THE FIRE
THERE WAS FAR TOO MUCH ANGER IN THE AIR. FAR too much hatred.
Such emotions made it difficult to think rationally. Not that actual sense seemed of import to any of the brash fools present.
Omar al-Sadiq frowned at the gathering of men in his tent.
Frowned and remained silent.
Their war council was not going well. It was clear there was too much at stake for all involved.
Nevertheless, Omar listened as Reza bin-Latief shared reports about the boy-king of Khorasan. His peculiar disappearances. And the sorry state of his ravaged kingdom.
Many of the caliph’s Royal Guards had died the night of the terrible storm. A large portion of his standing army had either perished or fled Rey. Now Khalid Ibn al-Rashid was calling on his bannermen to help rebuild and refortify the city.
Rey—and its ruler—were vulnerable.
At this revelation, a collective outcry arose from many of the young men present.
“Now is the time. We must strike at the heart of Khorasan!”
“Kill the bastard while he is weak!”
“Why are we sitting here idling about? We should attack the city with all haste!”
Omar’s frown deepened. Still he said nothing. He did not so much as move from his cushioned seat in the corner. Even while he witnessed the clamor rise to a feverish pitch.
It did not behoove Omar or his people to raise objections now. It was best for him to remain unseen and unconcerned. A casual observer of this crisis. Omar did not yet have all the facts. And he needed to know more about the war that would likely transpire at his border.
The war that might put his people at risk.
The request Omar had recently made of Reza had not been met with glad tidings. Only moments before, he’d asked Reza to remove his soldiers from the borders of Omar’s camp. This was to be the last war council in his tent. His last chance to witness the seeds of this discord. He’d already risked too much by assisting them with the provision of horses and weapons.
The Badawi people could not be associated with this uprising. Not yet.
Not when Omar had yet to choose which side to take.
It was true he felt genuine affection for the young sahib Tariq and his uncle Reza bin-Latief. But Aisha continued to warn him that neither of these men was to be trusted. One was lovelorn and reckless. The other hid behind secrets and sellswords.
And when it came to such things, his wife was never wrong.
The outcry around him grew even more uncontrolled, tearing Omar from his musings. The soldiers stamped their feet and waved their arms in the air, demanding to be heard.
Finally Reza stepped into the center of the tent.
At his flank stood two hooded soldiers, muscled and menacing. When a surge of men moved forward, the lackey to Reza’s right barreled into their path, a hand on the hilt of his scimitar.
The scarab brand on the soldier’s forearm flashed into view for an instant.
The mark of the Fida’i.
Omar leaned farther back into his cushions and ran his fingers along his beard.
Hired assassins. In his camp. Aisha was right. Such a thing could not be tolerated beyond tonight. His family. His people. There was simply too much at risk.
“My friends!” Reza raised both hands in the air, awaiting silence. “Though it may seem that now is the best time to attack Rey, it will all be for naught if we fail to secure the border between Khorasan and Parthia first. We must seize control of the lands between the two kingdoms, so that we may have strongholds we can rely on for supplies. I urge you to temper your rage—at least for the time being.” A smile coiled up one side of his face. “Save it for when it is most needed. For when justice will finally be served on the boy who dares to call himself a king.”
The cheers began anew. Frenzied in their fury.
Omar toyed with his mustache and swallowed a sigh.
His list of questions for Reza grew with each passing moment. For it had not escaped Omar’s notice that Reza seemed disturbingly at ease with warmongering. As well as ever-flush with gold. Alas, the identity of Reza’s nameless benefactor continued to elude Omar.
To deepen his suspicions.
The presence of Fida’i in Omar’s camp only made matters worse. As did the recent attack on the Calipha of Khorasan. Especially since Omar had not been granted the courtesy of meting out justice. Not even on his own land.
Omar refused to lose control. The calipha and her family were his guests. These were his lands. His people.
He wanted Reza’s men out of his camp. He wanted to keep those in his charge safe. It pained him greatly that he did not yet know from whom.
As he glanced across the way, Omar saw another face sporting a frown to match his own. Though he’d noticed this face for its troubled silence earlier, it rather surprised him now. For it was a face that failed to conceal its confusion . . . and the many questions lurking beneath.
The frowning boy stood in a place of esteem on Reza’s far right. He did not partake in the angry revelry. He did not say a word. Nor did he seem pleased with the news that his enemy’s position had weakened.
When Omar leaned forward to study the tang in the air between the boy and his uncle, he sensed brewing consternation. A strange uncertainty.
