Jasmine
The shower felt great, but disappointment set in when I got out and heard Brandon had left. I've been sitting here in this bed all night unable to sleep. Deep down I know it's not right of me to wish him here so badly, but there is something about him I can't shake. I draw in a deep breath and close my eyes, trying to figure everything out. A knock on the door brings me out of my thoughts and a huge smile crosses my face when he walks in.
"Good morning,” he says handing me a cup of coffee.
"Oh my God, you must be psychic," I reply before taking a sip. The warm liquid feels so good sliding down my throat. "Thank you, I needed that." I say, smiling.
"Anytime,” he says coming to sit by me. "How are you feeling today?"
"Better than I have been," I admit. He smiles and puts his arm around me, bringing my face close to his.
"I see your stitches are gone,” he says examining my face.
"Yeah, Amelia removed them last night."
He kisses my forehead, "You ready to blow this popsicle stand?
I nod, "Beyond ready."
"Well, let me go talk to Amelia and Dr. Iverson to see if the paperwork is almost ready,” he says with a smirk.
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The cool wind whips my hair around my face when I stop to breathe in some fresh air. Brandon pulls his truck around, opening the door for me. "It's just a short walk over there, you know," I say, climbing in carefully.
"Yeah, but I can't have you falling down and getting hurt on my watch,” he says reaching over me to buckle my seatbelt.
"I'm not completely helpless, you know that, right?"
"Yes, I do know that, I was only trying to help,” he says trying not to laugh at me. I roll my eyes and try to hide the smile threatening to cross my lips. In a few minutes we're sitting in front of my hotel room. Brandon hands me the key and walks me to the door. "Can you stay for a little while?" I ask before I even realize it.
"Sure,” he says walking in behind me. The room isn’t big, but the bright yellow paint covering the walls is cheerful.
"I didn't think you would want to go back to the apartment."
"No I didn't, but I have no idea how I can repay you for all this," I whisper.
"Like I said before, don't worry about it,” he says, carefully pinning me up against the wall. I smile, looking up into his green eyes and kiss his cheek.
"Thank you," I say and he backs away from me. "Will you call Aunt Suz and ask if she can bring Maddy to me?"
"I will call and see if she can bring Maddy to visit. You still have a long way to go before you need to have all that responsibility. Oh, here's my number,” he says and hands me a small piece of paper, "I've got to run a few errands and I'll come back, okay?" I nod, feeling like a gut-wrenching blow has been landed on my heart. "One more thing,” he says getting his keys off the table, "A big black truck was sitting outside when I came over to get your clothes, license plate V76LMP. Does that sound familiar?" A surge of fear rushes through me and I begin to sweat. "Jasmine, are you okay?” he asks as I begin to slide down the wall. I sit there a crumbling mess as tears begin to fall uncontrollably. "Is that who did this to you?” he asks me and all I can do is nod. "Jasmine, look at me,” he says sitting next to me. "He won't hurt you again. I’m telling you this now, and I mean it,” he growls. Nodding, I look away; the anger prevalent in his eyes is frightening. "You have my number if you need me. Don’t hesitate to call me; I'll be less than ten minutes away."
He leaves and I lock the door, placing a chair under the knob. Turning on the TV, I grab my phone and program his number onto speed dial. It's almost noon when he comes back and I'm still sitting there, staring at the door when he knocks.
"It's me, Jasmine." Getting up, I move the chair so I can open the door. He holds up a bag of fast food that smells so good. "Thought you might be hungry,” he says smiling.
"Yes, please come in." Moving out of the way so he can come in, I glance out at the parking lot. We sit and eat the food while talking and laughing. It was really nice.
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For the next two weeks, I'm in the hotel room with Brandon, Austin, or Aunt Suz. Austin and I have become good friends since he found me and saved my life. I haven't gone back to work yet and I feel so guilty about Brandon spending all his money on me. Sneaking out for a bit, I find a newspaper and begin looking for an apartment.
I'm on the phone talking to the owner of a place I've found when Brandon arrives. He looks at me funny and sets my lunch on the table. "I'm looking for an apartment," I whisper. He nods and sits across from me. I finish my call and hang up with a sigh. "I think I found one," I say as I shove several French fries in my mouth.
