Listening to the door close behind him, he knew without a doubt that he didn't have the strength to tell her no. He might stick to his guns for the next hour or so, but by the time his shift was over, he would stop by the small grocery store and he would be on his way to her house.

Whatever had happened between her and Cade wasn't as damning as what he'd done. Some part of him was thrilled that she was stepping over the lines with the intern. It would be a great lesson in how quickly that type of shit could happen. Would she have paid the kid attention if she and Simon were still locked into a strong relationship?

"Who knows," he mumbled and forced himself to focus on the rest of his shift. He was now a doctor firstly and a husband secondly. The future only seemed to hold one of those positions, so he would have to cater to that one each time.

The rest of the afternoon went off without a hitch, him and Julie working side by side on several ER cases and even talking for a few minutes about the scholarship he'd been made the namesake on. She was thrilled and he could feel the genuine warmth coming off of her.

Cade was never too far behind her, but he seemed to be keeping his distance, as if she warned him back a little. It was good and bad. Simon was too tired to analyze it by the time his shift was over. He grabbed his bag and walked by her office to find her alone.

"Hey." He leaned against the doorframe and watched her intently.

"Hey yourself. Great job today."

"You too. My shoulders hurt like hell though."

"Need a massage?" She glanced up with what looked like hope in her eyes.

He needed to see it. "Yeah. I'll pick up the stuff and see you in an hour if you're still up for it." He licked at his lips absently.

"I am. I want you there. I need to explain all of this." She lifted her hands as her sweet face showed a small fragment of the pain she must have been feeling.

"Good. I need to talk with you about a lot of things too, Julie. There's so much more going on behind the scenes than we're ready to deal with." He moved from his reclining position. "I'll see you shortly. Be careful."

"Okay." She nodded.

He turned and walked down the hall, passing Cade and never giving the boy a glance. He was headed to see Julie no doubt, but it didn't matter. She would have to make a decision where they were both concerned and only she could make that decision.

He pulled out his phone and texted Charity, letting her know that he was headed to Jules’ for the evening. He asked for a prayer and a bit of advice. The pretty blond shot him a note back immediately.

Charity: You stole her heart once, Simon. Do it again. Only you've been successful at it in the last twenty years. Do it again.

Simon: I hope I can.

Charity: I know you can. You know why?

Simon: Why's that?

Charity: Because you're a man in love. Those guys are nuts! They are willing to do...

Simon: Anything?

Charity: Anything.

He chuckled and tucked the phone back into his pocket. He was lucky to have such good friends that would weather the storm with him. He had no clue of what was to come with the mess he'd made, but he believed things were about to get better... whatever that meant.

 

 

Nervousness rolled through him like he was on a first date as he knocked on the door to the house. The large bag of groceries was in one hand and Julie's favorite bottle of red wine in the other. He hit the door with his elbow and waited until she opened it.

The soft white cotton dress she wore was by far one of his favorites. It left little to the imagination and hugged her beautifully. Her long brown hair was down around her shoulders and her feet bare. He stifled a groan at how much he wanted to drop the shit in his arms and take her to the bedroom immediately.

"Wow," he mumbled and moved past her, turning his head to get a close up view. "You never seem to amaze me with how incredibly gorgeous you are."

"Flattery will get you nowhere." She laughed and took the wine before leading him into the kitchen. “But food… wine… maybe...”

The light shadow that played across the back of her dress highlighted the edge of her panties, the G-string disappeared just between the beautiful curves of her ass. He set the stuff down and reached for her, pulling her close and bunching up the dress as he groped her rear. "You're teasing me with this outfit. I'm so hard I could break something... like you." He leaned down and brushed his lips across hers before kissing her more fully. He wedged his tongue into her mouth and moved his fingers until the dress was bunched up at the small of her back. He slid his hands over her soft skin, petting and squeezing as he continued to kiss her with all of himself.

"I need you," he whispered. "I need to be buried inside of you."

"Yes," she whispered and set the wine down before pulling at his shirt and moving back. "Didn't you want to eat and talk?"

"After. It can wait. I can’t." He pulled his shirt off and reached for her, pulling her in close.

She kissed him once before moving down his chest to his stomach.

"No. Don't, baby. I want to hold you and make love to you." He tugged at her arms.

"Shut up. I get to do what I want to do." She bit her lip and worked at his pants before sliding them over his hips and smiling up at him. "I love your cock."

He chuckled and took hold of it, angling it toward her mouth and sliding his fingers into her hair with his free hand. "Yeah? Show me..."

“I want you to face fuck me.”

He nearly came at her shocking words. They hadn't been dirty with one another in years, but he missed it insanely so. He tugged at her hair and watched as her pretty pink lips spread around his thickness. He was too big for most women he had before Julie, but she took him beautifully... everywhere.