Perhaps a struggle for power. Or a lack of understanding.
Omar should speak to Tariq Imran al-Ziyad soon.
This had been a poor decision on Shahrzad’s part.
But it was too late now. If she left, the whispers would trail after her. The vitriol would spew in her wake.
Her escape would prove their point. Would prove she was afraid of them.
That their stares and their hatred had taken root.
Fear was a currency these soldiers understood well. A currency Shahrzad could ill afford at this time. Especially if she wanted to learn how best to sneak through the camp tomorrow night. And make her way to Musa Zaragoza.
So she sat with her feet to the fire. With a multitude of eyes glowing like embers in her direction. Like circling wolves, awaiting their alpha’s command.
Shahrzad’s gaze drifted around the ring of men seated near the crackling flames. Drifted past them to note the position of the sentries posted about the camp. Their position and their number. How often they wandered past.
The flickering flames threw everything into chaotic relief. Into distorted patterns of light and shadow.
Shadow that would hold her secrets. She hoped.
Irsa’s left knee bounced at a feverish pace, her chin in her palm and her fingers tapping her cheek. “We should go.”
“No.” Shahrzad did not move her lips, nor did she look her sister’s way. “Not yet.”
A steady stream of men trickled from the sheikh’s tent toward the immense blaze in the center of the encampment. As they took their places beside the fire, the men passed around pitchers of spiced wine with a liberal ease—an ease that spoke of recent discord and a pressing need to forget.
Apparently their war council had not gone well. And though Shahrzad was eager to discover why, she was not foolish enough to believe anyone would tell her.
Instead she watched the ghalyan coals being placed atop an iron brazier, while a gnarled-fingered old man packed several water pipes with sweet-smelling mu’assel. Their silk-wrapped hoses were kept carefully coiled beyond the reach of any sparks. A group of young women sat beside the towering ghalyans, giggling amongst themselves as they waited for the coals to catch flame. Their bright-colored shahminas hung loose about their shoulders, shielding their backs from the cool breeze of a desert night as the fire bathed the air before them in bristling heat.
Rahim lumbered from the depths of the Badawi sheikh’s tent, his face crimped into a scowl, Tariq on his heels. Without once breaking his stride, Tariq took up a pitcher of spiced wine and knocked it back. He wiped his mouth with his free hand, then moved toward the fire, the pitcher dangling from his fingertips. As always, Tariq wore his every emotion like ill-advised regalia. Sadness. Frustration. Anger. Bitterness. Longing. For the first time, Shahrzad seriously considered fleeing, but instead lifted her chin and met Tariq’s gaze.
Again, he did not falter.
Nor did he look away.
Shahrzad barely noticed when Rahim dropped beside Irsa, stirring up a cloud of sparks and grousing all the while. Though it took a great deal of effort, Shahrzad managed to curb her desire to pull away when Tariq took his place to her right—too close to be mistaken for a friend—his shoulder pressed against hers and a hand resting in the sand behind her . . .
Positioned with a cocky, proprietorial air.
Her body tensed; her eyes tapered to slits. She wanted to rail against him. And shove him away.
Tariq knew better. He knew how much she loathed this kind of behavior.
But she could not mistake the change around her.
The circling wolves—the eyes of judgment that had been upon her—continued their silent appraisal, but their hostility had diminished.
As though Tariq had willed it so.
While Shahrzad resented the insinuation that Tariq Imran al-Ziyad was her saving grace, she could not deny this change.
They listen to him.
Was Tariq the one behind the attack in Rey? Had he dispatched the Fida’i assassins to her bedchamber that night?
He could not have . . . done such a thing.
No. Even though Tariq despised Khalid, his love for her would bar him from resorting to such violence. From putting her at such risk.
From hiring mercenaries and assassins to achieve his goals.
Wouldn’t it?
A flare of doubt formed in Shahrzad’s chest. She banished it with a breath.
Shahrzad had to believe in the boy she’d known and loved for so long.
Beside her, Irsa’s leg continued its nervous twitching. Just when Shahrzad had decided she had to put an end to it—before it drove her mad—Rahim reached for Irsa’s knee.
“You’re shaking your luck away, Irsa al-Khayzuran.” He squeezed her knee still. “And we might need it soon.” His eyes drifted back toward the still-emptying tent. Back to the site of the recent war council and its unspoken meaning.
Rahim’s hand did not leave Irsa’s knee.
Flickering firelight or no, Shahrzad could see the tinge of pink on her sister’s skin.