"I was thinking, well, that maybe you'd like to come to my place for dinner,” he asked, rubbing the back of his neck.
"That sounds nice but I need to make sure Aunt Suz doesn’t mind," I reply trying to control my enthusiasm.
"One more thing,” he says opening the curtains, "come look."
"What am I looking for?" I ask.
"I got your car this morning,” he says. It takes every ounce of control I have not to jump into his arms and kiss him. I just look at him, no words will come. "Okay, I guess this is you happy,” he asks, with an unsure look on his face. I nod and stare out the window. We finish our lunch with few words and it's time for him to go. "Six o'clock, sharp,” he says handing me a piece of paper with directions to his apartment. I smile and hug him tightly, breathing in his alluring smell.
"I'll be there," I say, already trying to figure out what I'm going to wear. He leaves me with my heart racing and more nervous than I’ve ever been.
It's a few minutes to six and I find myself outside his apartment, hesitant to knock on the door. I stand there staring at the numbers on the door in a trancelike state, thinking of all the things that could happen. A giggle coming from the doorway across the hall breaks my concentration, and I look behind me to see a couple who are clearly in love.
The sweet sounds of ‘I love you’ echo down the corridor, and I find that these two make me jealous. I've never had a love like that and fear I never will after what I have endured. My heart is scarred and walled up; guarded more heavily than Fort Knox. I don't know that anyone will ever be able to penetrate those walls again.
I reach my hand up to knock as the door swings open. Brandon is standing there in jeans and a tight t-shirt. I avert my eyes away quickly, trying not to stare. His dark hair is messily styled and his soft green eyes are bright in contrast to the dark hue of his lashes. "Hi," he says, stepping to the side so I can enter. His apartment is definitely not what I had pictured. I smile at him and shake my head. "What?” he asks with a smirk.
"I thought. . .well I assumed you were the typical bachelor. You know, messy and all." Brandon just laughs and places his hand on the small of my back, guiding me further into the apartment. I flinch at the contact and he sighs.
"I'm sorry; I should have been more thoughtful, knowing how your last relationship was."
My mind goes into overdrive at that word, ‘relationship’. An overwhelming sense of panic washes over me. I breathe in deeply and ask, "So, what's for dinner? That is what you invited me over here for, is it not?"
His eyes grow wide at my matter if fact tone and he breaks into a fit of laughter, "Are you always so blunt and serious?"
"Pretty much. I've learned to just say what needs to be said and be done with it." He just shakes his head and motions me to follow him. Upon entering the kitchen, the aroma makes my mouth water. "Thai?" I ask with a smile.
"Of course, I asked around work,” he says rubbing the back of his neck with a hint of red coloring his cheeks.
I stifle my laughter. "That was very...thoughtful," I reply, genuinely impressed. He pulls out my chair, so I sit and open the container in front of me. I close my eyes and breathe in the aroma. "This looks delicious, did you order from..."
"Tam," he says before I finish my sentence.
"My favorite," I reply.
"I know," he says with a wink.
After dinner, he cleans up as I finish my tea and hit the restroom to freshen up. The pink scar running down my jawline is a constant reminder of what men are capable of. Instantly, I find myself building my walls back up. Trying to stop it is useless, as it's fed by fear.
I turn the knob and open the door to find him about to knock. I jump a little and he steps back never breaking eye contact he looks at me strangely as I walk out of the bathroom. "Are you okay?” he asks, cautiously reaching for me. My first instinct is to step back, but I hold my breath and let him take my hand, guiding me to the living room. "I was concerned, that's why I was outside the bathroom door,” he says turning to face me. I smile and we continue into the living room. He sits on the couch and I gingerly sit on the opposite end. "So tell me something about yourself that I don't know," he says observing my reaction.
"Well," I reply, pausing to think for a moment, "l have an unhealthy addiction to circus peanuts." The look on his face is priceless as he processes the ridiculous confession. Suddenly he starts laughing and scoots towards me, throwing his arm around me.
