I spilled myself inside her. Our breaths mingled, my body chocked to the extent of being dazed. All I knew and all I could think about was my cock inside her, filling her up. The warmth and tightness of her pussy. I shook as I came, till every last drop of my cum was in her.

I pulled out, panting and out of breath, and I stumbled away from the bed.

What had we done! Now I could see Jessie stretched out on the bed, and then she folded herself up. She was embarrassed, now that the pleasant haze of our orgasms had passed.

The first thing I did was to quickly pick up my pants and slide them back on. I hurried to the bathroom without a word and brought her a towel. She took it from me, taking care to hide her breasts with the covers. I knew what she tasted like now. How could any woman be good enough after this?

What was I supposed to say? Did she want me to apologize?

I turned from her while she dabbed herself with the towel.

I gave her some time and privacy, while I put my shirt on.

“You can turn now, Leo.” I heard her say. Jessie had put on her clothes again and was patting down her silky ruffled hair.

I sighed, clenching my jaws as I pushed my hands into my pockets.

“This shouldn’t have happened.” I said, keeping my voice low.

Jessie’s eyes were reddish, and her mouth was firmly set. She was trying to keep her chin up, maintain some dignity.

“Yeah, it shouldn’t have happened, but it did.” she replied.

“I’m sorry about all this, Jessie. It’s all my fault. I shouldn’t have kissed you at the interview, and I definitely shouldn’t have taken advantage of our situation.” I growled. I was angry with myself.

If this act now ruined our relationship, I would never be able to forgive myself.

“You didn’t take advantage of me, Leo. You gave me every opportunity to change my mind or push you away. It’s my fault that I didn’t.” she replied. Swinging her legs over the edge of the bed, Jessie walked over to the long gilded mirror in the corner of my bedroom. She peered into it, fixing her hair and her dress.

“So, what now?” I asked. She looked at me in the mirror.

“Nothing. We go on as it is. Nothing’s really changed, has it?”

I shrugged.

Everything felt different now. I was inside her. I felt her body move. I could still feel the stickiness of her juices on my fingers. How were we supposed to just go on like before?

“I guess you’re right.” I told her.

Jessie turned to me.

“You look sad.” she said.

I couldn’t keep looking at her, I had to look away.

“Sometimes I wonder if I did do something wrong. If I deserve what’s happening to me. If I mistreated Kylie in some way if I hurt her…then what I’m doing here is wrong.” I said. This thought had been eating away at me. This might not have been the appropriate time to bring it up, but there was nobody else I could talk to about this.

Jessie sighed and walked closer to me, being mindful of keeping her distance.

“It’s true, Leo, that you’re a womanizing ambitious man. You sleep around, and the truth is you break many hearts. But I know you, and I know you make it very clear to these women right at the start that you’re not looking for anything serious.” she said.

“I told Kylie before I slept with her the first time, that I couldn’t commit to anything.” I reiterated.

“Exactly. And yet she decided to sleep with you. When you stopped calling her, she got pissed off and started spreading these rumors about you. I guess I would have sympathized with her if you had actually made promises to her, or lead her on. But you didn’t, and now this is ruining your life.” Jessie continued.

“I don’t know why you’re so good to me, Jess. I don’t deserve you!” I couldn’t help but act on this wave of emotion coursing through my veins.

“Because I know you, and I know who you are.” she replied.

For a moment I thought she was going to reach for me, touch me, but she turned from me instead.

“Jessie! Fuck. Should we talk about this?”

“Talk about what?” she asked casually, walking to the door.

“About what just happened.”

“You said it yourself, we didn’t do anything extraordinary. Just something every couple does. It’ll be easy to forget about once we annul the marriage.” she replied.

I nodded.

So, she was looking forward to the annulment. How could I stop her from feeling that way? This wasn’t a real marriage at all. Having sex once didn’t change anything.

“I should go check on the pasta. Do you want some?” she asked.

I couldn’t be in the house. Not with her around, not while I had to watch her and curse myself for what I’d done. I felt like I would explode if I had to look into her eyes.

“No, I’m going out.” I told her instead.

Jessie nodded and then she went away to the kitchen.

Fuck fuck fuck

I groaned loudly, throwing myself back on the bed. I stared up at the ceiling. I could kick myself.

As if things weren’t awkward enough between us, now it was going to get worse. But as I lay there, within the sheets of where she’d been lying some moments ago…I thought I could smell her.

I breathed in her scent, imagining my mouth on her breasts again, my finger sliding inside her pussy, pushing her juicy folds aside. My cock moved in my pants again.

Dammit!

I jumped out of bed before I did something stupid again.