And the odd slant of Rahim’s lips as he glanced down into the sand.
Dear God. Irsa and . . . Rahim?
Shahrzad snatched the pitcher from Tariq’s hand.
The heat from the fire had warmed the wine. Had heightened the spiciness of the cloves and cinnamon. The bite of the ginger. The rich sweetness of the honey, and the sharp citrus of the cardamom.
It tasted strong and delicious.
Heady and potent.
She swallowed more of it than she should have.
“Shazi.” It wasn’t an admonition. It was a warning.
When she glanced at Tariq, he was staring at her sidelong, his thick eyebrows set low across his forehead.
“Why are you permitted to drink to your heart’s content, yet I am not?” she countered, clearing her throat of the wine’s sting.
Tariq reached for the pitcher. “Because I have nothing to prove.”
“Ass.” She held it just beyond his grasp. “You are not my keeper, no matter how much you may wish it.” Though she’d meant the words as a rejoinder, she regretted them the instant they passed her lips. For she saw Tariq draw back into himself.
“I thank the stars for that,” he said in a hollow tone.
Shahrzad leaned closer, wanting to apologize but uncertain of how best to do so.
Without warning, Tariq snaked his arm around her. His hand shot forward, his long fingers taking hold of the pitcher.
“Let go of it this instant, or I’ll dump its contents on your head and leave you to wallow in honeyed misery,” he whispered in her ear, his amusement as plain as his threat.
Shahrzad froze, his breath tickling her skin.
“Do it and I’ll bite your hand,” she said. “Until you scream like a little boy.”
He laughed—a rich susurrus of air and sound. “I thought you were tired of bloodshed. Perhaps I’ll toss you over my shoulder. In front of everyone.”
Refusing to comply without a fight, she pinched his forearm until he grimaced.
“This isn’t over.” Nevertheless, Shahrzad relinquished the pitcher.
Tariq grinned. “It never is.” He took a celebratory swallow of wine.
Though she’d ceded this battle, a small part of her felt lightened by the exchange. It was the first time in almost a week—indeed, the first time since they’d left Rey—that they’d spoken to each other without the hint of anguish hanging in the air between them.
Without her betrayal in the forefront of their minds.
It also marked the first occasion Shahrzad believed their friendship might survive all that had transpired.
This newfound hope easing the weight on her heart, Shahrzad looked up at the starlit sky above. It was a deep blue, with a crescent moon wrapped in a fleece of passing clouds. The sky seemed to stretch on without end, its horizon curving to meet the sand on either side. Its blinking stars were a study in contrasts, some flashing in merriment, others winking in wicked suggestion.
The stars in Rey were never so bright.
For a moment, Shahrzad was reminded of something her father used to say: “The darker the sky, the brighter the stars.”
Just as she began to drift into thoughtful solitude, a burst of nearby laughter jarred her into awareness.
The young women sitting beside the ghalyans were being entertained by a host of young men with pitchers of spiced wine.
“Despite the old sheikh’s request tonight, it matters not where we set up camp. What matters is that we’re close to laying siege to Rey,” an inebriated young man proclaimed. “And, when we do, I will be the first to piss on the grave of Khalid Ibn al-Rashid!” He lifted his pitcher skyward.
The girls tittered. One stifled a cackle. The other young men joined in the toast, their pitchers raised high and their voices raised even higher.
Their shared joy was like the tip of a cold blade against Shahrzad’s spine.
“That monster doesn’t deserve a grave,” another young man chimed in. “His head belongs on a pike. He’ll be lucky if we offer him a dram of water before we sever it from his body.” A rousing chorus of approval. “After he murdered those innocent young girls, a clean death is too good for him. I say we tear him apart and leave him for the carrion crows. Better still if he continues to draw breath while the crows pick at him.”
At this next cheer, the group of men grew in number, as more were drawn to the clamor like bees to nectar.
The blood roared through Shahrzad’s body. The tiny hairs on her skin stood straight up.
Khalid.
With nothing but their drunken threats, these foolish boys had managed to burn brutal images onto her mind. Brutal images that would not soon be forgotten.
Her strong, proud king. Her beautiful, broken monster.
The boy she loved beyond words—
Torn to pieces.
She would never let them near Khalid.
She would say whatever lie needed to be said, exist beneath hate-filled waters forever . . .
Until she drowned in their enmity, if need be.
It was not fear that drove her to such reckless thoughts.
It was fury.
I will destroy the next one who dares to speak. The next one to utter his name.