"You aren’t right,” he whispers into my ear, his lips lightly feathering across my cheek, the warmth spreading throughout my body, making me slightly dizzy. "Want to watch a movie?” he asks standing up. Watching him walk over to the entertainment center, I can't help but look at his ass. He turns around, seemingly able to feel my eyes on him. "Come on, help me pick one out." I hesitantly get up and join him, my eyes growing wide at the vast selection in front of me.
Taking a closer look, I bite my top lip to keep from laughing like a lunatic, "Seriously? You own this?" I ask, pulling the movie from the cabinet.
"I know...I know what you're going to say,” he says, "but it’s NOT mine."
As I examine the case, I notice it's a Blu-ray and a huge smile crosses my lips at the sheer thought of him watching sparkly vampires. "Sure..." I say popping open the case and placing the disc in the Blu-ray player.
Brandon groans playfully as I hit play. "You want some popcorn?” he asks.
"Absolutely; what's movie night without popcorn?" I reply sitting back down.
A couple of minutes into the movie he comes in, taking a seat next to me, popcorn in hand. As I start to reach for a handful, he stops me. "Nope, we have to establish rules first."
"Rules," I ask narrowing my eyes.
"Yes, rules,” he says, the serious look on his face making me giggle.
"Okay, what are these rules?"
He grabs the remote, pausing the movie. "The first rule is no swooning. I know you might think these sparkly bastards are cute, hot, or whatever they are, but do not express this at any time that I'm in the same room."
"Why…" I begin to ask and he cuts me off.
"Shhh..." he says bringing his finger to his lips, "Rule number two," he continues, "do not and I repeat, do not give running commentary. It's a movie, not a sporting event." Trying to keep my giggles at bay is becoming increasingly difficult with each rule. "Finally, rule number three. This one is of the utmost importance. If at any point you fall asleep, you must not drool on me." I sit there staring at him as I have no words, only laughter. "What's so funny?” he asks. All I can do is shake my head. "So, do you think you can follow these simple rules?” he asks keeping the popcorn just out of my reach.
"Following directions has never been a strong point for me, but I think these are doable," I reply with a smirk.
"Good,” he says handing me the popcorn. He presses play and puts his arm around me. Twenty minutes into the movie, he starts snoring and I elbow him in his ribs, causing him to jump, sending his soda flying all over him.
"Well damn,” he says with a laugh, "I guess I deserved this."
"I'm so sorry," I reply grabbing a tissue to try and dry it off.
"Oh, don't worry about it. It's just a t-shirt, but I do need to change it,” he says with a smile. He begins to pull off his shirt and pauses, "I have a few tattoos, so don't freak out."
I sit there holding my breath as he takes off his shirt and then I can't help but gasp. Not only at the sight of him shirtless, but at the size of the tattoo sitting between his shoulder blades and all the way down his back.
"What?” he asks.
"When you said tattoos, I was thinking they would be a bit smaller, but this one alone almost covers your whole back. I never would have pictured you as a tatted up bad boy," I say covering the blush now burning my cheeks. He turns his head to look at me and my whole body reacts to the wicked grin on his face. I slowly reach up to touch it and pull my hand back.
"You can touch it,” he says with a wicked grin. The contact of my fingers on his skin makes him shiver.
"Is this a Caduceus?"
"Yeah, just modified,” he replies, his voice strained.
I slowly trace the contours, taking in every detail of the artwork in front of me. As I make a second pass over the middle of the tattoo, he shivers again.
"You keep that up and you just may find out just how much of a bad boy I really can be." Immediately I pull my hand away and close my eyes. The erratic beat of my heart is so loud I'm certain he can hear it.
I can feel the heat from the flush now covering my cheeks as he turns to me and pulls me into him. "Oh," I gasp.
"Now why did you retreat so quickly? Are you afraid of me?" I shake my head, feeling the warmth from my cheeks beginning to creep down my body. "My, what a lovely shade of red your face has turned,” he says looking down at me, trying to stifle his laughter. I pull away and cover my face with my hands. "Now why did you do that? It is really cute, and quite a turn on,” he says with that wicked grin once again crossing his lips. I look up into his soft green eyes and just smile, red cheeked and all. He shakes his head and laughs as he kisses my forehead. "Surely you've seen a man without his shirt before."
