CHAPTER SIXTEEN
Nikolas had another bad day. He wished he’d never complained about purposelessness to Ben. He was chained. That was it. He had nothing to do but think about the pain in his shoulders and wrists, his splitting headache from the concussion, the cold—and attempt to plan an escape. That last didn’t take him long because unless he could make some headway with Anna, this wasn’t going to happen. He was so cold and so bored when she finally made another appearance he almost meant what he greeted her with. Almost. “Anna, you came back. Thank you, thank God.”
“I’m not going to just leave you. Don’t be silly. Even though that’s exactly what you deserve.”
“Yes, I know, I’m really sorry. But it’s hard to be here—to have you see me like this.”
Anna set down a thermos and some wrapped sandwiches on the table. She’d clearly not thought through how he was going to use the thermos or how she was going to feed him the sandwiches safely. She hesitated, looking at him, and he continued his campaign. “Anna, can you stay for a while? Just sit and talk to me. Please.”
“If you’re rude again, I’ll just go.”
“I’m so sorry, Anna. I don’t want to be rude to you. I don’t want that at all. That’s what we were arguing about, you know—when you saw us. I told Ben I thought you were beautiful. I was so jealous of him, Anna.”
She put a hand up and tucked her hair nervously behind her ear. “That’s just silly. I must look awful. It’s very cold out.”
“It’s very cold in here, Anna, and I’m naked. Perhaps you could bring me some clothes next time you come. You could choose them for me. Something nice? I know you’d choose really well.”
“I don’t know…” She looked around as if admiring the décor then tentatively pushed the plate of sandwiches over to him. She frowned when he didn’t try to eat them.
“I can’t eat when you’re here, Anna. It would embarrass me for you to see me like that. I like you too much.”
“Oh, well…” She got up and walked around him to the back, looking at her handiwork. “I would’ve chained you in the front, but I didn’t think. This is how the police always handcuff people, isn’t it? If I’d planned it, I could’ve…I was so tired, dragging you, and then the boat, and it was so cold.”
“You did really well, Anna. Honestly. You did a really good job and kept Ben safe. Why don’t you unchain me, Anna, and we can keep Ben safe together?”
She drifted off toward the shelves then back to the table, twisting her fingers together, playing with her hair. Nikolas watched her like a hawk watching prey.
“I think they’ll find you soon.”
“Well, that’s good, Anna, no? You didn’t plan this, and you’ve looked after me really well. You’ve kept me safe, too. You’ve nothing to be afraid of when they find me. Why don’t you just tell them where I am? We can wait here together for them, then. We could enjoy your sandwiches and drink some coffee together. I’ll tell you some stories about Ben. Would you like to hear some stories about Ben, Anna? While we wait? Just tell—”
“Shut up! You’re lying, trying to trick me. I don’t know what to do.” She began to pace, still wringing her hands, walking to and fro then around Nikolas, then from one wall to another as if she were just as trapped as he. “You made me do this.” She came closer, almost shaking her fist. He stopped watching her and bowed his head, meekly kneeling.
“Anna, listen—”
“Stop staying Anna like that! Stop it! It’s all your fault. If you hadn’t hurt him, I could’ve—But I had to get you away. I didn’t know what to do with you! What am I going to do with you? You made me do this!” Suddenly, she was by the shelving unit. She picked up a hockey stick and came back, swinging it wildly. Nikolas was too cold and too stiff to move quickly enough to avoid it. It hit him full in the face and broke his nose. It flung him back, and the chains yanked his shoulders, almost dislocating them. He cried out, the blood pouring back into his throat, making him choke and spit. She came in again, hitting him hard on the side of his head. He felt himself greying out but fought it and got to his knees and then his feet.
On his feet, Aleksey Primakov wasn’t so easy to hurt. Every time she came at him, he kicked at the stick, catching the swings on his ankle and legs, but she was tiring and crying and telling him over and over it was all his fault. Finally, she sank to the ground, cradling the stick in her arms. He was panting so hard, trying to breathe through the blood and pain, he didn’t try to speak to her. He didn’t dare sink to the floor again, so he just squatted slowly and hung his head, concentrating on not passing out.
Eventually, he heard her stir, and straightened, rising painfully to his feet, a wave of nausea and dizziness making him stagger.
She looked up at him towering above her, a figure of skin and blood. “Not so talkative now, are you?”
“No.”
“Do you want these sandwiches, or not? I can’t just wait on you hand and foot, you know.” She slowly rose to her feet as well, considered the blood-covered hockey stick in her hands, and then very precisely replaced it on the shelf. “I have to go now. When I come back, we’ll have some coffee together, yes? Like you wanted.”
