I couldn’t remember a time I’d been so nervous. Sure, I’d yanked off my clothes bold as brass but inside I was anxious. Just because I’d never inserted part A into part B didn’t mean I’d never fooled around before. But this felt different. I hadn’t asked but I assumed Colin was well and thoroughly experienced when it came to sex. I was so worried I wasn’t even sure where to put my hands.

“Relax,” he murmured in my ear before he placed a soft kiss on my neck. “We’re gonna take this nice and slow.” His tongue trailed down the side of my neck, over my collarbone, and down the slope of my boob. “I want to taste every inch of you.”

Oh, Lord.

He continued his exploration, licking around one areola then the other. I jolted when his hand moved from my hip, his thumb traced the crease of my panty line, or what would have been, had I been wearing any.

“Easy, sunshine. We’re goin’ slow, remember?”

“Uh huh.”

Colin’s hand hadn’t moved, but his mouth did. He sucked and nibbled and licked all around my breasts and down to my stomach. When his tongue dipped into my bellybutton, I lifted my hips, causing his hand to slip farther between my thighs.

“Touch me.”

“Not yet.”

His torturous exploration of my body seemed to go on for hours. His hands and mouth seemed to touch me everywhere but where I wanted him to. I finally had enough and wrapped my hand around his wrist and tried to bring it to where I needed it.

“Spread your legs wider,” he told me but didn’t allow me to force his hand. “Put your leg over my hip, sunshine. I want you completely open.”

I was way past being embarrassed and immediately put my leg over his hip, giving him full access to my most private parts.

As his hand slid closer to my core, he whispered, “Are you sure?”

“Yes.”

“Kiss me, Erin.” His throaty demand sent shivers down my arms.

I was so lost in the magic I felt when our lips connected, it took me a moment to register his finger was gliding up and down my slit until he circled my wetness and pushed in.

“Holy—”

He pulled the digit out and slid two back in. My grip around his wrist tightened and my nails dug in. I needed something to hold onto. Something to ground myself as he envoked a riot of sensations. I lifted my head until my mouth latched onto his neck. He tilted his head, giving me better access. I kissed every part I could reach as his fingers stroked faster.

“Oh, God,” I moaned. “More.” I lifted my ass off the bed, trying to get his fingers deeper.

He twisted his hand and rubbed along the top of my inner muscles and added his thumb to my clit. The added stimulation had me biting down on his neck.

“Christ,” he groaned but made no move to make me stop abusing his skin.

I fought the urge to close my legs as the tingling began, and heat started to spread over my entire body.

“That’s it, Erin. You’re almost there.”

“I can’t.”

I started to close my legs, trying to ward off the explosion that was building.

“You can, baby. You’re there. I can feel it. Let go.”

His thumb pressed down harder, and my hips bucked. It was too late, I couldn’t stop it. I screwed my eyes closed and let the orgasm take over.

“Damn. So, so, pretty.” He was slowing his movements, bringing me back to earth, and before I was ready his hand disappeared from between my legs and his fingers were in his mouth. “You taste just as good as I knew you would.” I must’ve looked shocked he’d sucked my essence off his fingers, well, because I was, but his chuckle confirmed he’d seen my surprise.

“Kiss me, Colin.”

“Kinky,” he whispered and brushed his lips against mine. “Wanna taste yourself on my tongue, do ya?”

I didn’t bother answering, instead, I took what I wanted and licked the seam of his lips until he opened. I would be perfectly happy lying in his arms kissing him for the rest of my life.

Whoa. Where did that come from? It was too soon to be thinking about the rest of my life. But there it was, niggling in the back of my mind. Colin was everything I’d hoped to find in the man I’d share my life with.

All too soon he broke away, kissing the corner of my mouth, then my forehead, and tucked me close to his side.

“It’s been a long day, we should get some sleep.”

“What about you?”

“What about me?”

“You didn’t—”

“Sunshine, all I need is this. You in my arms, relaxed, and ready for a good night’s sleep.”

I cuddled in closer and willed my tears not to come. I’d never felt more safe and secure in all my life. Not even when I was a teenager living behind a tall metal gate with armed men standing guard.