"Yes, but not one nearly as perfect as you," I reply shyly, laying my head on his chest.
"Sweetheart, I am far from perfect, and I have many flaws; one of them being my inability to leave you alone."
"I don't want you to leave me alone," I counter, far too quickly. He smiles and holds me tightly. I could die right now, in this very moment, and be perfectly content.
We laugh together as he holds me to him, my heart hammering out of my chest. In a rush to break the heat building within me I abruptly ask, "So, what exactly did you do in the Navy?"
He smiles, realizing what I'm doing and releases his grip on me. "I was a Navy corpsman, so basically a Marine with medical training. I went out into the field with them. I did everything that they did, rifle range and all, but I also had to take care of them if they got hurt or needed immunizations. I fought alongside them and if they got shot, I would run to them to save their life."
I can't help but to smile. A hero, that's what he is. He takes my hand and pulls me to him with a delicacy one would use holding a newborn baby. Leaning down he gently kisses my forehead.
"You know you’re more than welcome to stay here if you want."
"Thank you, but I don't think I should," I say laying my head back on the comfort of his chest.
"Okay, let me get another shirt on and we can get back to the movie."
I scoot off his lap and lean forward to grab the popcorn, hitting play on the remote. Brandon comes back in a tank top and I can't even concentrate on the movie, keeping my face forward I find my eyes constantly looking over at him. I see him smile out of the corner of my eye and I know I've been caught. "Screw it," I say facing him.
"What?” he asks.
"You're just too damn hot in that shirt. I can't even keep my eyes on the movie."
His eyes grow wide and he fights the smile on his lips. "And the truth finally comes out. I knew I was more than just cute,” he says with a smirk.
Smacking his arm I can't help but grin like an idiot. Brandon puts his arm around my shoulders and pulls me as close to him as he can. Lifting my head up, I softly kiss his neck and he sighs. "Are you trying to make me crazy, because if so, you’re succeeding?" Pulling me onto his lap he brings his forehead to mine, his lips only centimeters from mine. My heart hammers in my chest and my cheeks begin to blush. "What is it about you?” he whispers.
I smile because I feel the same way. In the past two weeks I've grown to feel something a bit more than like towards him. It could be love, but I don't feel like I'm ready to admit that. "I know what you mean. Brandon, I really like you and you have been nothing short of a miracle to me, but I'm damaged. I don't know what to feel or how to say what's on my mind."
Placing his hand behind my neck he leans forward. When his lips touch mine I melt, everything in the world disappears and he is all I can see. I pull back breathless, unable to speak or move and any sense of direction or purpose is gone. In a daze, I kiss him again, running my fingers through his hair. One lighter kiss and I pull away, looking at him and smiling. "I think I should go," I say trying to stand up.
"Please don't. I'll behave myself. I promise," he says. "I'll even go put on another shirt."
Sitting there looking up at him I try not to laugh. "Only if you behave," I say.
"Of course,” he says, getting up to put on another shirt.
After a few minutes, Brandon comes back out with an Alabama sweatshirt on. "Nice," I say patting the couch beside me.
"Can we please watch something else?” he asks.
Raising my eyebrows I ask, "What do you have in mind?" He smiles, gets up and goes over to the movie cabinet. He pulls out a movie, careful to hide the title from me and puts it in. "What movie is this?” I ask when he hits play.
"It's just a movie,” he replies with a smirk. I roll my eyes and lean my head against the couch. The movie begins and in an instant I recognize the music.
"Nerd," I say grabbing the popcorn.
"What can I say, that chicks pretty hot,” he replies.
"Ok, same rules apply to you. I don't want my ass compared to hers. Got it?"
He laughs and grabs my hand. "Okay, no reference to her great ass; got it." I smack his arm and rest my head on his shoulder. "You know Jasmine; she really doesn't have anything on you. Yeah she's pretty, but she unobtainable, and you're sitting right here with me."
Looking at him I don’t know what emotion to feel. I'm happy that he feels that way but then again, I don't know if I'll ever be enough.