He didn’t reply. She nodded anyway then rolled the thermos over to him. He watched it settle at his bleeding feet, and then she was gone.
Very carefully, he eased himself to sitting. Adrenalin had worn off, and he was shivering very badly. He examined his legs. He was fairly sure one anklebone was chipped, and the joint was swollen already to almost twice its size. He was unable to run fast now so needed to factor that into his escape plans. He heard a bitter, choked laugh and realised it was his. What plans? So far, he’d only managed to piss the psychotic bitch off enough for her to beat him up. It would’ve been funny if it hadn’t been so painful. He began to wonder if his extensive experience of torture was, in fact, utterly useless. His victims hadn’t been tortured by a psychopath. As he’d once told Ben, he was the sanest person he knew. He’d tortured people because they required torturing. He hadn’t particularly enjoyed it (although some of it had its perks). He was completely sane; she was not.
He’d clearly gone about this all wrong.
When his nose stopped bleeding, he tried to eat the sandwiches, but he couldn’t bend over without feeling as if his brains were going to explode out of his nose, which was unnerving enough to endure the hunger. He was fairly sure she’d cracked his cheekbone as well because he couldn’t see out of his right eye. It left him unnervingly blindsided. But he found that interesting, as he appeared to be slightly short sighted in his left eye. He’d never noticed before. He played with that for a while, testing his vision on the things in the shed until the thrill wore off. He felt sick again. At least vomiting relieved the monotony of the pain and the cold. Clearly another severe blow to his head hadn’t helped his earlier concussion.
Eventually, he thought about the thermos. He’d dismissed it at first, being so handicapped with his hands behind his back, but by getting it secure in the folds of the blankets, he was able to grasp it quite easily. He even managed to screw the top off and set it back down. Then came the puzzle, how to actually drink the contents. He was desperate enough to knock it over and lick the coffee off the floor, despite the other spills surrounding him, but he wanted to leave that for a last option. Finally, he settled on grasping the thermos with his knees and then slowly rolling back until…scalding coffee poured all over him. He cursed and dropped the thermos, and that was when he had his first real glimmer of a plan. He picked it up between his feet and slammed it into the concrete floor. Pain shot through his damaged ankle, but the thermos didn’t break. He twisted around and got hold of it with his hands and then repeatedly smashed it, again and again. Who knew thermoses were so strong? But he didn’t have much else to do, so he continued. Unfortunately, the strain on his wrists where they were held tight in the shackles began to make them swell. He could feel the metal digging in, the skin rubbed raw and bleeding, but he continued to bash the thermos. Eventually, he reversed it and hit the open rim, and then it cracked. It was hardly dramatic, but he felt it. He increased the pressure, and finally it broke apart. He had a weapon and, more importantly, something he could use to rip the blankets. Now, though, his shoulders ached so much he could hardly move his arms, and his wrists were so swollen he couldn’t feel his hands, so it was very hard to get a blanket and a piece of glass and try to tear strips.
He couldn’t do it.
All he succeeded in doing was slashing his fingers with the glass until they became so slippery he couldn’t hold it. He had to stop. What was the point anyway? He saw now there was no chance he’d be able to fashion a rope and lasso a tool. And what would he do with one of the butchery tools anyway? He needed to remove the shackles, and he couldn’t see a hacksaw or use one if he could. He lay back on the filthy blanket and catalogued his new injuries.
It wasn’t looking good.
§ § §
Ben didn’t sleep that night. He replayed the interview at the police station. He wasn’t wallowing now in self-pity about their accusations. He knew who he was. He’d remembered what he was to Nikolas. He’d found himself again. Somehow, in the act of shaving his head, he’d rediscovered the person who’d first attracted Nikolas, who’d held that complex, enigmatic man captive all these years, held him orbiting his young lover like a moon around a planet of greater gravity. He was the centre of Nikolas’s life. He only replayed the interview to make his own list of people he’d met on Aeroe. It was more extensive than he’d thought.