She could feel Tariq’s eyes on her. Like the eyes of the wolves about the fire.
He pulled her close. Tried to shield her. Not simply out of concern.
But out of pity.
She knew it the instant she felt his hand in her hair, smoothing it from her face, silently assuring her of—
“Let’s ask the White Falcon!” The first young man turned to Tariq. “The supposed leader of our host.” The men around him did not even bother to hide their amusement at the slight. “How would you like to see the monster meet his end?”
Tariq stiffened at the taunt, then relaxed. He tilted his head back, affecting a look of ease. His fingers ran through Shahrzad’s dark waves, in full view of those around them.
Please show me you are not driven solely by hatred, Tariq.
Show me there is honor behind your actions.
That I can still reach you.
“I am not necessarily in agreement,” Tariq began in a solicitous tone that managed to quiet the restless din around them. “For I do think Khalid Ibn al-Rashid deserves a dram of water.”
Shahrzad’s pulse slowed in time with her breath as Tariq held up a hand against a slew of protests.
“And his body deserves a proper burial . . .” Again, he silenced the crowd with a gesture.
“After I put his head on a pike for all the world to see.”
The sound of the cheering was lost in the bitter rage echoing through Shahrzad’s ears. The strangled screams of a wrecked heart.
As the men continued carrying on with their pitchers and their puffs on the ghalyans around them, Tariq handed Shahrzad his spiced wine, his expression bleak. Vaguely apologetic.
Yet determined.
Shahrzad drank, staring into the fire—
Watching it burn her newfound hope to ash.
“I don’t need your help.” Shahrzad pushed Tariq away, then proceeded to lurch to one side.
“A likely story, you awful girl.” He threaded his arms across his chest, watching Shahrzad sway through the Badawi camp on unsteady feet, in the opposite direction of her tent.
Tariq was honestly surprised she was able to remain upright at all. Even hours later, he still felt impeded by the effects of the wine, and he’d never known Shahrzad to drink spirits of any kind before.
By all rights, Tariq knew he should fall down laughing at his current predicament. The irony. Shackled to the one person he hoped to avoid. This was not at all how he’d wished to end the night. He’d hoped the wine would dull his frustrations. With Shahrzad and his uncle’s continued evasions. With the soldiers’ veiled taunts as to his irrelevance. It was becoming clearer every day that he was nothing beyond a name. After all, when had his uncle given him anything more than nominal power?
Tariq felt uneasy around these men who were willing to destroy what remained of Rey without question. Willing to shed innocent blood for their cause.
Blood Tariq was not ready to spill.
When Shahrzad pitched to one side again, Tariq shot forward and caught her, though the sudden motion nearly launched him into the sand. Fighting for balance, he reached for a nearby pole, its waning torchlight glowing thinly around them.
“I told you, I don’t need your help!” she slurred, though she gripped at his qamis in an attempt to stand straight.
Her delicate hands were against his chest. She smelled of spiced wine and springtime. Her hair was a tangle of invitation. Everything about her was utterly beguiling. Enchanting in that way only she could be—a girl who wielded her wiles without intent.
A girl who, despite his wiser inclinations, ensnared him still.
When she peered up at Tariq with a question on her perfect lips, it was all he could do not to answer it with a kiss.
“Was it you?” she whispered.
“What?” Tariq said, shaken from his trance.
Shahrzad grasped tightly the linen near his throat. “Did you send the Fida’is?”
“What are you talking about?”
“You wouldn’t do that, would you? No matter how much you hated him? You wouldn’t do that to me.” She clenched the fabric even tighter, a plaintive note in her voice.
He blinked, trying to clear his mind of the wine’s lasting haze. “Shazi—”
“You have too much honor for that.” She shook her head while looking away, as though she were speaking to herself. “I could never love a boy without honor.”
“Yet you love him.” Tariq’s rancor could not be missed.
Nor could he miss the opportunity to strike out at her.
Shahrzad’s eyes focused on his. For a moment, he saw the heat of anger shine through the muddle of colors. “Khalid has honor, Tariq. If you’d only—”
“I don’t want to hear you make excuses for him.” Tariq shoved off the pole, determined to return Shahrzad to her tent and be done with this night, once and for all.
She stumbled after him. “If you would just listen—”
A group of soldiers rounded the corner, stalking into the light. Judging by their comportment, Tariq guessed they were intoxicated, but they didn’t seem to be glad of it. They seemed to be looking for something, their shoulders caged, their fists at their sides.
The type of drunks on the hunt for a fight.