A groan left him and he took a shallow breath as she swatted his hands away. She took control of him, her fingers playing with his sack and squeezing the base of him so tightly as her tongue bathed every other part of him.

"Oh fuck, you look so good. I didn't think I would ever..." His voice broke and she pulled back, looking up and pinning him with a stare.

"No! No talking about anything but fucking right now. I don't want additional emotion. I want pleasure. I want to taste your pleasure. If you can't stay away from our pain... you don't get to talk." She glanced back down at his midsection and stroked him a few times before taking him back into her mouth.

The sweet gagging sounds mixed with her moans threw him over the edge a few minutes later. He gripped the counter, releasing into the pretty girl below him, and hard.

She groaned and drank him down, licking and sucking as if her life depended on it.

"So good, baby. Insane." He reached down and tugged her up, kissing her hard before bending down and picking her up.

"I love the way you taste." She licked at her lips and reached up, wrapping her hand around his neck and pulling him down.

He wanted to ask if she had a comparison to anyone else, but left it alone. Whatever happened between her and Cade was her business. Hopefully it was an event that would never happen again.

"It's my turn." He licked at her pretty mouth and turned the last corner to their bedroom.

"No. You got to the other day. I want sex. Lots of it," she growled and he dropped her on the bed.

"Turn over and let me see your ass." He pushed at her hip, his body throbbing for more of her.

"Yeah... both. Take me in both." She turned and lifted her ass in the air as her hands stretched out on the bed in front of her.

"Anything you want, kitten." He pushed her skirt over her hips and leaned down, running his tongue along the curve of her ass before catching the string of her panties in his teeth. He tugged them down as she groaned into the bed.

Standing up, he stroked himself once and reached out with his other hand to run his fingers past her holes, pressing softly against each with a different digit. She pushed back and his fingers slipped inside of her as she let out a shaky sound of relief.

"You need a good hard fucking, baby. You're trembling." He rolled his fingers in and out of her until she was sloppy, her pants and groans telling him she was beyond ready.

Simon tugged her up to her knees and pulled the dress over her head before taking her chin and turning her to look back at him. He positioned himself to enter her backside and pressed his lips to hers as he thrusted into her.

She cried out and he wedged himself inside of her before releasing her face. "Bend over and take it like the good girl you are, Jules."

He slid his hand up her back, bending her back over as he worked himself in and out of her tightness with precision. Leaning over, he pressed wet kisses and licks to her back and slid his hand between the soft skin of her sex, rimming her entrance and slipping a digit in every few seconds, which caused her to jerk her hips forward and tighten.

He groaned and pulled out, his body throbbing for release far too soon. Hitting his knees, he pulled her back and pressed his mouth to her swollen flesh, sucking and licking at it as she worked herself against him.

Their sex was good, but this was beyond great. This was the sort of stuff they did when they first met, when life was about love, grades and long nights of outdoing each other on orgasm control.

"I'm gonna come," she groaned and sank down further as he pulled back and patted her ass.

"Not yet, you're not. Not until I tell you to."

She whimpered and he smiled before plunging himself deep into her welcoming wetness. She undulated against him, bobbing back as she took her pleasure from him.

The sound of her scream ripping through the air forced him to breathe in deeply and find his center. He didn't want to end their night just yet. He wanted to play with her, to bring her to orgasm until she was a fucking sloppy mess. She needed to remember all that he could do to her. He hadn't ever forgotten how good she could be to him.

He pulled out and slid back into her ass, rocking against her as she came again. She tightened and tucked her pelvis under, pulling at his cock as she moved violently.

"That's it, baby. Take what you need." Simon rubbed her ass and pulled out, moving down a little and entering her again. He took turns in all the openings she afforded him, working her until she was trembling and whimpering loudly.

"Come, Simon. I need to know I'm good enough."

"Are you fucking kidding me? My balls are having spasms because of your goodness." He smiled and slid his hands up her back before pulling out and jerking her onto her back. Her beautiful breasts bounced as if trying to get his attention.

He ran his hand down her tight stomach and licked his lips. "You're the most beautiful woman I have ever seen. Hear me when I tell you that if this ends between us... I will never ever get over you."

Pressing his hips forward, he sunk down into her until he couldn't go any further. Flattening himself to the front of her, he wrapped his arms around her and pressed his lips to hers as his body exploded. He jerked his hips as fast as he could, losing himself in the pleasure of just being with her.

"Take all you need, Simon. Take everything I have... just don't leave." She pressed kisses to his neck as he continued to milk himself deep inside of her.

Her words caused tears to fill his eyes and he tucked his face against her neck as a sob left him. She held him against her, crying with him until he was too tired to move.

"We can work this out... right?" she asked.

"I think so. Long road ahead, but I want it. I want you. Only you."