There was Ingrid, of course. There was Alan Lund and his family. Alan had three sons, Jacob, Tomas and Otto. Jacob was married to Brigit. He’d met Hans the caretaker, and Ben mentally put a star alongside his name, because Hans also knew Nikolas, had, in fact, been working for the Mikkelsens before Nik was born, and Hans knew Ingrid. There was the library, Gabby, Amy, and the other librarians. He’d met the vet when he’d taken Radulf to check a sprain, but he couldn’t remember her name. He’d shopped extensively at the market and knew the stallholders by sight but not by name. He’d had a drink with the girl in the tourist information office once when she’d been in Alan Lund’s and recognised him. He knew the men who read Ingrid’s meter and fixed her boiler, but he’d only met them once, hardly likely to create the kind of psychosis that would lead to this. He couldn’t think of anyone else. There was the agent who’d rented them the lodge—but he’d only stood alongside Nikolas while the arrangement had been made. He couldn’t remember even speaking. They’d seen a couple of builders about the renovations…He mentally reviewed his list. Over twenty people. He tried to narrow it down and deleted people if he couldn’t remember their names or if he’d only met them once. Eleven people left. Had Nikolas met anyone he hadn’t? He’d been to his villa without Ben, met other builders possibly? There was Anna, the mystery girl in the restaurant, but Ben was fairly sure this had just been a joke. Perhaps all the women he’d met on Aeroe had known very well why he hadn’t taken up their offers of comfort. Maybe seeing him with Nikolas that night had only confirmed what they’d gossiped about together. It was not something he was comfortable considering. He didn’t like admitting to his best friend Squeezy that he was gay, let alone women he flirted with.
He fell into an uneasy sleep that wasn’t really sleep at all. He hadn’t eaten or slept normally since the day Nikolas had gone. All he did was dream. Fortunately, before he fell into one of his frightening, disturbing dreams, he felt someone shaking his arm and stirred, groggy and confused. “Mum?” His mother was standing over him. She was smiling and clasping her hands with delight. “I’ve found him for you, Benji. He’s safe.” Ben rose quickly from the bed and went out by the stream where it divided the garden from the moors. He felt disorientated, peering back up at the house looming above him, but then he remembered he was only four so of course the house would be bigger. Nikolas was standing looking up at the tor, idly dipping his toe into the pond they’d built. He turned when he heard Ben, crouched down and opened his arms. Ben sank into them and it was all warmth and security. Nikolas was rocking him and humming a song which was his mother’s favourite and which she’d sing to him every night before he went to sleep. Ben knew he should pull away, knew he should tell Nikolas he wasn’t a baby any more, that he didn’t need to be held so tightly—
Suddenly a knee jammed into his ribs, and he sat up with a cry.
Squeezy grunted and mumbled, “You wanking, Diesel? Shit,” and turned over.
Ben lay back very carefully. His heart was pounding. It’d been so real. He’d found Nikolas. His mother had found him. He swallowed deeply, biting his lip. You didn’t cry when you were sharing a bed with another man.
§ § §
In the morning, before the others arrived, he asked Ingrid, “Can I cross you off my list of possible suspects?”
“I think so, dear. I can’t even imagine what Aleksey would be like if you held him against his will. He’s bad enough when he’s being petted and spoiled by everyone. I suspect he’s rather cross by now.” She chuckled. “Oh, yes, whoever took him didn’t know him very well at all. Actually, if I was going into the kidnap business, I think I’d take you.” She patted his knee. “Well, after Radulf, of course.”
“So, you think he’s still al—I mean…”
“We can’t say, Ben. That’s for God to decide now.”
“He doesn’t believe in God.”
“Well, it’s a cliché, but let’s hope God believes in him. Now, I’m going to make you some breakfast, and you’re going to eat it. And didn’t we both think I’d never have to say those words? Is your oddly named friend up yet?”
Ben nodded. “He took Radulf out for a run about an hour ago. He said they had secret operational business to conduct.”
“Are you going back to the lake today?”
“What else can I do? I know it’s a complete waste of time, but if I don’t do it, I feel like he’d have been in just the next place if only we’d kept going.”
“Would it be quicker, perhaps, without the boat?”
“It’s too difficult to get to the abandoned places by vehicle. The snow has drifted too high on the tracks.”
She nodded and patted his arm again. Ineffectual, but welcome.
Ben made a call to Kate to give her the names on his list. He’d wanted to catch her before she left home, given the awkwardness of having Gabby’s name on as well. She had to be included for thoroughness, but he didn’t want her to see he’d done so. Kate apparently didn’t share his tact and asked him bluntly how long he’d known Gabby.
“Since I got here, why?”
“What do you actually know about her, Ben?”
“She’s a librarian?” He didn’t mean to imply what else is there to know, but Kate clearly took it this way and he heard a huff of annoyance. “I’m not sure I could have stayed in Denmark as long as I have without her. She hasn’t got any kids of her own. She’s adopted me, I think—honorary son. What’s wrong?” There was the slightest hesitation on Kate’s end. Ben heard Gabby’s cheerful greeting in the background, and Kate replied brightly, “Ignore me, see you later.”
