Chapter Ten
What have I done?
Oh God. Ryan! The only time I thought about him was when I tried to use him as a verbal weapon against Landyn that evidently backfired because here I was, laid out like a slut on his desk.
And Layla? Ugh!
Twenty minutes! It only took him twenty minutes to get me naked and he’s still inside me! On a desk!
I’m no better than Destiny!
I squeezed my eyes shut. I refused to see the satisfaction on his face when I started crying.
“Yeah,” he said arrogantly while pulling out of me to stand up. “Tell me again the past doesn’t matter.”
I shot off the desk and snatched up my clothes. I hurried to dress and as soon as I finished, I turned and met Landyn’s eyes. All he had to do was zip up his pants and put on his shirt. He never even fully undressed which disgusted me further.
“Everything you just said to me was a trick, wasn’t it? About you missing me? You just had sex with me to prove a point, didn’t you?” I asked sadly, already knowing the answer.
His face gave nothing away, but his words did. “When you go home and explain this to your Ryan, at least you’ll find out just how I felt six years ago when I tried to explain things to you. Hopefully he’ll leave you like you left me,” he said spitefully.
I felt like I was about to choke. I wrapped a hand around my throat and nearly clawed through it just to get the lump out.
“What?” I breathed out the question unsteadily. He continued, “I’d bet every possession I owned that he can’t make you lick your lips or get you off like I can. If he could you wouldn’t have given it up so easily.”
I was going to be sick.
“You son of a bitch. I can’t believe I just let you hurt me again,” I said in a embarrassingly tortured voice. “I hate you.”
“Nothing new there,” he responded swiftly and mockingly.
I fought against the tears threatening to make an appearance. I sucked in just enough air to speak again. “Layla and I will meet you at the park across from my complex tomorrow at five o’clock. You can spend time with her any way you want and I’ll keep my distance, but I will be there. Just please, for Layla’s sake, pretend that you at least like me. I’ll do the same.” I paused for a second trying to make sense of my chaotic thoughts.
“Just so you know, Ryan won’t be finding out about my sickening error in judgment. If you open your mouth, I’ll lie. Who would believe the asshole that everyone knows ripped out my heart. I’ll even make sure everyone finds out that I was pregnant when you did it too,” I sneered at him, my words filled with bitterness.
I didn’t stay to see his reaction. I stormed out the door.
By the time I made it to my truck after being thrown several smirks from Landyn’s employees I was near hysterics.
I’m such an idiot!
I was trying wildly to get the key in the lock of my truck when two bulky arms wrapped around my body and twisted me so my back was pushed against the truck. Landyn pressed fully against me and rested his forehead on my shoulder; against my neck. “Lexi, baby...” he started in his sweet, deep voice, that held a hint of pain, but I cut off the speech that was coming and struggled to push him away.
“Fuck off Landyn. You’ve caused me enough pain to last the rest of my life. It will last the rest of my life,” I raged. I pushed harder, but his arms only squeezed tighter.
“Baby, I didn’t mean what I said. I want to hate you so damn much for keeping my daughter from me. I want to hate you for ever leaving me in the first fucking place and it pisses me off that I can’t. Please just stop crying.”
I shook my head. “I don’t want to talk about this Landyn, just forget it ever happened. I promise it won’t happen again.”
He lifted his head and his expression was that of disappointment. He stared into my eyes as his thumbs caressed my temples. “Not five minutes ago you were calling me ‘Lan’ when I was inside you. Don’t call me Landyn again, baby.”
I gasped. “Excuse me?” I whispered, completely stunned. I never realized I had been calling Lan. I screwed up and my pride took a major hit.
He ignored me.
“I’ll see you and Layla tomorrow at five. You and me, we’ll talk after.” He leaned in without warning and gave me a deliciously wet kiss right before demanding, “No more Ryan. Get rid of him.”
I was too distracted by the kiss, and all that was messed up in my life to respond right away.
He started to turn and walk away, but I grabbed frantically at his arm to stop him. “Landyn, don’t do this. Please don’t do this. What happened in your office never should have happened.” I got quiet for a moment; processing.
“That was just the closure we never had,” I said gently. It was the only stupid excuse that I could think of off the top of my head.
His response was to cup my cheeks with his hands. “There will never be closure between us Lexi. Now that I know about Layla, I’m never letting you out of my life, and that’s a promise.” He dropped his hands, turned and disappeared back into the bar.
Fuck me!