stupid movies on Telemundo.

"You’re still here," Lisa says when she comes back after work at five. I nod.

"Is that okay?" I ask.

"Of course," she says, putting down her bag and sitting down on the couch. "I was just hoping you would feel better."

I shake my head. "Nope."

Lisa hesitates, like she's sure how to say what's on her mind.

"Nicole," she starts. I mute the TV and look at her.

"How serious were you about this guy?"

I groan. "Too serious, apparently. I should never have fallen for him."

Lisa shakes her head. "That’s not what I’m getting at. Don’t you think you should ask him what's going on? Hear it from him at least?"

I shake my head. "I don’t think he deserves that," I say.

"According to this Jessica woman you were talking about. But what if she was wrong? What if she was just being a jealous, vindictive bitch?"

"What are you saying?" I ask. "That I should give him another chance?"

Lisa shrugs. "I would give anything to have a shot at talking about things with Graham. He hadn’t given me that luxury, and it hurts like a bitch. You still have the chance to speak to him. Don’t you think you should at least find out what the truth is? If for no other reason than to get closure?"

I shake my head again. I'm not interested. I'm too hurt. I feel like I’d been betrayed, like Thomas had ripped out my heart and stomped all over it.

"Just think about it, okay? Lisa says. "And stay as long as you need."

She's a great friend.

After two days, I need to go home. I have no extra clothes, and I feel bad about wearing Lisa’s stuff all the time and eating her food. When I go back to my own apartment, I feel like I'm a different person than when I left it. I feel ten years older, grimy, and down in the dumps. I go back into bed and switch off the light so my room is perpetually dark. It echoes how I feel inside.

On the fourth day, I have enough. There's only so much moping around I can do before I get sick of it. I get up, shower, and get dressed. I think about what Lisa said. I don't think Thomas deserves anything from me, but Lisa had been right. What if it had all been lies? Jessica hadn’t let him get a word in edgewise, and I had no reason to blindly trust her.

I want to see him one last time. Even if it's just to confirm that he's an asshole and to get closure, at least.

I take a cab to his apartment building and walk in through the front door. When I sign myself in, the doorman shakes his head.

"Mr. Silber doesn’t live here, anymore," he says. "The movers already cleared his apartment."

My stomach sinks. I'm too late. "There’s no way I can reach him?" I ask.

The doorman shakes his head. "He left no forwarding address," he says.

I sigh.

"Are you looking for Thomas?" someone asks behind me. I turn around. A blond man in a polo shirt stands in front of me. He looks well put together, like he’s just stepped out of a magazine.

I nod.

"I’m Luke," he says. "Thomas asked me to oversee the final arrangements. It’s why I’m here. Are you Nicole?"

I nod again. "I just wanted to speak to him."

Luke shakes his head. "I’m sorry. I think he left this morning, early. He’s on his way back to Elanda."

I'm too late, then. I feel like I want to cry. I really messed this one up. If only I’d gotten over myself sooner and come to see him. I might have been able to catch him before it was too late.

"He told me about you," Luke says. "For what it’s worth."

I frown and look up at him.

"You’re the only one that he would've given it all up for, if he could."

I shake my head, confused. "What are you talking about?"

"What he felt for you," Luke says like it's obvious. "You changed him. He stopped chasing random girls and doing stupid things. He settled down. I think you were the one that got away."

He sticks his hand into his pocket and takes out a note. "He wanted me to give this to you if you stopped by."

I unfold the note.

Mon Coeur ne bat que pour toi

"What does it say?" I ask.

Luke shrugs. "I don’t speak French."

I leave the building. In the cab, I type the words into Google Translate.

My heart only beats for you.

I phone Lisa. "He’s gone," I say. "Back to Elanda."

"I’m so sorry, Nicky," she says.

I shake my head. "He left me a note. My heart only beats for you. He loved me."

"What are you waiting for, then?" Lisa asks.

"What?"

"Go after him."

I frown. "He’s already left the country."

"So? You have a passport, don’t you?"

I do have one. And it's still valid. I could pull all my savings. There'd still be time.

"Why are you contradicting everything you’ve told me about being in love and living my life independently?" I ask.

"Nicole, if Graham did that for me, I would have been there in a heartbeat. I wouldn’t have thought twice. This guy loves you. And he’s a prince. A prince. Go to him. What more do you need?"

She's right. I have to go to him. "You’re the best," I say.

"I know." I can hear the smile in her voice. I hang up.

At home, I pack a bag and find my passport. I write a note for my landlady. In less than an hour, I'm at the airport counter, buying a ticket for Elanda. I have no idea how I'm going to find him. The country isn't all that big, though, and there are only so many places the crown prince can hide.