Ben was about to tell her not to hang up, but he heard a loud noise outside and then some shouting. Ben and Ingrid opened the door and stared. Squeezy was straddled on the back of a snowmobile. He’d apparently had the same thought as Ben, what they were attempting to do needed better transport. Ben actually smiled. Squeezy shouted out for him to dress, and within a few minutes, they were on the one machine, heading back to where Squeezy had left Radulf at the hire shop. He’d rented two top-of-the-range sport utility snowmobiles, so instead of the cumbersome use of the boat—tying it up, the long walk from the lake to some of the properties, having to leave sheds that they could see but were just too far to reach—now they were truly mobile. The only problem was Radulf. As Squeezy pointed out, Daddybark was vital to the operation and mustn’t be left behind. Radulf solved the problem for Ben by jumping up onto the broad seat behind him and sitting there almost as happily as he did in his preferred vehicles. He fell off a few times when they hit very high snow banks, but he bravely extracted himself and loped alongside the vehicles until they stopped once more to pick him up.
By lunchtime, they’d covered three times the number of dwellings they’d done by the same time the previous day. They stopped for a brief lunch, which was desperately needed. They were consuming vast numbers of calories to fend off the cold and keep going at the rate they were. While they were waiting for their tins of stew to heat, Squeezy handed Ben a large bar of chocolate.
“So…” Ben rolled his eyes privately. He’d had a feeling this conversation mightn’t be over. “This fucking gay thing then. That something anyone can get into?”
“Huh?”
“Don’t get me fucking wrong, I’m not saying I’m thinking of becoming fucking gay, but if I wanted to get some of this action you reckon is so bloody good, like—when the bloody girlfriend’s not in the fucking mood,” he made unnecessary air-quotes, “what’s the way to go about it, like?”
Ben tipped his head to one side. “Seriously? You seriously just asked me that?”
“Ack, you pussy, don’t go all fucking gay on me. What’s the way to start, yeah? I mean, I guess you wouldn’t be up for―?”
“No.”
“Jeez, okay. And Mergers, when we find him, he wouldn’t―?”
“No.”
“Blimey, you’re not much of a mate, mate. So, maybe I’ll just fucking try it on one night in a pub. Chance my arm, like.”
Ben had an evil thought. “Your ethical stance needs improving.”
“My fucking what when it’s at home?”
Ben ignored him, deep in his misery again. He eased the tins of food off the stove and handed one to the other man. If they weren’t hot enough—well they’d just have to do. He couldn’t bear not to be moving forward, one more shed, one more house. He consulted his maps as they ate, pushing down the horrible thought he was just completely wasting his time.
§ § §
Nikolas woke from a painful sleep. He couldn’t breathe. His nose was completely out of action and his throat swollen from vomit and dehydration. He pulled his knees up to his chest and concentrated on not panicking, just slowly getting some air in and out. He felt himself drifting off again, his body unable to combat the cold, blood loss, and pain. The metal shackles had dug into his swollen wrists so much now he couldn’t feel his fingers at all. Through his pain and slow slide into nothingness, he heard a noise…engines in the distance, a two-stroke whine dipping in and out. He climbed to his knees in agony and tried to shout, but it only came out as a croak. The noise faded, but the door swung open, and a brilliant white light flooded the room. He squinted against it and saw Ben, hair flowing freely like a halo around his head. Ben smiled but didn’t speak. He came over and embraced Nikolas, lifting him effortlessly. They were just about to leave together, to where all light came from, when the door slammed open and Anna came in.
Nikolas jerked awake. He could see the intense bright light of freedom from the open door. Dream and reality were too confused to separate now.
“I have to move you. Oh, God.” She came closer, then backed away. Then she went outside and came back with a bucket.
Nikolas tried to rise to his knees. He refused to meet her lying down, but his body betrayed him. He was too weak to get up. She came closer with the bucket. He had the bizarre thought she was going to try and stuff him in it to move him. She upended it over him. Freezing lake water cascaded down around him, chunks of ice raining down upon him. He gasped, initially revived, lapping clumsily at the puddles on the floor, desperate for the water. Then he started to shake—badly. She nipped closer and yanked away his blankets and the mat. She went out, refilled the bucket and came back and repeated his soaking. He couldn’t speak, his teeth were rattling. His extremities began to shut down as blood drained desperately to his heart and other vital organs to keep them warm. When she was satisfied, she came closer, circling him and then knelt behind him and began to unfasten the shackles. They were very hard to remove because his wrists were swollen into them, but she ripped them off eventually.
For the first time since he’d been taken, Nikolas was completely free.