Tariq pulled Shahrzad back against the pole, concealing her in what appeared to be a lovers’ embrace. He made certain to stand just beyond the weak circle of radiance cast by the torchlight. When Shahrzad raised a halfhearted protest, Tariq muffled her words against his chest.
Better the soldiers not see her.
Better these men on a hunt for a fight not find their match in the young Calipha of Khorasan.
For it was unlikely Shahrzad would be gracious with them, either.
Her body slackened against his as they waited for the soldiers to pass. The desire for battle was slowly leaving her as the wine continued to exert its influence. When she rested against him and he saw her eyes flutter closed, Tariq took a deep breath.
The ache of loss for something not yet gone was sharp. Sharper than anything he’d ever felt before.
“You need to sleep,” he murmured.
“Mmm.”
Tariq exhaled, mentally cursing himself. “I’ll take you to your tent.”
Her head slumped forward in a nod. “Check their arms.”
“What?”
“Look for the scarab,” she said. “Don’t trust the scarab.”
“I won’t.” He rolled his eyes, glancing over his shoulder to make certain the soldiers were out of sight. Then he lifted Shahrzad from the sand, nearly thrown off-kilter by her weight, slight though it was. The wine did him no favors. Staving off its effects, Tariq staggered toward her tent.
Her arms circled around his neck. “I’m very sorry, you know.”
Tariq could hardly hear her. “For what?” Again, he almost laughed at the absurdity of her apology. Now, of all times.
“That you have to see me. And do this. It isn’t your pl—” Her eyes flew open, the crown of her head almost smacking him in the jaw. “Where is Irsa?”
“With Rahim.”
Irritation marred her brow. “I shall beat him to death’s doorstep. Make no mistake.”
“What?”
“That gangly imbecile,” she mumbled, her cheek falling against his chest. “I won’t stand for it. I’ll send the Rajput after him. He’ll chase him down with his fiery talwar . . .”
With a shake of his head, Tariq pushed through the opening of Shahrzad’s tent, nearly dropping her in the process. He left the tent flap wide, allowing the moonlight to brighten the relentless dark of the space.
True to form, Irsa al-Khayzuran’s bedroll was neatly bundled and stacked to one side. Shazi had not bothered to put hers away; it remained in the center of the small tent, her blanket askew, her pillow bunched in a fitful heap.
With barely concealed amusement, Tariq placed Shazi on her bedroll, not even bothering to drag her blanket across her body. She stirred when he tried to lift her pillow.
“Don’t.” She put a hand on his arm, her eyes slivering open.
“Or what?” he whispered, his lips twitching. “Empty threats do not move me, Shazi-jan.”
She wrinkled her nose, then curled into a ball, pressing a palm to her forehead.
Again, he tried to lift her pillow and place it beneath her head. After a time, he realized the futility of such efforts and decided the best course of action was to let her sleep off her stupor.
As Tariq moved to stand, he noticed a piece of parchment that had fallen from the folds of Shahrzad’s clothing. Most likely jarred loose when he nearly dropped her.
He lifted it into the moonlight.
It was creased in the manner of something that had been folded and unfolded numerous times.
Something with contents that mattered a great deal to someone.
He glanced down at Shahrzad’s sleeping form. Wavered for the span of a breath.
Then unfolded the parchment.
Shazi,
I prefer the color blue to any other. The scent of lilacs in your hair is a source of constant torment. I despise figs. Lastly, I will never forget, all the days of my life, the memories of last night—
For nothing, not the sun, not the rain, not even the brightest star in the darkest sky, could begin to compare to the wonder of you.
Khalid
With great care, Tariq refolded the letter along its creases, his fingers longing to crush it in his fists.
To tear it asunder. To burn it into nonexistence.
He knew Shahrzad loved the boy-king. He’d known it since Rey.
And he’d known the boy-king cared about Shahrzad.
But he had not known the boy-king truly loved her. Despite what the captain of the guard had said the night of the storm, Tariq had not wanted to believe the murdering madman capable of loving anything or anyone. At least not in a way Tariq could ever understand.
This?
Tariq understood.
Completely.
In a rather short letter, the Caliph of Khorasan had managed to put to words exactly how Tariq had always felt about the only girl he’d ever loved. Had always felt but never managed to say with quite such simple eloquence.
These were not the words of a madman.
For the first time, Tariq saw what Shahrzad saw when she looked at Khalid Ibn al-Rashid.
He saw a boy. Who loved a girl. More than anything in the world.
And he hated him all the more for it.