He lay on the ground, shaking, with his arms still in their fixed position behind. He couldn’t get them to move, couldn’t feel his hands. He was confused and so cold he just wanted to curl up and go to sleep. But he didn’t. He watched her with his one good eye as she rose from her knees and went to her bag. She produced a roll of electrical tape and came back to him, clearly planning to strap up his wrists again. She knelt behind him, his window of opportunity disappearing as he lay helpless. But then she cursed slightly and frowned. She couldn’t find the end of the tape. It was a bizarrely ordinary moment in such extraordinary circumstances. She ran her thumb around the roll, trying to feel where it ended, but it was so cold in the shed her hands appeared to have become numb and unfeeling. She picked at the tape ineffectually. All this time, of course, Nikolas was free.
He closed his eyes briefly. He had three options. He could go for the door and the beautiful freedom that lay beyond. He could go for the tool bench and try to arm himself. Or he could go for her. He was Aleksey Primakov, he went for her. He flung himself over onto his back, crying out at the pain in his frozen arms. She was knocked off-balance—and he was on her. He managed to bring one arm forward and grab her ankle—just that, but he held on, wrapping himself around that one lifeline. She kicked at him with her free leg, but he ducked his face away and let the blows land on his skull and shoulders. She began to beat at him with her hands, but he wouldn’t let go.
Suddenly, she seemed to realise the terrible predicament she was in. He was not going to release her. She was now the one trapped. Slowly, he began to work his way up her body, dragging himself on her clothing until he could pin her down with his weight. She wriggled, gasping and crying in the filth on the floor. He just carried on, inexorably, until they lay in a grotesque parody of sex, he vast and naked above her, she wriggling and screaming beneath. He lifted his head. Perhaps she thought he was going to kiss her, because for one moment she almost looked coy, relieved, but he came down at her throat—and bit. She screamed, but he held on, his jaws eager and very strong.
Flailing, her hand found his shard of glass. She fastened onto it and brought it down on him—hard. It went into his shoulder. He cried out and released her throat, trying to flinch away. She heaved it out and brought it down again, trying to get his neck but caught him in the back as he lifted his arm to deflect the blow. He cried out again and let her go. It was enough. She kicked free and crawled away.
And then she made her greatest error.
She had three options, too—the same three he’d had, but instead of going back for him and finishing him off while he was weak, or going for a weapon, she chose freedom and the beautiful light and purity outside the hideousness of the killing shed. He watched her stagger outside, heard her car start and knew he had to move and keep moving. She’d be back. Once she’d realised her mistake and saw she had the upper hand again, she’d come back. This time, he wouldn’t be strong enough to fight her. He began to drag himself across the floor, sliding on his own blood. He reached the blessed light. He held onto the doorframe and dragged up to his feet. He staggered outside into the blinding intensity of the fresh snow, and then he saw her. She was sitting in her car at the end of the track. She’d seen him as well. He began to stagger toward the lake. He pictured himself falling into its icy waters where she couldn’t follow. He fell in the snow and dragged himself along, leaving a bright, wide smear of red on the virgin white. He glanced behind, and she was there—standing over him.
She was holding her throat with one hand, an expression of horror on her face, blood seeping between her fingers. And in her other hand she held a tyre iron. She looked down at him. “You’re a very bad man.”
He turned on his back, staring up at the perfect blue sky. “Yes, I am. And you’re a cunt.” With that, she lifted the iron bar and swung it at his head.
Something came out of the snow and caught her arm. She gasped and flung it off, swinging the iron bar at it. It squealed in pain and flailed in the snow, but then it came back before she could hit Nikolas. She hit it again, but it was quicker this time and twisted away, landing on its feet, a massive creature of standing fur and snarl and savage muzzle. She tried to back away a little, raising the tyre iron once more, but it was a fatal move. The thing lunged. It caught her bloodied throat and had her down in the snow. Then it stood on her—and ripped. She hit it again and again and something broke, but it didn’t let go. She flailed once more, weakly trying to lift the bar, but it bit deeper. It ripped and tore, and her throat came away in its mouth. It continued to chew as she lay staring sightlessly up at vast sky above them.
Finally, the creature staggered away from the body, its face caked with blood. It fell on its side, panting and whining for a moment, but then it stood and limped slowly over to Nikolas. He twitched his fingers, which was all he could do, and Radulf came and stood over him. Putting his head back, he let out an ear-piercing volley of barks into the still, silent day. He kept it up until they could hear the sound of engines, and then he allowed himself to fall alongside his human. Nikolas couldn’t see him or feel his failing warmth as the sound of the engines grew closer.